"Just A guy, not THE guy," and other advice Marielle loves

Hey, it's Marylle. Today we've got a special episode. It's a little meta, actually. A conversation about giving advice. That's what we do here at "LifeKit."

But we're not the only ones on this advice game. The podcast "Am I doing it wrong from the Huffington Post?" Well, they're like our cousins in a way. There's a conversation show that explores the anxieties we all have about trying to get our lives right.

Everything from how to say "sorry" to how to do your laundry. And their hosts, Raj Punjabi Johnson, and Noah Michaelson, invited me on to talk about this thing we do. Talking to experts, bringing you advice. We get into some of the best advice we've gotten in our personal lives.

How we decide when to share personal details on our shows and some of the episodes we're itching to do. It was a really fun conversation, and that's coming up after the break. [Music] Hi, I'm Raj Punjabi Johnson, head of identity content at Huffington Post.

And I know Michaelson, head of Huffington Post, personal. Welcome to a very special bonus episode of "Am I doing it wrong?" Today we are talking to Maryel Sagarra, the host of "NPR's LifeKit." Raj, I have a love life kit.

I never thought we'd have this like world's colliding work

to advice shows but come together. It's gonna be magical. Yeah, let's get into it. Maryel, thank you for being here. We're so excited to chat with you. Yeah, thanks for having me.

It's, I guess, not that often that like three advice givers, getters, I'll get in a room together. So we thought it'd just be fun to sort of say like, "How do we do this? Why do we do this? What is our lives like?" Yeah.

And I guess the question we can start with is, you know, as a professional advice giver or someone who facilitates that, what's the best piece of advice that you've gotten in your life?

“Yeah, I think I get a lot of really good advice from my dad.”

Hmm. He gives advice on a range of things and there are these pearls of wisdom that come out at just the right moment. So I remember him saying to me after a bad breakup once, this is not, he's not the guy. He's just a guy.

Ah, love that. You know, and he also told me that I just needed to change a channel in my head, like turn off this guy's channel and turn into something else. That was so, it was so right, you know, and in that moment,

you can't always feel that, you're deep, deep in it.

He also told me that, you know, when you have like jars of tomato sauce and there's a bit of the sauce that gets on the lid. Yes. He was like, "If you want the jar to last longer and not get moldy, clean off that sauce from the lid," because that seems to be the first spot

that gets moldy. This is not scientifically proven, but it does seem to be true for, yeah. I love that, though, from like high and low, like the whole spectrum of, like, from men, what to do with men, what to do with your tomato sauce jar. Yeah.

“That's really sweet. Raj, what about you, best advice you've gotten?”

Oh, I think on the show, on our podcast, a lot of people encourage us to not judge ourselves and be gentle with ourselves. That's my favorite advice and it keeps coming up. It's a motif. Just, you know, whatever we're talking about, whether it's like cholesterol and heart health or like a breakup or whatever,

it's like, take a bee and just stop judging yourself and I judge myself so much. I feel like we all do. So that feels really good. Would you feel like you're judging yourself less than doing the show? Oh, yeah. I mean, I also have always felt that way, but it's hard to put into practice. I always say that to my friends. I'm like, oh my god, gentle, please.

Yeah, my best friend you're talking about, but we forget to do that for ourselves. For sure. Yeah. My best advice is definitely from two women in my life.

First, my mom, she always said, before you send an email or you make a big decision, sleep on it.

And I was like, that I love to, like, fire something off, you know, and just, yeah. Just the passion inside of me is like, I want to get on this immediately. And she's like, just wait, you can do it in 12 hours. And that has saved me so many times. Yeah. Do you find it challenging to wait, though? I do, but I'm getting better. Okay.

The more you practice, it's kind of like, it's cool to look at your, like, former self. Maybe, like, even six months ago. And be like, I'm doing this. You know, the serves me more. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You can also take a walk at that self or take a bath. It sounds so cliche, but there's a reason that in every movie that they say, take a walk when

the person is like freaking out. It's so true. It gets you into your body. Same thing with taking a shower or a bath is like, get out of your head, get into your body.

“Take a second. I think a lot of therapists recommend that for people experiencing anxiety too.”

Mm-hmm. Just like, a temperature change or like a change of scenery or whatever it is.

Yes. Yeah. Yeah. So kind of magical.

Or we've heard too play Tetris. Oh, I don't know that one. Yeah. You do because you were in the episode. Or maybe learn about it from Dr. Shafer. If you're having a panic attack or you're dealing with heavy emotions. Whatever part of your brain use it that you use to play Tetris, sort of like dismantles the panic, which I thought was so interesting. I wonder if it has to do with problem solving. That's true. Yeah.

It's a good front front front front. Low ceiling. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, the fact that I didn't remember that means I have a lot of advice like crannacks. Well, we've been doing this long. Yeah. Yeah. You know, which I think is kind of an exciting

thing to look back and realize. The other one I'm going to say too is my old therapist

Gail when I was 21 and I had just gotten dumped and I was like going through it.

“And I would catastrophize and she would say, what's the worst thing that's going to happen?”

If you do that thing or if that thing happens. I'd be like, I know it's not that big of a deal and she's saying no. I actually want you to name it. Yeah. And once I did, she's like, okay, you're not going to die. Like, you would get through that even if it was terrible. And so now I still do that to the stay when I'm really anxious about something. I think what is the worst possible thing and I work backwards from it. It really helps me. Yeah. So I want to,

I've thought about this before. Yeah. In, there were moments when someone said what's the worst

thing that could happen and the worst thing that could happen was really bad. Like, you know,

like, it could be the worst thing that could happen is that you die. Yes. But even that is an exercise can be useful because when you actually face your own mortality, you're like, oh, okay. I it's probably not going to be that bad. But it is, it is. I have no control for it. Yep.

“So. And if I die, then I'm done. That's what I always say to you. If I die, I'm done.”

But I won't be worried about it either. You know, yeah. That's kind of morbid. But I do feel a release and a liberation in that. There is something about that. Like, I have airplane anxiety sometimes. Like turbulence anxiety. And that thing about like, what's the worst thing that could happen? I sometimes also, the reality hits me that like, I have a lot of love in my life. I've done a lot of things. Yeah. And like, haven't led the worst life. Like, you know,

I haven't like, oh, 23 regrets that I'm like sitting on either. Right. So yeah, mortality. That's crazy. I mean, this is getting very, very, very quickly. But I have a bar conversation. It's like, yeah, we drunk right now. But no, I thought about this when I was diagnosed with cancer and the end of 2023. And then I went through treatment in 2024. And a lot of people when they are diagnosed, especially if there's because there's a moment where you're still waiting for your

all your scans and tests and biopsies to come back. And you don't know how serious it is. It hasn't been staged yet. Right. And you really are confronting like, what am I thinking about dying in the next six months? Ten years? Like, or normal? Like, or like, or like, the expect the, the hopeful, like, when I'm 90, a lot of people when they're faced with that, they think, oh my god, I have to make all these changes in my life. I didn't feel that way. That's not really

really good. Like, I was like, I show people and tell people that I love them. I treat people with care and respect. I'm doing work that's meaningful to me. I have a lot of family and friends and community. I don't know. I, I'm not happy all the time, but nobody is. That's not a reasonable expectation. I feel like I'm living a meaningful, joyful life. Yeah, magical. It's a gift in that

“moment to have some perspective about what your life is. Yeah. You know, yeah, that's intense.”

And I know you've talked about your experience on the podcast. Yeah. And I'm, I'm interesting to know. And because we all talked to a lot of experts. And we are kind of better verse at some topics than the other. What do you, Mary, I'll consider yourself an expert in? To a certain extent, I have some expertise in having head cancer and being, in going through treatment and being a part of, like, being in the hospital and, and having to deal with the health care

system and the, the massive bureaucracy that is the health care system. Yeah. And it doesn't make sense a lot of the time. And I, I had some experience with that before, but then when you're going to a lot of, of appointments, like you end up bumping up against some, some of the most ridiculous things. Yeah. And there were many moments where I felt like profit was more important than patience. So there's that aspect of it and just dealing with all the red tape of health insurance. Yeah.

I feel like I'm not really an expert in anything. I don't either. I was thinking about that. Yeah. I think mine's more existential. Mine's like, I feel like I'm an expert. I think I know a lot about therapy because I've been to a lot of therapy. Yeah. So like I'm familiar with what all

about therapy. So not an expert, but I feel comfortable there. Okay. Where do you feel comfortable?

And I mean, I've been a manager in a writer for almost 20 years. So I feel like storytelling is something I'm really good at. I'm really good at zooming out and seeing the big picture. And I really enjoy that. So someone will come to me even even Benji. He's my partner. He's a reporter and he'll say, you know, I'm writing this thing and I'll say, okay, but did you think about this part of it? Right. I feel like I'm often like on the space station three miles up from the story.

And I can see the whole thing. Yeah. And I find that really, really enjoyable. I just didn't say one more thing, just from like being around Noah. Noah is an expert in people in humans. Like I've seen him communicate with people in that like everyone he's ever communicated with, like in a very tactful diplomatic way. That's very, gentle and kind. Sometimes like we get interesting emails. Like for both of us. And I'm like, are you even kidding me? Right. And Noah writes back this like

thoughtful, balanced, unbothered email. Yeah. And I'm just like, oh, I was at the Christmas

“dude out. I, that's because I take a beat. That's what I'm told me. I probably want to curse him”

out too, but I was like, let's just wait a second and see what my real feeling. Well, I just did.

I would love to know more about life kit and how you guys choose what topics to do, like what's that process like? Yeah, a lot of it and you all may do this as well. It comes from your own life. Right. You're just, you're walking through the world and realize that you don't actually fully understand this thing. When we have our pitch meetings, a lot of episode ideas come from either from me, our showrunner, our producers, our reporter, everybody sort of tunes into what's going

on in their lives, I think, and that inspires some of their questions. We also get, we get a lot of book pitches, so we will go through those and sort of look especially for books that have takeaways that are clear in them because sometimes there can be a book that has really interesting research, but it's more defining the problem than it is like coming up with a solution or even like researching a solution. We also do episodes where we have reporters for our newsroom come in,

so whatever's like they're covering. Yeah, like our reporter Will Stone, he covers, he's a health correspondent for NPR and he just did a whole newsletter for us on strength training and also like we had him on the show to talk about it and just like myths about strength training, which

“were really useful and surprising to me too. Yeah, yeah. I think we're similar and how we choose,”

it is a lot of like what we are dealing with. I think the trick for us, which I and I love this, we were talking about this earlier before we came out in the air, you guys can do sort of like more specific or little chunks because sometimes you just do 15 minutes and Raj and I usually talk for at least 35, 40, so we want a topic that feels big enough that we can really spend some time on it, but not so big that we can't get everything or we can't get into it. Sometimes I think we think

somethings feel too specific. Yeah. Like we would love to do an episode on weddings for say, but it's like weddings are so different depending on your budget, depending on your culture, depending on what you want, so like how do you give people advice about weddings when it could be so wildly different? We haven't cracked that one yet. Yeah, there is some topics where I'm like, I don't even know how we're going to approach this because it would be like four episodes. Yeah,

but I do think we also think a lot about what would feel very universal and there are at first,

I was like, oh no, we're also, we all have like different cultural perspective, it's not. No, there are certain things that especially like we had an episode on laundry, like full episode, it was one of our most popular ones. Yeah. Everyone is thinking about this and like it's very universally appealing and it's kind of cool to get into that mindset like what are we all kind of

“struggling with? Yeah. Yeah, the day to day stuff, I think those broad episodes that could appeal”

to a lot of people tend to do well, anything on finance or health, and then life skills like laundry, like you said, weddings is a certain subset of people. Sometimes, I mean, I know we've done some coverage on weddings, maybe not recently, but it can help to try to take a slice, I think, what about weddings? Like, is it, or even think of a slice of what stage are you at in the process? Like, are you deciding whether you want to have a wedding at all? Are you, you know,

it's just starting to plan the wedding. Is it the day before you're wedding? And you're like, how do I actually have a good wedding day? You know, or like, how do you set yourself up to have a good

wedding? Because maybe for you, like, it's to have a good wedding day, it can't be some massive

“thing, some some performance, essentially, or it could be like, if you're, I could see you doing”

an episode about like deciding what kind of wedding you want, and part of that is also communicating with your family and setting expectations and saying, like, I know that this may be disappointing to you, but this is what we're deciding to do. It's so true. Benji and I just got engaged and we're planning our wedding right now. And I've realized more and more that like the wedding's not actually about you, or often it isn't, it's about all these other people's expectations of what they want.

Yeah. Especially if you have someone else paying for it, if your parents are paying for what did they want? You know what I mean? What does grandma want? Like, there's so much to take into it. I will say Benji and I are not considering anyone else's feelings. Yeah. I'm not literally having a party that we want to have, but yeah, I will say,

first of all, a cool thing you can do is get married in a nunch or like, later,

I got married when I was like 40, and no one really had to say, people were just excited that I was going to do it. They're like, oh my god, do whatever you want. So it became absolutely about me and my partner. I also said, I love this slice kind of thing because there's also like being a wedding a good wedding

“guest. There's like gifting. Like, I think there's like several layers to that wedding cake,”

if you will. Yeah. And I think we can have all episodes on that. I think the thing that we struggle with is that we only have one episode a week. Yeah. And so if we have a really sort of a slice that a lot of people just aren't going to care about,

right. They're going to dip out, you know. And that's something we worried about more when we first started.

I think we now, thankfully, have a lot of listeners who just want to hear about a topic. Even if they don't care that much, they're just like, oh, maybe I'll learn something. And that's exciting too. But it's sort of like an algorithm thing. It's like, how do we figure out what people really want to hear? Yeah. No, that's a good point because we have three episodes a week. Yeah. And so jealous of that. We have more room to give a buffet as Megan puts it sometimes our

showrunner. And that seems to work really well for us. We also have the radio show, so which is a version of one of the episodes from the week. And we have our Instagram and we do a lot of Instagram videos and we have our newsletter. So everything kind of like, we can use little pieces from different things or even like, we do versions of an episode for all things considered or morning edition. And that'll be like a three or four minute version of it. That's so smart though.

I love that. I have a follow up with that one. With all the different mediums, do you feel like you have a different audience in mind? Like, how do you think about who are you talking to in like, get especially? I think that's something that we think about too. Yeah. Yes, I think we do have a different audience, especially for radio for traditional radio broadcasts, tends to skew a little bit older. And also, it's a more general audience in the sense that they're not necessarily

seeking you out. They're turning on their radio, maybe when they're in the car, maybe when they first wake up. That's part of their routine. And there are some shows that radio listeners will

seek out. Like, they're like, oh, I always listen to Brian Lerr in the morning or whatever. But very

“often, it'll be people who are just just listening to NPR. And so you have to, I think, give more”

context and also choose topics for the radio show or for those, those like four minute pieces that would apply to a quite broad audience. Whereas on the podcast, you can go a little more narrow because people are coming to you and they can read the headline and say, yeah, interested, not interested, you know, and they'll, if they're not interested in an episode, they might listen still because they just like the vibe or they are like, oh, well, that's not really for me, but my sister's going

through something like this. Or they might skip that one and then, and then listen to the next one. I think for our audience in general for the life-kit audience, I would say that we're going for people who are sort of striving. They want to make their lives better. They want to kind of, it's similar to like the title of your show. Am I doing it wrong? Like, how do I do it right? You know, or how do I just feel better? How do I, how do I get to the next step in my life,

maybe I'm thinking about like, am I going to try to buy property or am I going to pay off my student loans or how can I kind of get my finances in order or I want to be healthier. I want to make sure I'm on top of my screenings for whatever it is, like colon cancer or breast cancer or like,

our audience. You know, my friend Chia uses this word a lot and ease, where I think it's,

“it's not the first thing I go to, but it's exactly what I'm looking for more in life. And I don't”

mean ease as in like, I get to sit back and do nothing. I mean ease as in less struggle. So when I'm trying to learn about, you know, doing my lipids labs on time and like maybe being better financially and like doing my taxes earlier and being better, like what you're talking about, it's to bring more ease in my life. Yeah, I want less struggles. Some mornings I wake up and I'm like, oh my god, I have 70 things to do and I'm late to all of them. Yeah, I need less of that. Yeah.

Like who wants that to happen to their blood pressure? Like no. Yeah. It's just stressful. And we actually get a lot of grief from people about the name of the show and they say, you know, I feel like you are like telling us that we're doing everything wrong. And like if you actually listen to the show, that's sort of the opposite. Like the show is sort of a provocative title. Yeah. But what you find out when you listen to the show is that Raj and I are doing everything wrong.

And we just like you said, we want to do it a little bit better. Yeah. And we're doing joyful and absolutely, exactly. And so like, I think that is the thing is that like these shows are supposed to help people not be as anxious about life. Yeah. You know, and I loved you just had an episode with proof, leave from bake off that you reran. Yeah. And I was listening to it today and she was talking

“about her new cookbook and how it's called something like it's life is too short to stuff a mushroom.”

Yeah. Yeah. And she was saying, you know, like, yeah, like spend your time worrying about things that really matter. And I think these kind of shows that we do and I feel really lucky to get to be part of it. It's like, we are telling people like, here are some ways just to make life a little easier. And you can pick one or two and maybe try it and if you do, things could be better. And if you don't,

that's fine too. Yeah. I mean, ultimately, there's not someone, there's no like permanent record.

You know, there's no record card that someone's keeping track of everything you do. These changes that you make are just for yourself, really, or your family, you and your family. And the idea of making your life easier, I like that a lot because it's sort of like sometimes I have things in my house that have just been a certain way for so long that I don't think about it. And then you can make one minor design change. Yeah. And you're like, oh, that's so much easier. You're like,

life change. Your whole life changes. Yeah. Like getting a different laundry basket or getting like, oh, now that I, this is actually kind of the reverse of it, I have to figure out a solution. But I installed a new bathroom sink. And what's it called the vanity underneath it? Is that like, you know, yeah, the drawer thing underneath it. And also, we read the tile in the bathroom. So now, it's a little bit higher. And then the mirror on the wall is in the same place. So the mirror

that swings, the door swings open, hits the soap dispenser and knocks it over every time. So I have to get a different soap dispenser because this is just like not tenable. Yeah. But I guess what

“that's your morning routine. And I feel like it shapes her whole day when I think that is why”

I'm like, yeah, that is part of why. Yeah. All those little things, little tweaks that you can make that it's like, oh, I actually can change my life. And even in these small ways. And it changes my, my feeling of am I in chaos or am I do I kind of have this. That's the struggle I'm talking about. I want like, I just want to feel less mental chaos. Well, that makes me wonder for you to, what is, are some things that you've learned from hosting the show, your shows, that you've

actually incorporated into your own life. You know, what are some of the advice that you've gotten in real time and you're like, actually, that made my own life better. So many things. Yeah. Well, one thing that I've actually been doing is I got an alarm clock and I moved my phone out of my room. So many people have told us to do that. I can't do it. I've so jealous of you. I got an analog alarm clock. It does not connect to the internet. Yeah. So it's great. Like, it makes me

really happy that I finally was able to do this because I kept scrolling through my phone every

morning. And even when I would block the apps like Instagram or whatever, I still would find stuff to look at on the phone. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I just ridiculous or looking at old photos or whatever. And it's like, I don't want the first thing I do to be looking at this device. So we have done a lot of episodes around, you know, phone health. Like, basically how to how to have some separation from your phone and use it as a tool rather than letting it use you. Yeah. Also,

there's one, it's everything from like, like, big picture emotional to the tiny little things.

peroxide to remove them. And it works so well. Like, it just kind of disappears it instantly.

“Apparently, you can also try using cold water, but I kind of like, the hydrogen peroxide. It”

makes it like bubble. Yeah. Yeah. And it just works really well. Another is about moving. Like,

just, you first of all, that you don't have to do your exercise all in one chunk. You don't have

to do your cardio all in, like, one 30 minute slot. You can do it throughout the day and just fit things in and tie them together with something else you're already doing. So you do calf raises when you brush your teeth. You know, yesterday as I was writing this episode, which is about investing diversification, and it was really thick. It was like, it's nutrient dense. And so every time I wrote, I finished writing a section of it, I would do 10 squats. Oh, that's it. Yeah. And it helped

me also get, like, I don't know, it helped me think in a way. Oh, we just, I had an episode with Dr. Wendy Suzuki on, you know, memory and exercise and brain health. And she was talking about that. And it was so useful. Like, I love the idea of kind of like exercising throughout the day. And yeah, you're creativity and you're like mental acuity. Just like, yeah, it's, you get sharper. Yeah,

“the mind body link is real. And I think, yeah, the more you move your body, the more I find that”

to when I'm trying to write something, I don't want to walk. And I write a lot of the piece I'm writing in my notes app on my computer. Yeah, that's so fun. I need a little bit of distraction in my body's moving. And yeah, I think that's great. Raj, what are some of the things that you have learned that you have incorporated? One that I am thinking about right now because we're talking about brain health. We had a brain health episode with Dr. Rita. And I remember, you know, I bring up

devices in our podcast a lot, smoking weed and drinking and things I do to like just regularly and self-sadate, I'm sorry. Raj loves the martini. Yeah. And Dr. Rita gave me permission to have my martini when I get, I do get, you know, lectured a lot in a good way as I should about alcohol. But she was like, have the martini like drink your drinks, but then for 48 after 48 hours after you've to like flush your life out. Like water, like vegetables and stuff. And like it was a very

“specific piece of advice. And you can take if you want to. But it did make me think a lot about”

moderation and just balance in life. Like, I'm a yogi and that goes with yoga a lot like, you know, being able to balance things, you know. We did get a very angry email though about that tip where they said, you're a doctor. How dare you say that we can throw away drinking is so bad for you. And that's the other thing we love about our experts, I think, is that we are experts are pretty good about moderation too. We don't want to be prescriptive. We don't want to be proud of it.

Yeah. So I'm going to do it. And also think about how we feel about authority that's too perspective. Like, we're just going to shut it off. Like, it feels judged. Yeah. What about you?

So I feel like so many good things. And you, you take good advice. We have this amazing

guest named Jason Tetro. He's called the germ guy. He lives in Canada. And he's done a bunch of episodes with us about like just germs everywhere. One of the ones that just shocked me was the idea of a poo plume. Also when you flush the toilet, if you don't shut the lid, poo is just flying up up to six feet in the air and landing everywhere. If you're toothbrushes by the toilet, there's probably poo on it. So I do know that. Like, I do keep my toothbrush in in that little cabinet.

But like, what about when you're at the, at, you know, a restaurant and you're in the bathroom, and it doesn't have a lid. So he's just, literally, he's like flush it and run. I, I do that out of the stall. Did I make sure you're ready to go? I flush, I've said this on that podcast. I flush with my foot and I run. Yeah, I'm like, there's something that we care about, like, as individuals. It's something we care less about. I'm really worried about the poo plume and the pee plume. And for the most

part, the poo plumes not going to hurt you. You know, that's the thing. It's like, if it were, then people would be getting really sick all the time. But just in my head, once I heard that, I was like, I shut the, I shut the lid every single time and I, and I, and I run as well. So things like that. I love a public bathroom sprinter. Like, that's who I am. Yeah, another one too. We had an episode on, like, how to take care of your eyes. And I were contacts, and she was like,

do not ever sleep in your contacts? Never. Or wear them the shower. Or wear them in the shower.

I still do that. I know, but that was that similar stage. Or as maybe I'm just telling myself that, but she was like, I was like, if I'm, you know, away for a weekend, and I forgot my solution to store my contacts, would you rather I slept in them or put them in tap water? She was like, I would rather that you just couldn't see for the weekend. Yeah. Do not do either. And so like that, I get a lot of wake-up calls on this show. Because I do appreciate the drama. Because I think

you know, experts in their field in every sense of the word, look into our eyes and tell us things. Like, I'm like, okay, maybe I should take this seriously. Yeah. But okay, if you can't see, depends how bad your eyesight is. But if you can see for the weekend, like, you're going to crush your

car. You know, I mean, I hope you're not driving. No, you're not. There are always things, but she was just

“kind of saying, like, it's really bad to sleep in your contacts. Yeah. And I think a lot of us”

haven't thought about that. Yeah. Yeah. I started taking my glasses places because I took that very seriously. Are there topics or episodes that are too personal? Is there anything that you that you wouldn't do? I think we've had a hard time finding a way into talking about sex. Uh-huh. Even though it's a big part of life. Yeah. Because I also do allow some of my personal life into the show. And I try to be intentional about it. So like, I will share something when it feels like

it furthers the point, or it might make people feel less alone, or it just like helps

explain something. But there are certain things that are of limits for me. I'm figuring out what

those are. But it really, it's about like personal details about my family and you're saying, like, that, and also about who my love life, you know, I can talk in the abstract about things like, oh, I went through a break up and my dad gave me this advice. But I'm not going to say, you know, while I'm dating this person right now and blah, you know, um, and even the mention of dating sometimes in, like, even saying that I am someone who dates or like, as dated or whatever,

like, implies sex. And then so suddenly you feel like, I don't know, I came up as a reporter, like, I wasn't used to sharing anything of myself. So I get it. It's, I feel like that also could

open the door to you being seen in a sexual way. And sometimes that can happen even when you

haven't said anything about that part of your life. It's like, people can make weird comments. I shared this on another show, actually, but someone wrote a comment about how I say my last name, which is Sagarra. Um, it's a Puerto Rican last name. They said that it's over the top and it sounds like I'm having an orgasm every time I say, and I was like, a rolled our sounds like an orgasm to you. Interesting. You know, that says a lot about you. It says a lot about you. Yeah. But I felt like

you took something that's very sacred to me and made it sexual. And then also turned me into a sex object. You know, like, in the racial marriage. It's totally, yeah, it's totally racist. Like, it's misogynistic to it's like, yeah, it was just gross in a lot of ways. But things like that sometimes make me hesitate even more. I hate that, though. Yeah. But it's true as a public figure, which we all are now just by default. And then as a woman who's a

public figure, like the stakes are higher, I think. And I don't blame you for even hesitating about that. Yeah, wanting to shield that part of myself. And in general, being with NPR, there are some things that we, especially on the radio that you can't talk about, even when we have episodes on like, we did an episode on constipation. And it's like, we had to, I don't think we've run it on the radio. But if you're doing it in a medical context, like, it's probably okay, but sometimes it can be a

fine line. And you're like, okay, there's stuff that I think maybe we're a little more conservative

“about for that reason. But yeah, I think, and sex is just like, it's like, what are we doing?”

Like, what kind of tips are you going to give you? You know, that's like all other podcasts. Yeah. Yeah. What about you, stuff that is that you consider off limits? I was thinking about, like, you, you share a lot of personal stuff. But in a really balanced way, I'm an illustrator. I'm an illustrator. I'm an illustrator too. Yeah. And I have to really think about what I'm saying because when I'm sitting here sometimes, especially because like the wonderful people and producers

I work with are like dope women. And I feel very comfortable with Noah. So I'm skicking with my girlfriend. Yeah. And I can get out of control. I like a good laugh. Yeah. And I have to be really in it's about other people. Like, it's about my partner. It's about my family. Like, I don't want to give any details that they would feel violated by. Yeah. Because it's very little. I can say about

“myself that, you know, what, I'm a very open book for better or worse. But you're right. You have to”

remember, yeah. There's other people. In the platform you have and how many people are going to hear it and all that, that's important to consider. Yeah. You can forget that people listen. And I can feel like you're just having a really fun conversation. Yes. And there are things that I

Like, you know, I'm, I'm okay with talking about having had breast cancer. Like, pretty quickly.

“Um, I don't think it's something that we should stigmatize. That's right. And I think that makes”

people feel less alone. But yeah, I'm, and I did talk about that on the show. But there are things that I would like joke around with you guys, for instance, about, you know, off mic that I wouldn't on mic because I'd just be like, that part of myself, I don't know who's going to listen

to this. You know, I'm sharing this now with anybody, basically. Yeah. Exactly. No, is there any

subject that you don't feel comfortable with? I don't have anything. But I also came up, you know, a lot of the work that I did before I started doing this is like, I wrote these crazy essays every week about the queer community. And it was like activism in a way. And like, I was writing about being sexually assaulted. I was writing about my dad dying of cancer. Like, I put so much of myself out in the world. But yeah. I don't think a lot of people do do that. And I, and I,

and I, it's not the norm. It's not the norm. And, and it, and like you were saying, a lot can come with that. And people feel like they know you then. People feel like they have a right to comment

“on your life then. Yeah. You have to decide, you know, how much you want to share.”

I think it's really important. And I think being intentional about it is protecting yourself.

We had an episode of the podcast. It's the only one that I did not co-host. It was on grief. For a number of reasons, I don't feel like I could have talked about the subjects. They were talking about grief related. I didn't feel safe. And Noah was so gentle about it. And so was everyone else. And we had a wonderful colleague step in. It was such a great episode. I couldn't have been my best self. Yeah. And I think being like, this is me at 41. Me at 25 would have powered through it.

And then probably had like a mentee b after called my therapist like scream crying. So like why? For what? You know, I want to give to the world what I can. And then what I can't, I'm going to ask the one else to do it. I love that. Yeah. Yeah. That's great. I'm glad you did that. Thank you. I feel much more myself, much more confident in myself as the years pass. And I actually another piece of advice that I got that I that has stuck with me. It was from my therapist. It was like,

you don't have to be nice all the time or nice to everyone. You know, what is even like re-examining what niceness is and how authentic it is. You know, that doesn't mean don't be kind or loving.

It doesn't mean be like rude to people or mean. It just means like you don't always have to

put on this act like you're the nice girl. Yeah. When what's happening in this situation doesn't deserve niceness. You know, that has stuck with me and I've really put that into play in my life in the past like five years. That's beautiful. I want to also ask, we talked about things that we are not necessarily comfortable talking about. Are there any topics where you feel like are such an enigma that everyone wants to know about? But you like haven't gotten great advice about

or you can't really find it. And I'm going to give you an example. We're going to do an episode on Dreaming. There's some science behind it, but there's still a lot we don't know. So it's like, there's a certain comfort to like figuring out how to do it right. Some topics. You actually can't do right or like get better at because we haven't nailed that enough information. Yeah, we did put on headaches too. We had the head of the Yale School of Medicine for headaches. And it blew

our mind because we talked to him for like an hour and at the end of it I was like, Raj, I'm not sure that we've learned how to do headaches better because we did learn a lot. We learned a ton but not had it. But we didn't learn that much. It was actually practical advice because he was just like we're still learning a lot and they're really complicated. So that is the challenge when you're especially in the medical field. There's just a lot that we don't know. Yeah. And we assume that

doctors know everything. Right. And actually there's a lot that they just sort of shrug and say, well, we can't find the cause for your pain. Yeah. You know, you know, terrifying. Yeah. There's a lot where they're still researching. The further you get into it, the more confused you get sometimes,

“I think that sometimes when there is debate, like their, for instance, like when we did the”

breast cancer screening episode, there are different guidelines from different medical organizations for when women should start getting mammograms and also whether they should do breast self-exams or like a physical breast exam in their doctor's office, whether those are useful or not. Yeah. It makes sense given their specialties, right? Like the gynecological association is like, we see the benefit of doing these exams. We find breast cancer this way, especially for women

who are not eligible for mammograms yet, which is happening more and more than women under 40 are getting breast cancer. That's I was 34 when I was diagnosed. And my doctor found it by feeling it

And then like other medical groups that are that are reputable will say, no, you don't need to do those. They're like research shows that that it doesn't generally increase the risks of or increase the chances of survival or whatever their their reasons are. So in terms of giving advice on this thing like we had to pull back in that episode and say, okay, so there's disagreement here.

Here's what's underneath the disagreement. Here's what these people say. Here's what these experts say.

And then we talked to two oncologists, two breast oncologists who were like, we think generally should start your mammograms at age 40 unless you have history. History or like a

“genetic mutation and you should get those physical exams done. Like they're more conservative”

because they see young women coming in with breast cancer all the time. When there's something that where there's still debate over it, reasonable debate, we try to explain what what the debate debate is about. Not always like sometimes it's so in the weeds and so unclear that you can't really do an episode about that topic. But if it's something that is affecting so many people like

headaches, it kind of feels like you need to do the episode and just explain what's out there.

Exactly. And that's where we sort of landed. It was like we maybe can't give you great advice on this. But like let's talk about the landscape and why this might be happening to you or maybe you didn't know that this is what was happening to you. That feels useful to me as well. And I love like showing respect to people in that way where like you said, you tell them what the experts are singing and kind of you're like, okay, you decide what you do. Here's all the evidence.

I mean, when it was time for COVID vaccines, like I learned a lot about the mRNA, you know, style of vaccines and stuff and I made an educated decision. And I love that I was given and to me

was a no-brainer. But like it's I jumped into the research and I loved being offered information.

Yeah. It's empowering. And it goes to say like you're listening to a podcast. We are not doctors.

“And the doctors we have on are just specific doctors. Like you should never be taking that kind of”

advice just from a podcast. I would say, you know, like learn how to clean the ground in your top sure. But like something like that, like get some of different opinions. Talk to your own doctor. It's a starting point. It's a starting point. I know. And a reminder to go in and talk to your doctor and get these tests done. But yeah, we can't give medical advice in that way. And we can't give financial advice in that way. We can't help people. Yeah, invest in these funds or whatever.

No, we can generally explain to them what different kinds of investment funds, how they work and what it means for instance to diversify like to what a stock is, what a stock investment is, what a bond is, how the risk is different for those. Why you might want to have some investments in international stocks, not just U.S. based stocks. And then they can take those building blocks and and either talk to a financial advisor or build a financial portfolio on their own.

“Yeah. I love that. I think to end. I would love to know if you either of you have an episode”

that you still want to do, like what's your dream episode that you haven't done yet? Like, I will say mine. Yeah. We've been trying to do supplements for forever. And we're going to do it. But we either get doctors who say, when we try and book them as a gas, they say, no one should be taking supplements because they should get all their vitamins from Whole Foods or it's more like influencer people who are like, let me sell you my supplement. Yeah. We really want someone in the

middle. And my other one is my dream. I'm putting this out there in the universe. I really want the Barefoot Contessa and a garden to come on and do baking with us. Oh. Like, am I baking wrong? I love all of her videos. I love it. It's just the best person for that. So I know if you're listening. Yeah. And then here. Okay. I have mine. Do you have yours? I have one, I think. Yeah. Okay. I thought a lot about drinking water quality. Oh, interesting. Like, how to get a good

filter for your drinking water and how to know what's in your tap water because a lot of the time people just say, oh, yeah. The tap water here is great. Yeah. And they might have that in other places too. Yeah. The tap water is fine and you almost seem like when you go to somebody's house and you ask, like, do you have a filter? They, it can seem a little, like, you've got a tin foil hat on, you know, but actually there is a lot of stuff in our drinking water even once it's

filtered. Yeah. You'd want to filter out that I want to filter out. And so, and I thought about that, like, after I got cancer as well. And a lot of the time, like, we just still don't understand the environmental causes of cancer, like, of breast cancer, specifically. We understand

maybe something in the environment caused it. And so that makes you say, okay, well, where are

“some places where I can tighten up around that, you know, not that I'm sure that this is what it”

caused it, but that this is one opportunity to maybe be healthier. Yeah. Do better be exposed to fewer chemicals. Yeah. Yeah. And water is such a big one. Yeah. Yeah. That's a really good drink. So mine, I would love for a student episode on, like, self-confidence or feeling beautiful.

And I would want Rihanna to be art. Okay. So that's, like, here's the thing, hear me out. Like,

I think, like, being sexy, it would be a really fun, like, subject because it's so broad. Like, what does that mean to you? Like, sometimes just to, to people, it's like, being really smart and having read a lot of books in that, like, book smart. And sometimes it's, like, looking and feeling good and dressing well. And like, I feel like Rihanna's very confident. She is. She's a queen of confidence. I don't know that she would give us great tips there. I feel like

there would be a lot of good one liners that would make any sense to most people, but like, we would

ensure that you just feel like that's it. I just want to hang out with Rihanna. That's what it is.

“I think you should get India Rihanna on. She is a really good song video. Yeah, I'll take really,”

I'll take anyone who who really has consistently shown us self-love. Yeah, not just, like, performatively, but you can feel it in their energy. Yeah. But I do want, it doesn't have to be either one of these people. I want an episode in, like, how to really love on yourself all the time. Yeah, all the time. All right. Well, we're going to make it happen then. Mm. You call me Rihanna for me? Yeah, I love you. Yeah, I love you. Yeah, I love her.

Hey, Rihanna. Oh, she's not busy making an album, so she can't, I mean, maybe she has, but hopefully she's making babies. This has been so good. Thank you for coming in and chatting with us and sort of going behind the scenes. Yeah, it's really fun. I love this and meet you both. I see you. Okay, Rihanna. I'm not going to ask you if you've been giving advice wrong, because that's silly. But what did you think of today's episode? I thought it was really fun.

I felt very supported and it's cool to see the kind of behind the scenes stuff that happens, because I think all three of us are really trying our best to be a vehicle for this advice. Yeah. And we're not really giving it. We're just kind of like, here's the experts and then kind of like chiming in, as far as what we know. I love that. I like to give our listeners just like a little more and tell about that. That's the funny thing. When we before we start recording and we meet the expert,

we always say to them, this show is kind of like three friends hanging out and two of us are dummies.

And the third person is an expert and they're lovingly schooling us. And so yeah, I feel like you and I work the conduit for the advice, but we aren't really giving it all those sometimes we do. We've lived a lot of life. I know. And we have some things to say to,

“but it was great to have another person who does this for a living. And here what their life is like”

working at NPR, it's different than what we do. And I just love sort of going behind the scenes and taking a second to do that. Absolutely. And it's nice to know that we see our listeners as kind of family too and we're trying to do the best we can for them and for us. It feels a little corny, but we really mean it. I am corny. Yeah, so now I'm very comfortable with it. Absolutely. She cute too though. She's a real cute. Anyway, until next time, as long as there are things to get

wrong, we're going to be right here to help you deal with that. I love y'all. And my doing it wrong is a co-production between Huff Post and AKAT. Our producers are Eve Bishop, Carmen Borka, Cario, and Malia Agadelo. Our executive producers are Jenny Kaplan and Emily Redder. Special thanks to Huff Post's Head of Audience Abbey Williams. Head of video will took, as well as Kate Palmer, Marta Rodriguez, and Terry D'Angelo. And where are your hosts, Raj Punjabi Johnson? And Noah Michaelson.