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So lights out, campers, set things down, be done with the day.

“Just comfortable as you possibly can and let your whole body relax into your bed.”

You have done enough for today. It's enough. Take a deep breath in through your nose, let it out your mouth. It's one more, breathe in, and out, good, out and back. The screen door clapped into its frame behind me, as I hopped down the back porch steps, and

strode through the high grass to the shed. It needed cutting, but the heat had been too high for the last few days.

“Both for me to push the heavy moor in lines across the yard, and for the poor grass, which”

was already struggling not to burn up in the blazing sun. I guess we had another hour or more of daylight left to the day, and with the sun shifting down behind the trees, the heat had mellowed to something still warm, but more like a glow than a glare. The shed door took two tugs to swing open, and as it did, a moth slipped past me into the evening

air. I thought about how moths fly toward porch lights, confusing them for the moon, a navigational

“disconcerTION, that has them circling back again and again.”

Of course, it wasn't just moths who misplaced their landmarks, and get lost in loops. It can happen to all of us. Wheeling my bike out, I pressed down on the saddle, and bounced it a few times against the pavement, checking that the tires hadn't lost any air. It felt springy, and firm, ready for a good long ride, and I threw one leg across the

frame, and climbed on.

Those first few wobbly feet of each ride always make me laugh.

When you're not going fast enough to balance easily, and you end up turning the handlebars too sharply, and then overcorrecting back again. Not only lasts a second or two, before the forward momentum smooths everything out, but it does keep one humble. Our driveway is a long one that's common out here in the countryside, where houses might sit

a good quarter mile back from the road. There's wasn't quite that long, but nearly, and fifty years ago, someone had planted a row of shag bark-hickery trees on either side of the drive, whose leaves formed a tall, rustling canopy. As I pettled under it, my thought of that saying about planting trees, whose shade you'll

never sit in, and wonder if I had gotten my own hands into that sort of dirt lately.

I turned left onto the two lane road with the end of our drive, and after a couple hundred yards right, onto a secondary street, with almost no traffic. Over the years, I'm pretty sure I have written up and down every road in a five mile radius.

Finding down a street I'd never been on for the very first time.

“Even now, I tried to follow a different route with each ride, though I wasn't likely”

to run across some brand new adventure today. It had been a while since I'd taken this particular way. The road had been graded, and recently, so while the spring-melt potholes were gone, there was a bit of loose gravel scattered over the surface.

I slowed down, feeling my tires, skid on the grid, and road closer to the edge, where there

was a clear path.

“Cat tails grew in the ditch, which meant we'd had more rain than most summers.”

The land here was marshy, but there had been plenty of July's when poultry precipitation left these acres more brown than green, and cat tails are aquatic. So the ditches must have, at least some water, flowing through them.

My legs found a rhythm on the flat road, and my mind smoothed out.

Just following the steady movement and hum of my tires. In a field ahead of me, a tractor pulled a rake through the windrows, gathering up

“hay that had been cut the day or two before.”

As I pettled past, I watched the machine turn, and a line one wheel with the edge of its last pass, so not a stem was lost. Fresh cut hay, in the heat of mid-summer, has a rich, unmistakable, and wonderful scent. Like grass, but what year, like honey, but greener, like dust, that's been sunbaked. In the distance, I could just make out the apple trees of the orchard, low and wide,

and evenly spaced. I wondered how the fruit was growing this year. The Paula Reds and the ginger goals would already begin to ripen when just a month or so. The road curved and dipped slightly, and I let my feet rest still on the petals. As gravity pulled me forward, I could hear the river.

This was a dead end when I knew it. Often I preferred a loop when I rode, a steadily changing view, with none of it repeated. Today I was riding out and back, and that felt neat and tidy, like being on the exact middle page of a book, like an even number, or the color blue. The road ended with the guardrail, set across its width, and I stopped, and propped my bike

on its kickstand beside it. The galvanized steel had a modeled and slightly rusty look, and I wondered when it had been put there. One day there wasn't a barrier, and one day there was, and would be, for 50 years, 70.

the river.

“The water was moving steadily, not rushing, but a leaf dropped on the surface in front of”

me, which surely be out of sight in a minute or less.

With my eyes closed, I listened past the sound of the moving water, and could still faintly make out the tractor, working back and forth through its rows. And there was a high buzzing sound that, as I tuned into it, I realized had been so constant for days now, that I'd mostly stopped hearing it.

“The caty dits, the smell of the woods around me, was redillent of damp soil, and minerals”

and tree bark.

I've tried to store all these things, the sights, sense, and sounds, and carry them somewhere

in my pockets to have for January. But my brain doesn't seem to work like that, maybe there are holes in my pockets. But I've learned that when I later go reaching for these bits of sense memory, when I

“will come up empty-handed, and if anything that has made them sweeter to sit with in the”

moment, more special for how temporary they are, so I stayed another ten minutes or so,

leaning my back against a tree, and watching the river flow past, breathing slow and deep, and then eventually I pushed away from the trunk, climbed up the bank back to my bank, and kicked the stand back into place, and walked my bike a few yards before I climbed a board, ready now to head back home and put another summer day to bed, out and back. The screen door clapped into its frame behind me, as I hopped down the back porch steps.

And strode through the high grass to the shed. It needed cutting, but the heat had been too high for the last few days, both for me to push the heavy mower in lines across the yard, and for the poor grass, which was already struggling, not to burn up in the blazing sun. I guessed we had another hour or more of daylight left to the day, and with the sun shifting

down behind the trees, the heat had melowed to something still warm, but more like a glow than a glare. The shed door took two tugs to swing open, and as it did, a moth slipped past me into the evening air. I thought about how moths fly toward porch lights, confusing them for the moon.

A navigational, disc insertion that has them circling back again and again.

It could happen to all of us, wheeling my bike out.

“I pressed down on the saddle, and bounced it a few times against the pavement, checking”

that the tires hadn't lost any air. It felt springy and firm, ready for good, long ride, and I threw one leg across the frame and climbed on.

As first few wobbly feet of each ride always make me laugh, when you're not going fast enough

“to balance easily, and you end up turning the handlebars too sharply.”

And over correcting back again, it only lasts a second or two, before the forward momentum smooths everything out, but it does keep one humble. Our driveway is a long one that's common out here in the countryside. Where houses might sit, a good quarter mile back from the road.

“Cars wasn't quite that long, but nearly, and fifty years ago someone had planted a row”

of shag bark, hickory trees, on either side of the drive, whose leaves formed a tall rustling canopy. As I puddled under it, my thought of that saying about planting trees, whose shade you'll

never sit in, and wondered if I had gotten my own hands into that sort of dirt lately.

I turned left onto the two lane road at the end of our drive, and after a couple hundred yards right onto a secondary street, with almost no traffic, over the years I'm pretty sure I have written up and down every road in a five mile radius, and I'd loved finding a new path

from one point on the map to another, riding down a street, I'd never been on for the

very first time. Even now, I tried to take a different route with each ride, and though I wasn't likely to run across some brand new adventure today, it had been a while since I'd gone this particular way. The road had been graded and recently, so while the spring melt pot holes were gone, there

I slowed down, feeling my tires skid on the grid, and rode closer to the edge, where there

was a clear path.

“The tail's grew in the ditch, which meant we'd had more rain than most summers.”

The land here was marshy, but there had been plenty of julys.

In poultry precipitation, left these acres more brown than green.

Cat tails are aquatic, so the ditches must have at least some water flowing through them. My legs found a rhythm on the flat road, and my mind smoothed out, just following the

“steady movement, and hum of my tires, and a field ahead of me, a tractor pulled a”

rake through the windrows, gathering up hay that had been cut a day or two before.

As I paddled past, I watched the machine turn and align one wheel with the edge of its last pass, so not a stem was lost. Fresh cut hay in the heat of mid-summer has a rich, unmistakable, and wonderful scent, like

“grass, but woodier, like honey, but greener, like dust that's been sunbaked.”

In the distance, I could just make out the apple trees of the orchard, low and wide, and evenly spaced, and wondered how the fruit was growing this year. The polar ads, and ginger goals, would already begin to ripen in a month or so. The road curved and dipped slightly, and I let my feet rest still on the pedals, as gravity pulled me forward.

I had I could hear the river. This was a dead end, and I knew it, often I preferred a loop when I rode, a steadily changing view, with none of it repeated. But today I was riding out and back, and that felt neat, and tidy, like being on the exact middle page of a book, like an even number, with a color blue.

The road ended with a guardrail, set across its width, and I stopped and propped my bike

The galvanized steel had a mottled and slightly rusty look, and I wondered when it had

been put there.

“One day there wasn't a barrier, and then one day there was, and would be for 50, 70 years”

I stepped around one end of it, and walked down a worn footpath through the trees, toward the river.

The water was moving steadily, not rushing, but a leaf dropped on the surface in front of

“me, which surely would be out of sight in a minute or less.”

As my eyes closed, my listened past the sound of the moving water, and could still faintly make out the tractor, working back and forth through its rows.

And there was a high buzzing sound that, as I tuned into it, I realized, had been so

“constant for days now that I'd mostly stopped hearing it, the KD did's.”

The smell of the woods around me was redellent of damp soil, and minerals, and tree bark, I tried to store all of these things, sights, sense, and sounds, and carry them somewhere in my pockets to have for January, but my brain doesn't seem to work like that. Maybe there are holes in my pockets, but I've learned that when I later go reaching for these bits of sense memory, I will come up empty-handed.

If anything that has just made them sweeter, just sit with, in the moment, more special for how temporary they are, so I stayed another ten minutes or so, leaning my back against a tree, and watching the river flow past, breathing slow, but deep, and then eventually I pushed away from the trunk, climbed up the bank, back to my bike, and kicked the stand back into place.

I walked to my bike a few yards before I climbed a board, ready now to head back home, and put another summer day to bed, sweet dreams.