Disturbing Jared From Subway Story, Casey Anthony Trial, Deep Dive Into Cults - Megyn's "True Crime" Mega-Episode

the least. Hey everyone, I'm Megan Kelly.

“Welcome to today's Sunday mega episode bringing you some of our true crime show highlights”

from the archives. Today we have a deep dive on this one's so disturbing, charred from subway. If you have not heard this, you've got to listen to this. Even if you have heard it, listen again. It is a truly disturbing first hand account, okay?

From someone who knew him well was undercover working with the FBI, the depths of this guy's depravity are deeply alarming. You'll hear it in a minute. Also, I'll look back at the wild Casey Anthony case from both sides in a very interesting interview with her lawyer that is one of the few that is sort of seared in my memory and

you'll see why, and also a look at cults, like you've never seen before, I mean, who

doesn't like a good cult story, enjoy and we will see you on Monday. Today we bring you the case of convicted sex offender and pedophile, Jared Vogel.

“You may remember this guy as Jared from subway, subway sandwiches.”

Jared was a popular spokesman for subway for 15 years, while the world watched Jared talk about his weight loss and his favorite sandwiches on TV. One woman for Shell Herman was working tirelessly behind the scenes to put Jared behind bars. She knew something the rest of us did not, and this is the story of how she learned it and worked

to expose him. For Shell joins us today to walk us through the Jared Vogel case and to share how she helped take down the now disgraced subway spokesman. For Shell Herman, so good, good, good to have you here. Thank you so much for being on.

You're very welcome, I appreciate the invitation. Thank you. Oh, I'm so odd by what you did. Your whole role in this, I've watched the whole series and you are a heroine and just an incredibly courageous, ballsy person, the number of things you did to advance the case against this

guy. It's a long list and at extraordinary peril to yourself, your family, all right, so we're going to go through it. And I knew this story was in news, but I didn't know anything about you were Shell prior to seeing this.

So I'm grateful for this investigation, discovery, production, and to get to know you. All right, so let's start at the beginning, you're down there in Florida, you're minding your own business, you're building your radio show, you're doing well. And that job as a journalist, as a public person brought you within the orbit of Jared Vogel, the subway guy, for what reason?

How? He was working with the American Heart Association for talking with children, motivating

them because of childhood obesity, so he was a guest on my show because I always gave time

to, you know, organizations such as the American Heart Association. So you met him and on that first meeting, did he, what did he seem like? The first time that I met him, he was about 20 minutes late, but he seemed very, he was very nice. He was very low-key, very pleasant, and he wanted to help children.

That was the whole process for the interview. I think we like to tell ourselves we would be able to tell if we were in the presence of a child predator, just to make ourselves feel better.

“You know, as moms, as humans, and that's why it is important that before you started”

to spend more time with him, he seemed, quote, "normal" to you. We can't tell, like, just ask anybody who's in the Catholic Church, you can't tell. Yeah, that's a very important point that you're not making as you can't tell, and that's why I awarded it the way that I did because he was very nice, very cordial, polite, and he was really focused on wanting to help children with childhood obesity.

So you can't tell who a predator is. Most people have no idea when they're setting right in front of him. Although, I mean, in so many instances, they create a job or a situation around them that brings children into their orbit. I mean, it's such a push pull because they do that.

And yet, we all know so many great educators and coaches who are wonderful, who had never

want to scoop up into that perverted sick thing.

But it's no accident, right? That it's probably no accident that Jared created this charity having to do with children. No, it's no accident all, and when we're talking about across the country, if they're thinking it's about 80% or more where the predator is known, whether it's family related, but they do happen to know their familiar with the child.

They are whether their friends or, as you mentioned earlier, educators, they could be clergy. I've received a number of messages from people around the world that have been victims. They have fallen victim to being, you know, having sexual abuse as a child through these individuals and they run the whole planet of who you think would be safe.

“I should say up front, the FBI does not want you to be doing this interview, is that true?”

Yes, but let me please let me clarify, on the FBI, I was approached recently and they asked me to fall back, and the reason why is for my own safety, it's not because I have brought a voice to what is happening and I'm giving my voice to help anyone who has been subjected whether it's Jared's victims or otherwise to childhood sexual abuse, trafficking, whatever. And they don't want me to put my life at risk.

And apparently I have anger to certain demographic, there's a number of people I have received. Some key emails, messages from individuals, not very many, I would say maybe 2%, very angry with what I did, and they're in defense of Jared. Oh, my gosh, yes, it's really set in my opinion. All right, so we'll get to why and all of that.

“But it's absurd, thank you for, again, putting yourself at risk and coming on to tell”

the story. It is important. It's not just about Jared, though we do need to watch him too, because he's getting at a prison in the not too distant future, but there are sadly many, many, many, Jared's out there.

And Rachelle's become a bit of an expert and how to spot them and how to keep kids safe. So there's a lot baked into your story. All right, so that was a meeting number one, rather unremarkable.

And then tell us about the second time you met him.

Well, it was actually shortly after that. I had met him, because we were scheduled to do radio first, I did radio and TV as a show host, and we did the radio interview first, and then I met him at a local, a local middle school in Sarasota, and it was then that he said something to me. When we were alone, in the auditorium, we were setting up for the influx of the children

to come in, and they were all very excited to meet him. And so we were setting up, and my cameraman was across the way, preparing the cameras, and our mics were hot. Jared didn't know that, and he had leaned over to me. He was very flirtatious, and very friendly, and was just into general chatting with me.

And I asked him if he was excited about meeting the kids, and then he leaned over. And he said, just above a whisper, how hot he thought, middle school girls were. This is so bizarre.

This happened at the beginning of your second meeting, like he's seeing the same day.

And so it's so confusing, right, that he would write off the top, say something. Do you think it's because he didn't realize how inappropriate that sounded to someone who's normal? I can only speculate why he said that to me, but he was very interested in me, and maybe he wanted to say something to me, to see whether I would be on board or don't waste his

time. But what happens is I shut down inside, when someone says something, that inappropriate.

“I have a blank expression, and I think that is my reaction to situations of this nature”

or similar, is that I don't lash out. I'm internalizing everything, and I was thinking to myself, did I really just hear what he said was that accurate, and I looked across, I glanced to my camera, and his mouth hit

Now most of us, I got to be honest, would have said, so Jared's a freak, my God, what the

“hell's up with Jared from subway, and moved on.”

I mean, that's truly what most people would have done. Like he's a freak, but like there's no evidence that he's more than just a weird freak who thinks about these things, not you. This is what makes you, the people who make a difference on this earth are the people who just go the extra mile, who don't just move on.

And so while you were thrown, you were, you know, you said you sort of internalize, you started to come up with a plan. Well, I did, and if, if I may, what I did, I thought anybody would do, and I was told down the line by one of the agents that I was working with, they told me, for hell, what you have done in the initial steps and everything that I did, most people would not do.

“And I was really perplexed by that, I was like, what do you mean most people would do that?”

That is the right thing to do, it's a moral and public obligation, and no, apparently most people wouldn't. No, and it's, usually the instinct is, oh my god, get away, right? Like, usually it's like the guys, something's off, let me get out of here, but you went the other way.

You went in and created a relationship with him that would prove very important and is ultimately

one of the reasons why he's behind bars for as long as he is. I want to run a clip from, from the show that sort of takes us a little bit into some of that. It's called Jared from Subway, Catching a Monster, and it's you talking about your decision making about what to do next, So3.

You? I had to play a role with Jared that I was interested in him, personally, romantically. This was in essence a honey trap. I was going to use his flirting with me, interested me to my advantage, absolutely, why would I not?

That was my leverage. So you got close to him, and this was in the midst of YouTube getting closer as, quote, friends, but you were doing it for a reason. I did, and I will tell you, I would lay my life on the line to help protect especially a child, anyone that, you know, is in need.

It's just my natural instinct to dive right in, but for what I had to do and what I was subjected to hearing is nothing in comparison to what these children do for it. It's so disturbing, my producer Natasha caught a bunch of clips from the show, 80% of which were not going to run, it's too dark, it's too disturbing. And we talk about dark things sometimes on the show, too dark, too disturbing.

In the context of the film, it's okay, it works and you need it to be in there. In the context of this interview, it would be too much for people to hear these actually just dark graphic desires of Jared, as spoken to you, I mean, you're the reason we have them, but we'll play a couple enough for so the audience gets a few, but you went through a lot, having to hear that, it's like stumbling upon child pornography, like imagine

if you stumbled upon a magazine of child pornography, just as you're cleaning your house

“and reading the most vile, that's what you were forced to endure in these conversations”

with him. But it was even worse than that, Megan. The fact is, is that he was telling me what he was doing, what he did, the children's reactions, and one thing that was not, this is a number of things that were not revealed, addressed in the Dr. Sarah, there's only three hours out of five years, 24/7, work that I had been able to acquire, so there's

more to it, of course, but there's a difference when what you see in a magazine, and a story that you read, then when somebody is telling you what they're doing and the reaction

and he was, he actually defined how he was grooming the children, which ultimately led

Right, then grooming is all over the news that word these days, and I mean, the fact it was looming large in my own mind is I watched the documentary series because you hear some of it in his exchanges with you, what he wants you to do to help get children in his

mind ready to visit him, of course this would never happen, and you were, of course, working

“with the FBI, but it was illuminating, and I think we could draw some lessons from it,”

but I'm getting ahead of myself because I want to leave the foundation first, so you decide to start befriending him, but as you point out it's more of a honeypot operation, like Laura him and he was obviously attracted to you, and get him to start talking, get him to say more about the hot middle schoolers, but you didn't know whether he would, I mean, it's tough to know whether that was a passing comment, it's just a weird guy, or this

is an actual pedophile, and he's going to actually confess it to me, a public figure, so how confident were you that you could get him to do that? Well, I wasn't very, it wasn't about confidence to be honest with you, it was just about strategy, what to say, how to say it, but really what he was saying to me wasn't what he wanted to do, he described in such detail what he did and the responses from the children,

their reactions, what they would say, how to be able to really wave through and find the right specific child, which was typically from a broken family, possibly have some kind of, you mental health issues, depression, or otherwise that he wanted to meet to pray on. You start just using your dick to phone, Ben and their sister, I was that person too, many years ago, before we had the high phone, I was a lawyer back then, but yeah, you started to tape

him using a dick to phone, and the vast majority of your relationship was over the phone,

“right, like, where was home base for him? You were in Florida and he was where?”

Well, his home is an Indianapolis, so that's his home base, and that but he traveled so much,

I mean, majority of the time he was always on the road, and not just in the United States, he was

abroad in a number of other countries, and he would be on the phone with me, and I would be on the other on the other end of the phone, and I could hear the crowds and the excitement. Oh, you're in the subway guy, the kids' screenmate, he said to me once that he was as popular as Michael Jackson in Australia. You know what's crazy? The doctor series does a good job of showing that he really was. I lived it, I was a human on this earth at the time, everyone knew him, I knew him,

but he was hugely popular, it was beyond your normal, oh, there's that guy from the ad, he became just ubiquitous, he was everywhere, he was subway, he was in every ad, and like,

“was it 300 ads or subway? Yes, I believe so, he was just an everyday ordinary guy, and people”

really supported him because of his quick rise to start him, and for losing weight and you know doing his diet with specific sandwiches from subway, so it was like, you know, for the average person, for anyone really looking at him, he was just like an all-American hero because of how he reached you know, that level of startup. And then the movie points out, he made millions, he became very rich, very famous, well-traveled, beloved with a lot of access to power players, so all this happened

over the course of some 15 years, and I think that's about the span, all based on that one article in his University of Indiana, where he was going to school, and lost 245 pounds in a year by eating two subway sandwiches a day, and they did an article on him, subway heard about it, made him their spokesperson, and boom, off to the races. So you're in the midst of this

phone relationship with him, and he is starting to say and criminating things. So the first time,

this was something that was unclear to me from watching the series. He made a comment about the middle schoolers, then you're on the phone with him, and you can hear that last clip I played, how it's getting kind of sexy between the two of you. And then, and you were clearly in some

how hard was it to extract the admissions that you would ultimately get from him in that

phone relationship? It was interesting because it was a phone relationship, because I was never

allowed during the time that I enlisted with the FBI to meet with him in person, although I wanted to, because I felt as though that the case could move much more swiftly, and I could gain, you know, deeper information or hands on, if you will, and he, it was to me baffling that somebody would entrust another person with a phone conversation as a relationship and share in detail

“everything that he did. When I think about it, I don't think perhaps he was lonely, didn't have”

because he was so busy with the schedule of subway. He really didn't have time to make friends, and he was, he had his friends, but not being all over the world, anyone that he could trust like that. So perhaps it was just something that a necessity for him. So maybe easier than you expected

at first. Now, wait, before you brought in the FBI, I love how you're, you're moving the pieces,

but before that, you did have one meeting with him, and it was scary, right? Can you tell us about that? Yes, he said he was coming into Palm Beach, and he was going to be there for a couple of days, he had to do some walk with subway, and asked if I would come up. And, you know, here I am, based out of Sarasota, and I really wanted to get this information. So I did, I agreed to, and he told me where he was, and that's when I took the drive, and I went there, and he opened

the door, welcomed me in. Hi, how are you doing? And then almost immediately, he became very

flirtatious and hands-on, and I kept pushing him aside, and just trying to continue with a conversation,

because I had my dictum in my handbag, and it was recording. So I wanted to get as much information as quickly as possible, because I was very uncomfortable being there. And it wound up in you fleeing,

“right? Like he, he left the room, and you fled, which must have been very, you must have been very”

scared to just kind of jeopardize your operation by just piecing out. I, I was, I will tell you, I, I replay that time over and over in my head, and I was so grateful when he did excuse himself, from the room for a few minutes, because that was my opportunity, other than that, I don't know how I would have gotten away, because I don't, I'm not sure if he would have let me. And you think back now, think of all he had to lose. What if he had found your dictum phone?

What if your person spilled? Well, that was definitely top of mind, but I will say, I race to my car as soon as he, as soon as that door shut, I quite quickly and very quietly excited, and race to my vehicle, and then the entire drive home, which is about three hours, I was crying, I was so upset, because of what I just put myself at risk of, but I still needed more information. I was very disappointed that I didn't get any time concrete. It was inautical,

but there had to be another way, and I knew that he was interested enough that another opportunity would arise. You just told me you had to have fun call from your kids, and you had to get out of there, when he called to say, "Hey, where'd you go?" So one of the things that's interesting to me, just from a human perspective and watching your story, is you talk about how you cried on the way home, and there's another point in which you admit you threw up after one phone call, and just

you're very open about how this was actually really, really difficult on you emotionally, and I have to say, for sure, I like that. It's almost a more interesting story, because you are very vulnerable in that way. You're not this tough as nails, like I was going to nail, I mean, I got him, and it was, you know, screw him. You were very fragile at times in this thing,

“but you kept at it. That is such a hopeful story, I think, to everyone out there, and even if you”

are a cryer, even if you're emotional, even if it's really hard, if you keep at it, whatever it may be, you could accomplish something hugely important. You certainly can. Now, I would like to point out, Megan, if you don't mind that, this really tore me apart. It was

heard. I do not want, in my mind, to share with other people, and that's why it took me quite

a while before I came out, to even share, you know, a portion of what had transpired, but after the documentary series was aired, it would make me stronger. It did, but it was a rule in two years, piecing this together. After the airing, I can't go into detail too much, but there was an attack on family number of mine, and that is what made me very strong. I'm different. Now, then I was, you know, before that happened, and that's only been a couple of months,

but it just put everything into perspective for me, in the sense that, you know, you're,

“you have to stand up and do what is right, because it's not something that anybody should stand”

down. It's something that I believe everyone, you can make a serious difference if you make an effort to stand up and do what's right. Hmm, that's crazy. I didn't realize there was a contingent of Jared defenders out there. How is this even remotely controversial for what you did or what he's been exposed for? I don't know. There, there was a couple that I read. They felt as though my recording him was a legal, which actually there was a grayer. So, and the FBI knew that,

because that's what I shared with them. It's public broadcasting, entity he knew that I was a known talk show host. He called into the same telephone number, the same studio line. He knew it was the studio number. There was no expectation of privacy. I didn't realize that. Wait, these are, these phone calls are on your studio line. The initial ones before I agreed to work with the FBI before I presented the case to the FBI. I recorded everything

within the studio. He's a lunatic. I mean, talk about risky. Okay, so you get these tapes and he does start saying very inappropriate and incriminating things. And you go to the FBI and I mean, as soon as they hear what you have, they've got four agents in the room with you. I'm sure

the, at first, they were like, some lady from Sarasota's era, she's like, but then it becomes very

real very fast. And you become a confidential informant for the FBI. You start working with them. You start, what was it wearing wires or how would you work with the FBI on it? Oh, I had calls. Yes, 24/7. I had, there is protocol for when you make an outgoing call, if I would call him,

“and when you receive and from, you know, be getting to end different things. You need to say just for”

legalities and also once I have those tapes. Once I have that recording, I needed to bring them and do a drop immediately for the integrity of the information. It's like something out of a movie. You're going to like the dark parking lot doing the quick drive by, you know, hand off. And they say, that's for your own safety. So nobody, if you were watching you, you know, he wouldn't see anything. Well, that's exactly right. That's why they do it in, you know, the darker corners. They'll do it

at, you know, under night, you know, in alleyways. And they do it where they pull up alongside me.

And it's always the dark, you know, the blocks of bourbons, very dark tin. You do the hand off.

It, it was really, very surreal, very creepy. I wanted to have further conversation with the agents when I made drops at certain times, but they did, they could not, they did not do that. And I found out later, wrong, the reason why was because they, they did not want to chance anyone seeing this transpire because it would put me at risk. See, as a CI, CI's you're given aliases

“and numbers. And that's what you're referred to. Not your real name, but I came out when Jared was”

arrested and I shared because the public has a right to now. And that is exactly why I'm here today. And there's further information that I'd like to share. And I have a lot of things, you know, that I'm going to, that I am pursuing. Because I think that I can make a big difference. But with the help of others, you know, out there, you know, mostly the victims. Because without their stories, you know, they can really share some insight that we don't have

which was it's one thing for the FBI to be saying we found thousands of images of child pornography

on his computer and his hard drive. It is another for us to hear it in his own words, his second

perversions. There's just no getting around that. One thing you can compartmentalize a little bit more easily. Like, oh, God, who knows what it was on there? I guess he's sick dude. But to hear him, again, we won't be playing the most graphic sound by it's here is a different story. You just, you know, and you feel very motivated to keep him behind book bars forever, ideally. But right now that

“we're not on track for that. So you're working with the FBI. How long did that period go on?”

You in the FBI? actively just under five years. So this is a great frustration to us and to you. The audience now is saying five years. What do you mean? He's making these admissions in the docu-series. You hear I'm talking about allegedly going to Thailand and what he did to the little children over there who are being sex trafficked. Why wouldn't they go arrest him? What isn't that enough to get a search warrant to see if he does have child pornography? Like, why? And what was the

FBI saying? Well, one would think. I was very frustrated because I had given them thousands of recordings over the years and they were so compelling. I even made phone calls to the office out of

“Tampa, middle of the night, you know, in trying to check down my handlers, my lead agent to let them know”

that Jared is boarding a plane. He's going, he's, you know, it's going to this city and he told me he's, you know, this one particular incident. There was a little girl who was going to say and he alluded to the fact that the parents knew what he was going to do. So there's more to the story than just that. But that is what he had told me and I had that all on tape and I couldn't understand why it was so difficult that, you know, working together with other law enforcement

agencies to follow them. You know, when he gets off the airplane and just track them to where he's going to track his cell phone, something. And I, I still, I don't understand all the inner workings. They have their reasons, but I found that to be very frustrating because I didn't know what else to do. We're going to play two sound bites here of your discussions with him and this is where it took

up just a particularly dark turn for, for poor you because you're a mom and you had two young kids

“who were I think nine and ten. I mean, it was a period of years. So they were aging, but they were”

around there and Jared knew that and he started to turn the discussion to your own children, which is something very different than the abstract idea, which is awful enough. So we've got

a bit of that from the piece. We'll play sought for first and this is a viewer warning. This is disturbing

and not appropriate for children. Oh my god, Rachael, that is stomach turning. It really just means you're composing all those years prior. He really did not bring my children into conversation at all. So now his fights were set on my kids. How did you manage through that?

Actually, when that initially happened and he started to zoom in on my kids and asked questions, that's when I spoke with my late agents, Billings, especially Jim Billings. And she, I was going to quit and just walk away and through conversations, they did not have anybody else to get in. They had tried for quite a while through me to try to introduce an agent to take my

place ultimately, but he would never body. He was just very stuck on wanting to talk with me.

You were it for the FBI, for everyone. There's a second sound bite, same vein and same warnings.

The FBI, they just weren't doing it and you ultimately did something extraordinary. Again,

“another extraordinary act. You went to was it the local DA to try to get somebody to do something?”

That there was so much information that I had already shared. I know what he's doing. They know what he's doing. And every minute makes a difference. That's a potential child being violated, being saved, being harmed. And that is something that I wasn't going to stand down any longer.

I went to Sarah's sort of police department and essentially turned in the FBI. Of course,

you can only imagine the looks that I got and they were questioning, what did you just say? What are

“you doing and you're reporting why? I said because I felt as though that they were putting”

the public at risk for not moving quicker in the case. But it was great teamwork and I applaud and commend all of the law enforcement worldwide that really participated in this interval. And because there are so many different countries that were involved. But they wouldn't allow me to leave. I went on my lunch break and I was there for many hours and they had tied in. There was probably about 30 or 40 law enforcement and then all of a sudden the FBI, but agents walk in the door.

“And I felt as though I was almost being caught not to say anything through intimidation. But”

I stood my ground and it took them quite a while before they convinced me not to go public. They did say that I would be impeding an ongoing investigation and there would be repercussions legally

against me and I still didn't care and they saw that. And it finally took one of the detectives

from Sarasota Police Department that pulled me aside and only by what he shared with me did I agree not to go public because having my own airtime, I wanted to lock the door and then broadcast what what I had been doing, what I had discovered and just worn the public myself. And so that's Resort, right. And he told me this detective, he said that what they discovered because they couldn't tell me all of the details and they and I understand that. But they said he said to me what they discovered was that Jared was

but a pee in a pot regardless of how big he was. So well known that he was leading them to even larger individuals, political figures, celebrities and that a case like this typically takes at least 10 years if not longer to get the concrete information. And so it will happen, he will be taken taken down but it's going to take that time in process. But in the meanwhile, when that does happen, he told me that I would see these others fall from grace really and be exposed for what was

really going on. And that leads me to believe Jared played guilty. I was so grateful that the children and even myself didn't have to go to trial and put anybody else at risk of having to go through that whole world deal because that's traumatizing again to these children. So I just wonder, I don't know whatever has been redacted from the reports what he did to steer them in this direction or what was only through their own investigative resources of how they found out. But now we see upstate,

he had fallen shortly thereafter, really, in the grand scheme of things, it was only a few years.

because he liked going to both the retina, he liked going to Palm Beach and spending time there. And, you know, Palm Beach is where Epstein lived and that's where his playground was for the

“most part aside from his army, of course. But so I think there's a lot more to it and I think a lot”

more is going to come out. Wow, I haven't considered the Epstein connection because I was going to say there was no domino cascade of celebrities and public figures falling for this kind of thing after Jared. Epstein would be a big one that if there were if there were a connection there that would be a very significant one, but how long in advance of Jared's arrest did that conversation with you happened where they said all that and urged you not to go on your show.

How about three or four years maybe? Could have been long. Wow. But, but I have been working with them, I think for about three years and that's when I went to Sarasota Police to turn the men to hopefully, you know, ramp up the operation and put new, you know, maybe some new eyes on the case. And so it was with a few years after after that because I had a couple more years in and you know, that was that that's just how all that transpired. So you are you're going through this,

there's it's very difficult for you. Now are you a single mom? I couldn't tell whether you

had a divorce or yes. Okay. Yeah, we were we were separated obviously first and then ultimately

divorce. So I was a single mom raising my children, but we had 50 50 custody and it's interesting. My my ex-husband, my children's father, I was retired police department from Sarasota and aside from our differences that anyone would have going through a divorce and being divorcees, most people don't get along right away. That takes years to develop. But he removed that aspect of our personal life and he was all hands in, all hands on deck, helping me, watch the children,

taking them last minute doing whatever he could to provide me the time and the understanding because I would be able to talk to him during these times of the rest because I told him what I was doing.

I would never do that without telling their bad because he had a right to know and it was

“important that he did know. But I have to give him a lot of credit because he did what I think is”

very difficult for most people. This to put your differences aside and move forward because he knew what I was doing was very important and risky. Your son, Thomas, is featured in the Dockyseries and appears very proud of what you did. We pulled just one sound by but there are a few that we could have chosen from, it's Sade. I'm very proud of my mother. She did do something heroic and she was selfless because she lost a lot in the process. Your daughter does not appear and there's

speculation in the wake of this Dockyseries that the two of you are estranged, perhaps because of these phone calls perhaps she held them against you or something else against you. What's the truth on that? The truth on that is she was not, she's a very private person.

“She was all for us doing the Dockyseries. She thinks it's important. But first she doesn't”

like all the attention. She doesn't like that. She's very private and tries to keep to yourself. But as far as being estranged from her, of course, there was a certain period of time that she was upset with me. She was angry with certain situations because of what she

would perhaps read and she thinks that I put them at risk, which I never did and I never would.

I have been able to just share with her exactly through facts, factual information, exactly how everything transpired and she sees that now. What she was most angry with me about was that she lost her mom for all those years. She didn't have the mom connection throughout

tell her why. Still to this day, I think that there's some animosity there because I didn't have to do that with the kids as what she had said when she was younger. She's an adult now, so she thinks

“differently. But her whole idea was you didn't have to do that. You need to spend more time with us.”

And I get that, but I had, it was a lose-loves situation in a sense because I lost my ability to be

the mom that I always wanted to be. Yes, was that time consuming? People out there may be thinking,

well, you just had some phone calls every once in a while, a couple of tape drops, what was so time consuming about it? Well, I was a single mom. I had to make a living. I did my own shows. I booked. I did everything. So it's, you know, that alone, especially even back then, it's really a tubing comb family. So that's of a lot. I did not get compensated during my time with the FBI for all those years and I would have to leave my house, hire, sitters, if my, you know,

if their dad wasn't available. And it was just, it was so time consuming because he would

call during the day, but a lot of the calls would come in the evening. Being around the world,

he'd be in different time zones as well. And they would be relentless. He would call continuously. And I had to go through the taping and then as soon as they were gone, go meet up with an agent and make the drop. And I really was not getting the sleep that I needed. And it was just very draining on me. How many phone calls would you say there were over all those years? How many phone calls would you say you had taped? Oh. Well, if you average it out at the 8 to 10 per day,

from the cash. Seriously, only towards the very end did they become less and less because he kept wanting to see me in person. And they would not allow that. And that was a bit of Maryly with kids

“by that time. What do at the end of the show? Didn't he get married and have children of his own?”

Like at the end? I believe so, but I don't think that I was working with the FBI at that point. Okay. So there was a period where your phone calls ended and then there was a gap and then the arrest.

That's first. Okay. Because the weird, weirdly, the arrest did not happen as a direct

result as I understand it of your tapings, though they would become relevant at trial. He had a guy running his children's foundation who was also a disgusting pervert as it would turn out. And that guy as a name was Russell, what's his, what's his last name? Russell Taylor. Russell Taylor. Russell Taylor. Well, that guy Russell Taylor would be the reason Jared would ultimately get caught because he had, without getting too graphic, but he and his wife were into some

“very disturbing things. And there was an email that got circulated of his wife and some sort of”

very twisted sex act. And the act itself is unlawful. And they got wind of the fact that Russell was emailing it. E-mailing the pictures is not unlawful, but they just decided it's time to investigate Russell and his family's situation. What's going on there. And that led them to Russell's computer, which had all these sexual images of children on it, including his own step daughters who we now know whose images we believe were funneled to Jared focal. And the young women who are

very young moms, at least one of them is a mom herself now, spoke at length in the documentary. They were very put together. I have to say for girls who have been through this guy was taping them in their showers in their beds, their stepfather put cameras all over their home. This sick perverted and then using the tapes to, I don't know if he sold them, he certainly provided them to Jared for people to get off on the images of his own step daughters who had no

idea. He was this way who thought that he loved them. Here's a little bit from Christian and Hannah, the two daughters who spoke out in the documentary. After Russell was arrested, we had two talks of the FBI. I was in a very traumatic frozen state. I couldn't even believe what was happening to me. They sat me down and told me that they were cameras all throughout the house. They were everywhere. Russell, he was watching us. Then the shower, watching us get dressed in

My God. So this leads the police to Jared because they saw Russell had it. Russell had given

“some to Jared and then they went to Jared. They got a search warrant for Jared's computers”

and then they had them. They had all the images. God only knows what was on his computers. By that point, he was definitely married and they had children. It's just terrifying to think that a pedophile can not only molest children, he can make children of his own and God knows what their future would have been. It was a huge deal. We have a video of the raid when the police got to his house and it hit the news like that. That Jared Fogel, the subway guy has been arrested.

His home has been raided. Here's the video back at that time of him coming out of the house. And no one could believe it. No one could believe that this guy would

“been in our living rooms for 15 years as this sweet guy next door was a sick child molester.”

So now the day that that happened, you were no longer working with the FBI. But you are the person who's put all these, what was that like for you? It was very surreal. I thought that I would have received a phone call to prep me and let me know. I knew while I was working on the cover

that was always the plan. If they had decided that this is the time they were going to arrest him.

The plan of action was they were going to send agents to much over in school. The children had to be preped if this day would happen and in the schools. All the teachers and the superintendent, they all needed to be made aware of this over the years and they had switched schools from time to time as they were growing up. And my kids knew that there was something that was happening. My son had revealed to me that they knew that I was working with the FBI.

There was a bad man. I was helping them get. But he said to me, he never knew who this person was. And he was actually saying, he and my daughter because they'd have conversations and it was worse that they didn't know who it was because they didn't trust anyone. They didn't know

“honestly could it be someone that they know a friend, a family member, somebody at school.”

I didn't know all these years that that was what they were subjected to. So that really that is difficult. You know, really stomach churning to me to hear what they had to go through. Because everyone's the gentleman. Everyone's the boogey man when you don't know. But of course, you weren't at the British share any of that. So he had two children at the time. He was arrested. They were three and five a boy in a girl and his wife left him immediately. She had no idea

that was pretty clear from her public statements. She was very angry at him. And devastated, devastated. I cannot imagine finding out this person who you love and are building a family with is a monster. I mean, a true monster. It's just poor woman who must have had to go through years of therapy and make sure her children were okay. So at the trial, well, there wasn't a trial, but he got arrested. And he winds up pleading guilty. But then we get to the sentencing. And the judge,

though the judge did not give Jared the time you or I would have liked, which could have been up to 50 years, the judge did saddle him with more than the prosecution even recommended. And my understanding of the show is that that was in part due to your tapes and hearing the years of his admissions on them. Yes, that's exactly what I had been told. And that really gave me a gratifying feeling that those were not wasted years. It was very disappointing when I separated

because I wasn't able to get an agent. And he just wouldn't, he wouldn't buy, no matter what I said. And believe me, we put forth great effort trying to get somebody else to take my place because

it did ultimately take a toll on me, but I was willing to move forward, but it just, you know,

I couldn't move forward anymore after he started engaging with my children. Right. And honestly, at that point, I'm sure your faith in the FBI is actually making an arrest

my whole life. It's going to be my children's whole life. You did your part, right? Definitely did your part.

“So he pops this plea. He's in prison now till 2029. I mean, it's 2023. That's six years away.”

He's still going to be a relatively young man. And now he knows, he knows now about you. He knows it wasn't a friendship that you were taping him. So that's got to be scary for you. It is, in a sense, it is because I've had all these years. He has enough money if he wanted to do something he could have. He's hired someone. You see that all the time. I will share with you my daughter had said to me. And I thought that she was, you know, a little, you know, overreacting,

but she said to me years ago, she was terrified of Jared with his money, either he himself would do this or when he gets out of prison, that she felt as though he would rape and murder her or

“brother. And I said, no, why so why would you think that? And she said, well, you essentially took his”

children away from him. Why would he not do the same to you? And so I posed that to the agent that I was working with. And the response really took me back. She said, she's not far off. And that was the end of it. My still to the state, still very disturbing. But it legitimized my daughter's feelings that she wasn't, she wasn't far off. So there's a lot of twists and turns that people don't realize that, you know, that are still in the shadows that we deal with every day.

Forgive me for this question, but I should just ask you for the record. You never did provide

any images or access to your children to Jared. Oh, oh, no, no, not at all. And when I said, moments ago about his mind leaving, you know, because I couldn't take his engagement with my children, that is through referencing his mentioning of my children, because I never brought them up. And I never gave any accurate names of their friends. I made up every name I ever used referring to a child because one day I knew he would be in court. And in hindsight, that those names being

in line with a child that I was referencing, but really didn't have anything to do. They would have been subjected to going on the stand being interviewed to make sure everything, you know, was okay that they weren't involved. So I made everything up from the names to everything so that that would never take place. He's 45 now. I guess I'll get out at age 51. That's still a relatively young man. You don't grow out of pedophilia. It's a, it's a,

it's a lifelong affliction. This is why so many people, how does he get out? Like, how do we keep him in? How do we make sure he doesn't hurt more children? And when he, like, what reason do we have

“to believe he's not going to just pick back up where he left off when he gets out?”

First, he, he has no remorse. He never did. And any of his comments, any of the articles that you

read, anyone that he speaks to, he's only remorseful because he got caught. And he's saying, oh, I made a big mistake. Big mistake. He never talks about what he did this wrong. He never talked about how sorry he feels for his victims. Never. Every, every single person from statistically speaking, that, that commits a sexual crime, that in their lifetime, they end up committing a 179 own average sexual crimes. And I think he's well over that quota. But when he gets out,

he will have a lifetime of supervision until what someone's something falls through the cracks. I don't know. So my, he should be chemically castrated. There should be a mandatory liberal orchestration. Yeah. Absolutely. Well, I'll become a lobbyist and be right there to, you know, try to help move that along because I do believe that somebody, especially like him,

needs that. If the FBI would release some of these recordings that you have never heard,

you've not heard, you, that would undoubtedly be right there on the documentary to go through. There's worse than it's in, than is in the documentary series? Oh, yes. Yes. You have to understand.

You know, initially, I was just giving them everything. And then I, the reason why I have those

recordings was for my own protection because I didn't want anything he used against me and be thrown in as though, you know, collateral damage because they couldn't make a case and then all of a sudden, even though I didn't do anything, you know, use these tapes again, you know, against me for any reason. I, there was nothing that indicated they would do that, but I'm one of the things ahead. So I had made copies of those tapes for myself. And I had every link right to do so. They just didn't

know that I made those copies. Oh, smart. So there's, okay, I didn't realize that. And that

was also probably played for the judge the most, the most graphic pieces of evidence.

“Possibly. Yes. We don't know. Yes. No, we don't know. And I think there's a lot that's”

redacted. I think, you know, these higher ups, these individuals in society, you know, as I said earlier, political to, probably with celebrities who knows around the world, that also were friendly with Jared or that would talk maybe online and share ideas and, and children, even because at one point, and this is just before I turned everything over to the FBI, Jared wanted me to meet him in Chicago. He wanted to, as he said, get a couple of kids. And he talked about underground clubs.

He knew where to go. And that's when I was asking him, well, how would we get these kids? Where? When we find them, oh, we'll, you know, we'll figure it out. So I knew just the way he was saying it and and leaning towards the key, done this before. He knows what he's doing. The FBI had told me that a pedophile has different fetishes that he will. So they're A, B, and C. Jared is truly

an anomaly, something they've never seen before. He is the entire alphabet. So that is what prompted

them in their review and rewriting of how to profile pedavils.

“Can, do you know whether I know on the phone that recordings we heard in the film?”

He's saying he went to Thailand and he's pretty explicit about what he allegedly did over there. But then the docu-series also says that as far as we know, they couldn't find any evidence that he actually did go to Thailand. Well, that struck me as odd because that you just look at his passport to find out whether he went to Thailand. That's that's noble. So do we know whether that was true and do we know whether there were actual children victims? I mean, as a, of course,

the victims in the photos were victims. But I mean, you know, that he laid hands on children, actual children. Is, is there evidence that I do not know? I know what he told me. I know for detail,

“you cannot make that up. I mean, there's too many, my new details, reactions,”

conversations he's had, even with this one particular boy, his parents, that this is what they do. This is how they make a living. They don't have a problem with it. Talking about the child, they want to do this. He would tell you. They want to. And there is proof that even to Thailand, because there are other production companies that are doing documentaries, or they were, because I was scouted by a number of the movie years, and they had called upon me because of my,

my work. And there are cases he went to Thailand. He went to Asia, different areas around the world, and he would go with the founder of Subway. He would go with some of the vendors from Subway, as a group. So whether they were conducting business or was a pleasure trip that I do not know. But there is actual evidence and proof that they did go. I don't know if that's been altered, or what, or these documents, these documentaries will come out here in short order. But they've

been working on it for the past two or three years. You mentioned Subway. We haven't even really touched on that piece of it. It's miraculous to me that this brand withstood this controversy, that the face of the brand turned out to be a serial pedophile. There's no other kind. And they're fine. They did fine. There was a question

documentary series touches on it a bit. His wife seemed to think that Subway had been given a heads-up on at least one complaint about inappropriate behavior towards children. Subway denied that. But what do we know about Subway's knowledge of any? I know for a fact, Subway knows. I wrote them in email during one of my breaks. If you will, I had an emotional break one night. I remember being curled up on the couch and crying because of what I had just heard. And I said it. That's enough.

I wrote an email to Subway. I went on the corporate website. And once you hit Submit, it's you don't get a coffee because it wasn't through your own email fee. So I sent it to them. And I told them that Jared was a sex offender. That he had made comments about my children and that I know that he's doing these things. I forget verbatim exactly what I said. I do have notes. I mean,

one of my journals that I could reference. But for a long time, Subway said, "Oh, we never received

that." Well, forensic investigations revealed otherwise from by a third party. And then finally, Subway stood up. I thought we did find that email. But it didn't say anything

“about sexual nature. Well, why would I write Subway otherwise to tell them I like their sandwiches?”

I don't think so. So they did, and that was written in one of the articles. I do a copy of that, but I'm sure that it can be found it easily online. If you look, but it's very interesting. I've had some people approach me through messenger or whatnot. And a couple of individuals that was

maybe three or four, they thought I did this for the money. Well, I never got paid for my time.

Well, minus. And somebody, one person had, oh, you did this. I bet you already are writing your book to make all this money. Well, that's a very small-minded person in my opinion, because if I wanted to make money, and that was the way I was going to do it, something so, you know, I don't even have a word to put to that. But why not go to Subway and ask tell them, you know what, I have the information, and I'm willing to settle out. Or that's a good point. That's a good point.

I'm about to destroy your brand. It is absolutely in there. Jared, Jared, that was a rich man. You could have gone to him. Yes, of course. And that's very clear.

“If you watch the arc of this story, I mean, you're not. But you should write a book because”

people need to know. I mean, this is a fascinating story. And there's a lot to be learned. And that that leads me to my next point. We mentioned at the beginning, the grooming behavior. So he would say, you know, you were sort of pretending that you were fine with his predilections, and, you know, how could you be of assistance to him with it? And you were trying to learn about his methods. And you did learn. So the part of the grooming, as I understood it from the film,

was he wanted you to make sure, like, you in grooming kids for him, you talked about inappropriate sexual things in front of them. So can you talk a little bit about that? Sure. Well, first,

he was always wanting to make sure I dressed accordingly, which I never did. I let him know.

He wanted to know what kind of alien suits I have. Do I have a really tiny bikini? And to

“prance around around the children when they, when they're over and to pick out who I think would”

be best. And they're siblings. So my, my children's friends, and there's their siblings, the younger, the better. And Jared initially, his statement to me was, um, how hot he thought middle school girls were. At the end, it went from there all the way to infants to prepubesum. And you have on tape the same, the younger, the better. We hear their bad ears. So I go ahead, tickling and wrestling and gradually getting closer to the private parts. And then

doing like a daring to, so it turned it into a game. He used his popularity, his, um, you know, himself being famous because there was such an award and the children were so strong. They get to meet someone famous. And I saw a little bit of a time. But he, he, he says in one of the clips about, um, the, the one from the broken home, he was always, he had it figured out. And what he didn't, he would go with it and keep it as something that he just studied children on out to get

single dads who are raising kids by themselves now have to worry about their kids being singled out

for targeting by a pedophile because they're from a quote broken home because they may have an extra sadness in their lives that some sick twisted effort will take advantage. I mean, that's these are the realities that we have to wrestle with. And as exposed by your reporting and this story. But the inappropriate sex talk at a young age, it is relevant, Rachelle. I mean, you know, we're debating this right now on a national level about these books that are coming into the K through 12 education

“system and some say, oh, they're banning books. You know, and I think the truth is they're not banning”

their polling books out of children's school libraries that are not age appropriate. And this is

people defending that action of pulling the books. We'll say, they're groomers, the people who want this in front of the children. And I see the point in appropriate sex talk before in front of children isn't just improper. It can actually lead to very dangerous things in that child's future. Oh, without a doubt. I mean, that's just any, any, you know, based level psychologists counselor will tell you that. I mean, a lot of us don't have a degree in mental health, but a lot of it is

common sense. And that has been removed too many times over. It's, it's interesting when you see

what they do allowing. And but they are taking, taking some measures to remove this. But

is it too far, you know, too, too little to late? I don't know. Now, if you look statistically speaking, over the years, homeschooling has grown directly as a personal choice. There's a number of reasons that people have made this choice. But from my understanding, a lot of it because it has to do with, you know, you see not just men, but women also violating children. Your educators, clergy, root leaders, politicians, even law enforcement. I know that there's just a small amount,

but small is not enough. And that's where we need to get. Right. So these moms are like, I'm not putting my kid in the school and my kid's not joining the Boy Scouts. And isn't going to be an ultra boy. I mean, I can relate to some of that to some extent. It's just, you're so, especially when they're really little. And they can't really

“focalize and they could be taken advantage of you have to be so careful. So like, do we know about”

Jared, how he got this way, Rochelle? Has anybody been able to interview him or, you know, did you ever ask him like, was he molested? I did ask him. He said, no, he was not. But I think there's a lot of people, if they were, I don't think they're just going to come on to say that, even if he was comfortable with me that if he was, perhaps that just hit too close to home, I can understand that. But I think personally that it's just, within his, his genetic

makeup, I think that there's a default in how he's wired. I think that's just, whether it's an illness, I kind of think that it is. I would hope that it is in the sense that, you know, hopefully we can find a fix for later at some point. But he doesn't even acknowledge that there's a problem. And you ask me, you said about anyone interviewing him. In the stocky series, I gave the producers and directors the idea. I said, well, why don't we close the stocky series with a face off between

Jared and I at the facility that he's in because I would like some closure. I would like to say a few things to him. But he, they did send the request and he, you know, he declined. But that is something that I would have been interested in doing because, you know, there's nothing easier than gauging somebody by their body language. Do you, does he have any ongoing relationship

“with his parents? Do you know what that situation is? I don't, I don't know. I think I believe”

his mom was a teacher, his father's a doctor, probably retired now. But from all information that has been dispersed out there is he had a very good upbringing. You know,

Jared has done what he's done. But I have heard, and this is second hand. So there, but people

“that went to school with Jared, college for example, he, he would, I was told that he would sell”

pornography to make some extra money. And he made quite a bit. I don't know, because he made that. So they also talk about how he was morbidly obese from a young age that he had no friends in high school. You know, there's a reason he got famous for losing 245 pounds. He had it to lose and then some had enough left over. It's like 245 pounds. What's left? A large man. So he was very, very large. And I do think there's, when you're, that kind of an eater from a young age, there's an issue.

There's an issue there. I don't know what went on in that family. But you know, you see your kid is

what 354 pounds and has absolutely no friends. That's, that's not a good parent. That is not a

“good set of parents. Something was wrong in that house. All right. So a couple of questions for you”

as now we're thinking about his release. Do we know there's any chances getting out earlier than 2029? No, he cannot. He's not allowed to get out earlier. According to the stipulations, the judge checks that down. Is there any chance he could face other charges? You know, I know I've seen you reaching out saying, if you are a victim of Jared Vogels reach out to me,

because there may be children who have been molested by him who haven't yet come forward.

Absolutely. In my mind and from my experience, that is an actual fact. There are adults now, perhaps they're just trying to, you know, keep it in the shadows. And the recesses of their mind, that is not healthy. You will not be all you can be and you won't have a truly fulfilling

“life unless you address what it happened. And the fact is, is that it did happen. And if you come out,”

and you step forward, you know, I could be and give you my strength, my voice, to help to be able to disseminate and set this into the areas. I know the FBI has a great place that you can go on. Their website and report things. But if anyone is hearing this and they are a victim of Jared Vogels, please, I really, I really must insist that you please step forward and share what happened because it can make a difference. It can keep him behind bars where he needs to be because the day

he is released is the day society is going to be in great danger. And I truly believe that. Me too. So what are you doing now? Are you still doing radio and journalism? It seems like some of your work is shifted to advocacy and behalf of kids now and writing books to help me alarm for families. Yes. I had stepped away. The FBI had asked me or told me two years ago, I had to leave my business and eliminate all my original contact information so that

because Jared had that same contact information. So all of that had to go away. When Jared was arrested, because they actually was before, when before Jared was arrested, when I ended my work with the FBI. So everything had to end. And so I went off into a different arena for for a while and then I had fallen ill for quite a while. I was bedridden for about three years. But what? Yes. Yes. I slipped out at a job that I was doing as a team leader for

Calabolians in Sarasota. And I had slipped rough my ankle and I came down with RSD, which is now it's reflexive synthetic dystrophy. It's aka the suicide disease, the world's most painful chronic condition. I've learned to disseminate the pain and and that's another book that I'm working on actually. I'm how to teach people how to do what I've done. Because I still have it to the stay. But what I am now doing and I am going to start doing podcasts and get back

on on trust your radio again because MTV, possible. That's really where I did my best work and where I would like to be. Since the stocky series under contract, so it's one year from

three at three books pertaining to Child That Book Safer for Child Sexual Abuse that goes from

“it goes one about the story. In the mind of a monster and that's going to be all these other”

areas that I haven't been able to share because there's just none of that time. So I'm going to be that's all in that book and you know all the behind the scenes and you know everything that happened during this my time with the FBI. But then the other another book that I'm writing is for children. And it's going to be of it is actually because I'm about halfway through. But it's about it's a workbook on how to strategically position themselves to be their own superhero.

And you know, with between knowing the signs of a predator and what good play and bad play is, I actually am going to be putting it on my site just the outline of where I'm at and exactly what is happening with my writing. So that because I'm still in the process, so I would love feedback from the public. So I will share some of that so that it can be written into the best possible workbook out there that I'm hoping at some point not just for personal use, but the cannabals also be implemented

in in school criteria as well. And then another one is for caregivers and parents to know the warning signs because when someone is being abused, whether it's the elderly or their manipulated or child, they're very silent. You don't recognize what's really going on in most cases. A lot of times you do, you just see something that's off. But it's like asking the right questions looking for certain markers. Are they uncomfortable when this particular person is approached

today? Do they fight? When you say, "Oh, you get to stay over there house tonight." There's a lot

“that I think that can be very helpful. And there's a lot of elderly that are not only”

abused by personal caregivers in their home, but in facilities as well, trust it in the ways that you know, the people are putting hidden cameras in the room because they sent something as well. Well, this is all great work. I mean, this clearly is your life's work. This is going to make a difference in people's lives. I do have to ask you, you know, now with him and Jail, with the story out there, any regrets, like if you had it to do over again, would you?

Oh, I absolutely, without a doubt that there's other cases that I'm working on, as a matter of fact, they're not child sexual abuse cases. They're very diverse in nature. But there are other cases that have presented themselves to me. I'm all in. And, you know,

law enforcement has always been, you know, open arms with me. And I, and so happy that I am received

that way because when I came out after Jared was initially arrested, I felt as though, wow, you know, a whistleblower that, you know, they're going to want to keep me at arms length. They're going to think less of me. And years past, I have come to find out because they told me themselves absolutely not that they greatly respect the work that I did. And, you know, and I still continue my work today. Hmm. I'm so glad to hear that. I'm so glad to meet you.

Rochelle, thank you for telling your story and for all that you've done. Oh, I appreciate you. Megan very much. I want to thank you and all your listeners for the opportunity to be here today.

“Thank you very much. All the best to you and your family. Thank you. Isn't she amazing?”

This is story. Oh my God.

Can I take you back now to July 15th, 2008 when Cindy Anthony of Florida first reported her

granddaughter Kaylee missing. A fact she only learned one month after the child had disappeared. Cindy had no idea that her grandchild was missing because that child, she believed, had been with its mother, Casey Anthony. Casey Anthony had been claiming that she and her little girl were on a trip together. When grandma called, she just kept telling grandma that little Kaylee couldn't talk. But then a faithful event took place. You see the car, that Cindy, that's the grandma,

had lent her daughter, Casey, wound up in an impound lot. Cindy and her husband George,

with little Kaylee. They didn't understand why she'd be separated from the car. But they went to the lot. They examined the automobile and suddenly their minds were flooded with questions. A few phone calls later and they realized Casey had been lying to them. She had not been on a

“vacation somewhere. She had been staying with some boyfriend. But where was Casey's child?”

Their granddaughter, Kaylee. The answer to that would take another five months and would end in a dark and gruesome discovery. Two-year-old Kaylee was dead by homicide and Casey had known that she'd been dead for weeks. My guest today to discuss this case, our Cheney Mason and Beth Caras. Cheney is an attorney who served as co-castle on the Casey Anthony defense team and who wrote the book Justice in America, how the prosecutors and the media conspire against the accused and Beth

is a former prosecutor and journalist who covered this trial from 2008 to 2011 for true TV. Welcome Cheney and Beth. So good to have you both here. Thank you. No, no, God. So first let me tell you this, Beth, I'm so happy to see you because I remember being a young

“reporter at Fox News and following you and following your coverage on the court TV. Now,”

true TV, whatever. And I just always admired you and thought you were such a straight shooter and

really smart of the law. So it's fun to have you on. Thank you for being here. Well, thank you very much. Thank you for that introduction. Of course. In Cheney, you're the man. You and Jose are the ones who tried this case and managed to get this acquittal which shocked the nation and I'd love to get into all of that because let's take an honest look at, you know, what's real and what's not. We just went through this with, for example, Amanda Knox and compared what was real in her case to the

way the media covered. And there was a very wide delta, right? So I understand your point, Cheney, that you can't just go by media reports. So we'll get into all of it. Okay. So let's start at the beginning.

“We're at the point where Cindy, I mean, it's confusing for the audience that doesn't know the”

case for them back where but Cindy's the grandma, Casey's the daughter and Kaylee is the little two-year-old granddaughter. Cindy Anthony is the matriarch and she's letting her daughter who was only 22 the time is all went down, live with her. She's got it. She's an unwed mom. She's single mom. She's got a little Kaylee with her. And they tell her, Casey tells her that she's going off on vacation. She's going to go a couple towns going to take the daughter at the granddaughter. Okay, fine.

Then we talk about how she discovers that wasn't true. She goes to the car

impound lot and she winds up calling the the 911 operator. At first, what she really thinks this

might be about is maybe maybe there was a stolen car and then she realizes that it's worse than that that something smells wrong with that car and she doesn't know where the granddaughter is either. Here's sound by one. My daughter finally admitted that it's a baby to the store. I need to find her. Your daughter admitted that the baby is there and you said it took her months together that my daughter's been looking for her. I told you my daughter was missing for a month. I just found her

today that I can't find my granddaughter. She just admitted to me. She's been trying to find her herself. And I'll start with you on this path. So that's we are off to the races because now what we learned on that day is that you've got a young mother who hasn't who by her own admission hasn't seen her child in a month, who who tells investigators she decided to handle it herself and was only caught because the mother was called that impound lot. Go from there. Right. So I know when we

we look back in hindsight, we know what the defense explanation for that was at that time. But when we were looking at this unfolding in real time, people who were following it and I started following it with court TV from the very beginning, it looked really suspicious. Like why is she

looking for this child herself? Why isn't she calling the authorities? She ultimately tells the

police she didn't trust them. She wanted to look for her daughter herself. But we learned that what she's doing in this 30-day period from June 16th to July 15th was, I mean, what's documented, photos of her and other memorializations and text messages, whatever, don't seem to be consistently looking for her daughter. She's partying. She got a tattoo. She's in a hot body contest and it's like really is this woman grieving her daughter. She had a panic. She's looking for this toddler

gets charged with child neglect. You know, like failure. Well, Cheney will have to tell us the

exact crimes. But it was like failure to report her child. It was like neglect charges. Nothing to do with homicide. That would be down the road. But that seemed to be right because it didn't make sense what she was saying. And she's lying to the police. She's sending them in all these tangents that we're going nowhere because Cheney knew the truth and she wasn't telling the police the truth. Let me ask you this, Cheney.

One of the questions and we'll get into it with the audience what your defense was and how that went. But at this point in the case, under your theory of the case, when Casey's confronted by her mom, Cindy, you know, where's Kaylee? What's the deal with the car? You know, this is July 15th.

“Under your theory, Casey knew at that point that her child was dead. Correct?”

No, and your facts about how the car was found or wrong. The car was found and they parking a lot of a shopping center. George found the car. George drove the car home. Cindy, at some point after that, has made the call. The infamous call is smell like a damn dead body. He was there. Five deputy shares responded to the house to the car on the same day, inspected it, truck opened doors open and every single one of them testified under oath

that they did not smell anything. So that's another one of these examples that made it

made it imaginary as not true. Wait a second, Cheney. Wait a second. George drove the car home from

the pound. It was towed from the lot. It was towed from that parking lot where she left at the end of June, June 26th, I think. And by the time the Anthony's got the paperwork from the pound where it was, it was already July. May not have been the 15th, but it was early July. It was July and then they go to the pound. And that's where George, as you approach the car, he said, he really feared. He smelled something that was very familiar to him because he's a former police officer. He really

feared when the trunk was open. He was going to see something. You don't want to see, but that didn't happen. But the man at the pound said to him, oh, yeah, I know that smell because somebody

“out, there was an abandoned car there. It maybe was a salvageer. I can't remember a pound salvageer.”

But there was an abandoned car that had a dead body in it. He said it was a similar smell. I know that I know what you say is they didn't smell anything. That's true. But there's other evidence of odor closer and time to the car being seen by the Anthony's. Once again, we'll disagree. That's not the fact. The car was found and George said they thrown garbage over the fence to a dumpster. Okay, and that's not what was not the impound lot. And they came and they did not smell anything

other than garbage. Then the car was taken. After they had the car to the home and they had to

steam it from Cindy. The sheriff's apartment took it and they kept it. And it never was returned.

It was kept in the sheriff's apartment for forensic evidence the whole time. Even thereafter, months later, I was in the case. It's not like it's all that important. The bottom line is

“there was an initial claim by Cindy. There's no dispute about that. And the state tried to”

address her statement because she was a nurse and she knew what body smell like. That was ridiculous because nurses don't know what body smell like because they don't keep them in the hospital. Okay, but we're getting hung up. I mean, there's no question Cindy said on that 911 call. She she that it smelled like there'd been a damn dead body in the trunk. We all heard that. I've heard that. I've heard George give interviews where he says the smell like a dead body. He has said that on

camera and the head of the toe, a lot. It was the toe in company. The man's name was Simon Birch. That's the company that impounded Casey's car in June testified that he hadn't encountered multiple vehicles with dead bodies during his three decades in the business and that the smell from Casey's car was consistent with those past experiences. So let's not get too hung up. We don't know whether it was in fact the Kaylee Anthony that created the smell in that car. I understand that

the authorities would argue that. But we don't need to get too hung up on whether people said it because they did say it. The weather or not. That was the smell would be how to be proven at trial. Go ahead. Saying it is one thing. There is no forensic evidence to support that there's any unique order to the decomposition of a human body. So everyone is different. I got it. When they took a look at the trunk, there was not a dead body inside of it. The grandparents opened up the trunk

and there is no dead body. There is, however, large amounts of trash and it's the hot,

getting so concerned? It had been in there before. She had a contact with it. The garbage bag was thrown out of the car over the fence to a public dumpster site. There's no question that Cindy said what she smelled. And that made it a very, very alluring claim about the case. And matter of fact, that's when they had the air sample test and the forensic scientists test applied it. What was

“it was not, it's not really important to the turn of the case in my opinion. Other than it led”

to causing the attention to the case right from the beginning. Exactly as you said. And it could very well be under any theory of the case that Kaylee's body was either not in that trunk at any point or was not in that trunk for long or was there and was removed. I mean,

what we do know is Kaylee was killed. The Kaylee is dead and that ultimately her body would be found

not in that car. But we'll get to that point in the story. But when we learned about Casey Anthony's version of the story was at the opening argument, at the opening statement at trial. And we'll get to all of that. But under her version, under her version of the case, she, George, her dad, killed, well, didn't kill. But it was with little Kaylee when she drowned. Okay, she drowned. So that's not correct. That's not correct. George found her. Okay. There's no evidence that George

was with this child when she drowned. Okay. He found her and brought her in from the pool and confunding Casey. Look at what you did. There's no evidence that he did anything. Right. I know. I'm aware because most of us don't think he did. But when, when did that allegedly happen? Well, I'd have to go back to the specific dates that you probably had. Well, you just told me it hadn't happened at the point. She said, I've been with her for a month,

and I've been out. You said it hadn't happened at that point. So when did it happen? I don't know.

“Well, then why are you telling me that it hadn't happened yet at the point?”

What I'm telling you is, and you said that George was with the child when she died.

There is no evidence that you're just feeding her. I'm going back to my first point. So you don't

know, my point is when she was out dancing and getting the tattoos and the Bella Vida and doing all the crazy stuff for that 30 day period. Did she or did she not know that her child was dead? In my opinion, she did not know. In my opinion, that child had been found and had been disposed of and some capacity long before she was ever brought into any kind of inquiries of whatever. Casey, this is where, and you justifiably, and so many other people believe. Casey,

you would think would have known immediately about her daughter. I don't think she did.

Our experts didn't think she did, and the jury didn't either. The bottom line is that Casey went into

what I have previously characterized as Casey wore. She was in a total, some sort of state, psychotic state, not acknowledging that child was gone, dead, and just fabricating whatever she had or fabricated about it. And it was clear to me, I can tell you, whoever wants to trial besides the jury, when we had a grief expert testify about how people grieve differently in different circumstances, and she talked about it. During the trial, the last part of the trial, Casey broke down,

I was saying right next to her, that, in my opinion, was the first time that she absolutely clearly accepted and knew that this child was dead. How did, I mean, she realized that her child wasn't

“with her for a month, right? You know, I don't know what she realized. That's what I'm trying to tell you.”

We know from facts and video tapes of witnesses. As you described, she was out a couple of occasions to young people's clubs and doing shopping and going around and just kind of in another world. And so what she actually knew, I guess, none of us ever. Well, I mean, with her mother asked her that day that they were reunited, where is Kaylee, and she said, she's missing, the babies that her took her, and I've been looking for her own own. So she clearly knew that she was missing.

I'm sure she, yes, that she knew something, but it wasn't connecting in her brain. It didn't connect in her brain until we were in trial and the end of the trial. That's the problem with it.

I mean, you can understand it, and then not, and just not believe it, right? I mean, it's of course.

“Secret option number two. Right. I think the normal, most expected reaction from people was,”

if you found your child drowned, you'd call 911, or you'd do something, that's the normal. And reasonably normal expectation of people would be for me, would be for you. But this is such a weird and unique situation than, but are you now saying that she found her, her child drowned? I did not say that at all. Okay. You said if normal expectation would be, if you found your child, and that's not the posit here, the posit is that George, the granddad founder.

If I found a child, and or if you found a child, probably the first reaction like that would be

a call for help. I know, but we're talking about Casey, and then you jumped George's state of mind. And that's, we're talking about Casey's state of mind. I'm not talking about George's state of mind. There's no evidence about his state of mind. Other than the position was George found the child.

“Well, that's Saturday morning. She was drowned. Which Saturday morning? Which Saturday morning?”

I don't remember the date. I mean, are you talking about the beginning of the 30-day period or the end of the day period? At the beginning, at the beginning, death may know the days that you're from, from looking at the June song, what is it? Yeah. So the last, um, the last photos of Casey of Kaylee are on Father's Day, 2008, which I think was June 15th, and then the 60th should have fight with her mother the night before, and then she left the next day. And George saw them walking

away. He remembers what they were wearing. That's Father, Kaylee's grandfather. And so that was a Monday, she's walking away with them. And my understanding is that, that the defense position was that the, that, that the drowning of Kaylee was right around that, like very short time after that. Either the night early morning, that was what we had to photograph for the child being able to go out to the pool by herself and do that. And so all the way to our position, look, I was there.

You weren't there. We don't know who was really there to know this, but you never did. In any

part of your life, the bottom line is that our position has been from the beginning, through the end still is. George found this little child. She was drowned. She was to see she brought her into the house. He confronted Casey because Casey, he was still asleep. She had been out the night before or whatever. The case would be, and told her, look, what you've done. Your mother is going to be really mad at you. And that is it. And she left. And we don't know what happened.

See, this is where there's a big gap. And a jury found a gap as well. The George disposal, buddy, I don't know that. I can't prove he didn't. I wouldn't accuse him of it. Something happened. And both of you know, there's something happened contrary to what the ordinary experience would have been. The ordinary experience would have been, call 911. Ordinary experience would have made the whole thing right down resolved. And for whatever reason it didn't happen. And

all I can tell you is, I doubt that the case will never be solved anymore than it has been.

“That's why you're still interested in it. And people will be and will continue to be for a long,”

long time. I don't know what else to do about that. Well, sure. I mean, this has been, it was a very salacious trial. It would happen at an interesting time in our country's history. And you know, it involves an unthinkable crime that we genuinely just sincerely do not wish to even think about. But when it happens, those, those, you know, responsible must be held to account. In this case, no one ever has been. Beth, I know you want to say something. I'm going to get to you

right after this quick break. Pay a bill and back to our guests in two minutes. Don't go away. Beth, you were, you were itching to get in there at the end. Go for it. Well, yeah, I was wanted to point out. I just looked at my notes. In June 16th, 2008 was a Monday. So Father's Day was the day before. So it was that Monday was the last time George saw her. And it was the defense position that the drowning was that day. I believe it later that day. The other thing, I just wanted to look at the

big picture here because I know we're going to go through the timeline, Megan. But Casey does get charged with murder in October and Casey hasn't been found yet. And then she's found in December. Her remains are found. And within a few months, the prosecution decides to up to Auntie and charge her with capital murder, right, seeking death. So for the next three years, there are all kinds

a jail cell. So for three years to hold trial in 2011, 2008 to 2011, she's locked up. And I don't understand if this was an accidental drowning, maybe there's some sort of negligent theory of some kind of crime that Casey could be charged with, but nothing like capital murder. If the facts are what you say, Cheney, I don't understand why you wouldn't go to the prosecutors. They say, look, this is an accident. We approved this accident. Why let her sit in jail for three

years, or am I being naive? I've never been a defense attorney. But it just seems like you know,

prosecutors are not unreasonably in my experience. We do justice. We do not just seek convictions.

“We want to do the right thing. You shouldn't overcharge if you, you know, you should never overcharge.”

I should put it that way. Well, I know you don't believe at all prosecutors are the same way, because we know better than that. The bottom line in this situation is that this case was going going for a long time before I was brought into it. I was a citizen of central Florida all the time of all the news, media, and the, you know, every night or every day, all the channels said, you know, more about Casey Anthony news. It's six pictures and six, so whatever, like every day for a long

time, I was a citizen like everybody else until Mr. bias asked me to come in. I don't know and you may have a better time off off the when the charge was. I happened to have been an NBC studio on a totally unrelated matter when the people there got all excited because the sheriff got it was there doing something, got a call and he came into the studio and he liked like his, they found a baby with tape all around her head and we believe that's going to be Kaley. And that was the

first time there was any ability to prove that there was a death, so there could not have been any

any criminal charge of homicide against her. They had no proof of death. They had other things and

“I'll remember what they did. No, no, just to jump in and set the record straight, according to my”

my timeline here, it was October, as Beth points out, she was charged with not with murder, but with child neglect and some other small charges first. So that's kind of how they got her into custody. She was declared a person of interest through spending Kaley, but she was not yet charged. That's when she posted her bond and the bounty hunter Leonard Padilla came in and all that happened. And then on October 14th, 2008, she was charged with first degree murder, aggravated child abuse,

aggravated manslaughter for accounts of providing false information to law enforcement and so on. And then it wasn't until December 11th, 2008, two months later, that the skeletal remains of Kaley were found. Two months after she was charged with murder. Yeah. And then they seek death after that, because of that was the change circumstance. We now have a body. We believe tape was around her mouth and nose and that was the change circumstance.

That would just, and we'll get to what the condition in which they found the remains, which is, which was either part of the prosecution's case. But let's just go back to the days the 30-day period that she was not with Kaley and not with her parents and lying to her parents. And out and about, as we all would wind up seeing, I remember seeing it on Greta Van Suston show every night, you know, the pictures of that would be on Earth from her

social media, you know, her dancing, her looking like a great time. She's got that big smile on. And people looked at this in retrospect and said, that is that she must be a associate path. And I remember her daughter's missing. She's not, she's clearly not looking for her. She's having the time of her life. And that was the prosecution's theory that she was she got pregnant in 19. She didn't want this baby. She didn't want to be a mother.

And she wound up either neglecting the child or intentionally getting rid of the child to the point of death. So she takes the police during this time, Cheney, on some wild goose chases,

“that I want you to help me understand if we're going into, why are you shaking your head?”

Yes, she did. Well, you said wild goose chases. Pearl. That's not true. Okay. So did she, did she not, did she or did she not take them to the fake apartment of some

nanny who never existed? There was one the beginning occasion. Yes, she told me where to go.

And did she or did she not take them to universal and pretend to work there when she, in fact, hadn't worked there for two years? Did she or did she? That was, that was the one that's so called Chase, the police knew she didn't work there. They picked her up six o'clock in morning at the Anthony Rances. They drove her to universal. They checked in universal.

about 700 feet down the sidewalk around the corner into an office building. And she was still

carried on going to show them her office. And they took her into the building and got to a small office. And she's turned us. Okay. I don't work here. All right. So I am correct. I am correct. That's

“at least two. Those are wild goose chases. You need to slow your role, sir, because I've got my”

facts. And you and I are not going to do that. This is not that kind of show. Okay, trust me. I've done my homework. So she took them on a couple of wild goose chases. And you tell me why this young mother with no consciousness of guilt whatsoever, because she's in this confused fugue state, not realizing her kids not with her, would do those things. You tell me I don't know why she would do it. She did not know I believe at this time that this child was deceased. She still had her mind this myth

of where the child was. And that's why the police didn't do anything else at that time to a restaurant or charge her with a thing, because they couldn't owe them to prove that child was missing. And they didn't believe her. So why was she making her up that she worked at universal and making up that there was a nanny and taking them to the fake apartment of said nanny? I'm not sure that I know she had worked at universal. She did work up there to a few

months before this occurred. I can't tell you. This is one of the things that we'll never know

as to what went in through her brain to do that. It was so obvious to the law enforcement officers. They knew down well that she did not work at universal. They had already through the night confirmed that. And so what she said she did, that's okay. We'll go along for this little charade.

“And that's what they did. They weren't fooled. They weren't surprised whatsoever.”

And that's when we got into an old issue about whether she was my randomized and not whether statement's going to be used and how the appellate court dealt with that. And reverse two of her misdemeanor convictions. Beth, why don't you tell us about the wild goose chase involving zanny, the nanny, who was the one you heard on that very first day that her mother and she called, well, their mother called the police and put her on with police. She was an unwilling

participant. She was like, why would I want to talk to them? But she gets on and she claims that she left the daughter with the babysitter and you take it from there. Right. So in opening statements, Linda Drainburg does recount almost every single one of those 30 days. There is something, whether it's a text message, an email, a myspace posting, some communication, something, a photo that will document what she was doing during that time.

During those 30 days, she does, she does tell the police that, you know, zanny to Gonzalez, there is really a zanny to Gonzalez. There's really a person by a lot of zanny to Gonzalez. Right. But I mean, there's a person by that name who applied for an apartment for a vacant apartment in that complex. And so there's a, you know, a theory. I don't know if it's ever been proven true that Casey may have seen that application, may have seen that form, you know, I've got the name

from it because this is a woman who did apply to to live there. And not a nanny, not Casey Anthony's nanny working. No, there's no connection between them. There's no connection between them. But like where, Casey was telling her parents that she was going to work. They did believe that there was a nanny, zanny, the nanny, they did believe that. So it's very curious, like where,

“where was this little girl? Like was she, the accompanying Casey and where was Casey going?”

She wasn't working prior to the 30 day period. That's prior, but you've been during the

third day period. Now during the third day period, Casey is saying a couple of things, right?

She's up in Jacksonville or she's in Tampa and then her car broke down and she was in a car wreck or maybe there was a hospital at some point. I can't remember exactly everything she relates, but Cindy, Casey's mother is really getting frustrated because she wants to see her granddaughter. She needs to see proof. The two of them had fought, as I said the day before, you know, fathers day that night they had fought and, you know, there was some talk about, you know,

Cindy's saying, if you know, get better shape as a, you know, take care of this child. You know, I'm, I'm going to file to a doctor. Let me say though that at trial, there was, the only evidence about Casey as a mother was good evidence. Like she was a very don'ting good mother. However, Cindy may have begged a differer only because I think that that Kelly was left with her grandmother a lot. That Casey was, was gone, especially closer in time

to when the child disappeared because Casey had a new boyfriend and it was sort of a new life and he was working out a club and, you know, it was kind of a new life and she may be she wanted her freedom. That was part of the prosecutor. Well, and didn't he testify that she, that he said,

Now, around July 5th or so, she got a Bellabita tattoo, beautiful life tattoo,

“which also is something that the prosecution pointed out. You know, their theory being”

"look, yeah, maybe she knows her daughter's dead" and she's celebrating her daughter's life through this tattoo. She's in a hot body contest. I'd seem to recall around the June 20th, something. The hot body contest is wearing that short blue dress. So, these are the things she's doing that she says. But if I could just jump, I'm actually looking for my daughter. Let's just jump back to the, to Zany the Nanny because what she did, she told the police,

I left her with the Zany the Nanny and then I went to pick her up and she was gone. And I, you know, I've been looking for her. And so, the cops said, "Do you know where Zany

the Nanny lives?" And she says, "Yes." And they said, "Okay, would you take us there?" She took

them to an apartment. They went to an apartment and it was empty. And it hadn't been least for months. There was in a stitch of furniture in there. So, there had been no Zany the Nanny living there. And that apartment and nobody had been living there for months. So, you know, this is not, none of this is consistent with a woman who, in fact, had the experience she was claiming to them. Then, she told them that she'd been working at Universal as I mentioned. And they said, "Okay,

“let's go, I think she said she needed her keys or something for Universal." So, they said, "Okay,”

let's go to Universal and we'll get them." Okay, fine. But she didn't work at Universal. So, she managed to talk her way through the front security guards with the police, with her, they get through, they get in. She gives them all sorts of names. I worked with this guy. I worked with that guy. These are made up names. They would later find her. She's making up names. And then, she got passed a couple more people and said, "Oh, yeah, where's my office?" She gets turned around

and then, as Cheney points out, she was at one point where she got lost. She went down a corridor. There was no way out. She turned around. She gave it up and said, "I don't work here." And yes, they knew. But the point is lies, lies, lies, lies, lies, lies at every turn. And this is what, one of the many reasons, it's not just, I smell the dead body. It's her behavior, her deceit, her throwing the police into the wrong direction time after time. Her total

seeming lack of empathy or concern for her child, who you're telling me, she may or may not have known, was dead or alive at that point. So, all of this goes into our perception on the outside Cheney of Casey Anthony. And so far, I don't see where we're going wrong. I'm opening mine. I'm winding you to walk me through, because I'm much as I need to see it. I'm open-minded to a different story. I'm not saying that your perception is wrong, because I saw it nationwide.

If not worldwide, people believe the same sort of things about her. There's no question about that. There's no question that she did not tell them the truth about a lot of things. The question is, is why and how conscious was she of that? You said something, I would want to correct about going into universal. The universal people have already been informed by the shares. They knew what they were doing. They were waiting for them to come out there and do that.

What I'm always, you'd raised earlier, is another question. I'm never going to say,

is Anita Gonzalez? What do you get a name like that? And then in a half a coincidence that there was a person by that name that had applied for an apartment at this place of all of that. That never made any sense to me at all. Well, there's a whole lot of things that make sense to me of all these things in matter. Why are you even raising that? Are you suggesting still

“to this day that there was a Zaneta Gonzalez who had babysat Kaylee and then what?”

Your then Kaylee went home and drowned in the pool after that? What do you, why are you mentioning it? How's that relevant? I'm not saying it for that reason. I just thought to when you raised the issue about this as Anita Gonzalez, if nothing else is a hell of a coincidence, there is no evidence that she ever had that baby. It actually turns out to be a very common name. My point is we know that's a lie. You don't have to debate me on whether that's a lie. We know

that's a lie. Even according to your side, that's a lie. The child was killed according to you in the swimming pool. She drowned and George found her. I said in the intro, died by homicide because that is what the medical examiner said. But according to you, she died in the swimming pool. So like there was no Zaneta who ran off with little Kaylee, right? Yes, but it's not proper for you to keep saying she was killed. She died by homicide is what the

ME said. On the side band determined it means. What? By getting determined it means, correct. But what I said once again, Cheney was 100% correct. She died by homicide. Check the report.

that would rock the nation for a long time. This is one of those things where people could tell you the names of the attorneys were dying for information about the jury and so on and so forth. We'll pick it up there in a minute. So let's go to the day that they Casey Anthony is in jail

as she's charged with first degree murder, but they haven't yet found a body and then they do.

Beth, can you take us to? Because you know, the weirdly, the man who found the body who was a meter reader would wind up becoming a central figure for a time in this case. There were all these reports about him and it was like, I remember asking myself, why is he anything other

“than the man who found the body? Like how did he become more interesting than that?”

So can you explain that explain how he found little Kaylee's remains? Yes, indeed. I'm pulling a lot of this from memories. So you might have to still in a couple of facts here, but his name is Roy Crohn. Now that day was December 11th, 2008. There was a hearing in the Casey Anthony

Casey that day. In fact, I seem to recall that was the day that Jose Bayes waved speedy trial.

And not unusual, and I'll for for the defense to do that. I mean, in my experience, but we were all in Orlando like the media was at the courthouse because it was yet another hearing. I remember being at a, and I like a little cafe next to the courthouse where all our satellite trucks were, and there was a TV monitor on the wall. And all of a sudden, like a breaking news story comes on, a body found. And we all turn around. We're staring at it. I was with Kerry Sanders

“from NBC. And there's like a decademy may have been found. We all went racing out of that place.”

I couldn't up and leave with our satellite truck. We were parked. There's I had to wait everyone out and you know, and you see, and others are on their way to to the scene as close as they could get to where the, the tenter being set up. And a grid was being created. It would be days of sifting through this, this property, this wooded area quarter mile from where Casey Anthony lived with her parents. And that's where the remains are found. Now, the man who called it in, this

meter reader, you're, you're talking about Roy Cronk claims that he had actually found the body in August or a scholar, something in August. And he called it in for a couple of times in August. And he wasn't being taken seriously. Like a deputy showed up and did a cursory search. This is like a really dense wooded area, which, by the way, had been full, they had been a storm. That summer of 2008, in that area, had been flooded at one point, but it was no longer flooded

by December. And, and Roy Cronk, you know, goes back there, he says to relieve himself, because there was a elementary school just down the street across the street, but down from where the body was found. And so he now has reported, again, having found a skull. And it's now taken more seriously. I'm not quite sure why there wasn't a more thorough search before and might have been because it was flooded. Maybe the deputy was afraid of the snake, so whatever, but she should have

been found a lot earlier than December 11th. So Roy Cronk, it's suspicious. I mean, he does call it in

months earlier and finally, it calls it in again on December 11th. So yeah, that's a little weird.

But there is evidence the body wasn't actually moved. There were scattered remains. I mean, she skeletonized and there's just, she's in pieces. We grudtably. But um, she has been in like the, the, the, the, the lags. The loss of evidence, like the DNA, and so on over that time, it would have been much more useful to have it in hand earlier, for sure. And her remains were spread because of animal activity. And but there was a,

there was a laundry bag, or cloth, laundry bag, or that matched one, because it had been a set of two, that matched another one in the Anthony home. So he came from the home. And I don't think anyone's really, um, disputing that. In fact, you know, the defense facts that they, or they're, they're, they're version that they, they put forth from openings on was that, um, you know, yes, she died at home. It was an accidental drowning, and her body was just posed. So that really refuting that

the bag, you know, belonged to the home. But that was pretty clear. So I mean,

“but there was something else, much, much more important that they found on the body than,”

than the bag, which was the duct tape, get to that. The tape. Yeah. So, so, you know, when Chany described how the, the, um, somebody from the sheriff's department came to the local TV station, it said it was wrapped around the head. I mean, it really wasn't like wrapped around the head, like that. I only saw photos. I didn't see the actual, you know, skull by only saw photos. But the, her hair was in the back, she had long hair. Her hair was in the back of the skull.

rest of the skull, right? Because everything is, is supposed to be supposed. But it wasn't. And the tape was kind of holding, holding it together. It seemed like the tape in the hair was all stuck together there. So it was in the front, you know, there's a lot of slippage, but like, why is there tape there? You know, like, that, that was what really got the, they're like, um, prosecutors was like, yeah, there's no reason to put tape on a skull.

Like, it wasn't there a heart sticker. No. Yeah. I mean, well, there was a criminal list who was looking at the, uh, at the tape and saw the shape, but this heart shape, but then it, like, went away, right? It was like, it was like seen and, but not captured and, and a folder or anything.

“So it was just a testimony is my recollection. And I think that it, it was never, like, I don't”

know, if it was proven. I don't know, somehow it was disposed. It was integrated or something. I can tell you about the, the heart-shaped sticker was found on a piece of trash about 40 feet from

the remains and more closely across the street for the elementary school. There's never

connected to this forensic scene, but other than it was found and talked about. And Beth is right about the, the slippage, you know, and the duct tape was not all around it. The duct tape happened on the top of the bag. And when the deco composition happened in the skin, material, the hair, there was a part of the, uh, hair that had tape not taped on it, but there wasn't any actually on the school. And Dr. Werner spits testified about all that and about the body.

“But one thing that you said was an important thing. I think most of you're pointing out was”

why was Mr. Clark not taking seriously about founding, finding the body. He did. I think Beth, it was three times, if I remember correctly, that he called and reported as, "Hey, you know, I'm out here. I'll found this. It looks like a skull to me." And they just ignored him.

And it was like the second or third time, he's finally sent a deputy. I don't remember his name,

and I don't think it's in my book, but a deputy came out to meet him. Beth, you'll remember this, the deputy slipped on the wet grass and he fell down and he sold his uniform and he was mad about that and that was the end of that investigation. That exact spot, just so you'll know, it was 17 feet and nine inches from the curb of suburban drive. And that's a very short distance to not been found. It had been searched by a horseback. People, as we call it, the

Cassini boys on four-wheel drives, numerous volunteer walkers and searches, and cover that area, and every square inch of it for a long time. I see the point you're making, Cheney, which is like, why wasn't it found if it had been there the whole time? But the reports were all they had, that they had massive flooding during that period that we're talking about that four months, and that there was as much as four feet of water in which the body may have been

immersed for a lengthy period of that time. Well, that was suggested, but that wasn't the testimony, the hydrology expert in the state and from the University of Florida, it came and had tested all around all of that geographical area, and did not find that we don't know. And I'm only 78 years old and I'm still don't know, and I'm not going to know how that body was there. If it was there all that time, there's certain reason to believe that

the body had been moved and brought back there. Can they approve that? No, because in order to be able to approve that, you'd have to have evidence of who did it, and how they did it. Can't do it. All I can say is it's unreasonable to expect that the body was 17 feet and nine inches from the curve of the road, which was a half a mile from the Anthony House. It was searched by hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of people during that whole circus of that and didn't find her.

My recollection was that there was actually like plant material growing up through the skull,

“which indicates it was there the entire time, but it had not been moved. I don't remember that”

that is the case. I remember Dr. Spitz talking about how there was at the base of the skull inside there was some dirt. There may have been some, I don't think there's any going through the skull, but I can be wrong about that, but there was some growth around it. Let me just back up and say this

on behalf of the sheriff's department. They have basically suggested they were overwhelmed with

they had cooks calling, they had legitimate people calling, and this guy says, hey, I work for the

“city. I'm a meter reader. You should be listening to me when I call in. Obviously, it would have”

been much more helpful to have the remains earlier rather than later, but it's just a piece of this

case now, and for better or worse, that's when they did ultimately find her. So they go to trial.

And can we just spend a minute talking about Jose Bayez, because I had not seen him on the national stage. I was pretty young in my reporting and legal, well, older my legal tenure, but young in my journalistic tenure. And my understanding is maybe, Cheney, you can speak to this, but my understanding is when he got on the KCNV case, he wasn't one of the most storied criminal defense attorneys in town, like what, put Jose Bayez in perspective for us then, at the moment, he came on to

represent her. Jose was a young lawyer. I think he had only been a lawyer about five years. It may have been, I think, as accurate he had worked at a public defender's office in South Florida.

“He was up here, and he was working. He was taking cases and going to court, you know, this all”

like young lawyers do routinely. I had never heard of him. He never knew anything about him

until he started calling me for suggestions and strategies and questions and so forth. And that he evolved into finally asking me to get in the case. You know, I've made mistakes before my life, but I agreed to do this, and I thought it was a good one. When I met this young lady, I did believe she was guilty. I've seen her several times since then. He did or did not. They're not. And I know, well enough, there's some extent like that.

She came to my wife funeral a few months ago, and I spent some time talking with her. My attitude is not changed about her. My explanations are never going to satisfy you.

And millions of other people, when I got it, I can look at it.

Well, no, listen, I have my beliefs having covered it and having, you know, had some experiences

“that journalists in a lawyer, but I'm, I'm giving you an open mind to convince me. That's why we're”

doing these stories. So you have somebody who's probably more open-minded than most of the people you're going to get in the journalist chair, and I appreciate you doing this. We're going to pick it up on the opposite side of this break. Much, much, much more with Cheney Mason and Beth Karrist, don't go away. The trial. So you, you get brought in by Jose Bias Cheney. And you, you actually were very well-known. You were former president of Florida Association of Criminal Lawyers, had been selected by Florida

Monthly Magazine as one of Florida's top lawyers. And you, I read, were disgusted by the local media coverage about the relatively inexperienced Jose Bias, saying that you had been offended by it. It was one of the reasons why you wanted to get involved. Why? What was wrong? Well, I detailed that, by the way, in my book, because the Orlando Sentinel newspaper had published a story in Exvisay on Jose's personal life, being behind in

all of the only payments or something and criticized him. I thought was very unfair. I didn't want me with just a young lawyer, and I'm a senior lawyer, and I felt like it just said he wasn't fair. So I said, wait a minute. Let me respond to this, because at that point in time, the prosecutor being a list, as the lead prosecutor was Jeffrey Ashton, and reality and lead prosecutor was in a dream. But Mr. Ashton, they were talking about how he was, you know, Mr. Good guy and

all these sort of things. Well, I pointed out to them that he had been personally criticized in several appellant court opinions, reversing convictions, because of his misconduct professionally. And Beth will tell you that I totally, of course, don't mention the names of the lawyers when they reverse misprie-rear that they'll actually identify the person they say did wrong. So I wanted to press you and treat this kid fairly. That's all.

It's one of my people, you know, treating fate and going to trial. Well, I mean, what's so extraordinary about it is he wasn't that well known. It wasn't like you know, Robert Shapiro or, you know, whatever, Alan Dershowitz, it was like, who is his Jose Bias representing this defendant on the biggest case in the country at the time? And as we now would, well, and as we all now know that he managed to secure an acquittal, which the left-of-the-nation

flat jaw, I mean, speaking of Robert Shapiro, that was the other case that was probably

get over it, couldn't accept it, couldn't believe it. Beth, can you? I'll give you this one

“because I want to, then I want to get, um, Cheney to sort of put some meat on the bones.”

But take us to the moment of Jose's opening statement because that's the, that was the moment. I mean, that was the moment I would say the case was one for him lost for the prosecution that

they never seemed to recover their footing. Right. Um, it's my understanding the prosecution got

worried about maybe six weeks before the opening statement about what their position was going to be, maybe not quite that much time. But, um, that it was going to be an accidental drowning. Jose Bias, the whole defense team, played their cards very close to the veil. So any people did not know where they were going. You know, this was a case that where there weren't many surprises because the law is so liberal and open about documents being made available to the public, right?

It's the Sunshine State. So, so we knew, we, the media, we all had like 25,000 pages of discovery. There weren't, there weren't going to be any surprises from the prosecution's team because we knew what the investigation was. So the surprise came from the defense when Jose said she wasn't murdered that she drowned. That it was an accident and George found her. And then, and people were like, what? Like, where is this coming from? And that's when I was like,

there's no way he's going with this. Like, she's been sitting in jail for three years. There's no way he would have, you know, he's going to go with an accident defense. But, um, you know, what do I know? Um, and I have to say, you know, Jose could not have tried this case along because I don't think

“the law allows it in any state, you know, in a capital case, you have to have two lawyers, but also”

he wasn't, he wasn't credentialed enough for any five years, three, five years as a lawyer. You have to practice longer. Um, in some states to handle a capital case, but you can tack onto your

team, some more experienced people, which is why Cheney was critical. I credit Cheney with the

acquittal and his summation, but I'm getting ahead of myself. Um, but when when, um, Jose said in the opening that it was an accidental drowning, and then he started talking about Casey being sexually abused by her father. Now, wait, because the audience at home was like, wait, what? Right? Like, they took away what? That was, it was, it was a huge turn. Our audience at home just had the same turn we all had at the time, which is a, wait, what? But, and that's, no, that's the what the

prosecution got word of in advance a few weeks in advance. And I, I think that they were considering, you know, you know, you know, was, it's too late for them to file any charges against George, probably probably it was, but, um, if this, you know, were the truth. Um, but yeah, so we hear that George has been sexually abusing Casey since she was a little girl, and that, I mean, he said this in opening, and he said, like, she would be a little girl, and she would have his penis in her

mouth, and then she'd get on the school bus. And, and, and that she learned how to live a life of life. She learned how to be a really good liar because of that. Okay, so he's like, opened this whole can of worms. And I remember speaking to him when he was speaking to me, that night saying, wow, you're putting Casey on the stand, you know, because how are you going to get this stuff in? Because, you know, George was the first witness right after openings, and he

denied it. And he's like, well, no, not necessarily. I'll put it on to this psychiatrist. I said,

yeah, no, you won't. You got to put Casey on. So anyway, um, I never reported any of that, but that

was a discussion I have of them because Basin is opening statement. I was sure that Casey is going to testify. We've seen defense attorneys say certain things and openings, and then not follow through because they have a right to do, you know, not to call their client, and you can't comment on it, you know, as a prosecutor at the end because a defendant has a right to remain silent.

“And that's what happened here. He made us think that Casey was going to testify, and then”

maybe, Shane talked him out of it or something, but she didn't testify in the end. And that proof of sexual abuse was never put before the jury sexual abuse by George. He denied it on the stand and the judge said, you cannot sum up on that because you didn't put on proof of it, even though you rang the bell and opening statements and as they say, you can't really unring the bell. And that taint was there on the prosecution case on George Anthony throughout the trial. I don't

I suspect yours in like him because they had just heard Jose's opening and then George gets on the stand. Did the prosecution, did the prosecution move for a mistrial after that? I mean, I realize normally it's the defense that does that, but the prosecution can do it today. I don't recall that now. Okay. And at that point, they're still thinking maybe you're going to put Casey on this stand and she's going to bring it together. I don't know, and they're still thinking they're

going to win. I mean, they're thinking like most of us are thinking it's a slam dunk case and they're going to win. They don't want to mistrial. They're fine with this one. Oh, winds have something. I mean, there are a lot of counts and there were lessons. I mean, maybe not capital murder,

Well, Casey. And for them to put this stuff on, I mean, Casey's got to testify. How else are

they going to get it in? Yeah. And there was no. So just to be clear, a lawyer's opening statement is not, and a lawyer's closing argument. They're not evidence. That's not, that's just sort of a directional offering for the jury. It's not considered evidence. So technically, the jury shouldn't have been thinking about that when they went back into the deliberation room. But, you know, the seed had been planted as Beth says it's hard to un-ring that bell. Now, I know, Cheney, that you, you wrote,

“I think a story in your book about telling George, I got to give you a heads up. We saw some,”

because there were some letters. I think Casey wrote to like some guards and jail, accusing him.

And he later said George gave an interview saying he claimed it was Jose Bias who said,

"I'm going to throw you under the bus." So did you guys, what's your recollection of the, what you said to George about, it's common? I told George, in my office, with the permission of his lawyer. And in a few minutes later, also Cindy gave him notice that what was going to happen, that George is going to be accused of sexually molesting his daughter. I wanted to see his reaction. I can tell you that if someone accused me of molesting my daughters

or all my granddaughters, there would be a real issue. It would be me bonding out of jail for having gone across the desk and kicked her ass. But so I felt that he'd tell all George did, but just look and sigh, put his hands on his laps, and no other, on his legs, and no other response. I thought there was a peculiar response for a father having been accused in some situation like this, by a lawyer of, you know, kind of officially, you know, this is what's going to happen.

Let's you know this, and I did. I thought it was the ethical thing to do, and I did. I don't know, one impact, the whole thing had or didn't have, I will tell you that when Jose Bias, the old names statement the way he did, I was surprised. I guess I was pretty good

“to keep in my old face calm, but I was surprised as many people, because I think the same”

analysis that both you and Beth have, you make that kind of accusation. You've got to prove it somewhere, and this is a really bad situation for defense lawyer, or either side to make promises to a jury that they cannot deliver on, jurors remember it. And while you can say that opening statements and closing statements are not evidence, that's all book Bias, because the jurors listen to it. They do a lot of things are not supposed to do, and they do it for every trial.

Hello. Yeah, sorry. I was just adding, and the lawyers have authority. They have a relationship with the lawyers. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Well, and the point is that we give in, if we really want to have your jury very simple, reliable, every juror would be sequestered in every case, and they wouldn't have any access to any of the information except what was in the courtroom. Well, we can't do that. I mean, I've tried a long, a lot whole bunch of cases, but probably no more than a half, it does

and not a 350 plus of that were sequestered. So they had to have sequester them, right from the moment of the crime all the way through to the beginning of the trial. That's when they take in all the spin.

You're never going to get that not already. So we do the best we can with trying to

give instructions. And I mean, if you went back to the selection of the jury in this case, it was an interesting process, the 600 people we interviewed and there was a lot of a lot of bias and prejudice and all kind of stuff that we had to weed out to get a jury at all. So yeah, I don't know if there's a perfect system. I don't know how to do it. So let me ask you this, because I've talked a lot of the lawyers in OJ and other cases, but

“the OJ case, I watched a lot of it was going down while I was in law school. And I think OJ”

Simpson murdered Nicole Brown Simpson and her friend Ronald Goldman. But I can see how that jury reached its verdict. Separated apart from a nullification issue, I can see how they could have honorably honestly found that the prosecution did not prove it beyond a reasonable doubt. I don't agree, but I can see it. What do you think it was, Cheney, about this case, that had the same effect on this jury, right? Like, what do you think your best

Well, I don't know. I can say there was a major difference.

“1991, the OJ case, there was no internet Facebook on all this social media, was there?”

It's just starting out. Yeah, I had to get to KC Anthony and it was dominating the news, basically all day of every day for a very long time. And so people were focused on it. I've been asked so many times why this case is supposed to others. This was because there was a young, cute mother with an absolutely adorable little baby victim. And they were white. And all the improper things to say, and I do, I'm telling that I know

from my 51 years of trying cases that had major impact on this case, if it probably had been a young African American mother in child, it may have been in the newspaper that made not

have been, it never would have been, but this case is. I also think it's a class matters. I think that

it's a family of means or a family that you can see sort of has its act together overall. People are more interested. If you see a family that's got a lot of criminals in it, white or

“black or any other race, it's like, oh, it's unfortunate, but okay, I think we all know what happened here.”

This one seemed to be a nice family. The dad was a former sheriff's deputy, the granddad, I guess. It seemed to be a loving set of parents to Casey. She, she looked like an all-American girl in terms of like smiley and bubbly and, you know, hadn't been a career criminal anyway. So it was like, okay, there's a real mystery here because the daughter's missing, right? It was like, we all need to pull together to find the daughter. So it had a lot of elements that would attract news coverage.

You know, and I understand the whole missing white woman syndrome arguments. And it's not they're not totally wrong, but I do think class plays a lot into it as well. And these people, they weren't lower socioeconomic class. They were sort of middle class and not it all the kind of family that you normally see enveloped in this sort of a deep crime. I want to talk to you about that moment, right? Because we all watched it. It was like the OJ Simpson, you know, we the people

“find that in the case of orange oil, all in the fall, Jason, and she stumbled on it. I can remember”

where I was. This one I actually was in the newsroom, but the the moment this happened and they read it. I'll just take the top of this is sound by number four. It's kind of long. I'll cut it off

after the first one. Let's check it. Let's take a look back at that moment. As to the charge of

first degree murder, verdict as to count one, we the jury find it offended not guilty. So say we all dated at Orlando Orange County Florida on this fifth day of July 2011 signed for person. As to the charge of aggravated child abuse, then they go ahead and you can see the relief, you know, flood over her face, obviously, as anybody would be. What was going through your mind at that moment, Jenny? Were you, were you shocked? No, I really wasn't. And because I have some secrets about

looking at jurors when they come in a courtroom. Now, there's so many hundreds of times that there are certain things they do or do that are pretty revealing to some old coups like me. What did you do? Well, they look at the defendant. They won't look at the defendant if they're guilty. One or two of them might. They come in and do that. You can say, I certainly wasn't confident about it. When the before the jury verdict was read,

remember it's handed to the clerk who handed to the judge and the judge read it. And I'm reading his face and it was very clear that he wasn't real happy about this verdict. He spoke out about it later. He was on Dr. Oz saying he definitely thinks he's guilty. Well, he said a lot of things he probably shouldn't have. But like he said with the defense lawyers like Carcels, there was something on the way to hell. He got that. But the

bottom line is that the court, you didn't play all of it. Of course, you can. But the first thing

when she first started reading it, she stuttered over the not guilty part of it. Oh, my lord. Briefly, but you don't, you're so intense there. I mean, look, I'm not sure of the statistics.

something in excess of 350 criminal jury trials in state and federal court. That's a lot.

Unfortunately, I've done pretty well. The bottom line was that I was not shocked at the verdict.

But I sure wasn't talking about expecting it to be that way. When they first, first, I kept thinking, well, maybe one of the others, maybe one of the others. And then, you know, three boom. And then, of course, the four counts of lying to the police who cares. They made that at that point for misdemeanors. And she'd already served three years jail. Yeah. So that was done. And the jury came with verdict quickly for them. It was an easy decision.

“Though they are now speaking out. That's why I want to pick it up after this break.”

What the jurors are saying. It's fascinating to me. And also what she is up to now, leave you with this thought. It's very bad to stumble on the word not when reading a not guilty verdict. Indeed. But that clerk is in good company. I'm thinking about Chief Justice John Roberts when he messed up the oath for Barack Obama. I remember they had to do it again privately behind the scenes. It happens to the best of us. Okay. Stand by much more of the Cheney Mason and Beth Keras coming up

two minutes away. So I guess I should ask you, too, Beth. For your best take on what was the evidence you felt like the jury either ignored, refused to see, didn't get to hear that the rest of us did because the vast majority of America is convinced that she did it, right? And does not agree with this verdict. Right. So, you know, we asked jurors to use the common sense, right? And really, I understand where the prosecution was coming from because it sure looks like Kasey

is responsible for something. She should not have been acquitted of everything, even neglect. I mean, I think one of the charges was neglect or a lesser. So that was surprising to me. So I think the jurors simply ignored this mother who didn't report her daughter missing. You know, there's something in there besides those four misdemeanor lying to police officers. I think there was a lower-level felony she could have been convicted of. But what was insurmountable for the

prosecution was this allegation of sex abuse by George, which was never proven and the jurors were

told not to consider it, but that was there. That was the elephant in the room. But also, Cheney's summation to the jury was very effective because he wasn't talking about the defense

“proof. He's talking about the prosecution's proof because that's what mattered. Did they prove”

every element of every crime beyond a reasonable doubt? And he kept hammering to the jury that the prosecution did not give the jury evidence of how clearly died, where she died, when she died, who was whether when she died, but really it was how she died and when she died and where she died. And he just kept hammering that. And that had to have been effective with the jurors. I never spoke with the jurors. But the other thing I wanted to say two more things is that a finding of

not guilty is not a finding of innocence. It just simply means the prosecution did not have proof be on a reasonable doubt. Secondly, I was sitting in the balcony of the courtroom. There was balcony in that courtroom. It was a courtroom at the top of the porthouse, I think, that's sort of designed for media coverage and high tech stuff for the, you know, to present to the jury with evidence.

“And so we were relegated to upstairs a small balcony. So I'm there, sort of craning my neck,”

watching the jury on the left in Casey and the defense team on the right, the judge straight in front of me, but from above, birds, I view. And I didn't, you know, I couldn't, I didn't have Cheney's point of view. So I couldn't see jurors, you know, but I was aware that the man who became the jury for a person, he connected with, with Casey. I'd seen that on a prior day, as jurors were filing on a courtroom. He was in the back row and he stood there and he stared at

her and he lingered looking at her. And I thought, oh boy, that doesn't vote well for the prosecution.

Anyway, when I heard the first not guilty, I thought, surely there's going to be a guilty somewhere,

and I just leaned back and took a deep exhale and thought, oh my God, I was as surprised as everyone that there wasn't some guilty of a, some level of felony. Can we just round back to two other points I neglected to mention, which get raised on why people think she's guilty? The chloroform, the, the, the, there was testimony that the guy who tested the, the trunk test found the order of decompensation found one hair that was consistent at the edges with Kaylee's hair

been Google searches on the family home. I mean, I've heard everything from a whole litany of

searches of like, how do you kill somebody? How do you make homemade weapons to, for sure, they testify that there was a search done for chloroform, for chloroform, you know, there was a search on chloroform. And to the point where Cindy Anthony had to take the stand and say, it was me, it was I who searched for the chloroform and I don't know if the jury bought that or not, but can you just speak to the evidence of like the forensics? I'll give it to you Beth and then I'll let you respond to you,

“which I can see you want to. So this was a faux pas, I think, on the part of the prosecution,”

not that they introduced this, that they didn't do enough, because only after the trial,

I think it was in Jose's book, but I heard Jose talking about it, did he knew the defense team knew that there were a lot more searches for chloroform than what the prosecution knew, because the prosecution only checked one search engine and it didn't check Firefox, only check Mozilla or vice versa. And Jose and I assume new two chaining knew that there were a lot of searches for chloroform, but it didn't come in because they didn't, the sheriff's department did not search all

of the search engines on places computer. And when Cindy got on the stand and said, I was searching because I don't know one of my tree, something chlorofill chloroform, it was it just sort of defaulted to the wrong word, I recall her saying, it didn't make sense because she was punched in at work at the time she said, you know, at the time of the search, she was actually at work. So you know, that that didn't fly, you know, with some people, but then they found some,

“didn't they bet they found some chloroform in the back of the trunk?”

No. I don't remember. Okay. I call that. No. Okay. I thought that there was some evidence. I'll look it up. There's something to that effect in the record. I'll pull it up for you. Go ahead, Goutini. Handle the chloroform and the searches. As far as the searches are concerned, you're talking about computer stuff, and I'm not the best guy to do that. I like my generation to deal with Adam. The ball of mine is, in my book, I have made it very clear that the man who

was in charge of all that corrected the error that the state had made and says there was only one church, one for chloroform. Secondly, the order of the trunk, or whatever it was from that, not only did I go and sit in the trunk and smell it and do as rest of the spy experts did. I hired a forensic expert, college professor, PhD, who did studies of the air samples that had been taken and what they found on the on the graphs of the analysis was not chloroform. It was

surprisingly gasoline. There was no detection of chloroform. Now there was this guy who studied roadkill. Well, I know his name. I'm not going to repeat this in the book. That had talked about how he had all these body farm issues and we went up to go through all that, Knoxville, Tennessee. And what oldest were any captured odors and they tried to show us that there was a graph produced that showed spikes of chloroform or something, and that turned out not to be accurate.

There was never any chloroform found in any way residual or otherwise, anything to do with this case,

no matter how many labs and government officials tried to do so. And originally did. But can I just ask you to talk about the same thing? This is where I got it from. This is an ABC News report

“June 22nd, 2011, a forensic chemist. I think this is your guy. You were a surgeon for Michael”

Sigmund. Yes, he testified in the KC Anthony trial. He said today the car belonging to the mom accused of murdering two-year-old Kaylee did not test positive for human decomposition. He is a chemist at the National Center for Forensic Science. He said that air samples from KC Anthony's car trunk tested positive mainly for gasoline, chloroform, and two other chemicals were present. So there was chloroform, but the question is from what and what does that tell us?

Okay, so what I did tell us that was such a minimum amount. They used another car that was bolted random from the prosecution. I can't remember where it was now. Same make model of the car, year, and everything, and they brought it in and they tested it. They cut out carpet from the trunk

lot of people hold on bodies around and all fours. And this was not, it was not reliable at all. Did the owner of that car do searches for chloroform on the internet? No, the government did. Can I have a bite? What Jamie said about the searches on the computer. He's right that a witness come on the stand to correct the record and it was actually one search, but that was on one search engine. There was another search engine. That's a prosecution didn't discover

that Jose Bias talked about after the trial that had a lot more. How do we explain everything evidence? How do we explain the multiple multiple searches for chloroform?

“Well, there weren't. That's why she's trying to tell you.”

There were, you know, she's saying there were. Yes, she knows she's not my son. Another search engine. Another search engine. Yeah. There were more searches. There might have been for more things too. Yes, homemade weapons. Breaking a neck or something like that. Yeah, breaking a neck. It's a hold on. I wrote down something like that. Remember how to chloroform how to make, breaking a neck, suffocation, undetectable,

how to make homemade weapons. That's pretty good evidence for the prosecution.

Judy, make the tape evidence for no forensic connection whatsoever. They had first claimed there were

84 searches for chloroform on this computer. I know. I believe that's, but I think that was the number. And then the people that did that correctly said, no, there wasn't. There was only one. And when you put it up on the word search agent, but you can get multiple search engines on one

“computer. That's what that's trying to say. So on the one, they had overstated it on this one search”

engine. And they had to take it back down to just, oh, sorry, just one on the one search engine. What she's saying is according to Jose's book. And I've read this in news reports as well. There were multiple searches for chloroform on the other search engines on that computer. They were very interested in that house in chloroform. And other ways of killing somebody.

And they never found any chloroform anywhere. That's the important point.

Except the drug of the car. She's saying, I know, I know you're pointed about the other car, but this one has extra circumstances. Or I get it. Listen, I get it. Let me talk to you about this juror. I found this fascinating, fascinating. A male juror spoke with people magazine. I think it was. Yeah, people magazine right after the trial. And then in the trial was the verdict was in 2011. And then they just spoke with him again 10 years later in 2021. And just let me read part of it to

you guys into the audience because I'm sure not everybody's seen this. A month after he said to people, look, none of us liked Casey Anthony at all. She seems like a horrible person. He said, but the prosecutors did not give us enough evidence to convict. They gave us a lot of stuff that makes us think she probably did something wrong, but not beyond a reasonable doubt. 10 years later,

“writes people, the same juror has been rethinking the case. Quote, I think of the case at least”

once every single day. It was such a strange summer. I knew that there was public interest in the case, but it wasn't until after I was sequestered that I realized the whole world was watching. Then it says the juror said he found the prosecutors to be arrogant. He did not like the prosecution man. It really is important what the lawyer's relationship is with the jury. While lead defense attorney Jose Bias was the one in the room who seemed like he cared.

He said the other lawyer, Cheney, can be argumentative at time, but winds up being a charmer. No, that was me, Cheney. He goes, he goes, um, his focus now is on little Kaylee. Every time I see her face or hear her name, I get a pit in my stomach. It all comes flooding back. I think about those pictures of the baby's remains. They showed us. I remember Casey. I even remember the smell of the courtroom.

Then says this. The enormity of the acquittal bothered them in the jury room. And then we sat there for a few minutes and were like holy crap or letting her go free. Everyone was just stunned of what we were about to do. One of the women jurors asked me, "Are you okay with this?" And I said, "Hell no, but what else can we do? We promised to follow the law." Now this juror says he might have done things differently. This is your point, Beth.

"My decision haunts me to this day," he says. "I think now if I were to do it over again, I'd push harder to convict her of one of the lesser charges like aggravated manslaughter, at least that or child abuse. I didn't know what the hell I was doing and I didn't stand up for what I believed in at the time." "Well, what do you make of that, Cheney?" I'm not surprised. People rethink, question themselves about things they do in their daily life

all the time. And I understand that fellow talked about now who have second guesses. Well,

wish I had thought of this or something. Well, the other thing is then he gets out and there's also it's a blowback. I'm sure. You know, the jurors remain anonymous. They get all this blowback and you're thinking, "Oh my God, maybe I got it wrong." And we see more evidence and different evidence and experience these cases in a different way than the jury does, which is why we have to

respect their decision. You can second guess it for yourself and say, "Well, I don't agree with it. That's

“fine." But you have to be treat the jury with honor because unlike the rest of us, they sat there”

and had the experience. The best we can offer as a justice system. I have yet to see one that does a better than we do. For today's episode of Hot Crime Summer, we are diving deep into the world of cults with two former cult members. Later, we'll be joined by Dr. Steven Hassan, one of America's leading cult experts. And as a former cult member himself, we'll tell you, he got recruited. He was a totally normal guy. He was an adult. He was like in his 20s when he got

lured in. He now helps individuals and families who have been trapped in cults. But we begin with the story of Michelle Dowd. Michelle was born into the ultra-religious cult called The Field, run by her maternal grandfather. He convinced generations of followers that he would the

“500 years and ascend to the heavens when Doomsday came. Michelle spent 10 years of a childhood”

living on a mountain suffering from all sorts of abuse and severe poverty. There she was forced to learn skills necessary to survive. Michelle eventually gained this strength to flee the cult at 17 years old and is now a professor and author and totally candid about what life was like for her in that environment. She tells her story in her new book, "Fourage Your Field Notes for Surviving a Family Cult." I'm fascinated by your entire story. If you don't mind, I'm sure you've told

a million times, but if you don't mind, let's start at the beginning. So you were born into a cult.

So how did that happen? Well, yes, I am indeed I was. In fact, my mother was born into the same cults. My grandfather was a young man from Oklahoma, was orphaned in his teenage years. Some debate on how old he was because he often exaggerated. The truth or sometimes completely misled people. But in any case, he came to LA Hollywood area. Sometimes in his teenage years and began working as a boy scout leader. When he was unable to have the control that he wanted as a boy scout leader,

then he left. He kind of segmented off and created his own organization, which by 1931, started to show up in newspapers. So I was able to look back at that. So for sure, they were an organization by then. And he started taking boys up to the mountains. Then he started a Bible band. And he started giving young boys opportunities to, I don't know, just to be part of the community. They didn't have a sense of belonging. So the 1940s, my father was, he came to California with

his mother, who was a single mom, who was running away from an abusive husband. And he, she was hiding in California in a chicken coop, actually. And my father joined my grandfather's cult when my mom was a young girl. And so they were married off to each other later. And I

came along a couple decades later, along with, I was a second of four children. So there's

“nothing around for a very long time before I was born into it. And you were, where did you live?”

It's hard for me to understand, because I know when you were little, I know you lived sort of more, and I don't know if we would say a city environment, I remember reading it was like nearby a town dump. So you were with people and things and access to, you know, things that we all know in our towns. For some time before you went to this just remote mountainous area. Absolutely, my grandfather actually started the organization in Pasadena, which is just East

of LA. We were living when I was a baby, and into my early years until I was seven on the border of El Monte. So there was a dump that we lived next to. And there was also a area that they kind of dug out at the end of a colter sack where even before I was born in the 1950s, my grandfather leased land from a business owner. So it was private land that he leased. And my father was one of the teenage boys who literally constructed the buildings there at a cinderblocks. So I was raised

on the border of that until I was seven. So I went to public school when I was five, six, and seven. And then after a fire and some other occurrences we had nowhere to go. And so my grandfather,

family up onto the mountain. And I stayed there till I finally left the colter. So it's so half

“to the 10 to find out. Yeah, no, right, right, but that was about 10 years later.”

Well, yeah, I stayed there for 10 years until I got out. It's crazy to me how you lived. You know, part of me, I speak only of the survival skills here, but part of me was envious of all the things you learned about how to take care of yourself. And then there was the sexual abuse and other abuse and lack of love and all the other things which we'll talk about. But think can we just spend a minute on the survival skills and how you did survive up there and

and how your mother knew all of this to teach you? I want to pay tribute to my mother who passed last year for teaching me how to not only survive in the wilderness, but how to appreciate like great intricacies and interdependencies of the ecosystem that is north of Los Angeles. And that has served me in many ways throughout my life, not because I any longer need to survive in that way, but because I know that the earth can provide

for us and it is also just a wonderful gift to be able to recognize different birds, different animals, and many, many, many plants. My mother's knowledge was self-taught. She was, I guess, obsessed. I would be the word. She was obsessed with learning every single thing in our ecosystem. So she was so skilled in fact, and knowledgeable that government workers at the radio station that was not too far away. We weren't allowed to go there, but my mother did when the men weren't around. So let me just

go back one second and say that it used to be an entirely male organization. And my mother was born

into this 100% male organization. She had three older brothers. And so she was very used to figure out how to get around, whatever the rules were, and her father actually did find her unique and

“intelligent, and he gave her more leeway, I think, than anyone else had in the cults.”

It's tough for a cult that has only meant to survive. So. Well, you can move. They've been to expand in women, but yes, you're very astute at that. But let me say that at the beginning, my grandfather just had followers that he demanded be celibate. So in the 1930s, he had some young men who followed him, who stayed with him all the way until his death in the 1980s. And so I know for a fact, because I knew these men, they, I can't

let's test for sure that they're celibate, but they were alone. And they stayed with him for a very long time. And it wasn't until my mother got into her 20s that I think he recognized that he needed to allow women to be in the organization. So she married one of his early followers. And after she was the very first marriage at the fields. And they were women who then married into the organization afterwards. And there were lots of girls. I'm still male dominated, but there were girls and women

after my mother got married. So how did you live were you in a tent? Like, if describe your living circumstances to us? Well, when we first came to the mountain, which was in the fall,

“when I was almost eight, we lived in a mess hall. So a mess hall is, you know, that's what it was”

called, kind of a military quarters, but it was one room. And there was a big stone fireplace. So we were not out in the cold. We had an outhouse down the hill. So I don't know how far away the outhouse was less than a quarter of a mile. And we would walk down to the outhouse. And there was a sink, so there was some running water and in the kitchen. And the kitchen and the great room and all these army bonks. It was all in one room. And so we slept on army bonks. And what were you eating?

Because I know food was always an issue. Well, interestingly, and I have this little bit in the book,

we did forage for acorns and other lots of nuts. We were not killing animals. We were living off of plants. So plant-based diet. But the government actually gave us surplus. So there were times started immediately. But I don't know exactly how long in where they would come by and unload from a truck, whatever was available. So cans of peanuts or carouseraps sometimes for cocktail. And sometimes blocks of butter and sometimes cheese, depending on what the government had

as surplus at the time. So it's very interesting that we were living on government land, even though the government didn't know what we were doing there. Yeah. And that must have felt like such a delicacy to get some fruit cocktail and some cheese after foraging for acorns. Absolutely. I don't even know if we were supposed to eat it. But we used to go into there was kind of a dug-in walk-in. And my sister's and I would sneak in there and

And I'm very grateful to the government actually for the program. At least at that time. So it was

we have an army cheap that my father also got from the government surplus. So he had been drafted and he was very militaristic. He, that was the training that he got that he believed helped him become a man. And so he trained all his children girls and the one boy that he had to work in a military system. You know, which we were not military, but we were trained to behave as if we were. Well, I was going to say that the deprivation was a feature not a bug. So can you expand

on that because it was a life of deprivation? Thank you for noticing that you, you have very a student observations. It was a feature. It was intentional. The deprivation was to help us for one leave the army of God in the time of the apocalypse. So they believed that there would be 1,000 years of a reign of terror on the earth and that we would have to live without. And that as we were hiding in the rocks of the mountains that if we could survive on very little, then we would

“be able to outwit the, I mean, honestly, it was, I think, a little psychotic because, well, they're”

somebody, but they both we've received, and things from the government, but they also feared the government. So they thought that whatever political leaders might become in next would be our enemies. And so we would need to survive without having access to the things that ordinary citizens had access to. Beyond the food, a very strange approach to love, tenderness, affection, even by your parents toward their children. Yes, you know, they would not have called it a cult. They did not call it a cult.

They called it a community. And my younger brother, who I called Danny in the book, he came to me after reading this book. He asked a red book since he was a teenager and he got a copy in the mail.

And he read it the first night and then he drove to my house from Santa Barbara. And he said,

you know, the one thing you got wrong is it's not that they would sacrifice us. It's that they did sacrifice us. And so he was able to have a conversation with our father and who is still alive. And our father said it's not a cult and he won't read the book or have anything to do with me. But my brother stood up and he said, but Dad, if Grandpa had told you to put us all in the mess hall and set it on fire, you would have done it. And he said, yes, I would have, but I didn't.

So it wasn't a cult. So my father knows that he was absolutely at the mercy of whatever our grandfather, which was not his father. Remember, it was his father in law who he didn't really call that. He called him Mr. But he really truly believed that our grandfather would tell him, he was the God's prop and he would tell him how to behave in the world and and my father

resigned all forms of critical thinking. He just gave up any sort of alliance to us, any sort of

caretaking and my mother as well. They believed that God was in control and that God's word would be given to them through grandpa. When you spoke a little bit about this, but when your dad arrived into the relationship with your mom, like what was what had been his background? You mentioned military, but what had been his background that he was, I mean, I suppose we're going to get into

“this later, but like that made him susceptible to that. Well, first, I think almost anybody is”

susceptible to the kind of mind control in these high control groups that really charismatic leaders know how to work a straight. But in my father's particular case, he was 12 years old when he met my grandfather. My father came from the East Coast, he came from Connecticut with his mother on a bus. He didn't know where he was going because they were running away from an abusive man whom my mother was married or sorry, my grandmother was married to his father was abusive to him

and to his mother. And so they ran away and they came to California and they were living in a chicken shed when my father met my grandfather. So my grandfather provided a father figure and also provided some someplace for my dad to go because his mother was working in a factory. She was the only woman working in a post-World War II factory in the 1940s when they arrived here in California. And I don't

“think she knew what her son was doing. I think she was a wonderful, she did her best to be”

an intensive mother, but she just didn't have the time. She had an eighth grade education that's looked for the she ever gotten her life. She lived to be in her 90s and I had the great blessing of being with her during her death. But at the time, she just didn't have any resources. And so her son went and joined this cold and she tried to get him out later when she realized it when he was like 18 or 19, but he wouldn't leave at that point. It was too late. So yeah, and at this

particular cults prayed on only children. So they didn't, you couldn't be an adult who joined the

boys joined. Not all the boys were hurt by the organization. A lot of boys I think got training,

“sports training that was really useful in their lives. But if a parent was capable of seeing”

that it was a high control group, a lot of times the kid was a play for two or three or four years in on the sports teams. And then the parents would say that's enough now. We're going to go to high school or you know, whatever they were going to do. And they were allowed to leave. But it was the boys who were compelled and who worshiped my grandfather and who really found their greatest

sense of belonging there, who were taken through layer after layer of testing and basically training

to be bullies. And they would not be allowed to then, they, they signed commitment for life forms. They couldn't sign those until they were 18 years old. But nobody could come there at 18. They all had to be groomed during their early years in order to get to the point where they really would sign their lives over. How are they getting girls? I mean, you were born into it,

“but how are they getting girls? Well, the word I used was groomed, but the women were also,”

they didn't get girls until my mom was a age. So they would just be celibate. They didn't get married. But my father was the very first boy they called him. He was almost pretty. But he was the

very first boy who was allowed to marry at the organization. And so he married my mother who's the

founder's daughter. And that was kind of a royal wedding. They had it at the fields. My grandfather officiated, I've seen all the pictures. And then I was the second child born out of that marriage. But there were no, there weren't marriages before that. And so once we were born, then there had to be something, they had to figure out what to do with the children. And so they allowed marriages then and those women were the sisters of the other members. And they were also then groomed to be wives

and mothers. And to be fair, some of those women had access to resources from their parents. We didn't because my mother was born there and then my father didn't have any resources.

“His mother, after he was 19, I believe she moved to the East Coast and we didn't see her”

for decades. But my, my understanding and my knowledge of the other families were their work families who were there that their parents sometimes especially if their children involved would send the grandkids money for food and other things. We just didn't have access to that.

And the other cult members who were based there, I'll just give you an example. The first nine

kids that were born there. So even though I was the second in my family, I was the fourth oldest child who was born into this cult. And of the first nine of us, which were all within two years of age, the other eight are all still there. Just to put that in perspective. How many people were in the cult when you were there? So there are about 150 in the inner workings of the cult, but they were calling from about 1,500 boys at any given time. So they would bring boys in and they

wouldn't stay, you know, and they also would hide what they were doing from their parents. And I don't think this is happening anymore, but at the time it had been happening for decades. Hmm. So this of course helps explain to some extent some of the sexual abuse. I mean just the sheer numbers of boys versus girls and you were one of very few. It's interesting how you write about it and how your mother talked to you about it. I again, there's like a tinge

of affirming life advice in here, but it doesn't discount the overall trauma of the event. Like you were sexually abused repeatedly from what you write in the book and tell us how, let's talk about that first and then we'll talk about your mother's messaging to you on it. So I am aware that I was not the only one who was abused, but I also am aware that it was not something that happened to all the girls. In our particular case, we were very vulnerable because

our mother would go on these trips, which had been gone for two to three months, and she would go with the men. So like all the men would go, but she would go with her husband. So she was protected on these trips. She was also with her father. And we were often left with, I have since since I read the book, some of the caregivers that I had when I was a baby have come out of the woodworks who left the cold and have written me letters and asked to meet me. I went to coffee with one

reach recently. She was only 15 when she left the cold, but she was my caregiver when she was 12 13, 14, 15, and tell my mother's no longer allowed girls to take care of us. But in any case, our particular family was very vulnerable because we just didn't have any other relatives other than the ones who were there. And the boys, they called them boys, I believe, I do not believe

who I did know very well was 19 at the time I was seven. And I think that they were babies sending us and they had access to our bodies. And I don't know that it was condoned,

“but I think that it was, it was overlooked. And these, these young men really, honestly,”

I'm not, I'm not obviously condoning yet, but they were very unhealthy. And they did not have access. They were not allowed to masturbate. For example, my grandfather was adamant about that. So like, very strict and, like, vocal requirements that day stays chaste. And then they just sort of put them around young girls. So again, it was a really unhealthy environment for them. And I feel that, you know, I do feel that they were victims too. You know, it was a different kind of

in your hood, but I think that was, yeah, may I ask how often this happened to you? Well, I went through this frequently for about a year when I was seven. I don't know that it happened before that I don't have memories of really being younger than seven. But the thing about being seven was there was a big fire. A lot of things happened. And this type of abuse ended for me at that point

because we'd left up to go up to the mountain. And when we first got to the mountain, it was just

starting to clear family. And my father was not sexually abusive. So my father was very militaristic and can be unkind, but he was not sexually abusive. And neither was my grandfather to me at least. So we were separated from that culture. And then we had a lot of young men living with us.

“And things were, I would say, inappropriate, but I did not get physically violated. I think it”

was just sort of an emotional thing after that. And I'm very, very, very grateful for spending the time we did on the mountain because it removed me from the really most damaging effects of the cult. Can we talk about what your mom said? Because the reason I said there's like a tinge of something positive you could take away. You know, God forbid you find yourself in this

situation. And it was, it was basically to try not to think too much about it. And I know that

sounds absurd. That sounds absurd. I realize that trust me, I know enough sexual abuse victims that it sounds absurd. But if you can do it, it's a very useful coping technique for a lot of people. And I know somebody, a Hollywood star, who told me this story about when she was young. And she was raped by a few boys in the neighborhood. And sex, sex, sexually assaulted. And she didn't really understand what it was. You know, she didn't totally understand what had happened to her. And her mother

told her, you just forget about that. Like that don't, don't give that any mind. You know,

“that's what boys do. Some boys, whatever. But like that doesn't have anything to do with who you are.”

That wasn't nice to them, but don't dwell on it. And I was like, when I heard the story, I'm like, that's terrible. My God, the amount of damage that must have been done. And she was like, no, it actually really, it gave me this box to put it in. I managed to put it in there. And I was fine after that. So that's when I was reading your story. I'm sure a lot of people have the same reaction of like, oh my God, that's horrible. But were you able to compartmentalize? Because your mother

was very dismissive of this. I definitely compartmentalized. And I think that there is value to that when you need to move on and survive. And so there were, yes, I had compartmentalized boxes for everything, including literally a box where I kept my writing, which I was able to

finally break the lock on literally when I was getting ready to write this book. And I had not

read what I had written in, you know, 35 years or some ridiculously long period like that. But when it comes to, and I'm not going to make a claim for what is healthy for anyone else. But I will say for my healing process, the fact that my mother made it seem as if I was not damaged, but that it was again a body product. As you said, a sort of what boys will be boys. There is something that is useful about that because you don't blame yourself. Later, I ended up

blaming myself because I got very sick and there was a lot of complications about that. But at the time, it really helped me see myself as a vessel, which sounds horrible, but I was a vessel for God's will or whatever. But I looked like I'm a vessel that the boys used. And then they were done. And so

Yes, yes, it is. And I'm not saying there was no damage, you know. But at the time, I was able to

to function. And it wasn't until later in life that. And stuff that I had memories, I mean, I always had the memories.

But I also felt that there was a lot of deprivation and a lot of difficult things. And I just put them all in boxes. And I think that it came to me later. And this is the story I know I've written about that I couldn't still. I had an inability as a young adult to sit still. I had children very young. I moved through life there quickly. The stages of adulthood. And it wasn't until I first sat still that

“I had to deal with the ramifications of those reviews. Yes, okay. So that's what my question was that.”

If you're born into a society that doesn't attach, you know, the obvious negative labels to that and help you understand how wrong it is morally in every other way, does the damage still happen? Do you carry it forward? How does it manifest? Well, you know, I did exist in a wider society to some degree and certainly by the time I was 17 and moving. For example, when I moved into a collet dorm in college, then that I was very afraid of men because I did not know. I didn't

know men that were strangers in any other way than violent ways. And so it was very scary to me, even though the boys in college did not hurt me. I was scared that's the irony. This is not something that it's not something boys do. You know, I mean, some sick criminals do it, but like the

most boys would never do it. Right, right. And so there were wonderful young men at my college,

“but I was afraid of them. And so I had all sorts of, they called me the ice queen. I was very”

distant. I was very careful. So there were those rampifications at the beginning just that I didn't know how to have normal social relationships. My God, were you like, I was raised in a cult. What's wrong with you people? Don't give me such a hard time. It's a miracle like here. You know, I didn't talk about it. I was very ashamed of where I came from. I mean, there was a lot I didn't know, Megan. There was a lot of things like I didn't know songs. I didn't know pop culture. I didn't know movies. I didn't

know the things that other young people knew. So I just listened a lot and started gathering all that information. And I don't know was there no schooling? I can see why you had no pop culture. I'm not sure there's no TV, but was there no schooling? So after I was seven, so I went to public school through second grade. And then after that, we were not officially homeschooled, but they did have this when we would be at the field. They had a seriously one room in schoolhouse. It was in the church.

And they would put kids five through 12 in this room together. The kids of that were at the field. And if we had some sort of instruction, we had, we played a lot of like football. We listened to stories of the Bible. And as I talk about in the book, I read the Bible covered a cover when I was eight. And that is an education in myself. You could learn a lot from that. And I did have access to my mom's brothers who I can ask questions about the Bible. And I started across referencing as a

very young child. And so by the time I got to college, I could understand the language of Shakespeare, for example, really, wow, because it is the same language of the King James Bible.

But is it true? You never learned, for example, the presidents?

“I did not know the presidents. I still remember the presidents. Wow. Like, do you know the big ones?”

You know, you probably know the big ones. I know the big ones. I don't really want to be tested not in, but yeah, I could actually tell you the big ones. Right, right. Like, I'm not going to quiz you on Martin Vimbiro because nobody cares. So you're living this existence. And part of the problem was, your mother did not show you really any love. I mean, that was one of the saddest parts of the story, which was, I mean, yes, there was the physical and sexual abuse, not to diminish that.

But it doesn't a human being come into this world, needing affection, a baby, a toddler, a little one, needing to be told their loved and to feel loved. I would say that not having my mother's love was the greatest heartbreak of my life. It was the love I was seeking my entire life. I know a lot of women go around seeking love for men, but I felt that I wanted a mother figure. I wanted a maternal figure. I wanted that kind of affection.

And I worked very hard to try to get that from my mother to be fair to her. She was raised in a very rigid, high control group, right. So this, she was raised in this cold and she gave up her children upon giving birth. She, she handed them over to the group. And I think that she had to

My grandfather thought that the world would end in 1977. So my mother had these babies that she

thought she was just going to have to give over in 1977 when they were like little children. And again, she believed this. She really believed it. And so she was not able to attach,

“because attaching, I think, would have been wrenching for her. And again, not excusing”

her coldness, but understanding it. I just don't think she really wanted to risk attaching to something that she thought she had no control over. So she didn't attach. You're 54 now? Okay, so you're two years older than I am, so you're born in '68, right around there. So you were alive and cognizant in 1977. And so what happened when the world did not end?

Nothing. Nothing changed. The first thing my grandfather said is that they got the years wrong

because he said that when it was all based on when Jesus was born, the understanding when Jesus was born, but because of Caiaphas and, you know, he gave all the names of the sent hydran and just different people who would have controlled Pontius Pilate. His understanding then was that the years

“were off. And so we were so wrong, calendar. Okay, that's, I mean, that's how it works, I think,”

in a lot of these cults when, you know, the end of the world doesn't come. Let's talk about how you got out because it's a miracle you got out. And you're talking, you know, you, you're, you're perfectly normal, you're dynamic, you seem happy, you, you know, I, forgive me for being so judgmental in that implication there. But, you know, I would have expected you to appear more damaged given this childhood. So talk about talk to us about how you got out.

Well, first of all, thank you for the compliment. I don't know what damage looks like. And also,

I have had many years. And the wider world to, to not just, I don't know, I haven't spent that much time in therapy really, but I have spent time doing what I would consider healthy work. My profession has been, I'm one of service and I felt that working with young people has done a world of good for me understanding the ways that many people are damaged by their upbringing. So not to the same, you know, degree necessarily I was, but there are many people who struggle with

upper gains that didn't serve them. So I will say, first of all, we all have something to recover from and that we are capable of recovery. I will also say that reading books and being in a profession that enables me to talk about those things has been very useful. And as far as how I left,

“I think that one of the main ways that I got out really was using the advice that my mother gave me.”

So while she wasn't able to give me the affection I needed, she was able to give me the skills that would help me really scrounge and we can use the word for it, it's true, but like I used the foraging for words and the foraging for, you know, how to find what you need and where if you know what you're looking for. So once I knew that I wanted to get out, I had all the skills to do that. And I owe that to my mother, not because she necessarily prepared me for that purpose, but it did

indeed serve me. And I'm very great. You're a side effect of all the other things. She was teaching him. Yeah. And so the book for a chair, if any of you have a chance to read it, does actually go into the details of to some degree, what led to me leaving. But the details of what it was like right after I left, I'll have to stay for the next book because, oh, I can give a little bit now, but that was a long process and I felt like it is the story in and of itself because I did not

naturally acclimate to, I was very fortunate that a college took me in, that I was living there at 17, that I was able to have the ability to learn and a passion for learning. And I was really grateful that it led me straight to grad school and that I was able to get a teaching job, very young, and I was able to support myself. But emotionally, I think I was very stunted and it took me a long time to figure out how to make connections with other human beings who are healthy. And that was

all miraculous. I mean, it's truly miraculous that this happened. I do recall there was an injury, not an injury. There was a disease. You came down with an autoimmune disease that landed you in the hospital. And I wondered, like, were there big medical problems in, quote, the field, you know, like, where you were living? That would have required you to go to the hospital. Did your family support modern medicine and understand that certain things, like, you break a femur, or you got to go get a cast?

have access to, we didn't have insurance, for example, or money to pay for things. We actually

didn't break bones, interestingly enough. So that none of my siblings ever broke a bone. I need to did eye. And we didn't need antibiotics. You know, there's just some kids who get through without that. But I had an autoimmune disease called idiopathic thrombocytopenia prepara, which was, and is still of unknown origin. It doesn't have a genetic component. There is some speculation that perhaps, well, just say what the disease is, is your body is coding lots of cells and platelets with

antibodies, so that your organs, like your spleen, filter the blood, and kill off what they perceive as invaders. In the process of killing off what they perceive as invaders, they, um, the spleen and the liver and kidneys, and this filter out the platelets themselves that are necessary to clot blood.

So in my case, I really was down to nearly zero platelets, so like even a little cut, I could have

blood to death. Now, what this comes from is very uncertain, but when I got to the hospital, they didn't know what it was. And I've had, you know, some public, a little bit critique and just saying that wouldn't the hospital recognize that I was a victim of abuse. And I would say no, not in the late '70s and the early '80s, and those questions weren't being asked of young children. And once I was in the hospital, my parents were very busy, and that was also normal.

That if you had a working mother, and if you had a children in the family, I was in a children's hospital, and there were other children, not all, but there were other children who were left without their parents during their duration of their stay. And the nurses

and the doctors were working on our bodies, and helping us understand what was going on while

we were present in the hospital, but not necessarily, um, concerned with our mental health. I just don't think that that was something people talked about in those days. To children. It was very tough love. I know you wrote, your mother was like,

“they'll be no crying, period. And again, you know, I think a lot of us can look at some of these”

little hints and say, well, you know, you do want to raise tough children. You want your children to be resilient. You don't want them looking their wounds and feeling sorry for themselves all the time. But as with all of these examples, it just, it was next level, and it was at a plate, you know, if you get really hurt, you're going to cry. If you get raped, you're going to cry. If you've got the right context for what's happening to you. So how do you see that now?

That's sort of very tough love, I guess. I went through, um, I would say about 14 years from the age of 11 to into my 20s without crying ever. And my mother strongly believed you do not cry when you get hurt. You do not cry when you get raped. You do not do those things that you happily happen because then you will not become a perpetual victim. There was also a mental illness in her family that I later found out from her. And the,

my editors didn't want me to, um, reveal medical things about the family because, you know, that could be a violation of their privacy. But, um, my mother knew that there was a mental illness not not her own or her father's, but other members of the family. And when I asked her later in life,

“why she didn't let us know this if, if we were really honestly being put in danger. And she said,”

why don't want you to worry that that would happen to you. And she's, and she just really truly believed that you wouldn't become mentally ill. If you didn't, um, know that it was possible. And so she thought that kind of toughness kept you. And I think it's really old school. But I think she just felt that being really tough, which again, I'm not advocating. I'm just putting in the context that I don't think she saw that as being abusive. I think she saw that kind of an interesting

experiment. I mean, it's, I'm not recommending it. But, you know, now that you've been through it, it is interesting to ask, you know, like I was saying about abuse. If you, if, if, if you don't know what filed to put it in, is it less damaging in some way? If, you know, she doesn't tell you about mental illness. Is she right? It can't manifest. That doesn't sound none of this sounds right. But you were part of an experiment.

Yes. And Southern California, by the way, was a mecca of small cults. This one was particularly

“successful, honestly. But there were a lot of people in California who were experimenting in”

communities with what would happen if you lived alternatively to the wider culture. And a lot of those cults were religious, but not all. There were just people who had very strong ideologies. And what made them cults is that they had a high control group mentality led by a charismatic leader who would then make material decisions about what was or wasn't allowed within said cult. So, yes, we were very experimental. And I think after my grandfather's death, it got a little bit

more rigid, which just happened to be really vulnerable years for me. But then the cult softened,

it wasn't experiment. And it was kind of a failed experiment. And I don't think, for example, my mother would not have told you that I turned out well. She would have said that I was like a bad seed. And that I had made choices to leave and to leave the calling that she believed

that I was always meant to be, which is to be a leader at the field. And she thought the work

that I do, I teach college that I work in a secular field. And that is negative for, she thinks it's just very negative to teach people a secular worldview. And so she was not ever proud of what I did, and she couldn't bear to hear a word of it. You started to stray a little in your behaviors and beliefs and it just led to, as I understand it, irreconcilable differences where they didn't want you and you didn't really want to be there and you left, it relatively young age.

I mean, how did you get in the college? Like, how did you even know to pick up an application, you know, that there could be, you know, a dormitory and a food and beverage service, you know,

like how did all of this come to you? Well, I was a house cleaner. So because we didn't have

any money, I started house cleaning when I was very young. As right when I got out of the hospital by the time before I even turned 14, I was cleaning a lot of houses. And I went by word of mouth and I started working in wealthier areas because I got paid more. And were you coming down

“off the mountain at this point? Were you still, where were you when you're doing the house cleaning?”

Okay, so my family still lived at the mountain. We had no other home, but my parents would go away on these long trips. And so I was sometimes stayed down with my grandmother, especially after our grandfather died. She was alone. She was a widow. And I would stay at her house on the couch with all her dogs. And then I borrowed one of the girls. I knew one of her bite. I bought it, and it wasn't one of her bites. It was probably her only bite. But I borrowed a bite. And I would

ride secretly. And nobody really was around by my grandmother had Alzheimer's. And that wasn't diagnosed as Alzheimer's. She later went into a home, not that much later. She was sort of just pushed aside out of the field. But at the time, she had Alzheimer's. She was alone. I slept on her couch. And I took a bite. And I went into house cleaning jobs. And I stored the money. I got cash. And I put it in this cup. And I put it up on the top of her shelf. And she couldn't reach it. And

“I just was very secret of about it. So I did house cleaning as much as I could. So I couldn't”

always, you know, once my parents were in town. And we were up on the mountain. I couldn't house

cleaning. But it was something that I was very good at. And one of the women whose house is I clean. And I've been working for her for quite a while. She gave me a college application. And I filled out pencil. And it just happened that. Yeah, it's so interesting. But anyway, the end result was I went to a very experimental college. It's called Pitzer College. And they started in the 60s. And they didn't have general ed, for example. They, I mean, they were an accredited institution,

but they were private. And they really liked that I had an alternative education. And they did test me on things. But I was a wonderful writer. I went to an event recently. One of my college professors was there. And she said, Oh, no, for the moment I met you, you were just, you know, a wonderful writer. I didn't teach you a thing that can't be true. But it is true that I tested out of writing. And I had very strong math skills from all the stuff I did was selling and from astronomy.

And from building. Because we would weld and we would build, you know, buildings. And it's

“a lot. You can learn a lot with hands-on education. Sure. Well, that's how it used to be done in this”

country. So, can I just ask you, so now you're, are you married now? I know you've got a family of your own now. My family is, so, no, our, I have, my, I got married to a guy who was at the Colton. I had all my children with him. And then they are now. So, we stayed married when we raised our children. But then they are now just, I just launched my youngest daughter. And all of my children now are in their 20s and partnered. Actually, my oldest just or I have twins that are my

oldest. And they're 30 now. So, they are, you raised them outside of the Colton? Like, the husband came with you? He did. Yeah. Okay. Well, we, and so, outside of the Colts. And, but we knew each other. We grew up together. He's older than I am. But we, he was one of the boys. He used to stay at our house and take care of us. So, it's kind of, you know, a brotherly figure to me. But I was, young, I was with him, starting, let's see when I turned 18. And I was with him after that.

But you had a lot of, you didn't, you didn't stay married? No. We, I mean, it could possibly,

just like the odds are where it against you. Anyway, but then with all this, and you're back round. But I was just wondering what it would be like, you know, to meet somebody who wasn't in the Colt and try to fall in love and try to trust. And I, I assume you've had other, you know, boyfriends and so on. So, and after your marriage, and it has that been strange to you or you

were living enough sort of in their real world with your first husband that you got used to that

before you had the date strangers. Okay. So, I don't have one husband. And he, we've stayed together for a very long time and we are still close because we have really shared experiences and we have shared family and we have nieces and nephews and we have, you know, our children. So, we also really understand our various forms of trauma and he would say and has that to me. He's so grateful for the book that his trauma that he experienced there was

more psychological abuse. He was not born and he came there at age seven. So, since then, I have had, yes, I've had difficulty with understanding that necessarily how relationships are,

I can understand short term relationships really well, but longer term relationship is

it's difficult for me to trust. And that's something I'm working through.

“Why is it awkward when I ask you if you are married and have a family?”

I just think that one of the things that I said when I was coming into this, I guess this, I don't know if you call it tour, but the talking about the book is that I would keep my personal life private. That was just something I made for a boundary for myself and also for the band and they are even also for my children because they do feel really awkward about our past, I think that it's just maybe an area we didn't explore a lot.

The children have a traditional upbringing, like you raised them outside of the cult. Yes, all my children went to public school, they've done very well, they all got out of college, rapidly they've been they're all partnered, two of them are married, two of them are married. That's funny, I keep saying that. That's from the cult, right? The part that they are all partnered. We say married. They're not all married, they're in relationships, they're not all married.

The little bit, but it's just like I said you're just you seem like such a powerhouse, so there's something kind of sweet these reminders of all that you've overcome in the way you speak and so on. There's something endearing because you're seeing like a just a very strong person

“and you must be, so like that resilience is still in you, I did read that you can't see your”

sisters like that seeing your family of origin brings it all up for all of you. So can you talk about that? Are they out of the cult and what's that like when you're all together? So we're not all together, really any more except the way we were at our mom's services, so that was honestly wonderful. I don't know if it was something I'd written earlier, I think we all had really difficult times being together for most of our adult lives,

but especially since the book came out, my younger brother, my younger sister and all four of us are all born within five years of each other total, so we're all the same age. My younger brother and sister came to the book opening, they come and stayed at my house, my sister flew in from my younger sister from the East Coast and so we had had wonderful

long conversations and I have, I already had a relationship with my younger sister, we never really

broke relationship, but she's lived on her East Coast ever since college, so we haven't lived in the same town any time during our adult life and my younger brother also came and just just talked about the book said that he is unable to talk to it, he was unable to talk about it during his own marriage and that it has been so healthy for him to be able to be part of this conversation. So I've sent a great deal of the time with my younger brother and sister since this book came out,

which is very recent, and then our older sister is the only one who chose to stay in the community and she would say the community is very different, but they don't welcome outsiders. Is this still going on? Is it, I mean, other children being raised in this right now who are underweight and possibly getting abused? No, I mean, there are still children there, but

“that organization has changed and it is certainly, I mean, physically, I think that the children”

are very healthy. I am not there and it was very difficult for me to understand how to put the parameters on my conversation because I don't really know all the details, but it certainly doesn't

certain, but our sister, my sister, does, I call it our sister because she's all our sister,

but she is the one who then now has a school, but it is accredited now and she runs the school that raises the kids there and she says it's a really different place than it used to be and I do know that they have a accreditation people come in, so people are checking on it in a way that did not happen when we were young. A accreditation, but what about division in child and family services? Is there anything and how are people living now at the field? Are they living in

mess halls still or what's the facility like? So my understanding is that families are now allowed to have regular jobs and that they are allowed to, so it is more of a church now and they do

“have a strong faith system. I think that many churches believe different kinds of interpretations”

of the Bible, I'm not justifying their particular interpretation, but they do use the traditional Judeo-Christian Protestant version of the Bible. And my understanding is that the families have their, they are now allowed to be nuclear families and I will also say that my sister is married to a boy that are a man, but that grew up with us as a boy. She's been married her whole life to him and I knew him all growing up and that they have two children, my niece and my nephew,

who seemed by all accounts there. They went to college there in, you know, there in their 20s now, so it seems that it is a place where it is still a real type community, but that it would be no longer abusive. Is it up on a mountain? Is it still in the same location up on a mountain side in California? So they have the mountain location, but they've rented out now to outside groups so that they can make money. Okay. It is not being used in that same capacity, but they do still have

that piece. How are you still religious? No. I would consider myself a spiritual person and I did raise my children in a faith community in the United Church of Christ's congregational church because I thought it was really wonderful for them to get the opportunity to see healthy people who are have a faith and believe in something and I thought it was really great and I did teach church school there. I know the Bible very well, so I raised them there, but I don't identify

directly anymore because I feel that for me it is a source of a lot of anxiety and tension. Yeah. I mean, this is where I'm at. Now I'll quiz you on Martin Vambira and you won't know much and you close me on the Bible and I won't know much either. So you know, one of us is studying a certain area and one of us is studying the others and like we all have our deficiencies and how we're raised and what we focus on but my mother would not be happy to hear me admit this

“about the Bible. I won't tell her. I, yeah, I wish I, she probably not listening so I think we're safe.”

So can you just explain to me like, because one of the things we're going to talk about is getting out of a cult, like whether it's possible and how many challenges it poses. You know, listening to you here, it sounds like it was kind of easy, but that's probably not true.

So I think it's certainly possible to get out of any cult. It is always a process though.

I did not think anyone because it's, I feel like it's a little bit like leaving a piece of relationship. You can leave the relationship and still have the behaviors that put you in that a piece of relationship and a lot of people enter another piece of relationships. So I, I, I guess I didn't know that I was making a look easy. I think that I was trying really hard with the book and not to just focus on the negative aspects and not to

just sort of pummel people with the pain of the experience because I do think that we, we do all have a need for belonging and the reason culture's so attractive to people is because they do provide a source of belonging and not that they do it in a healthy way, but that that need is something that is innate and that we do need each other, we do need community. Leaving was excruciating for me. I married far too young. I was not an adult. I was able to

think clearly for myself when I had my own children. I did tons and tons and tons of the research to figure out how to raise them, but it did not feel natural to me. I felt the love was extremely natural. I did all the things, you know, breastfed and was very into attachment parenting and was there with them even when I worked. I would bring them on my belly. You know, I would

have my baby. I was one of them. I mean, after your mom never hugging you, this must have been

“so special for you. It really was. And I think that I was very fortunate that I was able to get”

birth to them in a hospital and to have, I was in Boulder, Colorado where I was in grad school and I was able to, you know, just have, there was just lactation consultants and things like that around. So then by the time I, you know, became a mother a few times, like I was just really, really

able to be emotionally present. It was just wonderful to be able to get a miracle. That is a miracle

that you have that to give despite not having received it, Michelle. I mean, so few people have that story. There's, you know, something in you that made that happen. Hard work, determination, the sparks of knowledge and certainly your resilience. But your story is a testament to human resilience

“and strength, despite many odds against you. Thank you. I think sometimes we teach what we”

most need to learn, you know, and I think that being able to offer my children that kind of attachment really gave me the attachment that I needed so much. And even at my mom's death, I was able to physically be present for her and lie down with her and even giving her, she was in a hospital bed, but she died at home on hospice. I was able to physically be present with her through the whole process of dying and I was able to give her the same sort of comfort I needed from her in the hospital. And

I think it was like that with my kids, too. Like, I gave them what I needed. And I think because I needed it so badly, I knew, you know, I just knew how important it was. Do you ever have a mom where you're like, stop crying like two other remnants? Yes. You know, my oldest daughter is a marriage and family therapist. She tells me, she said, you, you had a problem with crying. And I said,

“I try not to. And she said, well, you know, it's really healthy for children to cry. And I said,”

I'm so sorry, I probably, for all of you, it was not as welcoming of that as I could have been. I mean, not that I would obey them. I'm crying, but I do not think I was that tolerant. No, but it's understandable. Yeah. But they were very close. They are very all very close through each other. And I think that's another wonderful thing. And they have not been victims of abuse, which I'm also very proud of. And when my twins were little, I was breastfeeding both of them

in the never took a bottle. And I just felt so deeply committed to really just being 100% there.

So I'm just really, I'm like, Michelle, when you go, now you're successful writer and would teach it to college, like, when you go to a cocktail party for the first time in your meeting people, and I'm like, hey, where'd you grow up? I mean, how do you, how do you short-form this?

“I have never been good at this. I think that's why I wrote a book because I hate that question.”

So right. So here read this and even in the book, I did really cover it because I really ended up focusing on my story and not really fleshy. Out the community entirely, so maybe I'll do that later. But I just say, I had an unconventional childhood or... It's complicated. Yeah. It's really not an easy question to answer. Yeah. Well, I thank you so much for telling your story. And for being so open,

I'm grateful to know you and I'm so grateful that you're out there as an example to others who maybe struggling with childhood issues, that somehow they believe are going to define the rest of their lives. And maybe not, maybe if you read Forager, field notes for surviving a family cult, it might be helpful to you even if you weren't in a cult, right? Even if you just had some massive challenges that you don't think you can get past. But she'll all the best to you.

Thank you for coming on. Thank you so much for having me, Megan. It's been a pleasure. I appreciate all your insights. Oh, thank you. Pleasure for me too. We continue. So I know that you were listening to Michelle's story. And I thought it was a very astute observation and one I know is true from your writings that there's something about a cult that provides a sense of belonging. It's a sense of community. There is a reason people are

attracted to these organizations. Because you hear about the abuse, you hear about psychological torture and so on. You think, why? Well, it doesn't start off like that. And it does provide some pluses that are alluring. Yeah. So I wanted to just comment that there are some real differences with people who are born into a authoritarian cult as Michelle was versus someone like myself who is recruited at age 19 while I was a college student through deceptive means into a

cult the moonies. And I'd say as a generalization, the public tends to look too much at the person who's involved and to little at the deception and the control of social influence variables.

But as you correctly said, there are always positives even in the worst of situations.

Right. And what I'm fascinated by your story, too. So you, you seem to have had a relatively normal childhood and you seem to have been a rather well-adjusted young man and yet you got lured in. And I remember growing, I remember hearing about the moonies and they sounded like a bunch

explain? Yeah. So I should say that I was dumped by my girlfriends in 1973 in Christmas time.

And I got recruited in February of 1974 at Queen's College. And that was the same month by the way the Patty Hearst was physically abducted by the Cindy and these liberation army, just for your

“listeners who are of an age to remember that. But when I got recruited, nobody knew anything”

about the moonies. They didn't really get public until later that year when the group was fasting for Nixon during Watergate. And I was part of that fasting that God wants to forgive loving you night no matter what Nixon did at Watergate. And then the media dubbed them the moonies and some young moon who claimed to be 10 times greater than Jesus Christ or any other religious leader loved that we were being called moonies. And I was promoted to a pretty high rank as an

American leader and not that I had any power at all that I was kind of a front person who was used to recruit an indoctrinated people. But before we got to your promotion, there was the luring in

“this country. Women flirting and lying and pretending that they were students and complementing”

me and doing what's called love bombing. And I had bicycle across country when I was 16. I should say I was raised in a middle middle class family. My father had a hardware store. My mom was an eighth grade art teacher. I have two older sisters. We lived in the same house in the same community, conservative Jewish upbringing. I had bicycle across country when I was 16. I was very anti-group, anti-authoritarian. I skipped eighth grade because I deemed a good tester or whatever.

So yeah, I had no belief that anyone could con me or brainwash me. It didn't enter my mind that anyone could brainwash me. But I became a fascist. I became a total fanatic that needed

“a formal deprogramming intervention after a near-fatal van crash. Before I started going,”

what? How could I do with the greatest man in human history? You went to the first meeting where

they just had, "Hey, come on over, let's hang out." You went, fine. And as I understand it, you had an instinct. This is a little off. And you said, "Is this a religious group? What is this?" They know, "No, no, no, no." And you left, kind of determined not to go back and then they all ran outside and the love bombing went kicked off and earnest. And most of us were susceptible to flattery and compliments and that kind of love from people who want to accept you, especially if it's

coming from a beautiful member of the opposite sex. Exactly. We're all human beings, and we all love to believe that we're special and that we're smart and that we can contribute to the world and make the world a better place. But if I said, I did ask them, "Are you part of a religious group?" "Oh, no, not at all." And they claimed to be students, which they weren't, but this was part of heavenly deception because members believe the world is controlled by Satan,

and therefore we need to use deception to trick Satan's children and to doing God's well. This is the-- and it's just the place. Yeah, what were the monies about and what did Mr. Moon get out of all this? So the monies-- well, I should say that the stereotypical cult leader playbook is they all

won power, money in sex, and it's always power. Usually money brings more power and often they're

sexual perverts and Moon was all three. The teachings vary based on who the cult was trying to influence to recruit. As a recruiter, I was taught to categorize potential recruits in terms of thinkers, feelers, doers, or believers. So if somebody represented the spirituality and religion as something important, then we would shape the recruitment that way if they were someone who is a

have this idyllic view of the storing the earth, the garden of Eden, etc. So and the idea with

“influence and mind control is if you think about the influencer and the influencer and see”

there's this relationship of someone has a vulnerability and everybody wants to improve themselves, it seems, or make the world a better place, some human need. If your schizophrenic cults will not want to recruit you or if you have absolutely apathetic, they don't want you either. They want people with talent and abilities and passion who can work long hours for a little or no pay. Try to raise money and give it to the cult. So power money and sex. So for me, I was mostly

recruiting and doing public types of influence things, but they had full-time fundraisers who were

bringing in around $30 million a year cash lying to people saying they were recruiting for

a Christian drug programs or whatever and the money was then used to buy property and then loans were taken out against the property to buy more and then invest in businesses and there was a congressional subcommittee investigation in the '70s that I wound up being an expert for looking into Korean CIA activities in the U.S. And as they were researching the monies, because they were part of that plan, the researcher said this is a group with hundreds of front

groups. Let's just call them the moon organization because they're all following sun-myeong-moon. And sun-myeong-moon was best known at that time for mass weddings where he would assign men and women to marry. They often didn't know each other or even speak the same language, but they believe that he was God's greatest man on Earth's enlist and he had the power to match you with your ideal

“mate. And so he had the I think the Guinness Book of Records of 30,000 couples at one time”

in this-- - Were you, were you? Did you believe that? Did you think he had these powers and belief in his

ability to just find the right mate of people who had never-- - Under percent, who I was trained

to not allow negative thoughts because I was programmed to believe negative thoughts were coming from demons. And we were literally taken to see the exorcist movie when it came out and then moon gave lecture how God made this movie and it was a prophecy of what would happen if we left. So one thing I want to explain to you and your listeners is that mine control is best understood as a dissociative disorder. So the old Steve Hassan, son of Milton and Estelle Hassan, got replaced

by Steve Hassan, son of Summyeong-moon, and Huckja-han, the true parents of the universe. I was still in there, but I was being suppressed. Think about a computer virus that hacks your computer and takes over your operating system. That's an easy analogy for what it's like. And in my case because I almost died in a van crash due to sleep deprivation and was away from the cult and then wanted to prove to my family I wasn't brainwashed, I agreed to meet with ex-members and learn about

Chinese communist brainwashing, et cetera, the real me popped out. And I had all these memories of things that should have maybe run from the cult. But again, this cult identity that had been programmed into me was an executive control. The people think maybe this is just a small niche thing. It's not. There are a lot of cults in America even today. And I know, I mean, I've talked a lot about Scientology on this show and the other shows I've had, but they have a lot

“of the features where you buy in at this level and then you have to pay all this money to advance”

to the next level. And that's also I know a feature of cults more over them learning what your weaknesses are and these little sessions that they have where you've got to like pour your heart out through these little candles, some cans, the soup cans through the string like we used to do when we were kids. And then the other person knows all your vulnerabilities which get used against you, but like the cult Michelle talked about, like the moonies, there's something for you in there.

There's a progressive people move on. There's no reason to bask in that negativity.

“You just you get rid of them. There's something attractive and there's something positive about it.”

So there's always something, right? They do have something good to really you in until you

learn about all the other stuff. But by that point, they're hoping it's too late. So I want you to be clear and understand and your listeners that people don't understand what the group is and what the beliefs are, what's going to happen to them. If there was actual informed consent where people understood what the beliefs were, people wouldn't get involved in the first place. In my work and in my doctoral dissertation

that I did, I talk about behavior control, information control, thought control, and emotional control variables. I call it the bite model of authoritarian control. And I go through a laundry list of the most common techniques at all types of cults, political cults, therapy cults, religious cults, cults, one-on-one cults, even. Use on people. And what's missing for the public is to have an understanding that influence

exists on a continuum from ethical influence to unethical and what to watch out for.

“So prevent the education and that's why I'm so grateful that you had Michelle on your show”

and that I'm able to do this show is because people don't want to be lied to. They don't want to be tricked. They don't want to be mine controlled and abused or trafficked. And if they understood how to reality test for themselves, whether they're a mine control environment, then they won't join or they'll get out if they're already in. So I've had a long interest in this, including interviews in depth with Katherine Oxenberg, who she was a famous star. She is a famous star,

and was very big in the 1980s, and her daughter India, Oxenberg, who was lured into this cult nexium, which is from my hometown, Albany, New York. I wouldn't have thought it could happen

in an upstate New York community. People are very sensible. You kind of always think it's not going

to be me. It's not going to be my hometown, where to sense no wrong, can happen anywhere. And here she is this glamorous, absolutely stunning woman, very well known in her beautiful daughter,

“and they went for a female empowerment. That's what they were told that was going to be about,”

you know, started business for female leaders. And her daughter thought that was attractive and Katherine thought, sure, I'll go, I'll support you. And they went and then they took like maybe another seminar and then maybe a third and then Katherine was like, yeah, I'm good. And India was getting more and more into it. And of course, you did need to buy up to the next level of courses, and it had all the features, right? It was like a revered, the one guy Keith Reniri, this short,

unattractive, disgusting man. They always are. It's never the Robert Redford Brad Pitt type,

who's at the center. All the women as it turns out were having sex with him. The women wound up it being branded within this weird little sex cult that was like baked into the cult anyway. It was such a story as Katherine tried to get her daughter out of this thing. God successfully. But the polling out is so much harder than the polling in. Yeah, exactly. I would say that I knew about Keith Reniri when he got busted by 20 attorneys

general for his multi-level marketing cult, consumers, byline, multi-level marketing cults, you know, promise the pie in the sky, you'll make a fortune. But it's all about behavior, information, fought in emotional control. To make people dependent, he was forbidden from doing an MLM. He recruited Nancy Salzman to be the front person and didn't MLM for coaching. And so the whole NXCM program, I have a lot of information on my freedom of mind.com website about NXCM and all the

techniques they've used. And I'll also add, after my deprogramming in 1976 from the Monies, I befriended excientologists and started learning. I befriended Paul at Cooper, who was her mercil--unmersly attacked by Scientology. And I got labeled a suppressive person. And I'm very close friends with John Ateck, who's written the best books on Scientology being a former member himself and brilliant. People need to understand. It can happen to anyone. And it makes a lot of

sense for preventive education, consumer awareness. Again, why I'm so grateful, Megan, that you're

workshop. Or, I don't know, you know, you learn how to do some sort of stress management techniques.

“What have you? There's all sorts of things out there. And they bounce from one to another, but they never”

get drawn into a cult. Like they don't wind up giving their money. They, you know, they just sort of test different things. But is there a personality type who is more likely to be susceptible to this? A personality type. I would say probably if you're oriented to being a people pleaser and you haven't been taught how to be assertive to say no, you're going to be more likely susceptible to being manipulated, especially by trained recruiters who know a lot of social

influence techniques. But I want to stay categorically that everyone is situationally vulnerable. Death of a loved one and illness, a breakup and a relationship, losing a job, moving to a new city-state or country that throws you off balance where somebody can come in and start telling you with certainty how much your life can get better or how they can you can be helped to save the world and make the world a better place. With Scientology, it's more about power than saving the world.

There's an element of clearing the planet and getting rid of all the evil mental health professionals. I'm one of those. But mostly it's a situational vulnerability and lack of awareness that it could happen to you. So if you're walking around thinking, it only happens to weak people or stupid people or an educated people, then you're really very, very vulnerable. Think again, what is it about

“Keith Reneri or Sonja and Moon or Elran Hubbard and now his disciple David Miscavage of Scientology?”

What is it about them that makes them so good at persuasion? That makes them, you know,

you're talking about Keith Reneri. He's just some loser. I mean, this guy never accomplished

anything in his life. So how does he have these enormous powers of persuasion to get so many people to follow him? That's a really good question. So I want to cite Eric from who is brilliant wrote in the '40s. He talked about malignant narcissists. And I have said in my books that this is the stereotypical profile of cult leaders, the grandiosity, the certainty, the need for attention, but the lack of empathy, but also thinking that they're above the law, the pathological

“lying and there's a whole list that I have on my website. So certainty is something that the average”

person tends to go, hmm, they're so sure. Maybe they know something I don't know as opposed to this person has a personality disorder. There are narcissists. Yeah. And I should be more skeptical of anyone with that level of certainty and such, but I also want to comment that I just finished two chapters for a textbook on hypnosis about the dark side of hypnosis. And I wrote about Hubbard being a hypnotist and that the entire system is based on hypnosis and Kroneri learned

neurolinguistic programming, which was based on the work of Milton Erickson, who was the penaltimate hypnotherapists, psychiatrists. So what I want to say to your listeners is that human beings go in and out of altered states of consciousness all day long and hypnosis is not sleep. It's about a focusing and narrowing of your attention, which makes you more suggestible to ideas. And this is a great superpower for people who are super successful to enter into this kind of

flow state, where they're able to super concentrate. But if you're in an environment with someone with a hidden agenda, who can start putting in beliefs and ideas like you've lived before or that, you know, the world is filled with body fatens, which is part of Hubbard's sci-fi ideology.

The critical mind gets gets bypassed. So again, the critical thing always to protect yourself is

to critics and former members. And if you're in a group that says, don't ever listen to X members

“or critics, automatically you should be going, that's information control. I'm an intelligent”

human being. Let me hear what the critics and former members have to say and I'll decide for myself whether or not that has validity or not. This is why I say when I was in Fox News, I was in a cult and it's not to say it wasn't a real cult. But there were, there were cultish elements in that once you leave, you are otherwise. That is it. You don't leave. Once you're out, you are banished, you know, you're shunned. And when I was there, it was all about

reverence to dear leader who was Roger Ailes, who ran that place with an iron fist and would absolutely be telling you not to listen to anything the Lib said, that was his political bias, but also there was something different about it. And just the way the people would talk about Roger, like I hear remnants of it when I hear stories about Scientology about how Roger proves this. Well, Roger likes that. Well, Roger thought this, as if he was this deity that somehow had

“you know, greater divine knowledge than the rest of us. And so where do you draw the line between?”

Well, they just loved the guy because he was a genius and he built a really powerful news

organization. And this is getting culty, right? Like I still don't know exactly where that line is. So it's a really important point. I just put up on my podcast and interview with a leadership professor of business about Elizabeth Holmes and Tetheranos. And he did a journal article talking about corporate cults and the qualities to to evaluate and it comes back to the charismatic figure who cannot be criticized, who is held up and not accountable, not transparent, doesn't apologize and

say that they're wrong, but the control of behavior, information, thoughts and emotions in order

“to make people dependent and obedient. And so to stay in your job, you need to adopt the corporate”

identity. Keep your thoughts to yourself and follow the rules or be ostracized and criticize. And that's the opposite of healthy corporations and healthy groups where they want to send. They want to hear other points of view that the leaders, if they screw up, they say sorry and they really make policy changes. But if you're in a authoritarian, you want total power and control. Well, the NBC might be a cult too because they didn't want to opposite points of view and from

with, you know, that's a news problem. That's the most important thing about my work is I'm against

the authoritarianism on the left and the right. I'm against, I want human rights for all. I want, I want to support human rights, women's rights, gay rights. I want people to be free to think and not just conform and follow in lemon-like fashion, whatever they're being told. You know, I always say my own experience and this may be one of the reasons why I'm so interested in this subject is it took years after leaving Fox for really that second skin to come off. You know what I mean?

Like, it took a long time, even to be honest with you, I was a knee jerk defender of Fox News for a long time. Like, no, they didn't know that you're wrong. Well, don't criticize them like that. Well, that's not true. And to this day, I have some fear in criticizing them because I was there for some 14 years. Like, I have a bit of a emotional hangover from these problems. So this is a really important point that you make. And when I talk about the bite model and the

E is emotional control, emotional control includes feeling awe and reverence of feeling special and chosen, but mostly it's about fear and guilt. And the universal mind control technique is what I call phobia indoctrination, which is the incultation of irrational fears that if you ever leave the group or criticize the leader, terrible things are going to happen to you. And the way to get out

of phobia programming is to think back who you were before you got involved and to use your critical

frontal cortex to evaluate what's an actual danger, where you should have fear and what's an irrational

with some of these criminal enterprises, people should be afraid of speaking out against them

because they can be harassed or harmed physically. But most religious cults, most cults, I would say, in the United States, it's a psychological imprisonment. And why it took time for you is time brings perspective through experiences outside of the totalist environment. The more contact you have with normal people and other frames of reverence. And also, I would suspect your interest in Scientology and Nexium and other things, that gave you some tools to start thinking and getting perspective

“on Fox would be my friend. No, I remember I was at NBC. We were covering Nexium. I was up”

neck deep on that story. And I was doing an interview on what occult is and what are the defining

characteristics. And Iris, I said on camera, oh my God, I was in a cult. It was the aha moment. I watched that interview, actually. Yeah. It was, and truly, I don't mean to be completely, this isn't my cult hangover. But I don't mean to be completely disparaging of this place that gave me all these opportunities. And I made a lot of money there. But it's more than just a normal news organization. There's just no question about it. And the more is not healthy. So all right,

enough about me. How do we extract somebody who we know? I mean, like this actually happened to my

“friend Katherine Oxenberg. She had to extract India. And India did not want to hear anything”

negative about Nexium or Keith Reniri from Katherine, Katherine had been otherwise. Katherine had been made the outsider and a threat. So it's a very ginger, delicate process for someone like Katherine or loved one like your family trying to extract loved one. Right. So I want to say that I was extracted after near-fatal van crash in 1976. And I got involved for a year with extracting other people from the Monies called deprogramming. And I realized this is not healthy. This is traumatizing

and then it became illegal when judges stopped giving conservatorships to parents. So I just turned my back on that approach, but I still wanted to help people involved with cults. So I embarked in now it's 47 years later, but I embarked on a process of wanting to understand the programming elements and what are the patterns that have helped people to get out? And to reality test. And that's why I've written four books on the subject and have a course that I've just put up for mental health

professionals especially to help their clients. And what works the best is empowering people to reflect and reality tests for themselves versus trying to persuade them that the group is wrong or bad or the leader is wrong or bad. And it's about warmth, respect, asking questions, and understanding the methodology involved with creating this dual identity or dissociative disorder to get the person back in time before they joined to start remembering what did they think their life was going

to be when they went to that first session. And if you knew then what you know now, if you could go back

in time and he were being arrested as India was on the threat of arrest, you can start to activate the person's core identity. And as you educate them about Chinese communist brainwashing or pimps or traffickers and explain the influence continuum and the bite model, you're asking them questions and pointing out these other areas or other cults that they would say are brainwashing, people, and people exit themselves as when I'm trying to say Megan. But if you can create a team of

“family members, friends, former members, and that's why I loved Michelle is doing this book for”

ager. There are so many other former members who are born and cults or recruited in cults writing books. What I love about this is it's people sharing their stories will help to destigmatize the idea that only weak stupid people are in these groups, right? And that many people have life after cult or life after group, so they can have a future in their mind where that's happier. Yeah, so the

So again, I don't think of extractions. I have what I call the strategic interactive approach.

“And unfortunately, it's labor intensive and time intensive. So families who want to just”

write me a check and tell me to go get their loved one. I don't take those clients. I work with

people who love this under daughter or their husband or wife or their mother or father. And I coach

“them on how to interact. So it happens over time. And I would say the earlier you can start in this”

project to the person's recruitment, the faster they're going to exit. If you start this process 10 years later or 20 years later, in a way, it's easier to get them to think critically because they've

“had a long body of negative experiences that have been suppressed, but it's harder to”

re-socialize. And again, you want a face saving exit for people to say we love you. We want you in our life. And again, the idea isn't to try to control them or to tell them what to think or to tell them what they're doing is wrong. But to ask them to think over what it is they're doing and persuade you perhaps to, you know, why it's so good that you would might consider to get involved yourself.

It's a very powerful frame. Oh, I hope you enjoy this show as much as I did.

Cults are fascinating. Are they fascinating to you? They probably are if you're sitting here listening to this. Thanks for listening to the Megan Kelly Show, no BS, no agenda, and no fear. (upbeat music)