Giggling about an emergency press conference

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“You guys, I have to have an emergency press conference right now.”

I can't believe this is happening.

I cannot know I believe. I'm in shock. I've been going through something. I mean, it's not funny. And it's not funny.

It has been been funny. I haven't laughed about it. Page has been getting a kick out of my life. Would you know what? If that's the one joy that we get out of this?

What is learning? I'll let it go, let it fly. I'll let it go. This is me now. This is me.

This is the equivalent of your friend, Ms. Pernau, who's a word forever for the rest of your guys. And it's not funny. So-- Okay, so start from the beginning.

I start from the beginning. Yeah.

“And one thing I don't want to say about Greek,”

is we'd love to say that we live and we learn, but we don't. We don't. We don't learn from each other's mistakes. We don't learn from our own mistakes. And this is supposed to be a forum

where we talk about our shared experiences so that other people can relate or not relate and we learn collectively. And as the host of the show, we haven't learned a goddamn.

Not a goddamn thing. Now, one thing about the Greek girls is they know me better than anyone, better than my own, almost my own mother who betrayed me last week.

Yeah. Also, the hardest part about this

was not telling the gigglers like every second of the street.

It actually was driving me insane. We had to call it about it. We had to call it about it. We had to cut like moments of the past two pods where I like start talking about it.

But I'm like, I can't hold it anymore. Two weeks ago, I innocently went to get a massive discord for my TMJ. Yeah.

You guys know me. I don't do Botox. I, however, have gotten master Botox twice. You guys know that.

And I went to a new place. Was it a group on no? But was it, would I probably done more research if it was group on?

Yeah. Was it under the umbrella of group on someone's head had the same energy? Was it convenient? And I didn't look up anything.

Yes. So I get there and I'd love to get some Botox. And the lady was like, what did you get last time? And I was like, oh,

I'm not a woman in STEM. Like, I don't. Yeah. I have no idea what happened. Oh, my chart because I don't know.

And she was like, we don't do charts here. And I was like, of course you don't. No, but she was like, is it this poor? Is it zoom in? I was like, I literally have no idea.

I'm not a Botox girl. I just, I clench my teeth really bad. And I wake up with headaches sometimes. Cause, you know, I'm a woman of the arts. Yeah, God forbid someone has a little anxiety around.

A little trauma. And I, some people have it in their hips. I do too. But it's also in my jaw. And I did not know there were risks to this procedure.

I've never heard of a risk.

I didn't even know this could happen. So, she uses this poor. And she was kind of messing around a little too long back there. Like, you know, when they're like, making it, I guess.

“And I remember something in my soul was like, get out of here.”

You had a gut feeling. 34 years old, the people please are in me. She's still strong.

She's still working hard.

And I remember thinking like, what could go wrong. She's just like, what your masters are a little too weak, whatever. She puts it in, we're great, we're key king. Thank you so much, love you by. I'm going to the US Open Golf a couple days later.

By the way, I'm great. Living life. Actually, one of the highest moments of my life probably things are going well. Nice. My friendships are great.

My family's healthy and great besides grandpa. And everything is working. My career is doing well and I was like, yeah, I'm going to have a spectacular summer. We truly are. And I wake up that morning and I try to smile and it feels kind of tight.

And I thought I had like dry skin or something. And so I put lotion on like me. I've dry skin. Yeah. So weird.

So then I do this interview and I'm like, still feeling kind of weird. And then I'm like, oh my god.

“Is it possible that the poison that was injected in my face?”

Is now going to ruin my face? Would this be the repercussions of my own actions in real time? And it's a very humbling experience. No. So then two days go by.

I call a page. She's like, blows your experience. I was just in shock that you would just do this on a whim. Go to like a new place randomly. Does that shock you?

Kind of because like I, you want to know what? I look at you as my shepherd. Like you're leading. And so once you've gone astray, I'm like, but I'm not leading you in any beauty type stuff.

No, but you do lead in like sanity. Yeah. Don't do that. That's right. I was arguably getting a medical procedure done.

It was not caused by that. It was literally medical. And I did not know this.

“I literally did not know this could happen.”

So I call page. Actually it was really funny. Do this mile. Let's like really take a look. See and a gander will we're dealing with.

This is as much as I could smell you guys. And don't screenshot that page. Don't out there. I swear to God. I swear to God.

I swear to God. And also you guys, don't make me the face of Botox Miss Haps. I love my natural face. I love my natural movements. And I remember telling the lady.

I was like, by the way, I do on camera stuff because I'm humble. You know, I'm not like, by the way, my podcast is, you know, very popular. They don't care. I said it's on camera. I really need my face to move.

She's like, yeah, it's Botox. It just. Disport helps with the tension of your draw. Yeah. So I call the lady who did it.

And she's like, hey, how you'll do it. And I was like, I'm kind of freaking out. The smiles kind of shorter than it should be. It's okay. It's not for me, love.

It's not for me. So she. Sweet sweet sweet girl. First, she was like, it's going to get better. Don't worry, like, it'll get better.

And let me just practice.

We would never shame the girls who did this to us.

I was about girls never done anything wrong. It was our choice. So this week girl, it was her birthday. But she, in the beginning, it actually wasn't this bad. I just was like, I feel like something's off.

And she was like, yeah, don't worry. I'm like smile a lot or whatever else. I was like, cool, cool. So then I told her just in like two weeks, you think it would be better because I actually have a huge job.

Job coming up in Toronto that I'm super excited about. And she was like, why didn't you tell me that? She was like, two weeks, it's going to peak, babe. But also, I was like, sorry. I didn't give you my resume.

Like, I don't know.

“Like, you should always assume the person's face”

needs to work. Yeah, it's important in this in this equation. Yeah. And she was like, so it's a day. I'm like, it's three weeks of a gig. So she starts freaking out.

It's the last person you want freaking out.

I'm basically like, what can I do?

And she's like, try to smile a lot. So then I go to a girl in West Hampton. And she's like, look. And I've looked all over the line. She's like, you have to wait it out.

But I will try to put saline solution in your face. So then I go and get saline solution injected all in my face. Yeah, did I help? I don't think so.

Okay. Now mind you.

I'm getting face times where Hannah is giving me different facts

at one point she says.

“Did you know that the scientifically studied if you can't smile?”

You will go into a depression. Okay. So guys, this is the mental fatigue. I won't point. I won't point you guys.

I went back to the podcast when this happened to you. And I listened more closely. I go, okay. I didn't know when I was coming. There's something.

You were like, yeah, yeah. You're vain. Get over it. So I go to Pilates. Just trying to live a normal life.

And I was kind of in hiding in West Hampton. But I go to Pilates. And my Pilates instructors laughing at me. But I'm like, whatever.

So I'm about to start my Pilates class.

And they grow next to me. It's like, oh, that was hard for me. I just lost a must. Something just like fell off. I go.

She was. And I was like. And I was like, hey, and she's like, I'm a good girl. And I'm like, nice to meet you. And then I looked in the mirror.

Because it looked like I was looking at her. Like, you fucking freak. Like, why have you talked to me? So we're like about to start and I'm like, by the way. I just got weird.

Massage or Botox. I can't smile. I'm not being rude. I swear. And she's like, no problem.

I have to the show a bunch of after the show. You don't problem. You fucking bitch. I know I'm literally nice to meet you. So, thanks for listening to my podcast.

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“And this is what's insane is I'm low key.”

The smileiest person ever. Like, I would get myliest.

I would get made fun of as a kid for like always giggling, always smiling.

To the point that like, I smile too much. I've never been more aware. I love a mercy smile, a fake laugh. You're a nervous smile. I'm nervous.

I'm nervous. Yeah. I smile and laugh for everything. After the class, a bunch of Googlers came up to me. And I'm trying to navigate it.

But in my head, I can't process what they're saying because I'm thinking that they think that I'm being like, not cool with that. A freak. A freak.

Yeah. And I tell all of them. But now I'm like, I feel like Lindsay Lohan and me girls. I'm like, I can't stop talking about it. So like, everyone is like, by the way, I even--

(laughs) The blind stretches through me and the sauna. And I'm just like in the sauna. Just like alone with my thoughts. Googling it.

And people are like, this happened to me. And I couldn't smile for six months. And I was in the darkest place. (laughs) It's really-- it's very humbling.

I try not to look at the comments really ever because I don't like when comments like affect our creativity. But I was like, let me just check the geekly YouTube to see if people are on to me. Yeah.

And it was one person that was like literally no shade no tea. Love Hannah. Splunk things going on. (laughs) Someone responded and was like, no shade no tea.

Don't speak about women's bodies. She's probably going through something. It could be anxiety. Like, she's going through really hard times. Like, you just froze your face and anxiety.

Like, you're so nervous. Can't move. But someone was so sweet. They were like, "Please, you don't know what Hannah's going through or why?"

And I said, "Pure it." And that's valid. It was more things like, guys, this is fucking weird. And then I'm a talker. Like when something's worrisome to me or I'm stressed about something,

I need to talk about it. So I feel like this is therapeutic for me because I've been, I've been hiding because I've been trying to fix it. And I also leave tonight for one of the bigger gigs of my life for three weeks in Toronto hosting a TV show.

Now, are there a ton of comedians who don't smile? Yes. A lot of male comedians, some stern female comedians,

“are there a lot of celebs who get too much Botox and their face as move yes?”

I have to navigate the next three weeks. The good news is I think after three weeks, it'll loosen up a little bit. I have a very high metabolism. Yes, you do.

I do. And we know that you have short-term muscles. I fast-witch muscles, fast-witch muscles. Also, there's levels to this because now you guys realize, I want to see my mom because I was in a dark place.

And thank God for my family this weekend. They literally wait till my dad hears about this. Gary's gonna fucking kill me. But look, he looks so good, mugging. Yeah.

I did point out at one point I was like, "Your career." Occupation is comedian.

So like smiling is a prerequisite and part of the gig.

Unless you're sarcastic. Right. And some would say I'm funnier when I don't laugh my own jokes, which is my favorite thing to do.

“Yeah, I mean that's why I wake up in the morning.”

What did I do? But it is getting better, I think. Yeah. Do you think it's better as from the last part we did? So the other night, I think I worded it as it's different.

Okay. It's not as your lip, your top lip at one point was really going up. Yeah, it goes going really high. Yeah, it's definitely wide end, which makes me think that these, your muscles are kind of like chilling out a little bit,

because we want it to be wider. Sorry, I was so depressed right now. I just, I actually was like, "Just breathe." And this is the thing.

When stuff like this happens to your life.

So I thought what happens to you is how you react to it.

And have I reacted to a great note? Have I been pushing people away because I can't stop talking about it and have I been a ball night on Reddit trying to find people who have experienced same thing and actually not finding that many situations. This is extremely rare what's happening to me.

I don't know why it happened to me. But then I think bookpicture. I don't have cancer. I thought you were going to say, "I don't have cancer." It's like, "Okay."

It took a turn. But it is alive. Yep. I still love my brain. I'm tan.

I know. And this is temporary. Yes. Wait, tell them my mom said. [laughs]

She was like, "Are you okay?" I don't know. This means smiling.

“Oh, no, she goes, "Maybe don't, maybe don't smile."”

Just don't smile. But it also makes me realize how I feel like if I was a man, this wouldn't affect me as much. I feel like men go. I was even watching some like male basketball podcasts

and none of them smile. They all just kind of like talk shit. Yeah. And like, no one's, they don't really laugh at each other that much. And I'm like, "I just have to pretend I'm like a male podcaster."

They don't have as much criticism. Well, women are like, "Smile, smile, be pleasant smile." But I'm also interacting with like, "Uberdrivers." And I pretend I'm like, "I really like." And I'm like buying something at the store.

And I'm like, "They think I'm a bitch." Bitch. The good news is my speech is like improving. Me and Hannah were straight up role playing last night because I was like, "Okay, give me a monologue

and I won't look at you." And let me see if it sounds different and you sounded great. Thank you. When I nominate and speak slower.

Yes. So anyway, the reason I went to hang out with my parents this last weekend was for emotional support and thank God they were there for me. They were amazing.

But that's why my mom was like, "Maybe you come watch me do the National Anthem." And I was like, "I need to get out of the house. Like I have to stop ruminating about this." And that's why when I was running

and going through all that torture, there was like other levels to it that I was upset about. Mind you, I posted the photo of the 5K my mom tricked me to running,

which will post on the YouTube or Apple video if you get it. Everyone was mad about my shoes. Oh, honey, I didn't even see them. Everyone was mad about my shoes.

They were my cocoa golf tennis shoes that I wore because I thought we were walking to the race. Also, yes, I was holding two Arizona's T's and a banana because they were free.

Who's mad about two Arizona's T's and a banana? That sounds like, anytime someone says Arizona's T, I'm in. Yep.

Yeah, I'm coming. Yeah.

Arizona's T, I've never had the time.

Yeah, I have the set. Never finished one. Do you know a fucking big sum of them are? Mass their huge. Like bazookas.

Mm-hmm. So that's why I also look so miserable and I can't smile. So it was like, it was a lot but I do have to say, even though I've made fun of my mom so much,

she's been my rock and all of this. And Illinois has been very, very great about it. Like, because you know when you're,

“you don't want to stress other people out, you know?”

See, when I was going through this, I was like, everyone should be at the same exact stress level I map because this is a code red people. We have a serious problem out in our hands. This is emergency press conference code red.

I need the giggler's love and support more than ever right now. You know what they say? Like something that happens to your life and like the world just keeps spinning. And like people just keep going about their days.

That's how I felt. I was like, guys, how are you waking up and going to work? I can't move my mouth. No, it's crazy also. And that's like a high thought.

But like how you can experience life so differently. Like my life right now is literally just me navigating my smile.

When I talk to someone I look at their smile and you guys, it's like when you have a cold and you're like, I would give anything to be able to breathe in my nostril right now. Yeah.

“That's why I feel I'm like, if I could smile again,”

I don't care. Was that it? I humbling and it puts life into perspective. I truly think it's like a sign from God to both of us. Like, don't do it.

I told you not to do it. Yeah. You guys went and did it. And it's not for you. I don't think it's for us because I think there is this larger plan

that we are like amazing actresses and we must be able to move our face.

We must. We must. We must. Also, I was afraid I put a hex on myself because the next one. Sometimes I feel like people like safe in my energy

and they get the outcome that I actually can say. This is like out of some karma shit you did because you know I've been clean. Okay, so now I'm getting blame for your karma. Okay, because I don't have enough of my own to deal with.

No, we are fully connected right now. We're both on our periods. Like we are the same weeks. Hannah and I also literally Hannah got her period last night. I got mine this morning.

So this is insane. Guys, I got for the first time ever. I got my period on a red eye. What does that mean? I don't know.

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“And I'll put his name in our newsletter.”

It was transformational. It was one of the best readings because I haven't had a reading with him in six years. He goes the last time I talked to him was 2020. And I was like, which is crazy because it feels like yesterday. And everything he said in that reading like happened.

He was like, how motivated were you months after we talked. And I was like, my career completely changed. And I broke up with my boyfriend. But he was like, it was one of the most transformational things that you needed to go with.

Did you learn anything else?

No. I learned that, um, what did I learn? You actually five hundred dollars later. I have to re listen because you like black out when you're doing it because it's so much information. Here's the thing.

Sometimes when you're going to like psychics or mediums or astrologers.

“You have to like come up with your own questions and whether you're doing it for like 30 minutes or an hour.”

This guy taught I'm not kidding. This guy talked for one full hour. He was like, stop me at any time if you have questions. You see also like a medium or he's just reading your childhood. He's reading my chart astrologer.

I'm trying to think of like certain things about me. Not one thing about me. Nothing about partnerships. Nothing about business partnerships. Nothing about giggles.

Nothing about smiles. Um. Disport. Yeah. He did say that like next year because it's my manifestation year.

It's just like everything I've ever want, which is like giggly school. He did say things about like giggly school this year. I'm going to have to offline about something. I have to re-listen. Okay.

Because I blacked out during it. And so I put you on the spot. I put you on the spot. Also, it's hip up. Like that was crazy of me.

It's hip up. I was a doctor. I was insane. Like we talked about my fertility. It was like that was insane.

He said that there was one unique thing in my chart because he was like, yeah, typically I can see when motherhood. Like where there's a gap in a chart. That would mean like that's when you're starting to have kids. He was like because motherhood is like such a strong part of your existence.

And like your chart. You have free range to start and stop whenever you want. Because once you start, it's your whole life. Like it's your...

He was like, it's actually the first time you ever feel fulfilled.

No, I'm going to wait until it's something you ever heard. He also said it's the first time I ever feel like my love is going to like something worthy of it. And I'm like, so Scorpia. You're so... no, I'm going to cry. You're going to love your baby so much.

Not as much as Daphne, but like you will. You will. So anyway, there was that. He did say there were three different spots where I could get married. And one was in 10 years.

And I was like, clip. Goodbye. Bye bye. I am. I actually want to book him.

“And he'll be like, can you please stop asking me about how long this sport lasts?”

He does like, what's going on this year? What's happening this like next three months? And then like, what's happening next year for you? Anyways, I honestly feel like I have a huge monkey off my back. Just tying the gigglers.

I feel lighter than ever. But I need everyone. I've turned to religion. I've turned fully to religion. I need everyone to pray to Saint Anthony.

You want to know what it is to find my smile. It's your karma from last pod when you said you are agnostic. And God said, oh, really? I think you'll be praying to me soon, bitch. No, I'm fully religious.

I'm more men. I believe in Joseph White or whatever. Salamanders. I believe in it all. And I need the power of prayer.

I need the nuns. The sister nuns. High sisters. High sister. And you're so good at that sister.

Please, please pray. Are nuns allowed to get Botox? I'm sure there's nothing in the Bible. I guess that. But it seems like a material item that they wouldn't care about.

I saw this video today. And it was this mom asking her daughter a question. And I want to see what your initial answer is to it. Because I had my initial answer while I was watching it. And she asked her if a guy came up to you and asked you for help lifting something into

his car. What would you say? Yeah, what's your initial thought? Hell no. Yeah.

Nope.

“When he says, hey, can you help me lift this into my car?”

Well, okay, there's a lot of scenarios. When in New York City, if a man like even says, like, can I have the time or whatever? I'm like, no, thank you. I'm trying to say anything to you. Like, I don't want to be kidnapped.

Okay, say it. Let's say it's not New York City walking down the street because you're right. That is like. So this is like a neighborhood thing? Let's say you're in a parking lot.

I say, so sorry. I'm running late. So sorry. I'm running late. So sorry.

I'm running late. Also just broke my hand. Okay, that's so funny. My hands broken. Sorry.

My first, I think the little girl said, like, you don't have arms that work.

Oh, period. Slay. But my initial reaction was, I just froze my eggs. I can't lift it.

Sorry, I have a doctor's note, actually.

And I just got my period on a red eye. I'm also on be so real with you. I would, I would help him because I'm not cool. Like, I'd be like sure.

“And then I'd be like, we'd be like, I'd be like, is there a head in that bag?”

Then I'd be like, I can't. We just have the sun gig. Let's go on. It's going to be so crazy. But you, I think maybe you're helping because you didn't grow up in the suburbs where you

didn't have to think. No, you grew up in New York City. One of my saying you had way more dangerous. No, dangerous everywhere. I, if it, I would try to get the vibe.

But also like, I'll fight.

Like, I'd love to, I'd love to fight this man right now.

Well, because when I saw the video, I had a, a memory of my mom used to do that to me all the time when I was younger. Like, if you ever went, yes, if we ever went shopping just the two of us, which like, but it was all the time. But we were like, left the mall and the sun was down.

And we were walking to our car before we would leave the mall. She would get her keys out, put them in between her finger and say, Okay. You have to be alert. I mean, this started from like five years old.

“You have to be alert when you're in a parking lot.”

You, like, you have to, I mean, this was before phone. It's definitely didn't like help you're anxiety though, but continue. She's, you know what you take on the nervous system of your mother. And let me tell you, parking lots are not good for us. She became fully Wolverine, Kim Wolverine.

She was, if someone comes up to you, you say, absolutely not. Like, she would grab my hand, like with her other hand. And she'd be like, you just have to get to the car. You open the door, you don't talk to. And like, it was a very much a routine.

There's a crazy story about my papa in Brooklyn in, like, the 50s, I guess. And there's a story about he said he was walking down the subway. And some guy was walking up. And he didn't like how the guy was looking at him. Like, he felt like the guy was going to, like, rob him or something.

Something. So he broke his nose. And I, I was like, papa, I feel like they were steps. Like, what if the guy actually, like, what if he got weird Botox in his eye? And that's all he wanted.

Like, and he was like, I didn't want to find out. I'm like, is that the other day? I'm in Albany. I'm going on a walk in a park. My parents walk in a park.

I'm with my mom, my brother's girlfriend. We're, like, walking all next to each other. This guy, there's also, like, buildings around this park that, like, convention center, like, some like, random whatever. This guy, like, is coming around the corner from one of the buildings.

But he's walking at me with a swift pace. And I couldn't see his hand. And his hand looked weird. And I, like, was looking over my shoulder, like, every two seconds. Because I didn't, he was, like, really coming close.

Whatever passes me and, like, keeps going. And I just, like, looked around.

“And I was like, guys, did anyone else think he was coming to stab me?”

I was like, I love though you're, like, huge. I said, me, like, not all of you guys. Like, don't be jealous. What guy? What guy?

I go, that guy looks like he was coming up from behind me. And was going to stab me in the side. Eyes and ears. Stay on the only person that came to my defense, who was behind me was my brother, who said, I saw that guy I was watching him.

I said, 'cause he looked like he had a knife. I do think that growing up in New York City, there's so many crazy people running around, like, like, just with knives all the time that you're just kind of, like, they're just wielding knives at seven a.m. on a Tuesday in Times Square.

And you were just kind of, like, just stay alert. Um, and, but I've gotten myself in the last stupid situations. One more thing that I just remembered about my astrologers. He said that your three signs also have attached, like, child teenager adult.

And this was, like, when people say, like, oh, I have an old soul. That, like, really does mean something like you could legit have an old soul. All three of mine are adult. And he was like, you really don't, like, nonsense. He would, and he also said, like, there's no part of me that's, like, a baby.

So, like, I'm never cry, baby.

If there's any time where I'm, like, feeling bad for myself or feel like a baby, I snap out of it immediately because I'm, like, get over it. I'm kind of obsessed with you being born. And you're, like, I don't do that. Wow, wow, wow, shit.

Well, he goes, were you really mature as a child? And I was, like, I literally was, like, I'm not playing outside. That's for kids. I have business to do. I got my business woman.

I literally created a fake company. Sorry, don't do choice time. I have meetings.

I have a board meeting in the living room. Get it to get, like, what? It was called Teeter Totter Company. And I ran it. Like, I...

That's so funny. That's so interesting. Yeah, that's so, so interesting.

Like, because, like, some people will always identify as children.

Yeah. And I don't. Do you know what's weird? And this isn't a brag.

“Because I really think, like, we, me and you both need to cry more.”

Okay. I haven't cried once during this experience. I think more, because I, I deal with self-hate more than sadness. So I've more just been angry at myself. I've just been, like, you stupid, stupid, dumb bitch.

Host of the podcast, giggly spot. It feels with self-hate. Guess it's not all giggle. Well, no one wants to admit it's a mental health pod. Because we don't market that way.

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We were talking about a heavy air bar damn. Yes. He's shooting a movie, making out with Kate Hudson all over New York City right now. I don't know how actors do it. Let's talk about it.

Like, if I was Penelope Cruz, and I saw Kate Hudson, who we love, by the way, my other bestie. All over my husband, pretending to be in love. You guys are all in fake relationships. You're all cheaters. You're all in open relationships, and just being like, oh, I'm just pretending to make out with him. It's not real. I'm just pretending.

If I had a nickel. And you know me. I'm a trustworthy person. I'm not, I don't think everyone's cheating.

Like, I always believe people.

Absolutely not. Yeah, how would you deal with your man having three weeks where he's just like in love with Kate Hudson, making out kissing? No. And he goes, babe, this is my job.

No. Let's see, role play. I'm literally getting emotional and annoyed. Babe, I went to France to study acting to get this role with this amazing director. And I need to, yeah, it happens to be Kate.

Kate and I are friends. Kate and I are just friends. When I say, I think all people are cheating. I don't really mean that. I think there are more professions that lead and lend itself to cheating.

Like, okay, if you're a professional athlete, nine times out of ten, I kind of think you're cheating or you have cheated or whatever. If you're an ALS actor, yeah, I think that like maybe you probably have also. I think it has to be something that. It's such a unique situation that has to be talked about way before you get married.

“I mean, the only thing is is that they're both actors.”

Yeah. So they both have this brain and have been in situations where they have to do this. So I don't think they see it. Here's the other thing.

We've never been in a situation where we've been in a movie or a television show.

Where we're making out someone. I just like everything else. I imagine that it becomes so mundane and. An a liticle in terms of it. I think it works.

And they're much a little freaks. See, I don't. I think in some situations, yes, but I think the majority of the time it is really work. Like if he came home every night being like, oh, fucking Kate, she's so annoying.

I actually think that's a red flag. Oh, he's overconfident. I think he's coming home and complaining about someone. I actually don't like that. I'm playing chess.

Checkers you're playing chess. I'm like, wait, she's like, this much in your head that you like have feelings of dislike.

Ooh, you should feel nothing, period. You should be on the right thing. You should be on the right thing. That's all guys write that down. Yeah.

Now, my man is not coming home from work and telling me some story about. Some woman that like is. I think we're both correct in this and that. Yeah, as always. It's just if.

Because there's been multiple movies that people fall in love. Like Brad and Angelina. Um, also I did like one shoot. With like a male model for tennis. And we had to like be like smiling at each other.

And like there was like. Fimanton, I was like. Is that my husband? That's the equivalent of like an airport crash. Yeah.

It's like because in the moment and it's going to be over soon. And I don't actually have to know this person because he is probably a loser free. But like right now, he's hot and he's my husband and the airport.

“But that's why you cheat because you're like, I have a little family at home.”

This guy seems fun. Also, you did all those like romantic covers for like novels. Did you ever have like, I mean, I know you're like 16. But like where there are the teenage boys that you had to like take photos with. You know what?

No.

I never did any modeling with boys.

That was in your contract. Kim put that in the contract. No, yeah. Oh, you know what? There used to be this one story.

I don't even know if it's a store still. It was called Bob's like department store. Bob's not Bob's discount furniture. No different because it told clothes. And I remember I had like a week long shoe in New York.

And there was a boy my age. I had no idea what his name is. I could never even tell you what it looked like. But of course, I had a crush on him. Yeah.

Of course. We had to hold hands.

I had never held hands before.

I said, yeah. Can you tell me now?

“He's like, yeah, and then I grew up and I said that in a scene.”

Two thing, Penelope Cruz is out of home being like, she's blocked. Cates blonde. So he's not. I know for a fact that Penelope Cruz is actually acting right now. And in like a romance of her own.

That she's acting. Like they're both doing the same thing. That's a job. You know the character of the person that you're marrying. You know deep down in your God if they're going to cheat on you or not.

I feel like. And I also feel like you know. Maybe because I'm just crazy in tuition-wise. You know when something's off. I just also think people in Hollywood are inherently like super insecure because they have to have.

They have to be famous and have people think they're amazing. So like that doesn't. Bold well for like having a relationship where the person's constantly making out with other actresses or actors. I love the word "bode".

Actually I'm obsessed that I said I've never said that before my life.

I know like I'm sick. I love that. Like "bode" well. It's just like that could be the name of your son, "bode". Wait, you know what I want you to name your daughter.

And you know what it is but you won't do it. What? Ryan. Oh. I want a girl named Ryan.

I know. So it goes so well for your family. I like the name like Stevie and Scotty and like Frankie for girls but I don't want them to have to be like my name's Francine but call me Frankie. Like I really obsessed with them not having to waste like those seconds of their life constantly.

You know what I think about a lot. We're at the age now. We're like our friends are naming kids. We're thinking about kids' names. Kids are about. We're at the age.

When I was younger, I would always think like "Oh my God, when it's time for me to name my kids, and I'm not going to be able to pick this name because I know someone this name." And like now I'm at the age and I'm like "Yeah, I could never name a baby." Because I cringe at just the sound of it. No, it's bad because especially when you've like dated a bunch of guys,

they ruin every baby name for you. Yeah. Because then next thing you know, you're like okay now reminds of like I used to yell this grandma. Like now like I can't just enjoy the name. There was a baby name that I thought was so cute and I like always love this name.

And I don't know, I was like dating someone and I like went through his phone or something and he was like texting a girl with this name. And I was like "I was like, I really like baby name."

“I remember being so pissed, I was like "No, because I, and then I was like "No, I'll forget about it. I'll forget about it."”

No. I didn't forget. Also, I date guys with names that I like. Like I don't date guys with weird-ass names. So like literally every good name I fucking, I fucked.

Well, but then it's like, what if I have a son and then that guy's like, wow. She's obsessed with me. She named my son her son after me. And you're having to think if I've ever dated someone with like a weird name. Oh.

Yeah.

“Do you know I dated someone once I'm named Desmond?”

Yeah.

How have you never told me that?

I feel like I have. I was in college. Wait, did you date my husband? Is this three job? But I mean-

I was Irish. I dated for like a summer. Like when I tell you it was like the girlyest college summer fling ever, it was like- Did you have an Irish accent? No.

But you had like blue eyes, brown hair. He would like come to the door and like ring the door about to pick me up for dinner. Oh my god. It was like a real summer fling. I think I was like 20.

So cute. Anyway. Why is can every week? Like, what's everyone?

All of a sudden, I one day I woke up and everyone was just like-

In Canada. You didn't come to Canada. I'm like, we're worried about everyone. What's everyone doing? Surely not everyone needs to be there.

Also, it's not like next door. I'm like, you guys going across the world for a panel? This is a lot. This is a lot. You could do virtual, you know?

You could do a zoom. I feel like I see something about Canada and I'm just like, no. No, but also can they just had the film festival. Now they're doing like an advertising festival. Everything's a festival.

There's a lot of festivals, which are better than parades. I will say. I just want to send here because I have been doing some like thoughts and reflection. If there's one thing about me, I like to acknowledge when I've changed my mind.

“Because I think it's important to let women know that it's okay to change your mind.”

That's what growing and expanding and that's what life is all about. And so I do think that there are certain situations where it is okay to say one thing and do the other. And I think there's situations where it's okay to be hypocritical. The more I think about it, the more I really put some thought into it. I actually kind of love that Taylor Swift's getting married at Madison's murder.

I thought you were going to say you're going to go to talks. We took it to official. She's getting married. No, I mean, I think so that's like what the chatter has been. Why not have some whimsy? She's in the heart of New York City, arguably the best city in the entire fucking world.

The energy just alone on that day will be so insane. I feel like that's like good karma. Madison Square Garden, she's performed there. It was probably a major highlight of her career.

The first time she ever sold out Madison Square Garden.

It's iconic people from all over the fucking world know what Madison Square Garden is. The security detail would be so top notch. Not a single paparazzi would be able to get a photo or even get close to getting into the building. I think that's probably a massive piece of mind for her. Surely she has to think about people trying to like legit calm and like what are they going to do with ice rink?

Now that I don't know. And then the other thing is she is a billionaire. So she has the capacity to hire anything she wants. Do anything she could make it look like a literal completely different place in there. She better invite the whole next team.

I think she will. That's the other thing people are like she's meeting a thousand people. I kind of feel like that might be like a lie. I actually think it will be like a normal sized water. I heard that there's a lot of people being invited.

Really.

“It's going to be like a crazy spectacle and I think go for her like lean in and have fun.”

Do your thing. Like I'm exhausted like I like I'm exhausted. I love like halfway through. She's like we should have just a low this kind of fucking crazy. Yeah.

I mean just personally the older I get if I like think about like what my wedding could potentially be. I do feel like it gets chiller and chiller. Oh for sure. For sure. You're like let's do a brunch.

Like I really do just think about my outfits. As long as I have enough things to change outfits then I'm like I don't really. You're wedding day is going to be using a photo shoot for three fucking hours different backgrounds. I do have some type of cape I see that like I'm like where am I making this work. I have been ruminating on a cape for like years now.

No you're going to have to do a reveal. It's going to be a whole thing. And then when the party actually starts. No one's going to where you are. People are like I don't want this one certain drone shot.

Yeah. You're going to get the shot and you're going to get out of there. And then you're going to go home.

Then you're going to find it.

You're going to post. It's going to be iconic. And you're like amazing. We got the shot.

“And your husband's like we didn't even say I do.”

Yeah. She's like you skipped the whole ceremony babe. She's like we're good. We're good. Um.

Okay.

So here's what we're doing for the weekend.

We're just like wishing him a well. We're like we're just like we're sending good vibes positive energy. I see like I cook her right now just thinking like having the gigglers know what I'm going through.

“Makes me feel less alone because I felt really alone this last week besides.”

My mom who betrayed me and you and my husband and my cat who better never smiles. And everyone. I mean people talk shit about better though. But also one quick announcement too to make me feel better. Does.

Does is Hulu special drops.

Drops today on Friday. Go watch this special. If you feel weird watching just like a man get another man that you know in your life. Um, it could be your dad. It could be like.

Probably. Yeah. If you've a boyfriend.

“If you don't have a boyfriend like good.”

Good job. Um, a man you met once just like send him the link. I don't know. But um. Everyone watch it and message him and tell him your favorite jokes.

Cause we support one man, the arts in this family. I DM does, but I didn't know what to say. So he just did the hands up emoji. He probably loved it. Two Scorpios trying to show affection.

Yeah. Good job. Drop over there. Um, I love you guys. Thank you for not.

Pretty going. Thank you for taking the time. Thank you for taking the time. Thank you for taking the time. Our emergency press conference.

And we'll keep you posted and things are going to get better life. Life can be hard sometimes. Hmm. Bye. [MUSIC]

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