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Just do one more breath in, and sigh, good, crayons and greens of sand. The weather hadn't been able to make up its mind lately. The weather had been a string of days with bright sun and warm temperatures, and then a few with driving cold winds and rain that had turned into a dusting of snow. I'd wake in the mornings, unsure if I should be layering on thick socks and sweaters, or

switching for t-shirts and sandals. Today I stood for a while and just watched the morning light change, waiting to see what color the sky would be when the sun was fully risen. It had started in smeary trails of pink and orange, and I imagined far away fingers, tracing lazy lines through our sky, like a child might do, at the edge of a slow moving

creek. Someone had told me once that lines traced on the water. To appear the instant that they are created, and that this was a helpful way to think about my own worries, to trace them in the water, rather than carve them into stone. Looking up at the sky now, I watched the lines blur and fade until they too had

dissolved into the dim gray blue atmosphere. Still undecided, I said to the weather, she didn't answer, at least not right away.

didn't need to be sure either.

I wouldn't make a plan for today.

“I just followed it, moment by moment, and see where it took me.”

My stomach grumbled, and I decided that the next place it would take me was my kitchen. I had a huge ceramic ball in the center of the kitchen table, filled with grapefruits,

and Clementines, and sat sumas with their papery green leaves still attached.

My dad had a craving lately for fresh, tart flavors, and so had stocked up on these lovely citrus fruits. I picked up one of the Clementines, and held it close to my nose.

“It smelled sweet and sour, and like it would wake me up a bit, its peel came off in one piece,”

and I slowly broke off one section at a time, and ate them, enjoying the way the tiny packets of juice burst in my mouth. Next I picked up a grapefruit, and skin was an orangey yellow with a bloom of pinkish red. This one I sectioned carefully with a knife, dropping the half moon slices into a bowl. I sprinkled on a bit of dried ginger, and cinnamon, and got a spoon from the drawer.

I ate slowly, the flavors were so bright, and delicious, I didn't want to miss a bit of it.

“When I'd set my plate in the sink, and washed the last bit of stickiness from my fingers,”

I noticed the kitchen was scented with the fresh smell of the fruit. We reminded me of a day in science class in high school, when my teacher had sat at her desk, and peeled an orange in silence. We'd all watched wondering if the lesson had started, or if she was just catching up on her breakfast.

From my seat to the side of the room, I'd spoken up, saying how good it smelled. I was rewarded with a smile from my teacher, who said, "We'd be studying how molecules diffuse through air today, just like the scent of the fruit. Had traveled across the room to my nose, looking into the living room, I noticed that the sun had come out, and a slant of bright light was cutting across the floor.

I thought again of those molecules, floating as I watched tiny specks of dust spinning in the sunlight.

I went to stand in it for a moment, letting it warm first my toes, and then my face.

The bright sun and the bright smell of the grapefruit reminded me of a page in my coloring book I'd seen a few days before. I sat at my desk and pulled it toward me.

It seemed like something I couldn't sit still long enough to do well, and every page turned

into a scribble.

“As I, like a little hummingbird, flew from one place to another.”

Now I found it quite relaxing. There was a calming kind of solace about slowly filling the shapes with color, and watching

the scene on the page before me change.

I turned to the page I thought of, and was a detailed round shape with symmetrical designs circling through it.

“There were things like feathers, and curly cues, and petals, and I guessed that it had”

reminded me a bit of the bowl on my table.

The sought sumas with their leaves attached, the round clementines in grapefruit.

I opened my big box of crayons and pulled an old coffee mug full of colored pencils closer. I ran my hand over the paper, smoothing it, and considering where I wanted to start. Since orange pink had so far been the colors of the day, I started there.

“I carefully filled in the designs on the outer edges, alternating between the colors, making”

something like a bright morning sun. The shape was called a mandala, and the book had some that were more intricate. Others that were quite plain. Some looked like they were teaching new mathematics, with their geometrical designs. Others like a kaleidoscope of nature, blossoms, and buds, refracted, and repeated in the

circle. I'd had an ant, a great ant, actually, who'd worked for many years in a prestigious museum, in a big city's downtown, and she told me a story about a group of monks who'd come to create a mandala on the floor of one of their galleries. They described the patient way they'd placed the sand, almost one grain at a time, to create

a rich, elaborate design. When they'd completed it, after days on hands and knees working, someone had kicked through it, sending the sand in every direction. My ant, my great ant, turned to look at the monk, who directed the work. She said it took him a moment, just a moment, and that she could see the calm, resolve,

return almost instantly to his face. And then he'd simply said, "It will take us a little bit longer to finish our mandala." The slant of sunlight had faded, and I heard a far away rumble of thunder.

The room was darkening, and I switched on a lamp.

“I reached for new colors, blues and purples, and grays and blacks.”

I thought of that monk, and his way of shifting along with the tides. I thought of the times when I'd seen my own best laid plans be kicked apart. I thought of the lines drawn on the water, and floating molecules, and altering skies.

There was a commonality here, something to do with peace and patience around change.

I reached for more crayons, deep browns and grassy greens, and thought I'd keep taking my cues from other nature.

“Who hadn't yet made a permind, but was creating all the same.”

Crayons and grains of sand.

The weather hadn't been able to make up its mind lately.

There had been a string of days with bright sun and warm temperatures, and then a few with driving cold winds and rain that had turned into a dusting of snow. Good wake in the mornings, unsure if I should be layering on thick socks and sweaters,

“or switching them for t-shirts and sandals.”

Today I stood for a while, and just watched the morning light change. Waiting to see what color the sky would be when the sun was fully risen. It had started in smeary trails of pink and orange, and I imagined far away fingers tracing lazy lines through our sky, like a child might do, at the edge of a slow moving creek. Someone that told me once, that lines traced on the water, disappear the instant that

they are created, and that this was a helpful way to think about my own worries, to trace them in the water rather than to carve them into stone. Looking up at the sky now, I watched the lines blur and fade, until they too had dissolved into the dim grey blue atmosphere. Still undecided, I said to the weather, she didn't answer.

At least not right away. I thought that if mother nature wasn't sure what she wanted to do for the day. Maybe I didn't need to be either. I wouldn't make a plan for today, just follow it moment by moment, and see where it took

I had a huge ceramic ball in the center of the kitchen table, filled with grapefruits,

“and Clementines, and set sumas with their papery green leaves still attached.”

I'd had a craving lately for fresh, tart flavors, and so had stocked up on all these lovely citrus fruits. I picked up one of the Clementines, and howled it close to my nose.

It smelled sweet, and sour, unlike it would wake me up a bit.

It's peel came off in one piece, and I slowly broke off one section at a time, and ate

“them, and joined the way, the tiny packets of juice burst in my mouth.”

I picked up a grapefruit. Its skin was an orangey yellow, with a bloom of pinkish red. This one I sectioned carefully with a knife, dropping the half moon slices into a ball. I sprinkled on a bit of dried ginger, and cinnamon, and got a spoon from the drawer. I ate slowly, the flavors were so bright and delicious.

I didn't want to miss a bit of it.

“When I'd set my plate in the sink, and washed the last bit of stickiness from my fingers,”

I noticed the kitchen was scented, with the fresh smell of the fruit. Reminded me of a day in science class, in high school, when my teacher had sat at her desk, and peeled an orange in silence. We'd all watched, wondering if the lesson had started, or if she was just catching up on her breakfast.

From my seat at the side of the room, I'd spoken up, saying how good it smelled. I was rewarded with a smile from my teacher, who said, "Wait, be studying how molecules diffuse through the air today." Just like the scent of the fruit had traveled across the room to my nose. Looking into the living room, I noticed that the sun had come out, and a slant of bright

light was cutting across the floor. I thought again of those molecules, floating as I watched tiny specks of dust spinning in the sunlight.

I went to stand in it for a moment, letting it warm first my toes, and then my face.

book.

I'd seen a few days before.

“I sat at my desk and pulled it toward me.”

When I was a preschooler, I hadn't enjoyed coloring at all, but seemed like something I couldn't sit still long enough to do well, and every page turned into a scribble. As I, like a little hummingbird, flew from one place to another.

Now I found it quite relaxing. There was a calming kind of solace about slowly filling

the shapes with color, and watching the scene on the page before me changed.

“I turned to the page I'd thought of, and it was a detailed round shape, with symmetrical”

designs circling through it. There were things like feathers, and curly cues, and petals, and I guessed that it had

reminded me a bit of the bowl on my table.

The salt sumas with their leaves attached, the round Clementines, and grapefruits. I opened my big box of crayons, and pulled an old coffee mug full of colored pencils closer.

“I ran my hand over the paper, smoothing it, and considering where I wanted to start.”

Since orange and pink, had so far been the colors of the day, we started there. My carefully filled in the designs on the outer edges, alternating between the colors, making something like a bright morning sun. The shape was called a mandala, and the book had some that were more intricate, and others that were quite plain.

Some looked like they were teaching you mathematics with their geometrical designs. Others looked like a kaleidoscope of nature, blossoms and buds, refracted, and repeated in a circle. I had an aunt, a great aunt, actually, who had worked for many years in a prestigious museum in a big city's downtown, and she told me a story about a group of monks who'd come to create

a mandala on the floor of one of their galleries. She described the patient way they'd placed the sand, almost one grain at a time, to create a rich, elaborate design. And they'd nearly completed it, after days on hands and knees working.

My aunt, my great aunt, turned to look at the monk, who directed the work.

“She said, "It took him a moment, just a moment, and that she could see the calm resolve”

almost instantly returned to his face."

And then he'd simply said, "It will take us a little longer to finish our mandala.

“The slant of sunlight had faded, and I heard a far away rumble thunder.”

Mother Nature was changing directions again.

The room was darkening, and I switched on the lamp.

“I reached for new colors, blues and purples, grays and blacks.”

I thought of that monk and his way of shifting along with the tides. I thought of times when I'd seen my own, best laid plans be kicked apart. I thought of the lines drawn on the water, floating molecules, and altering skies. There was a commonality here, something to do with peace and patience around change. I reached for more crayons, deep browns, and grassy greens, and thought I'd keep taking

my cues from Mother Nature, who hadn't yet made up her mind. It was creating all the same sweet dreams.