Episode 4.5 - Oops All Clips! The Bonus Clip Montage!

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“- Hey gang, how's everybody feeling so far since last week?”

Episode four, am I right? - What a doozy. - I bet you're thinking, Holly, I don't know how you dealt with all of this growing up, but I need a break.

And to that, I say, you cowards! You couldn't walk a mile in my light up re-box that we couldn't afford, but I would've looked really cool in. Okay, so I cure correct.

This is a lot to deal with. And to tell you the truth, going back over all of this stuff has been hard at times for me too. We still have so much further to go,

and I think all of us could use a breather before we hop back on the sitcom Trauma Train. I'm also heading to London this week for an international podcast festival. So if you're there and you're listening, come say hi.

But I would never dream of leaving you all hanging.

So today, we wanted to share some moments that didn't quite make it into the regular episodes, but still give you a glimpse into what life was like day to day for the Brown siblings. My sister Casey and my brother Carson

are genuinely two of the coolest people on earth, and somehow against all odds, shockingly well adjusted. So this bonus episode is a little peak into that version of us too.

Joking around, making light of some dark stuff, and sometimes we just go down some random tangents that might make you question what I just said about us being well adjusted. So without further ado,

onward to the bonus episode. And in the meantime, we want to hear from you too. Your family secrets, your weird lore, your darkly funny, familial drama, anonymous, or otherwise, you can send them to everybody

on [email protected]. (phone ringing) - Why ever shown you dad's journal? Obviously you know about the journal. - Oh yeah. - But have you read any of the journal?

- No. - Okay, I'm gonna have you read it, because it was from when he lived in New York. - No, it was from when this journal... - He also got addicted to cocaine.

- He did? - Yeah, yes, according to Instelia. - I'm not surprised who's an addict. - Yeah, yeah, he, again, the drugs were like permeated throughout or he was very experimental.

- 70s, baby. - Adventurous, I remember you told me a story one time about trying heroin. - What? - Yeah, and that he said he tried it.

It was the best feel he'd ever had in his life

and he knew he could never do it again.

- I cannot, because by the way, the reason he did this is because he was method and he was playing an opium drug lord. - I'm sure he was. I'm sure he just happened to get that role

and didn't seek it out. - Yeah, what? - I can't even put myself on the mindset of someone that goes heroin, hmm, what's going to go?

“- I don't know, I think he just tried them all”

and I didn't keep up. There was a part of, like, you mentioned his ego. I can't imagine that didn't play a factor of, like, I think he partly felt a little, not indestructible, but...

- Who does that? - It's not in there that young and glad I definitely did and I didn't, you know, I don't know why I did. (beep) - I think he met his friend Richard at call arts.

- That sounds good. - And I think I could be wrong on the details here, but he said that he and Richard applied for his, or got a scholarship from a stunt fight, but they did. - He had student loan debt, everyone.

He did not get a four-odd scholarship, but not that Maryland didn't have to help him pay anymore. - Wow. - Call arts, and then he worked at six flags. - Wow.

- He, yes, he worked at six flags. - What did, yeah. - I did, I took after his spits up. - Yeah, no way. - He worked at so did Brad, what did he do in his six flags? - He operated Colossus, the rollercoaster.

- Why, yeah. - That's crazy. - Cause he was there, this is a morbid story that dad told me. And again, our dad, I would say it was, like,

70% truthful about what he said

and 30% embellishment, so it was a big, basically big fish.

- I don't know if this true, but dad said that he was there, the date, or like, there was a moment in time where they implemented harnesses and seat belts on rollercoasters, because a woman died on Colossus. And dad said he was there when that happened.

- Oh my God. - Yeah. - Well, he said the car turned to the left and she kept going straight. - I didn't know he worked at six flags.

- Wow. - Yep.

“- I didn't believe the stuff I think, 'cause you remember how dad taught us”

how to, like, stunt. - Yeah. - Uh, fence? - Yeah. - Like, I believe it.

- I don't know how much it's true, but I'm gonna keep it. - He just believed it. - He had so much cool stuff with Colossus, he took ballet. He said that was the hardest thing Athletically, he'd ever had to do. - Mm-hmm.

- He got to meet some of the Disney's, because Disney was a founder of Colossus.

You know, just cool stuff.

I would be surprised, they were when we'd have been in totally different programs. Wouldn't be surprised if dad was there when Tim Burton was there. - Oh, shoot, we can look up those ears. - We could. - Absolutely.

- With Tim Burton, it was dad. - And here I am sleeping over on my lack of nepotism. - Yeah. - You might have nepotism. (upbeat music)

- Hey, I wore a blanket! - What is that from? - Oh, SNL. - I think. - Who is it in SNL?

- No, no, no, you can tell me, Jason. Why am I thinking, can't we're gonna do it? - So, Dakeys? - So, Dakeys?

“I think it was him and Will Forte out in the downstairs table.”

- Oh, yeah. - Yeah. - And Forte. - Yeah, it's like a weird kid now. - I see this.

- Dakeys would be like, "I am Warp by ya!"

- Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

(upbeat music) - This is a little scatterbrain, so I apologize, but I really wanna talk about... - Take some water? - Yeah, for sure.

I don't know if you did take any breaks, let me know. For P.P.P. Pu Pu Palace. The slightest peanut here. - Oh, good, good, good, good, good, good. Can you hear that listeners?

So, have you straight? Raging torrent of piss. That's how I check mics now. Is raging torrent of piss. Finger, length, finger, length.

Raging torrent of piss. Okay, I wanna talk about my goal. We talked about a lot that I think we're probably an end up coming back to later on and month and month in my videos.

- There's gonna be a lot. Because the way I see the podcast now and this is evolving, but the way we see it now is like, we kind of wanna tell everyone stories

“to create a picture of who a mom and dad were.”

You know, who I was, touch on you and Carson to whatever extent you guys want to have your story out there, but this is, of course, I would like... - I would like to say from three episodes. (laughing)

Okay, click hangers. - Yeah, yeah. (upbeat music) - It's good, it's good, it's really really good. - He's bad, it's bad, it's really really bad.

(laughing) - Well, we're talking about mama, mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy! - Mommy! - We're just... - This episode is more than just as free associating

into microphones, I swear. Sometimes stories come up that my producers and I love and we really wanna include, but they don't quite fit into the normal episodes. But hey, there's nothing really normal

about the brown family. Is there. (upbeat music) - You know what, I'm not gonna get into this. I'm not gonna get into our parent's sex life right now.

- Thank you. - Yeah, you're welcome, I'm glad you're here. - I'm glad you're here. - This is the story, all about it. - Well, Carson was, but a swimmer that made it out.

(laughing) - Did he get it? - Salki, kikung. - Kikung. - Okay, Carson was a leader of the pack.

- Yes, of the sperm. - Of the sperm pack. - Of the sperm pack. (laughing) - How do I transition out of this?

(laughing) - All right, Gary. - How do you make a hit a ditty kong? - All right, we write just like the hated p-ditty kong. - Dark.

- P-ditty is one that's dark. - Dark. - The freak off? - Yeah, tan ditty kong. - Yeah.

- And scrappy was there, too. (laughing) - Scrappy would be there. - Scrappy would be there with ditty kong and p-ditty.

(laughing) What is this fan fiction I'm writing? (laughing) Pete, podcast is taking a left turn. - Pete and Alana about to Google p-ditty right now.

- No, I'm just-- - Don't, you're-- - You're Googling freak off? - No, I'm Googling freak off. - No, I'm Googling, I'm Googling, I'm Googling 64.

- To see if p-ditty was hidden. - Oh, man, p-ditty. - I don't know, I don't have dog-ditty. - Yeah, p-ditty confused with archaeology all the time. - They're both bad.

- Well, they're both bad men. - Archaeology. - That's a little-- - Oh, yes, he did, he did. - They just gets to, you know?

- I think they're only dog-ditty, bro. - I'm just saying-- - Go ahead and see. - Oh, this conversation.

“Do you guys want to do a different time of podcast?”

(laughing) - And do the multi-burst. Donkey Kong and p-ditty. - P-d Donkey Kong, no. - P-ditty-kong.

- P-ditty-kong. - P-ditty, p-ditty, doing--

the Donkey Kong, sixth never--

- And dog-ditty-kong-ditty-kong's dim, dim, dim, dim, dim. Doesn't give a dim a damn. - Dog-ditty-kong, Bobby. - Okay, all right, that's it, sorry. Two-fold minutes of that.

Okay, guys, we are here to-- - That was repeat. - That was repeat, Nalana. - We know how your name's now. (laughing)

We're unstoppable. You gotta call out Alana, she's my girl, she's-- - Alana! - She's the best person to possibly listen to these things and give me feedback, so.

- I just like to say, we're all on a-- - Thank you Nalana. - Really? - That riff we just said was-- - Yeah, was that good?

- Alie's had a half-a-ta-bo-chico, she's wasted.

from getting drunk off of one beer.

(laughing) That deb-caught to me when-- Okay, 'cause it's a serious topic. I don't really is. Well, so it was P-ditty-kong, K-C.

(laughing)

“Okay, should we have a podcast called "The Brown Load"?”

- Yeah. - And it's about how much we talk about poop. That was not my idea, that was my-- someone else's idea on the podcast. - It's really clever.

- 'Cause I told them I talk about poop a lot and they were like, "You've got to show a podcast called the Brown Load." - Pretty good? - Yeah, not bad, not bad. - Welcome to the Brown Load.

We're here to download you on our balance-- - On our diarrhea. - Of course, we're-- (laughing) - Sorry.

(laughing) - We're about to talk about the heaviest moment of our entire life. - Oh, we really are. That's probably why this is nervous.

- Yeah, this is nervous energy. - It's very good. (laughing) - I'm just gonna put out a bonus episode that's three minutes long of this.

(laughing) I hope just us talking about nonsense. - We seem well-adjusted. (laughing) - I know, watch after this, they both listen.

And I get an email that said, "We've absolved you from your contract deal. "Of your responsibilities, you're good to go. "You can make it brown load without us." (laughing)

(upbeat music) - Okay, I guess I kind of lied when I said there wouldn't be too much ridiculous riffing going on here. But these parts of our conversations

are genuinely helpful in processing everything. And I swear, it isn't just the silly stuff that we save for the bonus content. Like sometimes Casey, Carson, and I bring up stuff that's either really touching

or just telling about who we are and our lived experience. But this is supposed to be a palette cleanser before we dive back into the heavier stuff. So, let's return to the brown load. I'm sorry, I had to say that one more time.

(upbeat music) - I guess one of my earliest memories of mom that I fully remember was,

“and I think that's what I struggle with sometimes”

it feels like it's less about mom and more about, I'm in my child, why am I getting mad at myself, but it just feels like I don't know how to speak to her personality then sometimes, besides, you know, sweetness.

But I remember is when I cut my own hair, and I was like doing it for a while. On the fly, I would just like get a pair of scissors, cut a little bit. (laughter)

I always better apples, not just a little grum one,

and then I would take their, and put it under the mat in the kitchen. (laughter) Why do I do that? - I just think there's like, oh, I thought I was getting away

in the kitchen, you know, the mat right in front of the sink. I think I thought I was like getting away with something, and so I was like, cut a little bit, and I would just put onto the mat. Day or two would go by, I'd rinse repeat, do it again.

And then one day, I don't know what came over me, and I was like, I'm on a show, mom. (laughter) And I pull, and I put this, at that point, I was like, I'm gonna do a presentation,

I put this scissors under the mat too. She could put it together, I guess. And I just remember like lifting the mat up

“and showing mom, it'll be like, pretty cool, right?”

(laughter) And like at that point too, I'm like, did she not notice my hair or what, like, shocked? (laughter) - What?

- I just remember her just being like, oh my God. Oh, holy. And just like, I just remember so basically the reaction was not what I expected, which I don't know what I expected.

- He thought it was gonna be praise. - I genuinely thought there was something, he got me something like, you did this with secret

for so long and I never knew, under my feet.

- How kind is that? - You're like, got one over on me. - And I just remember her just being like, oh my God, holy. And then I have no proof of this, I firmly believe my punishment was that I was not

gonna get my hair fixed for future day, because my photo, iconic, iconic photo. - My photo where I'm like, I hope this comes out. - I'm the final, I'm a little girl. I mean, I posted it a lot on social media

for like, whatever man. (laughs) - I remember life feeling, I remember the emotions of it too then, and it's like I feel like I've over time had to callously build this disconnected, like how sad I was all the time.

I remember being to sad all the time. I think about my music taste and that's so indicative of like my, you know, where you are. I would listen to like what sounded like whales crying. Like that's the kind of music I live.

It was just like the blue was da da da da. Like someone's hauntingly crying in the song, - Yeah. - You did some good songs, you had some thrice and something.

- But everything else and I didn't really listen, like besides Brit, when I was little little, the chunk of time when everything was so, the worst it could possibly be,

- Your poetry was pretty damn good.

“- My poetry was really sad. - I remember stealing your book”

and reading your poetry was pretty good. - Really? - Yeah, it was pretty good. - It was a little kid who didn't understand poetry. I was like, that's moving.

(laughing) - You were dealing with bullshit than the average little kid I was like, so maybe you connected with it. - It was good, it was good stuff.

(soft music) - Going to Onkwangi and Jenny Cerstimianthas birthday, it was like a day that felt very normal. It was so fun. I was like, why am I gonna go and be like,

by the way, we don't have any food at our house. Oh my god, we're laughing, but it's so bad. - It's crazy. - It's so much fun. - I'm so excited to eat this hot dog right now

that somebody cooked for me.

- I know, I'm living my life being like, making my little brother cook for me. - Yeah, he's living Carson cook for me. - Which I know he's like making, but of course, and you had to learn how to do that

really young. - Chris was literally independent of taught yourself. - He was a quick anecdote or a quick story. They used to, they're early method for getting me to produce things for them.

Their cure items or cook food was, I'll time you. - Oh yeah. - The age-old. - Effective. - Very effective.

And then one day I got pissed and figured it out and I put Tabasco sauce all over the inter layers of their waffle. - Eric (beep) swaffles. - And of their retaliation.

- Because I think it was a step too far to have my friend, time unit. - You can't, yeah, it's gotta be from you. We're blood, but for Eric, I couldn't happen. - I think I timed Carson.

“I think that was a Holley specialty team.”

- That was a team. - I timed you. I convinced you, you were visible. You convinced you had your period. - Yeah.

- I'm sorry, you were, you and your friend pretended that I was didn't exist. - I know. - Like I remember, like, - What could we want to do to have

the superhero power of being invisible? - Yeah, I don't know. It was definitely, you know, you haven't. - You get a little hint about your older siblings. - Yeah, they made me carry the cats to the pool

and they scratched the shit out of me. - We thought that they was like, "Well, 'cause they're all loved, they're all loved." - So I had to go wrangle the cat from out under the bed. - They're right there, the cat did not like to swim.

- And for some reason, they were gonna make me throw 'em in the pool, which I did, but in the process, I got scratched the high hell. - So, look at the eggs, you put 'em in the pool and then we were like, well, you gotta get 'em out.

- Get 'em out now. - Ha ha, gotcha again. You didn't think we were gonna make it through a bonus episode without at least one emotional gut punch, did you?

This is still everybody knows but me, after all. But I am sorry for tricking you, so let's leave on one final laugh. When my siblings and I honored one of my dad's many infamous characters from episode one

and went bowling for his birthday. (bell ringing) (upbeat music)

- The first game is over.

Can you see the clothes or how are you feeling? - It's been really good, I got every other round that it got some dins, ended with 42, which is a high for me. - Of course, I'm a contacts Casey did score the lowest.

- Yep, but they got me Casey, the closer or pressure today. - Casey, I want to say I'm proud of you, you have great spirit, you gotta great attitude on the field. - Thank you so much. Please let us use bumper next time.

- Okay, you're an airbird boat. - What do I think, Mark Brown, would uproof a bumper for Casey Lee Brown? - Yeah, make it up, it's like a happy cap, and it would make me closer to you guys.

If I was allowed number, let me tell you those bugs. In terms of cuteness, she's ball on a strike. (laughing) - Booky board Brown, I need a check-in with you over here. How you feeling after tonight's game?

- I feel like a winner. You know, we got out there, we played good game. We passed the ball a lot, and we scored a lot of runs, so I'm excited for the next game. - Don't tell him, but this is a one-person sport.

(laughing) - I'm not the way I play it, Megan. - Thank you for getting my name right, you son of a bitch. - You're welcome. - How you doing with the next game?

- Well, we're just gonna get out there and pass the ball around, and we're gonna play a good game, but it seems for it.

“So that's how we play out here in Nashville.”

- For the listeners home, I am gonna remind you, we are in Los Angeles, and we are, in back bowling. Okay, bye-bye. - All right, gang, thanks for tuning into this bonus content. - Come back next week for another super fun topic.

My rock bottom, and remember to follow, rate, and review the show wherever you get your podcasts, or subscribe at youtube.com/everybodyknowspodcast. And drop a comment to let us know what you think of the show. - Next chapter podcast.

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