Too Hot For Radio: Paul La Farge "Another Life"

naughty. I'm your host, Stepharna, and Charlotte delivering all the boobs and acid trips that you can't get on public radio. I mean, look, I love my job, but do I have to do all the heavy lifting? When's the last time Steven's keep stepped up to recite that limerick about a man from

Nantuck it, where Terry Gross asked her guess, "Oh, so politely about their last bender."

“That's what I'm saying, people, it just doesn't happen.”

So be glad you got me to bring you somewhat risky fiction and to give you warnings just in case you need to run and hide in fear. Case in point. Warning. This story features cocaine and sex in unusual places.

Before you delight full-perverts let that review up, this story features cocaine and sex in unusual places, but it isn't about cocaine and sex in unusual places. Though you'd be forgiven for thinking so, given how many times I've said the phrase cocaine and sex in unusual places in the course of 15 seconds. I mean, you hotheads know the fiction we hear on the show often includes life's slightly

salacious bits, but I think part of the fun of today's story is wait for it, settled tea. The author delivers lots of little hints about what is happening behind the scenes to the protagonist and the peripheral characters too, but it isn't clear until the very last

“moments of the story exactly what kind of a story we've been listening to.”

And then it's difficult to know how to feel about it. cocaine and sex in unusual places aside. This story is one from our archives by Paul of Farge. He is the author of novels including luminous airplanes and the night ocean.

He unfortunately died in 2023 when he was still in his early 50s, and while we never

had the chance to host him on the show, he had a lot of friends in the literary world, including our funny friend Gary Steingart, who had lovely things to say about him. This particular story, another life, gives you a real sense of LaFarge's darkly comic voice and smartly crafted dialogue. Reading this story is author and musician Josh Radner.

Radner is best known for the series How I Met Your Mother, but he's always busy. Recent credits include flashmen is in trouble and hunters. He maintains a busy schedule as a touring musician and in the theater too, appearing last year

“in the new play the ally at the public theater in New York City.”

And now here's Josh Radner performing another life by Paul LaFarge. A husband and wife drive to Boston. The husband is sick. He takes extra strong cold medication just before getting into the car, and all the way to Boston he worries that he's going to fall asleep at the wheel and crash into the median.

Or maybe the husband secretly wants to crash, rather than go to his father-in-laws' birthday party, which is what he and his wife are driving to Boston for. Anyway, he manages to stay awake and they arrive at their hotel. It is just off the highway of boutique hotel that got excellent reviews on the internet. The husband and wife check in, they put on nice clothes, they go to the party.

A couple of hours later the husband drives back to the hotel alone. He changes into pajamas and gets into bed. He picks up Russo's discourse on the origin of inequality, the book he brought to read on this trip. Nature commands every animal and the beast obeys Russo rights or wrote in the 18th century. Man feels the same impulsion but knows that he is free to acquiesce or resist.

At this point the husband realizes that he doesn't want to spend the night reading Russo in bed alone. He thinks about going downstairs to the hotel bar.

It's the kind of thing he never does but ten-minute later there.

He is sitting at the bar, reading his book. The husband is not trying to pick anyone up. His wife will be back in an hour or two and besides who would dream of picking someone up with Russo of all the authors you could try to pick someone up with Russo is probably the worst or maybe Kant.

The husband orders a hot toddy. The bartender in attractive young woman with crinkly black hair brings him the drink and they exchange remarks about it. Is that what you wanted? Yes.

It's perfect. The husband says, "Good, I'm glad the bartender smiles." The husband reads some more Russo.

Upstairs in his room he was really understanding the second discourse but down here

at the bar he finds it hard to concentrate. The pretty bartender is scooping ice from the ice chest and the husband can see her cleavage maybe even the top of her bra.

Finally the husband asks her how it's going, "It's going well," the pretty bartender says.

What are you reading? "Oh, the husband says, embarrassed, it's Russo, for all his thinking about books and picking people up he is totally unprepared to talk about the origin of inequality with the pretty bartender. Fortunately she doesn't ask about it. I love to read," she says.

I read just about anything, really the husband says, "Please, who are your favorite authors?" My favorite author is Emily Dickinson, the pretty bartender says, "The husband's caught off guard.

“He's read some Emily Dickinson but not for a long time and now he can't remember a single”

one of her poems." Ah, the "Bard of M" hurts, he says. The pretty bartender sensing the husband's discomfort willingly moves on. I'm taking a fiction class in college, she says.

I don't have to, it's not required for my major, but I wanted to take it anyway.

We read short stories by who the husband asks, despite his spotting knowledge of Emily Dickinson, the husband thinks of himself as well-read. We're reading one now by Kate Chopin, the pretty bartender says, "It's called the story of an hour," sadly the husband must admit that he has not read this story. She's awesome, the bartender says, "There's apparently a novel by her.

The awakening the husband says, "Have you read it?" the bartender asks, "No, not that either," he says. The husband then recommends Flanary O'Connor and the bartender makes a show of writing the name down on a strip of register tape. I love the grotesque, the husband says.

What's that?

“The bartender asks, "It's when you deform life to get it some idea behind it."”

The husband says, "Behind life?" The bartender asks, "Yes, an idea behind life, like the last judgment of the soul or heaven and hell," which one would this be? The bartender asks, "Smiling." The husband says, "This bar, purgatory would be my guess."

The pretty bartender says, "Just as they seem to be getting somewhere, though, the husband makes the conversationaly suicidal move of bringing up Emily Dickinson again, she's completely singular. He says, "There's no one like her. There is sweat on his brow," which runs almost to the top of his head.

"Yeah." The bartender says, "That's the end of that." The husband returns to his root, so the pretty bartender begins talking to another customer, a man wearing a yellow polo shirt. This man is a total sleaze bag, although the husband doesn't know it yet.

I haven't seen you here much. The sleaze bag says, "The pretty bartender tells the sleaze bag that she has shifted her schedule." I'm in school now, she says, "Oh yeah, what are you studying?" This, she answers with a minor in communications.

Is your sister out of the hospital? The sleaze bag asks, "Yes, she's at home now," the bartender says, "and at this point the husband's cell phone buzzes, his wife is back from the party. Where are you?" She asks, "I'm at the bar," the husband says.

He wants his wife to come to the bar, so the pretty bartender will see that he has a wife who isn't bad looking even if she is a lot older than the bartender. The husband frowns at his book until his wife arrives, still wearing the low-cut black dress she had on at the party. The husband doesn't understand why she would wear a dress like that to her father's

60th birthday, but she does look good in it. She sits down between her husband and the sleaze bag. The wife notices the empty snifter in front of her husband and asks, "How are you feeling?" Better, the husband says, "Although actually he looks kind of gray and worn." Everyone was worried about you, the wife says, "My father gave me the name of a cardiologist

at Brigham and Women's. He wants you to make an appointment." It's not my heart, just a cold, the husband says annoyed.

He has a heart problem to which his wife's family is always overreacting, and we don't

even live here, the husband grumbles.

“Why would I make an appointment with a doctor in Boston?”

It's not that far, the wife says. We could stay with my parents, but why the husband says, "Why do we have to keep becoming here?" At this point, the young and shapely bartender reappears. It's last call, she says, "Leaning toward the husband, can I get you anything?"

The husband says, "Yes, I'll take another. Coming up," the bartender says. The wife looks ready to scold the husband, but instead, she turns to watch the basketball game on the big TV mounted above the bar. There's a short silence, then the sleaze bag asks, "Do you like basketball?"

And the wife turning to face him says, "Yes, I do. Where are you from?" The sleaze bag asks, "New York," the wife says, "So," the sleaze bag says, "The next, no, the Celtics, my family's from Boston," the wife says. The sleaze bag is obsessed with the Celtics, and he begins to talk about them enthusiastically.

The husband is in a funny way impressed.

the kind of conversational hole the husband fell down with Emily Dickinson.

“Like a wind up toy, the sleaze bag keeps going and going, and the wife goes along with”

him. She tells the sleaze bag about her father who frees his mouse heads in a laboratory at MIT. "I've heard of him," the sleaze bag says, "but it's clear that he's thinking of someone else or just lying, it doesn't matter." As their conversation continues, the wife seems more and more impressed by the sleaze

bag. He owns a company that sells health insurance to small businesses. He has joint custody of two beautiful daughters, in short, despite being a total scumbag, a real bottom feeder. The sleaze bag knows how to present himself as a decent guy who would not dream of leaving

his father-in-law's 60th birthday party early, and if the sleaze bag did leave the party early

because he wasn't feeling well, the wife would not find him at the hotel bar. He'd be in bed, or more likely, in the hospital. The sleaze bag inches towards the wife, and says something in a low voice, the wife laughs. I should interrupt. That has been things.

“But he doesn't know what to say, and also he's now had one-and-a-half hot tauties.”

Plus a glass of wine at the party, plus the extra strength, cold medicine. He took earlier, the husband feels woozy. He keeps his unhappy silence hoping that his wife will turn away from the sleaze bag and talk to him. But what actually happens is that the sleaze bag gets up from his stool and says, "Well,

it's been good meeting you, the sleaze bag shakes the wife's hand, and it looks as if her hand kind of lingers in his, then the sleaze bag leaves. The wife stands up. I left my shawl at the party, she says, "I'm going to run back and get it. Will you be all right?"

Sure? The husband says. The wife hurries out of the bar, the husband can't believe it, was she even wearing a shawl? The bartender, too, looks surprised that the wife has gone running after the total sleaze

bag.

“But what if this was how things worked with the husband and wife?”

What if they had an arrangement that they could sleep with, whomever they wanted? What if they were brave, free people whose love for each other could not be damaged by a random hotel hook-up? God, what if? The husband looks around the slender and well-proportioned young bartender with naturally

crinkly black hair standing right there, all at once, as if by magic the husband remembers

the first lines of a poem by Emily Dickinson.

My life atstood a loaded gun in quarters till a day, the owner passed identified and carried me away, the bartender's eyes light up. Very good, she says, even though the husband has misquoted, the actual line is, "My life has stood." So tell me, the husband says, "What happened to your sister?" The bartender says that her sister was in a car accident, her spine was broken and she has been in

a body cast for months. She, the pretty bartender, spends half her time at her sister's apartment, taking care of her sister's toddler and also cooking for her sister and cleaning, which her sister obviously can't do. The husband is moved by this story.

Her sister work, school, and still she finds time to read Dickinson. He tells the bartender how impressive he thinks she is. I can barely hold down a job, he says, and as for writing, forget it. "Oh, you're a writer," the bartender asks, "It's not worth talking about the husband says, but he wants to talk about it, so he does."

He tells the bartender that he writes short stories about the confusion of life and the unknowability of the heart. Like check-off, the pretty bartender says, "We read a story by him in our fiction class. Yes," the husband says, "kind of like that." But I prefer an abacov with his unreliable narrators. The pretty bartender has not read an abacov. It doesn't matter. The husband says, "The point is the husband's stories are too complicated

for the average reader. I'd like to be famous like check-off," he says, "but it's not going to happen. You shouldn't give up," the bartender says, "Perseverance pays off," the husband grimaces. Thanks for the advice, he says. He's finished his drink and assumes that his wife will be back shortly. I should go, he says, "It was nice meeting you." It was nice meeting you, the pretty bartender says, "I hope I'll see you again here sometime." The husband

leaves the bartender whose name April P is printed on the receipt, a large tip. He is satisfied. All he wanted was to have a friendly conversation with an attractive younger woman and then go upstairs, read Russo, and wait for his wife to come back with her shawl. But when he gets to his room, he feels differently. For one thing, there is now a strange howling sound, which is caused by air rushing from the corridor into the room or vice versa. When the husband

opens the door, the sound stops. When he leans against the door, it stops. As soon as

really some ancient New England mance infected with miserable spirits. He tries to ignore

“the sound, he lies on the bed, fully dressed, and opens his book. But the other thing that”

has happened is that the husband is now completely disgusted by Russo. Screw Russo that creepy, pervert, the only reason he is reading the origin of inequality is that it's on the syllabus for the intro to western thought class at the remote little college where he teaches what a stupid situation the husband thinks. I'm being compelled to read about freedom. He feels woozy again. This time like he might throw up. He closes his eyes. The wind is still

howling through the door. Another life that has been thinks I want another life. Then he rolls off the bed and puts on his shoes. He begins to brush his teeth and something occurs to him and he spits out the toothpaste, grabs his jacket and hurries into the hall. He takes the elevator down stairs and runs to the bar. April P is still there, wiping glasses. Forget something, she asks. No, the husband says, will you have a drink with me? We're closed. April P says, and in fact,

the bar is nearly empty. The only people left are a trio of old women in a corner in a man pouring hot water into the ice chest. We could go somewhere. The husband says, April P has a taste.

But finally she says, okay, give me a minute to change. She goes into the kitchen and comes

out wearing a red V-neck sweater and a puffy black coat. They walk to the hotel parking garage and practically the first thing the husband sees is his own car, a fancy sedan. This raises

“the question, how did his wife get back to the birthday party by cab or did the sleeves bag drive her?”

Is the sleeves bag with her at the party? The husband tries not to think about this, but it's hard. Where two he asks, April P directs him to an Irish pub. The same pub it turns out where he and his wife had dinner with her parents before the party. The husband and April P get the same table he had earlier and also the same waitress. Welcome back. The waitress says, and obviously the fact that the husband is now with April P who is a lot younger than his wife makes an impression on

her. The husband orders a beer, April P, of odd Katonic. And now, unfortunately, the husband looks around with total bewilderment as if he had just been dropped off on this planet five minutes ago. After an awkward moment, April P asks, "How long have you been married?" 11 years. The husband says, "What is your wife do?" The husband tells April P that his wife is a doctor, a pediatrician, to be precise. Do you have kids? No, the husband says, "No, we don't."

Then, without provocation, he tells April P a story about something that happened in this very same pub just a few hours earlier. He and his wife and her parents were eating dinner and his father-in-law, the famous freezer of mouseheads, mentioned that he had bought a double plot in a cemetery. The adjacent plot is vacant, the father-in-law said, and he asked if he should reserve it for the husband and wife. Plots are going quickly. He warned them. The husband and wife would have to make

up their mind soon. If we don't act now, the husband says, "We may lose the chance to spend eternity next to my father-in-law." He laughs, maybe a little wildly. All of us buried together in Nadek or wherever. Can you imagine? April P doesn't say anything. The worst part the husband goes on is that my wife can't say no to her father. He's bossed her around all her life and he's going to keep doing it after she's dead. The husband twists his cocktail napkin into an unhappy

ball. I'm a fuck up. He says, "No, you aren't." April P says, "At a loss for evidence that this is so." She says, "You have a really nice car." So fucking what the husband says, rudely, "I'm nearly 40 years old and I don't know anything about Emily Dickinson or Kate Chopin or Stendhaler,

Hardy or Fielding." I've never read Tergan Yev. April P says, "In fiction class, the professor told

us that the important thing is to write what you know, what you know, what you know, the husband

“repeats seemingly in some sort of agonized trance." The truth is, he says, "My story sucks."”

The reason no one reads them is because they're awful. They have no point. They go on and on and then then they stop. The husband has a coughing fit. He puts his hand on his chest. You need to relax April P says. Granted, the husband says, "But how?" April P has an idea about this. She stands up and motions for the husband to follow. They go to the bathroom to the ladies room. In fact, April P takes

and April P doesn't bother answering. She taps out two lines of cocaine onto the back of the

“Norton anthology of American literature, which she is also carrying in her purse for some reason.”

At this point, the husband mentions that he used to have a problem with cocaine. When he moved to New York, he hung out with a cocaine friendly crowd and by the time he met the woman who would become his wife, he had developed a kind of serious recreational habit. It was his wife, the woman who would become his wife, who made him stop. With his heart problem, cocaine wasn't just stupid, it was suicidal, she said. "You're making too much of my heart problem," the husband said.

"It's just a benign a rhythmia, but he stopped anyway and hasn't touched cocaine since." When the husband is done telling his story, April P says, "Maybe this isn't a good idea." No, the husband says, "It's a good idea." I'm just nervous. They each do a line. Another, April P asks, "They do another line." Then they stand there, wiping their noses

“and looking at each other. The husband admires April P's deep, black eyes, her thick,”

crinkly, black hair, her slim waist and full figure. "You're so beautiful," he says. "Thanks," April P says. "And you have toothpaste on your chin." "Do I?" the husband asks. He looks in the mirror. "So I do," he says. Then he starts laughing. The husband laughs and laughs. In April P laughs too, without necessarily finding this as funny as the husband does. But anyway, whatever the husband thinks, it's the funniest thing that has ever

happened to him. He's laughing and laughing about the white dribble of toothpaste on his chin. And when

he finally stops, his eyes are wet. "Thank you for pointing that out," he says. "Then the husband

leaps forward and kisses April P, whose body is hot and full of instincts." A minute later, they have their pants off. April P sort of sits on the sink and the husband sort of leans up against her. They have sex and then it's over. He's pulling out. She's wiping between her legs with a paper towel. Their splashing water on their faces using antibacterial soap, the hand dryer. They lurch back to the table. For a long time, the husband doesn't say anything.

"Are you okay?" April P asks, "God, yes," the husband says. He orders another round of drinks. When the waitress has brought the drinks, he says, "Do you know what that was?" That was freedom. And now he starts talking excitedly about how Rousseau was wrong. Freedom isn't the capacity to resist the voice of nature. It's the ability to go along with nature, which is to say. He actually says, "Which is to say, as if he were lecturing,

the ability to do what you want." But April P isn't listening. She is thinking about Jim Lamont, the sleeves bag, and how night after night he came to the bar at the hotel and told her how beautiful she was, how much he wanted to take her out someplace nice and treat her the way she deserved to be treated. How he told her that she deserved a better life than the one she had and he, Jim Lamont,

was going to give it to her. How finally, she had started to wonder if maybe Jim Lamont was right

if there was another better life out there with April P's name on it, a life she wasn't living because she'd been born in the wrong town to the wrong parents with the wrong sister. One night, she let Jim Lamont take her to a steakhouse. She had the lingoini, and afterward they went back to his condo. The elevator was out of service and there was a smell in his bathroom, a sour, fart smell like an ocean gone wrong. And the next morning, Jim Lamont gave her a joke,

postcard, "Would you rate yourself satisfied, extremely satisfied, or hungry for more?" April P changed her schedule to avoid him, but tonight he has found her again and he may not ever go away. All this time the husband has been talking and gesturing excitedly. He is telling April P that she is the most beautiful person he's ever met, not just physically, but as a whole person.

She is beautiful and amazing. He wants to run away with her. He says, "He'll leave his wife.

They haven't loved each other for years." April P says, "You don't have to tell me that, but the husband keeps talking and eventually April P says, "Stop. Just stop." She doesn't want to hear it from him, not while he's high. So the husband stops. His heart is racing.

“He is sweating all over. I think I'm drunk. He says, "Can we get some air?"”

Sure, April P says. The husband pays the check and April P helps him to the door. They stand outside

The husband gasps. Let's walk somewhere. He says, "Whatever you want," April P says.

“They walk and soon find themselves in one of those village green type parks. You get new England”

with a pyramid of black cannonballs at the entrance and a statue in the middle. The husband hates these village greens, but he can go no further. He sits on a bench.

April P sits down next to him. The husband is panting. He doesn't know why. He's just suddenly

short of breath. What's wrong with me? He asks. April P shakes her head. She doesn't know.

“She puts her arm around the husband who leans into her shoulder. His face is pale and waxy.”

Thank you. He says, "Then he blacks out."

April P sits with the husband for a while, watching him sleep. Then she lowers his body onto the bench and

stands up. She dusts the snow off the front of her coat and walks back to the pub. She calls a taxi, which takes her to the hotel and there she gets into her own car, a much abused hatchback. She drives all the way back to the town where she lives the name of which you don't need to know, although it is definitely not made it. By the time she gets there, it's three in the morning. Her room is a mess. Her bed is unmade. April P thinks about going to sleep,

but instead she puts on water for coffee, sits down at her desk, which is itself kind of a disaster, and starts working on a story.

“See what I was saying? Did that usual suspects type reveal hit you there at the end?”

The way LaFarge constructs the story so subtle, we don't realize we've been quietly set up, and that we've been listening to the bartender's story the entire time. And while she earns our respect for making lemonade out of her many lemon wedges, she also left that sad husband to freeze and maybe die there on the park bench. It's so much to take in. Certainly makes me wish we had Paula Farge still around to talk to about it.

But at the very least, we have the story and Josh Radner's great reading, and I am 99.99 percent sure none of us will hear it tomorrow morning on all things considered. Our show is produced by Jennifer Brennan and Mary Shimkin. Our podcast producer and editor is Colleen Pellisier. This episode was recorded at Symphony Space in New York City by Miles B. Smith. Matthew Love is our consulting producer. Our theme song is by Pottington Bear.

I'm Apparent and Incharla, thanks for joining us for selected shorts too hot for Radio.