#668 - Cristina Mariani

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Today's guest is a standup comedian out of Austin, Texas. You may know her from Kill Tony, and from her tour currently in America, and in a Europe as well next year, I had a great time getting to know the hilarious Miss Kristina, Mariani. Thank you for coming and thanks for adjusting your time, or whatever we're going to do. Thanks for having me.

For a second, I thought you were going to do my podcast.

And then I was like, why would he, he didn't know about the, I'd click later.

“That's why I asked if you could do it in the evening.”

Oh, really? Yeah. I'm glad that you would think about me being on there. I don't know what happened to wear here. What do you think?

I see nobody think if you had to pick a hat for a guy that's sitting in here. That's one. She goes like that one more. You like this one more? Yeah.

You look tan. Were you selling handsome? This is tan. Oh, full. Okay.

Yeah. Like you've been in the sun. Oh, I thought you mean, I, I honestly, I thought it gave me a little streak. I was like, you look closer to being like a BG black guy. Oh, no.

Not with some of it. That's true.

You never see a black guy with some of it.

“But you know what, you know, you know what's, I think is something that should come back”

is the Jerry curly. That's what you say. You wouldn't say what is mentioned that. What she was talking about Moloton. I said, she was like, if he was, it's a long story.

We're talking if you were black and he had a bullet. I said, I think that's a Jerry girl. Oh, that's what a Jerry girl is. I didn't know. Oh, that's a Jerry girl, baby.

Okay. Sorry, and it's hard to call you, baby. You also, that's insane. And that's very unprofessional. And it's not cool.

I felt like you were being a narrator. Not you, CEO. Just a narrator of the. Thank you. Yeah, I wasn't trying to be offensive.

No, I didn't think like you said I was a loof that was worse. Okay. That was before rolling. Yeah, but now everyone knows. If I'm being weird, it's because you called me a loof and now I'm in my head about it.

Okay. Oh, sorry. Your hair looks nice, how about that? Can I say that? Yeah.

You're very funny too. Let me say that first. Okay, cool. Yeah. And your hair looks really nice.

It looks different than last time I saw it. Yeah, I got bangs. Yeah, I just wanted to try it. And how does it? Yeah, how does a bang choice come on?

I know that's. How? You know, every once in a while, something happened during the month for girls and you just. Get more testosterone and then you start making decisions. Oh, really?

Yeah. I feel like that's when I make all my important decisions around my period. You mean something more of your. Oh, just like, because you get way more testosterone in your body when you're about to.

“That's why we get so angry because we're closer to you guys.”

Um, when we're about to get our periods. We're the closest to guys. So then. Is that really what happens? I'm pretty sure.

I don't want to like, we can fact check it. No, bring it up. But so, so you get more testosterone right out of there because why is it because you have to hatch an egg kind of deal or like is is the body need more power or need more.

The way to say it. Somebody's going to get upset no matter what I say here.

“But about a power or just like, you know, what is it?”

What do they need more testosterone for? Do you feel like? Um, I don't know. I have no idea. I feel like it was just your body punishing you for not having a baby.

That's what a period is. That's what the. It's like now you get to be a man for a week. But then if you-- And what brings a Christian and he says that?

I don't know. I don't know. Are you religious? You're a little religious, yeah. I believe in God, you know?

Right. And uh, yeah. And I like Jesus did. So that's what I meant. But no, I, yeah, I have faith for sure.

Yeah. That's cool. And your part to your part time religious, are you? I grew up really religious. I grew up really Catholic.

But then, you know, in high school, I was like, I don't know. I don't know if I believe in this. And then now I'm like kind of in the crystals and stuff. Oh, yeah. And like, but I, I'm spiritual, I guess.

But you can't spell crystal without. Cre, like me. No. No. Christ.

Christ. Yeah. Okay. It was thinking, it also Christ, Christina's close. Wow.

So you, yeah. No matter what.

So you always think about myself.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Um. What was I even asked about?

Oh, no. But tell me more about the um, the obvious or like the energy, the obvious or energy. Oh, okay. And I will lead to the banks kind of.

Oh, okay. Well, I think I just, um, you know, I think I always have these things and subconscious. Like in the back of my mind, these things that bug me, but I'm able to ignore it for most of the month.

And then we're about to get my period. They all kind of come to light and they really aggravate me, you know. And then I'd get like more insecure and stuff. And then I just, you know, I'm like, you know what? I will get banks.

Why not? Because you get that stuster in that confidence to just go for things. You know? Okay. So some of it feels like a confidence that comes in.

Kind of like when you're angry, I feel like you don't. You don't have time to overthink things if you're feeling angry about something.

“That's what's nice about feeling angry sometimes.”

It's that you're not overthinking. It's a great point actually. Anger usually kind of leads to some sort of action. Yes. And not always good.

Most of the time not good. Yeah. But you're not overthinking when you're doing it. You know, it's true. Like, oh, look at these definitive people who are making a bad choice.

Yeah. Exactly. I don't get really that angry though. Yeah. Well, I think they look nice.

I think they look great. Or those are banks, huh? Thank you. I like yours too. Oh, thanks.

Yeah. I feel like we're kind of matching. Yeah. We're like two different versions of Brittany, kind of. Yeah.

This is Brittany, bitch. Yeah. And I'm tired.

Well, every girl always wants to be toxic, Brittany.

I'm okay. I'm with me. I'm okay with being dancing in the foyer with the knife, Brittany, or whatever. Like, then one of the newer ones. Okay.

Like the second to like the New Testament. A new generation, Brittany. Yeah. I'm this. This is you.

I'm this one. I'm Halloween, Brittany. I bet she got those banks too. It was a period decision. I'm Michael Myers, Brittany.

This is Michael Jackson Myers, Brittany right here. This bitches legit. And you think those dogs? How do they feel? Take me through this.

Christina? How do I think the three dogs staring at her? I don't know. Do you think those are employees? The dogs?

Are they emotional support? Dogs? Do you think are recreational ones? I'm not sure. One of my cornrows.

I think along it's back. I don't know.

I always feel like emotional support dogs look sad.

Oh. You know? Just imagine your friend is just like always making bad decisions. And you can't say anything. But you have to stare at them.

Yeah. Come on. Stop doing that. Don't fuck your ex again. Yeah, dude.

I never thought about that. And like, yeah, you don't do anything. And the emotional support you just feed them. It's like, oh, they're like, you're fucking your life. Hope you know.

Like you're doing hair whenever. I'm just laying over here with this best on. You know, and people think I was in like the military or whatever. And then they're like, ah, you want me to forget about it. So you would just feed me.

Yeah. And dogs are good at that. I'm forgetting about things if you feed them. That's a good point. I feel like cats would keep you more accountable.

“And that's why people don't like them as much.”

A cat would be judgy. Every time you do something wrong, it would like go away and show you its butthole. Yeah. And you'd be like, I fucked up.

And the cat wouldn't like, you know. That is quite a move. What ethnicity move is that to walk off about. About 11 feet away, show you their asshole. Hmm.

And then there's wander over buying a curtain. What ethnicity? Yeah, I like to relate things to ethnicities. Like behaviors to different ethnicities. Okay.

So what ethnicity would like walk away, show you their butthole and hide behind a curtain? I'm thinking, ah, I'm going to get a little fight for this. But I'm going to go. I'm going to go Vietnamese. Gave Vietnamese probably.

Gave Vietnamese. I don't think they would hide behind a curtain. Oh, you think it would just come up? I think it would be proud. Miller round.

Maybe pass a hat around. Yeah, yeah. They would share their butthole and then freeze freeze frame.

(laughs) Where are you?

And that's how I met your mother.

(laughs) Christina Mariani. Is that how you say last time, yeah? Yeah. Yeah.

Good. Thanks for hanging out today. No problem. Would you do it? Is that your full name?

I'm not the adorable, my grandmother said. Okay. Okay. Oh, okay. I was going to say, ah, she was--

No, no, I'm sorry. I don't know. No. She was just like kind of a brave woman who did a lot in her community. But yeah, we'll go with that version of it.

Ah, horrible. (laughs) So she was a different type of lady. Yeah, the adorable. That's my name right there.

I like it. It's like I've been in the trip once. Yeah. So you'd be the fat one. Yeah, yeah.

Oh, dude. Yeah.

You'd be all kind of like, I don't know.

I don't know.

“I don't think you can say I think I feel fat”

because people that are thicker would be upset. Like you can't take the feeling of being fat, but not the... the... the...

smorgous bore governor, whatever. You could be like, I feel full. That's it. Right? I feel like a full male.

I feel like I've been full for a few years. Well, no, that seems gay. I feel like. Yeah. I guess so.

It's the Vietnamese guy, too. Yeah. Yeah. Like you even eat anything in a couple days. You're like, I'm full.

Yeah. Definitely been being gay. Have you ever been gay? Have I ever been gay? Yeah.

Just like for fun. No. No, I'm a one-time... some guy was like... He was saying he was like a suicide or whatever.

Was that a suicide? A suicide? A suicide? Bring up an image of one. Let me get a JPEG of a suicide.

That kind of sounds like a... Like that. That doesn't look soothing at all. Well, all these are options, right? I mean, I'm talking to the horse.

The other Britney suicide or Britney right there. That's your grandpa, the band. Talked into the horse. But it was like... It was just like some guy.

And he's like... The apparently there was a guy in our town who could read your ribs. That rubbed in his fingers on him. You could read them? Like it was almost like a reading on a crystal ball or something.

Okay. And so he was like a rib reader, right? Like a mystic. Okay.

“And so I remember they would take us here.”

Like during the carnival or whatever the affair they would take us there. And this guy would just kind of like... You know, he would kind of like read like the... You know, that's just your body braille right there. You're ribs.

Yeah. And he would kind of feel it like that and then give you a message. Okay. And like a message of hope or like a message of... Concern.

Okay. I feel like the ribs is a funny thing to pick. Because you could only feel skinny people's ribs. And so that was a way to like filter out who he would touch. You think?

Yeah. I think he was like... You see, it was like I'm not touching fetties. Right? But I don't know.

I think look, Britany. I think money doesn't have. I don't know if money cares about how like which, you know, like... But maybe yeah. Maybe he had a type.

He had like a very like a starving type. But yeah, I guess it's like, yeah, let me just... You know, picture in a beast person, you know? And you go to like... Look for the ribs and you've really got to like...

I would love that. Get in there. It's like an Easter egg hunt, kind of. Yeah. Yeah.

I think I would dig that. You are from just some audience can learn about you. Okay. Okay. You went out toward together some.

Yeah. Yeah. And you're on tour right now. Yes, I am. Right.

Yep. Where you have coming up just so we know. Um, I mean, I just thought I should have looked that up right. There we go. Skyline, Apple, Tim Wisconsin.

I love Wisconsin. Chicago, at Zaineez, that's great. Yeah. Right. Dude, the comedy store LaJoyal.

Oh, yeah.

That's the first time me doing that.

I'm excited. That's the best. Okay. Cool. That's where Mitch McConnell lives.

Somebody said, I think. Okay. That's where anyway. Or lives is a unique term to use with Mitch McConnell. But, um...

Didn't he just fall asleep? Do you see that? He's found unconscious. What? He's a center.

Okay. So he's just up to those. It's like those sleeping senator tricks.

“You know, like those, what's those animals that play dead or whatever?”

Possums? Yeah. Yeah. Oh, so he's just being a possum. Yeah, he's just the opossum of the, uh...

What did the center Mitch McConnell was found unconscious at his Washington D.C. Home on June 14th, 2026, and reportedly received CPR for us. Suspected cardiac arrest. Sure. Probably trying to get insurance money.

While his office confirmed he was hospitalized, they provided few details on his current condition. I don't know. I kind of believe that he had a cardiac arrest. You do?

I think that's, yeah. Well, he's the guy that they keep pressing the butt. Like they keep shutting him down. A lot of people think that he's controlled, right? And so he's a guy that they keep pressing the butt on him and shut it.

You know, he's the guy that kind of shorts out. So he's a robot? You think? People have said that he is more like, yeah. He's kind of a...

Yeah. That would be great to make all robots old.

Oh, they're just old. Oh, you got a 1996. Yes. But you know... Maybe Michael J. Fox is also a robot.

You think? He's just like glitching. I think he's definitely... He's testing the matrix. How is Michael J. Fox...

What's his health condition right now? Because I know he's made all these... What does he have? MS, right? Oh, he's got Parkinson's dude.

Oh, I feel bad making a joke. Oh, no. It's okay. I mean, he's a comedic actor. I'm sure he's okay with joking around.

Michael J. Fox in the advanced stages of Parkinson's disease. And also this is what you get for travel and through time. Mmm. Uh, is in the advanced stages of Parkinson's disease, which he was diagnosed with in 1981.

While he deals with severe symptoms and mobility challenges, he remains mentally sharp and active, making high-profile appearances like his surprise attendants at the 2026 sagwards. Um, dude, it would be interesting to talk to someone

that has that just to learn about what it's like. You know, just to learn about Parkinson's and like...

I always wonder what it's like to have certain...

like a certain ailment or a thing that's going on with your body or mind.

“But while you're, like, can you still experience it?”

Like, is it feel like you're in like a Halloween costume? Like, you know, when you're in a Halloween costume, you put it on in the mask and you're still looking out of it. Like, it's you inside, but outside people think you're like a ghost or like a, like a wookie or whatever you mean.

You mean, like, if you're self-aware about how you're coming off to other people? Yeah, like, does it feel like you're like just trapped inside of something that's having a problem? Or does it feel like you are having the problem? I guess that's what I mean.

I mean, um... And so are those bugs in here? Oh, it's okay. It's not bugging me. It's just like a lot of bugs.

It's not. No, it's okay. Sorry. No, it's all right. I'm taking on anger for somebody else. You're fine with it.

That's fine. You're from Stockton. It's okay. You're gay. You're always having your...

That's true.

And you get it every once in a while.

Every once in a while. That's when I get stuff done. I wait, I write down the things that okay. I'll do that when I'm about to get my period. Because I'm about to get anger.

That's a good idea. Like a period to do this. Yeah, yeah. So then I'm like, I'll get to this. I know when.

I mean, so that way I remember. It's like, all right. Time to, you know, um, yell at my mom today. No, I wouldn't. I love my mom.

Well, who knows if you do. But time to like dig up that body or time to like, you know, go look for treasure. Time to do something. Something.

That's productive. Yes. Yeah. Yeah. Cause then if not, I'm just sitting with all that anger.

I need to use that energy. Which is what? Do you work out? I like that. Yeah.

I like to work out. Because of all the anger. Yeah. I got to let it out. It does kind of makes me just, I don't know.

It makes me here's what it does for me as I realize.

“I need to let myself know that I'm in control of myself, right?”

Because if not, I'll be more at the winds of just like what my, what my thoughts are. So going to the gym, making myself go, putting me a little bit more in control of myself. It gives me a little bit more hope that like, okay, somebody's got my back and it's me.

Okay. Yeah. That makes sense. A little bit of that doesn't make sense. It completely makes sense.

I appreciate that. If you complete task. If you do things, you tell yourself you're going to do that builds your confidence. And then you trust yourself. Because you're like, I'm not a liar.

I said I was going to do it and I did it. You hate yourself when you're lying. Yeah. To yourself. Yeah.

Oh, dude. Yeah. I spent, I got to point writing, believe myself anymore. I wouldn't even listen to myself. I've realized I would know I would say in something like,

I'm never, that's not going to. You know, like, you start to lose like integrity with yourself. It gets kind of like, I don't know. It can get, it can, you can get in like kind of a rough spot. Yeah.

Because then you don't like yourself. I mean, think about somebody in your life that you know is a compulsive liar. You don't respect them. You don't want to be around them. It makes you feel bad.

And then that thing is inside your head. It's you. Yeah. Like, you can't escape kind of Britney's dogs, you know. And then that's the you and your head.

You just like, Oh, man. You know, somebody cornered my back. Yeah.

“Like enough, but just, that's why I never say.”

I wanted to talk to had lipstick onto it. That's the part that shook me a little. He was just, he was like, I need to feel better. Somehow. He was like, I don't look pretty.

I mean, he was a man too. I think he was a Vietnamese dog. Yeah. And this is a new advertisement for Hollywood. This is insane.

Yeah. Hollywood, the musical. It was a musical too. That's the exact what this is. You know, there's some things you couldn't make musicals.

It would be inappropriate. Right? You can make movies about everything, but you can't make musicals about everything. I don't know if that's true. I've been thinking one thing we do need more of is like wagers the musical.

Okay, but see that's funny. That's funny. You could do that. That's what about 9/11 in the musical. What would you call it though?

9/11 in the musical. Hmm? Yeah. I don't know. That doesn't seem appropriate.

It seems like. No. Well, I think you need a softer pitch.

I think it's an interesting idea.

“And I think if you had fun raising in it, then I could see it.”

But 9/11 in the musical. No fun raising. Who would be in it? You need like kind of like a gay hero that survives the rubble. A gay hero that survives the rubble.

We have to have somebody that, first of all, likes being in a musical.

Okay. Right. So that's why you said gay. I'm just, I'm not saying it has to be. Would you not be in a musical?

You don't think? I don't know. I'd be in it for 10 minutes. Can you sing? I can sing alright.

I'm pretty good. I'm pretty good. I'm getting better. I'm actually not that good. Can you sing something?

No. Really? Yeah. I'm not singing. Yeah.

I don't sing her in the daytime also. Okay. It's a nighttime activity. Yeah. Like being gay.

Yeah. Being gay is up. It's for the nighttime. For some of you, I think it's nighttime. I was just talking to my friend earlier about having a hot air.

But like they had this guy in our town.

And he would meet a friend. They both were hot air balloon enthusiasts. And they would go up in the sky. And that's where they would hang out. And just like, I think they had a gay.

Okay. Energy. And they would take it up there. Because there was just so much embarrassment here at sea level. Okay.

So you're saying two gay guys went in separate hot air balloons. And then they. Yeah. And that's. But they're in separate hot air balloons.

But they met up. Oh. So they did it. So people on the ground thought they weren't gay. Right.

They were separate ways. And then they. But people knew. They're like, there's no. What are they doing up?

People started to kind of put two and two together. It's like up. But also their penis is up. Yeah. Yeah.

It's a new Disney movie. Yeah. It's a new Disney movie. Oh yeah. Christina Mary Holly.

Can you see today? Can you tell me again about. So do you. Can you bring that up about. If a woman is going through ovulation.

Do they have? Is there more testosterone in the bloodstream? I think it's like around their period. Not ovulation. Okay.

Yes. Yes. I'm in testosterone rises around the time of ovulation. I guess it is ovulation. And then stays somewhat higher through the luteal phase.

Okay. Yeah. That's when you get your period in stuff. Okay. But it's not highest during the actual period.

Huh. Yeah. It's usually the week before that I find. This is the most productive. Okay.

Then I start to mellow out again once I start bleeding. It's like. So that pre period that pre drip kind of. Mm-hmm. Yeah.

Yeah. Exactly. That's the term to use pre drip. Yeah. I feel like that that makes sense.

Because it won't be like unprofessional or whatever. Have you ever seen under the Tuscan Sun? No. Is that like a euphemism for a period or whatever? No, no, no.

It's a movie. But um, the whole movie she's trying to open a faucet. And it doesn't work. And then at the end it's just flows. And she's happy.

That's kind of what it's like. Uh. Yeah. Oh, like mad max or whatever.

When they finally get the water.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's actually learning.

That's kind of like, we go through a movie every month. Okay.

“Can you let me know how much testosterone traveling?”

Like, what is the actual increase? That's so quiet and know that. Probably varies from person to person to the amount. Like if you're lightweight about testosterone then you just get fucked up on it. Just one shot.

That's all it takes. But you don't start like, like, I'm trying to think you don't just start like, buying a core vet or whatever. Do you like what? Let me see the myths.

No. The myth cycle rising testosterone is small and absolute terms roughly 10 to 30% higher. Wow. So take me on. Is this crazy to even ask you about?

No. I don't think so. Okay. You're from Stockton, right? Mm-hmm.

Okay. I just want to get a little bit about your life and then we'll go in. Yeah. We'll come back and forth. So take me through like, how do you know if you're getting your peer?

Or you just like, because is it almost like you get day job, or like you're walking and then you feel like, is it feel like getting day job? Um, it feels like I'm starting, I get obsessive anyway. I'm kind of an obsessive person.

But then when I'm about to get my peer to get really obsessive, like almost I can't get out of my thought loops, whereas I can snap myself out. But then when I'm on my peer to it makes me fixate on certain things, or certain things I thought I resolved, then it brings it up again,

and then I just get real obsessive. I don't know how. But that it's different for everybody.

“I'm already obsessive, so I think it enhances it.”

Okay. Um, what was the question? How did I shit? The question was, like say I get a period, right? So I'm walking around town or whatever,

and I'm gonna get a period or whatever. How do I know I get it? Like do I, do you start to feel like you're led? Like does it feel like you're led? Sweat, do you feel like,

like, so you said you start to feel a little more fixated on stuff? And you can notice it? Oh yeah, it's super different than that. Dude, that's crazy bro. Yeah, I get like two weeks where I'm like,

pretty happy, like feeling good, and then two weeks of just a sled, it steady decline and obsessive,

um, do you always see how people perceive you the same way?

It's a pretty constant for you. I think good question. So like, do I always think like, yes, I think I do, yes, I think I do. I think I always kind of think people sort of perceive me the same way.

Okay, so I don't know what it is, I'm a specified, but I do believe that, yeah. For me, I feel like sometimes people perceive me better and then when I'm about to get my period, I'm like, everybody hates me.

They kind of gets like more darker. It's just kind of like real life, but with like a cloud, you know, like a mean, dark cloud that's just like, and you have to like think, no,

this is, it's kind of being on drugs, but a really bad one, you know, like, and it's a bad trip for two weeks, but it's like, it's not super intense. I don't know, I don't know how to describe it.

It's just, no, it's cool. It's a moose I ever even talked about with somebody, and it's interesting, because it's just crazy to think that like,

“maybe that's why women are so resilient and tough.”

You know, because they have to like, you know what I'm saying? They got like an interior thing that's good. They got like, they're going through like a, they're going through like,

you know, I'm going to call it like, almost like going through the four seasons in their body, and in their like, they're so true. In their mind and hard in everything,

they're going through all that. So they're like, they're constantly sort of having a monitor and see what's going on with themselves and kind of come back a new kind of.

Except it's kind of like summer and winter. It's like, it's like summer, and then winter just hits you, just out of nowhere. We had a neighbor lady in something that happened to her.

I'm trying to go to happiness. She fell out of a boat or something, and it didn't, and it was going too fast. And she,

uh, so after that, something was on kind of unwell with her, with her brain, right? Okay.

She got brain issue, and overall brain issue. And whenever she would get her, uh, period she would put in,

like pot war, hand warmers or something on. Okay.

“And she would stand out, and there he are,”

down the street from us,

and she would always sing like deaf lab artist.

She would sing like, uh, lock up the wolves. It's like, it's like an old song, but it's kind of crazy that she would,

that she was, basically going through a menstrual cycle and she would sing lock up the wolves. It's like, so you think her about to get,

that's what made her do it. Did it help her? Feel better? I think it probably did. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. She would stand out on the, like I don't know, and the porch and the yard and kind of vibrate a little bit.

And she would sing, like a couple of different songs. One of them was lock up the wolves. There you go. How does that go?

Uh, bring up the lyrics to it. Lock up the wolves. Okay. It was like a metal song.

Yes. That makes sense. Bring up that lock of the wolf, Rodney James, uh,

that's Dio right there. Uh, in the house of the holy to the middle of the mystic sea, at the cradle of the world. There's a black cat screaming,

and it's not even midnight. No. At the cradle of the world. They're screaming for sanctuary. They're screaming at you.

Lock up the wolves. Lock up the wolves. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Does that seem like a period? Hmm. Totally. Yeah. Except you want the wolves to get out of you.

Get away wolves. Get out. I'm tired of these demons. You know. Enough wolves enough.

You know. Um. Get out of my cat. You know. Speaking of cats.

Um. Yeah. Because it hurts too. Oh, thing. Yeah.

“I got, I think, I got to, I sometimes got to remember that.”

Is it crazy if you approach woman and ask her where she's at in that sort of cycle pattern? Is that, do women feel like they don't or, I'm sorry. Some of this stuff feels like I'm just like, 'cause I'm a girl. You're asking me about periods.

Is that what you feel like? Yeah. I just feel like it seems kind of cheesy. And I don't mean to do it like that. I just don't ever get to talk about it.

And somehow we ended up talking about it. It's okay. I wouldn't overthink it. This is what I would be like if I was about to get in my period. I would get in my head about, oh my god.

I would still be thinking about the mole at common earlier. Oh yeah. And I wouldn't be able to be present. I think my whole life I've been about to get my period, Broly. Well, you're a guy.

So yeah. Exactly. Do think about it if you're a guy.

You never even get to have your period.

You just have to do all the other shit the whole time. You're on your period the whole time if you're a guy. Oh, you are. Yeah, that's like. Us on our periods is closest to a guy.

Just baseline. Well, what if a guy hugs you while you're on your, like, when you're writing that bass on, is that like homeless like a gay moment? I wonder. Maybe maybe this fly.

It's like, you know, if you're straight, you just like, no. Get away from your buddy. Yeah, you don't even kind of want to be around like, I don't know if you actually don't really want to be around anyone. I'll go around in my period time.

Yeah, I just wonder if we all should be wearing some sort of thing that tells how we're doing. So people wouldn't know when we get approached.

Yeah, you can't tell, though.

Like, people's vibe right away. Like, oh, they're not having a good day today. Yeah, I think sometimes you can,

“but sometimes I think there's a little of you don't know.”

I met a girl that Jim today and she, um, I could tell she was, something was a little bit uncomfortable but I didn't know what it was. But then I just said, yeah, what's going on, you know? You see, my kid is maybe having like a,

you're thinking about something. Maybe like, because she was like at the gym trying to work out and you went up and hit on her. I don't know. It's like, what's going on?

I can't be that I'm interrupting you working out. (laughs) I don't know. I mean, oh. Like, that can't be it.

I could have been a small part of it. You know what I mean? She's there trying to like meet her goal in your like, so, so baby, which hat? (laughs)

What's hat? Do you think what?

You're not enjoying this?

(laughs) Hey, can I ask you about your period? (laughs) Are you on it? (laughs)

Oh my God, dude. Well, why didn't somebody tell me

“that there's something this wrong with me?”

I don't know. (laughs) I don't know. (laughs) Hey, which one?

She's like, I'm trying to bench, 20s or whatever. I don't know. Please. (laughs)

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Eat. Sonic. Christina Mariani, good to see you today. Nice to see you too. You're so funny. Thanks for coming by.

Yes. Thanks for having me. You grew up in Stockton. Just so our audience knows, because some of our audience knows you a lot of it

does but some of them might not. Okay. And so, take me through a little bit of that if you don't mind. Okay, so I was born in Lodai, California, but just born there.

Then I lived in Stockton till I was like four or five. And then I moved to Italy. And then I moved back after a few years. When I moved back when I was 11. And you remember being Italian over there?

Oh yeah, totally. Really? Yeah, yeah. I mean, six through 11. You remember things, you know?

Oh wow. Yeah. Yeah. And the Romans, they're very, are they Romans? Some of them.

Not all of them. The ones in Rome are Romans.

“And then the ones in Tuscany are just Italians, you know?”

And how was it like being an Italian child? Um, you know, the kids are a lot more brutal in Italy. They're like wild animals. They'll just like beat you up, you know?

They're like mean with their words, you know? And like, they're more psychological about it. But in Italy, they just start meaner. They just beat the shit out of you. Really?

Yeah, I remember when I first moved there, me and my sister went to a birthday party.

“And I think because we, you know, were new.”

Yeah. All the kids started chasing us around and trying to beat the shit out of us. And I first thought it was like, I didn't see her, like, tag like a kid game. Yeah. And then we were just hiding.

Like, we were like really got really good at hiding. See, we were hiding under the table. We were calling her mom, like, please come get us. But like in Italian, because it was in Italy, you know? Yeah.

So there was a level of like, so they got the times, well, they're very handy. Well, that's the thing. So I guess it goes, like, even if it's violence or love or something like that. That's true. Yeah, I guess so.

They're very gesticular. You know, they use their hands when they talk. Yeah. You know, and when they, I guess, do violence or whatever. Yeah.

Yeah. I guess, yeah. Does it, did it feel romantic?

Do you think people romanticize?

Like, do you ever romanticize? Getting beat up all the time. Even like, the muting beat up the musical. I can't even beat up the musical. My childhood in Italy.

The musical. Just me getting beat up for four years. Yeah. But do you ever kind of like, yeah, do you ever like, I don't know, I guess I wondered if I, because I like,

I'll like, romanticize or like, kind of like, make something seem greater that was a long time ago, just because, right? Like, what, for example? Like, the past was better, you know?

But what's in something? It could be just like, um, like when I was a kid, if you wanted to know if somebody was at home, you had to go over there and see if they were at home. Right?

Okay. Like now you can have your mom text or you could text or send it, uh, just hit him in the chat or whatever, but not, but then you had to walk over there. And you kind of get a clue.

Sometimes their cars would be there, car would be there. Sometimes they want the parents to be home. They'd be home sick or whatever. And just try to go in and play anyway, like, but, you know, but you had to go over there and see how to create this,

like, you know, it was kind of like a little bit of, sometimes you'd be too nervous to go ask you to just go stay in there. Like, I'm going to stay in my friends door for like 10 or 15 minutes until one of his parents or somebody just came out or came by. Like, what are you doing here?

You're just standing there, you're committed. Yeah, I'm like, I'm way, is William home, you know? Yeah, yeah. And if he's not home, he's out of town or whatever. But, you know, so I think something like that,

is it makes sense, you think? Yeah, so like, you-- But I was going to say the reason it was tougher for, you know, kids how to do this sort of thing. It's kind of a bad example, I guess.

So that's not romanticizing if you're thinking it was worse, or you think it was better. I thought it was better because it challenged you a little bit when we had to actually go because it was just like, I don't know, things seemed a little bit more like,

you had to go and have an actual human experience to get a little bit of information. Yeah, I mean-- That's what I mean, I guess. No, yeah, I get what you're saying.

Everybody says like social media and like just how much access we up to the internet is killing human connection. And I was thinking about it and I think it's killing like the small talk of human connection, you know? Now you can't like, you already know what they did,

like superficially.

“Now when you see them, you have to like,”

talk about your mental problems, you know? Like, okay, I saw that you had a salad for lunch and you're going through a divorce. Tell me how you're feeling. Yeah, like some of your croutons.

Yeah, exactly. It's like now I know all the boring stuff. Yeah, I'm trying to think of some things maybe that I romanticize. But is romanticizing healthy things?

Is that the word I'm using the right word? Yeah, I mean, I feel like if you romanticize something you're painting it with rose colored glasses. Right, that's what I'm saying. It's not exactly like romantic,

but it just means you're looking back on something fondly, even though that may not have been the way it was. But what was the way it was? Isn't it better to romanticize everything then? So that way you're like looking back at your life

all romantic because like, like you don't last week or something. Yeah, even this morning at the gym, you know, with the girl, you could romanticize. With the harassment, you mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah, you could romanticize that.

You could be like, it was unrequited love, you know? Yeah, it was. Yeah, it was. And eventually the universal bring you guys together and more appropriate setting.

Yeah, you know what those videos that are the wildest to see. Those real, some reals, it's like it's too much. It's like 90% of your shower water is chemicals. Have you seen those reals? It's like, oh, yeah, the ones that try to sell you the filters.

Yeah, I've gotten one. Oh, you got one. I believe them. I'm really goalable. I'm a sucker for marketing.

“Do you know how many best Bloody Mary's in the world I've had?”

So many. Really?

Because they always say they're the best and I'm like,

I got to see this for myself, you know? And I believe them. Why are they lying? You know, they're never the best. They're not even close.

Yeah. Anyway, sorry, keep going. No, that's good. But they're all those things you're like that. It's like, oh, did you know that your grandmother has forever chemicals

in her? You know, it's like hugging your grandmother in the summer again?

It's like, it just like shit that's like what? Like we can't even hug our grandmother's now. It's like, oh, the forever chemicals that Nana has.

You'll never get out of your arms, you know?

Well, if it was your Nana, it was still filist. That's what the camera is. Because she's orange. It's called back from earlier. That's fair.

But I haven't heard that about hugging your grandma. So I've actually something that it's like a-- No, but it's just these things that you see. It's like, nosebleeds must be a f***er, whatever. You know, it's like, every reel is just something.

It's almost like it's just this bot. That's making up two things and putting them together. I feel like it is a lot of them. It is bots that are doing stuff like that. And then it's just like, you ho-- and then it attaches some sort of thing.

Like that's a product. You know what I'm saying? It's like, nosebleeds must be a f***er. And on time to get some roller skates, you know?

“Or, you know, time to get this new set of ice trays or whatever, you know?”

Yes, it's like two things that aren't related at all. But they somehow make it work for the marketing. Yeah, and it makes so many of them that it doesn't even care, dude. Like, all that cares in the end is if you buy something, right? One of the craziest things that I see on AI, all the time--

I don't know if it's AI, but that I see on-- that's reals a lot. Is the-- have you seen the one it's like, If your husband is in Wilmington, Kentucky, and you think he's here on a business trip? Thank you again, baby girl.

Have you seen those? Mm-hmm. Damn. No. See if you can pull up one of those for me, guys?

It sounds like they pray on people's fears, most of the time. Like, yes, this is a fear thing. Well, yeah, that's-- because people respond to fear. That's like-- so if they make it seem urgent, like, oh, this is gonna happen, you know?

Right. Your grandma's gonna get cancer if you don't buy-- I don't know, splendor. Yeah. Yeah.

Something like that, where it's like, oh, man. I don't want your grandma to die. I don't want it to be my fault. Yeah. I feel like they use that.

Here's one, yeah. What is this one?

“Your name is Meredith, and you live in Nashville, Tennessee,”

and you're dating Kevin. And he works at a card dealership. Run. He's not just test driving cars, baby. Run.

But there's, like, I see these all the time. Well, that's not even trying to sell something. Do you think they're just being nicer? Do you think they're being shit-sters? I just-- no, there's just so much everything out there.

I just think it is. It's about fear, like you just said. It's like everything out there. It's like, it's just creating, like, oh, my God. You know, I mean, this guy's a snitch or whatever,

which is fine, I guess. But I guess it maybe he's a good snitch. Or maybe it's not even true. Maybe he was just, like, people are going to find-- You know, they just fabricated it.

I always believe them, though.

I'm always like, oh, shit, poor Meredith. You know? I always feel like-- I'll comment sometimes of like, prayers for mayor. You know?

I'll fit that in there a lot there. I don't know. There's just so much shit that's out there. I feel like. I don't know.

Sometimes it's fun to figure out if it's entertaining to me. Or if it's just kind of like, I need to stay away from it. So, so, okay, so you grew up, you grew up until 11 in Italy, and then you moved to where. And then I moved to Stockton again.

Wow. You moved back, yeah. Did you ever see Nate Diaz over there? No, you know, I feel like every time I've been on Kiltoni, Tony always asks me that.

Oh, no. It's okay.

“It's the only thing Stockton's really known for, I think.”

I don't think it's really-- Nobody. There's nothing else going on there. No, I never have. Well, how would you describe Stockton then as, like, what would you say about it?

Because there's probably a lot of great things about it. I know there's a lot of missing people up there. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Crime is the big one.

And I know there's cigarettes. Yeah, yeah, cigarettes. The kings. The kings. Yeah.

No, that's in Sacramento. Oh, that's Sacramento. Wait, is there a kings in Stockton? No. Basketball.

Sacramento. Oh. Yeah, yeah, right. Yeah. So, tell me the bone of Stockton then.

I mean, you kind of nailed it. I think that was pretty much it. I liked it though. I think when you grow up somewhere, you think that's your baseline. I think it's better to grow up somewhere that's not that great.

Because then, has I moved around places everywhere else has been way better. You know? Yeah, so, um, my baseline is low for where I lived. Because if you live somewhere, like, really pretty, like, um, I don't know. Aspen.

Then everywhere else you're going to be, like, or Australia. Like, you can imagine and then you move to Stockton. But I guess I went from Italy to Stockton, but I don't know. That's a crazy push. Yeah, it was a lot different for sure.

I lived in the mountains. It was like in an isolated town in Italy. In Italy. Yeah. There's like 300 people.

Corfino. And Corfino. Nobody even knows about it. I feel like, uh, when you look it up on Google. It used to say human settlement and didn't even say, like, town or village.

Wow. That's it. Yep. Oh, my gosh.

No, it's not. See, they always think it's in a brutal.

It's in Tuscany, man. Yeah, this is wrong. It's see there's an eye. It's an old man. Yeah, but that's how tiny it is.

It always brings up that one.

Got it. It's the wrong. It's an imposter. I love you. A 300 people live there.

Mm-hmm. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. But that's a kid. That was awesome.

It's a perfect amount. Yeah, we, the whole town was basically, like, we could play hide and seek in, which was good for me. Yeah. Do you remember leaving it?

Yeah. Uh, not really. Um, it was really. Sun. Our house is still like.

When I go visit, it's still my, my room when I was, like, nine or ten. There's still my house. Yeah, my parents still have the house we grew up in. Um, but it's still like on touch. It's like a time capsule.

Yeah, so it's crazy. So back in, I'm still playing with, like, Barbies, and they're still out. And it's just there. And it's crazy. Kind of.

That's why that's changing things. Mm-hmm. Dang. And so why did your family move?

“Um, I think my dad, he's really ambitious.”

He's always been a real, like, project starter.

And it's just the tiny town. And he got stir crazy. I think. And so he was like, I can't do this anymore. Um, then you wanted to move back.

Mm-hmm. Yeah. Um, just in those tiny towns, you know, people are, and each other's business all the time. And I think he got sick of that.

Yeah. Yeah. Makes sense to me. It makes sense to me, too. I don't think I would want to live there.

Now, I think, if I were to live there, it'd be when I'm, like, you know, retired. Yeah. Yeah. It's really pretty.

You know, like, I could write up there a book or something. You know, yeah. Always romantic. Yeah. Right in the book somewhere.

Yeah. All right, a book. What would you write a book about? Um, I would probably write a book just about. I don't know.

I thought about two guys that aren't married. They just keep giving each other a shitty advice about, like, like, they keep being each other's like, I'm going to help you find somebody type of thing. Okay.

Okay. That'd be a funny thing. Right about. I would write about growing up just people that I knew stories from home. Things like that.

Things that I thought about. Things that I think about now. Um, our right of book. Maybe a cook and so some of it would be word. Some of it would be recipes.

Okay. A little bit at that. Where's the end recipes? Yeah. A book is kind of like a bunch of word.

Because sometimes I'm reading. I get hungry. That's a recipe, huh? Sometimes I'm reading a book and I get hungry and I'm like, Oh, yeah.

Yeah. Now, I get that. It's kind of like watching a movie then you get hungry. It's because your brain's preoccupied and it's nice to do something while you're. Right.

I want to do two things at once. Yeah. Yeah. But also, if you reenerg it hungry or you're in a recipes right there. Or a movie had a recipe right in the middle of it.

So you're saying like, if, um, like a recipe move like, Oh, so it's not like die hard. And then in the middle, there's just a recipe for some reason. Yeah. It is.

Yeah. It is that. Okay. Like that. So he stops and he's just like, okay.

Let me make some food or like just read the recipe. Or does he go through with it? Then he goes back to killing German terrorists. Oh, does, now if you could get that would be cool if the person in the movie. Yeah.

Like Daniel Day Lewis is suddenly. Yeah. Yeah. That's what I mean. Yeah.

Helping you make like a tuna tartar or something.

“I think something like that would be pretty wild.”

You know, he's helping you make like a, um, booyabase or some kind of, you know, like a nice soup or some of a coy spot or get, uh, guess spot you or something. Yeah. Or like, like, uh, taking, you know, he's looking for his daughter.

But he has to eat still. Yeah. Yeah. I was looking for ingredients. It is covered.

It's really cool. Yeah. Dude. Yeah. I used to think I like a bunch of TV shows.

I don't know if I think of that many more. Have you ever had, did you try to pitch television and stuff like once you got into Hollywood, did you try to pitch like, I want you got into like entertainment? Oh, I've just been working on some like things. But I'm nothing that I'm like comfortable pitching or anything yet, you know.

Yeah. But yeah. I mean, just been creative. It's fun to like explore. Did you have a dream for like a sitcom type of thing?

Like, or did like, what was kind of your motivation to towards like getting into comedy? Like, there was a time probably before my generation where a lot of people were like, I want to get a sitcom, you know. And then now I think it's been a, it's been a little bit more like, I want to get a special

and I want to get like, my generation probably like, I want to get a special or I want to get a podcast, right? Maybe those things. Oh. But yeah. I wonder like, yeah.

“It was like, what was some of the reason like that that you kind of got into like being creative like in this way?”

Well, I guess I've always really liked writing and being artsy ever since I was a kid.

And then for a while I kind of neglected that part. And you know, like when you become a teenager and then college and then I was just kind of lost. And how do you neglect it? Or do you mean like drugs? You went to nurse?

No, no. I think just you start. Other things seem to matter more than just being creative.

what people think about you.

And I remember I used to never a lot of things that then I got insecure about I never knew.

I was just focused on like creating or like drawing or writing. And then something like is like, oh, this matters now. Like all the social like aspect. And then you know, you got to get lost and you got to get sidetracked. And then when I figured out what I wanted to do after I graduated college,

I was an insurance and after a year I wanted to kill myself.

“And I was like, how did I end up being in an insurance job?”

And then I started thinking, what did I do as a kid that I made me like enjoy life so much? And then I kind of started doing that stuff again. And then I that plus things that scared me. And so then I got into like trying to do comedy because that's something I always wanted to do. But I always was like scared and I thought it wasn't like something you could really do.

Right. Um, did you see a certain comedian that made you be like that or did you see like. It made you think like. Yeah, because sometimes I don't remember if there was a certain comedian. I mean, maybe Chris rock probably or.

I mean, Eddie Murphy was like the biggest. People would pass for when I was young, you know, But then it was like, uh. Yeah, I don't know. I'm trying to think of all the ones.

I mean, there was like John Kappa Rulo. There was like, um. I'm trying to think it was like a certain comedian that really got me into it. One time I just went to a comedy club. They gave you free tickets.

They would call the time and get free tickets.

And I never been to a comedy company.

I've never even seen comedy like on television and stuff like that. But I'd never seen it live. Yeah. And so I went to a live show. And I was like, oh my god.

So this is how it works. And like somebody gets up there and they do this. And then people laugh and everybody's just like in a room having a good time. I was like, it's just so fascinating.

“I needed that like exact direct proof of like seeing it, you know?”

Interesting. What about you? I never had like a comedian that I saw. I just always like to make people laugh for some reason. When I was a kid to the point where my mom would get annoyed with me because I wasn't that funny.

When I was like, yeah, I would try to make people laugh because for some reason I loved when they laughed. That's something I say. And then I would repeat it over and over again. And then my mom would be like, he got shut up. This is fucking annoying.

I would always want to make my dad laugh because I felt like I got his approval when he laughed. He was pretty strict dad, you know? So then when I could make him laugh, he wouldn't laugh at anything. I would feel like. So then that was something to like make it a black guy laugh kind of.

Kind of. Yeah. Absolutely. That was my dad. He was.

He's a black guy the family. Yeah. He's the black president father though. He very much. Oh yeah.

Yeah. He was. He was there. You know. He was very.

Yeah. But I forgot what I was saying. I'm sorry. Oh no. Yeah.

So I was I just like to make people laugh always and I like to create.

And so even when I got into comedy, I didn't have like, oh, I want to get on a TV show or anything. I just really like doing it. And I just knew it felt right. And so then I just like like to write and get on stage and perform it.

And so I've just been kind of like, oh, this, I just love to do this. And I like exploring other avenues too. But this is like the thing I really like to do. Has touring been tougher than you thought. Has it been a good time?

Are you enjoying more? You just get to be at home? Um, I love you. You're soon to be out there a bit. Yeah.

I really like it. I like going to the airport. I like being on a plane. I like being in hotels. I like the whole experience.

Really? Yeah. It's like relaxing. I don't know. But why?

Like being on a plane is relaxing. All I got to do is think. It's just like close my eyes and just think. We use sleep on the plane sometimes. I can't sleep.

But I like get like relax kind of daydream, you know. Like can just think about things. Oh, that's probably a good idea. That's a good call. Yeah.

It's nice. You know? Yeah. Oh, yeah, dude. The other day I was on a plane.

And my friend that was with me. He had a freaking do on CPR on somebody. On the plane? Yeah. Airlines.

And I was like, it was on Delta. And I was like, dude, do not go to CPR or the gym. But you know CPR. And he raises his hand. I'm like, dude, do not go to CPR right now, dude.

Because he couldn't do it. Did he like? I didn't know if he could do it. He's like, dude, I can do it. I was like, dude, cannot.

You cannot do it. He had a couple drinks. I was like, you cannot be. Have a couple drinks and do CPR on somebody.

“But I mean, yeah, what if you threw up in his mouth?”

And then he throws up and he keeps throwing up in each other's mouth. But they're both alive. Yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, that's romantic.

Yeah. So did he do it? Did he do it? Did he get me? He got it, man.

And he got the guy going again.

They puffed him up. Tom was 200 PSI. Build him up. That sounds good.

Do one time I told the strip before.

But one time I was at a restaurant. It was like a breakfast buffet. And magic Johnson was there. And somebody started. They needed CPR or whatever.

So this guy, like, it was at a table. It's like a kind of a nice place.

“And so they just kind of bring out one of those, like,”

you know, those folding walls of Chinese folding walls or whatever. That they bring out like a section or like a section. Like origami? Yeah. It's like a sectional that.

Oh, okay. Yeah. Yeah. I think origami is Japanese anyways. Yeah.

Like a panel thing. Just to make a, like, a little area for someone. Okay. Okay.

They bring, they bring one or two of those out.

And they're just doing CPR behind this. These, like, little sectionals. While we're all the rest of us are supposed to be eating. And you can hear him like hammering away on this dude. Like they're doing like baratone shit on him.

And we're all like, when do we eat? Like, because it's like, because it's buffet. It's nice. And it was like on the plane? No.

This was awful. Oh, okay. I was picturing this was all on a plane. I was like, there's a buffet on the plane. No.

This was at a hotel. Helped us really stepped up. This was at a hotel. Okay. And so everybody starts looking at Magic Johnson to know when eat.

Because he just became like, it's weird like in a tribe. Like somebody kind of becomes the leader. And everybody just looks over at Magic Johnson. We're like, oh, waiting for him to eat. And he had like a plate of little sausages.

I remember. And every is waiting for him to have a little sausage. So we can all eat. It was kind of crazy. Just like.

And then they got the guy going. They got him pop. And you know, you could hear him kind of gurgling a little bit. And pop and or something. And then he went down again.

So we all started eating. And then they were like, huh. Everybody had to like set their silverware down again. I was like, okay. Oh, man.

You know, that's that's crazy. Because what that story tells me is that no one really cared about how the guy was doing. Everybody just wanted to eat. And then they had to pretend. Because if not, you look like a horrible person.

But everybody really just wanted to eat.

“Because it's like, who is this guy and who sent him to ruin our meal?”

That's kind of the vibe that I'm picking up on. Because if you're worried about, hey, can we eat? You're not caring about the guy dying. Nobody gave a fuck. That sucks.

Dude, oh, here was the worst part. We kept seeing the dude that has saved.

Because somebody saved in the first time.

And then that guy had been like pumping too hard. He'd been like, and I think his tries had worn out or whatever. And he said his tries locked up because he had like, he'd been over doing creatine or whatever. I guess your arms can lock up if you have too much creatine. Like, it's like the opposite of oiling your joints.

Yeah, I think he had just because he was over there. I mean, seven or eight minutes. They were over there just looking for oil in this guy. They were over there pumping him and you could hear him and you know, and like everybody's just like, it was almost like everybody's like, yeah, and everybody's just waiting to finish their food,

which was getting cold, you know? And it's not like save the guy fast, but it's like, save him or don't save him. Don't say like, 'cause he did, I will say this at a certain point. You started to kind of feel like, hey, this guy's had enough. You know what I'm saying?

Hey guys, we all kind of feel like that's enough. We gave it our best shot, the musical. It's just, it's 40 minutes of CPR. Yeah. So Dan, they get him pop and then he goes down again.

It's like, fuck, fuck, fuck. You know, and I'm like magic, Johnson, help out. Like you, you know, go over there and fucking, because he's still getting like dribbling. It's like just go dribbling the guy's fucking shit. You know what I'm saying?

You would think if he just would go over there and just double dribbling the guy's heartbeat. You know, till it would get, I don't know. But that's just me. He just becomes black. Yeah. He's like, oh shit, and then he gets a heart attack.

That's the bad heart. Oh, do blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

“I think so, right? Isn't it like high cholesterol?”

I think they get sugar in their heart. The sugar just goes right to their heart. I'm not sure that that sounds insane, but I think they get sugar in their heart. Because they have a lot of, a, a, a, a, a, a, a, some black people have too much sugar. Because there's even people stop and you'll see people don't have any more sugar.

I've seen a couple of black guys in my area. They'll have a shirt on says, I can't have sugar. Don't get me sugar. Really? Yeah.

Black adults are about 30 to 50% per cent more likely to die from cardiovascular disease than non-Hispanic white adults. I wonder why. I don't know. Does it say? Get to say why can't you just ask why at the bottom?

And this is on perplexity right here. Um, social determinants of health. Let me see, lower income unemployment and poverty. Increase stress. I make sense.

On equal access to health care, so some internal and external higher rates of public pressure. Dude, you know, what was I thinking about the other day? What was I thinking about?

Like they wouldn't even have any more like they were having some autonomous trucks out there.

So like self-driving. Yeah. Yeah. And the self-driving stuff kind of gets me a little bit.

“Have you seen the first time a way most he's a gay guy?”

Have you seen that? No. Oh, that's good. I'm trying to think. See if you guys can find that.

But dude, an autonomous truck and what if some, what if like some lotless or it's parked behind like a, you know, a flying jaze or whatever, like it's parked behind like a buck. He's or whatever. And some lotless or just climbs in the cab. You know, like one of those like kind of parking lot escort or whatever.

She climbs in the cab and she's like, what do they even do then? Yeah. Um, I would think they would have the doors locked. So you would, lot specifically four lotlessers that like like to pleasure trucks. I think you got to let him in though.

You got to give the truck the full experience. That's true. The trucks probably pissed. Driverless. Semi.

I was trying to start to running regular. Semi indeed. Texas. Yeah. I'm eyes from the autonomous truck.

Yeah. But shooters and sensors that can see for more than four football fields. The company is starting out with a single self-driving truck and plans to act. More by the end of the year. Fuck that dude.

That's too much for me.

“Um, what was your journey kind of when you got into comedy in the beginning?”

Um, I just said you kind of got it to be creative. Did you end up feeling like did you try other outlets first? Like, did you was there like music or was there? Well, I used to, um, one thing I was scared of was leaving home.

Because I feel like I'd just always been just, you know, my family's really Italian really close.

They don't really like it when you leave, you know? So I was really nervous to like, leave. So that was the first thing I did that made me scared was leave. And I knew that we're going to get mad at me. But I did it anyway.

And I drove from California to Texas. And then once I was, um, and before that, I would do things like go to the Grand Canyon by myself, for example. And like, um, like to practice being out of your own. Yeah.

Or to like practice just, um, yeah, just being by myself and doing things that like, I used to feel self conscious about eating by myself in a restaurant, you know? So then I started just doing that to get over that feeling embarrassed. Like, just feeling a lot of shame. I did a lot of things to get over all these dumb things I feel shame about.

Because I had a lot of guilt and shame. I get from growing up, I think, Catholic. And so I would just, I started doing a bunch of stuff to get me over that. And, um, just not, not care about what people thought anymore. Because that was, I realized that that was keeping me prisoner in my own life.

And I wasn't able to like, live it how I'm wanting. And if I kept doing it, I was just going to wake up one day and be old and be like, Where the fuck did my life go? I didn't even do what I wanted. Because I was so worried about what everybody else was thinking about me.

Do you know how you kind of got through that moment? I can relate to that a lot. Like, recently, I took a, like, I finished touring for like a long time. And I've been touring for like, I don't know. Not probably don't have to weakens every year.

You know, four days a week for 20 years, maybe every other week. So not all the time. But I've been touring for a long time. And there's just like, I have no candidates on the books. I don't even have to do it if I don't want to.

It's like, you know, I do want to.

I'm feeling, but it's like, but for the first time, I was like,

a little bit of it was like, who am I? You know? Yeah. Like, I didn't have, I was kind of defined myself. I think by like achievements, like some sort of achievement.

And I don't even feel much reward for achievements.

“But it's just the only way I knew to like have it, like,”

to define myself for some reason. It's like a measure, at least. Yeah. It was just something like, am I okay? Like, am I like, I guess I guess this means I'm okay, right?

If I'm achieving something that I must be okay, right? So that's just been like such a spot where I'm at. Right now, you mean like, too? Yeah, just recently I've been there. I'm just recently been there.

And I went into this plant medicine and, and I started like, but they record you while you do it like while you're under it. So then you can go back and listen to the recording after. Most of the stuff I was saying was, like, am I okay? Am I okay?

Am I okay? It was like this, like, this voice inside. It's asking this all the time. So do you feel like when you achieve things, you're like, okay, well, I must be doing fine because I did this and this and this,

but then you feel kind of empty inside because it's more like, oh, this is just something that everybody gets to see that you did, but it's not really about you. It's not really necessarily like, do you know you're like, the things you value, do you live with, like,

doing things like, oh, I'm nurturing this thing that I value, and this thing, or is it more like, oh, this is the goal. I need to achieve and then you kind of ignore what you value to get to it. No, I don't ignore what I value to get to it, but I do, and I don't, I think I haven't had like a lot of, like,

I think I have them. Mm-hmm.

“I know I have them, but I've never really kind of listed them out.”

So when you say that, that's kind of like what I'm working on with this therapist right now is like, well, what are your values? What are your beliefs? Mm-hmm. And, and, and actually being able to see, okay,

well, what I'm doing does this go towards, does this, like, honor those? Or is this something that doesn't honor those? Right. Um, so at least to give me more of like a, uh, a map, like kind of a chart of what's going on.

Yeah. No, I just think I didn't know any way, um,

I didn't, I never felt like, look at me.

I just felt like, well, what's a way that you can know you're okay? And it's like, okay, well, if I have to achieve something right, like, if I do something, then, and we get it done, and everybody, and, and it seems like everybody thinks it's fine, then it must be fine. You know, I just didn't have any, I didn't have any other,

I'd never had a pattern build inside of me. It's like, well, this is really what means something to you and this, you know, um, does that make any sense? I think, I think so if I'm understanding it correctly, um, so it's kind of like, you, it doesn't even feel almost low like then you're not super present in your life,

when you're focusing on like, okay, this is what I got to do, and then you're not really like really absorbing every moment. And then that gives you so much anxiety, because then you get to it, and it's like, oh, well, we're at all that time go that I got to this, but I didn't even live and now more time has passed and now I got it,

and I didn't even like really spend the time enjoying it. Yeah. Well, dude, it's so crazy. It's like you're reading when I was writing out yesterday.

“Yeah, that's why this therapist was saying it's like,”

well, you have to take time when you have certain things that you're proud of that you recognize that with yourself. Mm-hmm. I came in and I'm proud of you. You did a good job and we did a good job or this is neat. Um,

uh,

and so yeah, just I never,

I don't know. I never, I didn't have a strong other value system. Like thankfully, I didn't have like a strong immoral value system, I thought like crime or murder or stuff like that was okay.

I knew those things, but I didn't have a much other sense of like, um, yeah, I don't know.

I guess I'll just, the only way I knew how to be seen like, I guess if it was some sort of achievement that I would be in seeing, I guess, or something, and then that made things kind of okay,

but yeah, at a certain point, you're just like, I was even there. I was even there. Yeah, I guess it was felt like,

yeah, I felt like I got into the end of this touring, and I was like, yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

And you, and then you'd think,

“but I should have been like really enjoying this the whole time,”

but I was just in my head thinking about like, either being hard on myself or like, that's what it was. That's what it is. And then you're not like being really immersed in it,

and then it passes you by, and it's like, this is a cool thing. Everyone thinks is a cool thing, but I wasn't even really there,

like if I'm really being honest. Yeah. And it's hard to separate that like wanting to do something just right, and being present, and just letting yourself exist without worrying about doing it bad,

you know, because it's like you still want to be like, well represented, but then that's still caring about what other people think, and it's not making you be in the,

I think about the stuff a lot too, because I struggle with this stuff too. Yeah, yeah, that's how I can, that's how I can breathe. Yeah, no, as you're saying this,

I'm like, damn, that's so crazy. I've fed these thoughts too before, because you get really in your head, you beat yourself up all the time. Yeah, people like,

dude, you're so hard on yourself. Yeah. It's like, I don't know. I feel that some, but it's like,

it's the only way I know how it's like, it doesn't even feel like you're being hard on yourself when you do it. It's just feels like you're being realistic, and you're being like, well, I'm just not an idiot,

and you see people all the time that are like, not hard on themselves, and you're like, well, I don't want to be delusional, because that's not helping them, you know? So if anything,

I err on the side of caution, and I'm a little bit, I see myself in a little bit worse than what probably is true just in case, so I can improve from that.

Oh, yes. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. But then,

but then you get to these milestones, and you're like, why was I stressed out for so long? You know, and then somebody will ask you on a podcast,

like, what was your favorite part about touring, and you're like, let's stress out the whole time. I don't even, I can't even remember something,

like I obviously was doing exactly what I want to be doing, but I was so stressed out, I didn't even enjoy so much of it. Yeah. And you're like, fuck.

(laughs) What's kind of like, and you get in only kind of this, like paddle ball match with yourself, or like this,

that you get in like this, uh, padell, what do they call it? Ping pong?

Yeah, yeah, you get in like this ping pong match with yourself. But yeah, I think in the end, it's like,

I don't know what takes focus to like do certain things, and it does take like, a lot of self-monitoring and stuff. Like I grew up with like a lot of self-monitoring,

Like is this okay? Is this okay? Do I seem okay? How do I seem? Am I okay?

How do you,

where do you think you got that from?

Like,

“I think I just didn't have anybody telling me that everything,”

anything was okay. So you had guests kind of like, so constantly guessing. Like I used to do like things like to suit myself, and I was growing up like I would rock on my bed,

all the time as a kid. Um, like my brother and I's bed one, wheels, and they would wake in the morning,

they'd be across the room. Like we would both have like rocked her. And sometimes they would be like, kind of like over by like there, was trying to get out of the room.

Like they were like cars trying to leave. Um, like a bit different. Traffic jam. Yeah.

Traffic jam. Um, I used to walk like step on certain things, like monitor hours walking. I used to swallow on both sides of my mouth.

Like, like bite your cheek kind of. Yeah. Do certain things,

because just to create patterns,

so some, so things would make sense to me in my life. Because I think I just didn't, and I had no idea if anything made sense. Yeah.

And it was harrowing, I think, as a kid, because then you're so into, you're just everything's internal.

You're like this sort of like a fish that fucking somebody put on some land. No, I feel like I. And let you be alive.

I feel like I, um, I had most of my existential crisis. He's as a kid. I feel like people have the message.

Well, it's just essentially, you guys bring it up so we can say it, because I know people, we say it all the time.

But also, maybe that's not the right word for this, because I was a kid. But, um,

I just, I was just,

had so many questions as a kid,

and I, I was one of those kids that asked questions to my mom all the time, and I'd freak out. I get like, I throw up sometimes,

because things didn't make sense. Like, You know, that's like a cartoon character. Sorry.

No, no, but it didn't like, um, like being in space,

and then black holes, and then I worry about a black hole forming right next to the earth, and my mom wouldn't have the answers. And like,

but how do you know? But how do you know? Like, that can't happen. And just stuff like that.

Yeah. So yeah. When I heard it, I was worried about black hole, that the music would be so loud in there.

I'm going to black hole. Yeah. And I'm like, I'm going to fucking hate that shit.

“That's why I didn't want to be an astronaut.”

That's so funny. That's so autistic. You didn't want to do it for the loud noises. We're just allowed music. I'm like,

I'm going to fucking call the cops. They're going to come over. Everything's going to get pissed. They're going to make a, it's going to be a world star,

video or whatever. What an existential crisis is, and existential crisis isn't a formal mental health diagnosis. It's a pattern of thoughts and feelings centered on big questions like, who am I? What's my purpose?

Does anything really matter? How should I live, given that life is fine? Yeah. That's literally what I would think about as a five year old.

And I remember just seeing other kids playing and stuff. And I would just be like, Mom, what's, you know,

is the world going to end? You know, like, just stuff like that. Like,

yeah, I had to worry too early, I think. Yeah, yeah, I think, I don't know.

Yeah, worried all the time. Why do you think you had to do it though? I didn't know. I don't know.

I think I just was curious. I think it comes from curiosity. Isn't curiosity cool? Like, it's like,

so double edged sword, because curiosity makes us want to create and ask things. But then also curiosity is the reason for, like, I don't know,

bestiality, for example, right? Because it's like, it's all coming from like,

a wonder. What if? Oh, yeah, that's true.

Beastiality I'm not sure the cat it got killed because of that because you really awesome. Yeah, I didn't I want to see that If they do like a mural a bad. I don't want to see it of a cat if a cat got killed through Beastiality. Oh, I'm out But sorry, I don't know how I got down that train of sight. I know worries. I don't know we're talking about being curious and I don't know why I don't think we even know we're talking about but it's good. No, no, we're talking about like just making any sense

“at all I think so I'm following you and I think I know what you're saying. Do you know what I'm saying? I think so are you like think about the girl in the gym”

No, okay, but what if this whole time when we were talking that's just what you were thinking about? Oh, no, no, no, no, no. I wouldn't let my brain just like I don't let my brain just do that anymore Like I'll try to stay locked. I'm happy to be here with you. Sometimes I do that and I catch myself It's like tabs and then I'm like okay, don't leave that tab open just close that one out. So that way I can Come back. I control the tabs. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, you know every now and then the one I'll get out of hand and off the chase

It's like you get a virus. Yeah, everyone's in the world. I control the tabs. Yeah, it's like a porn pop up and you're like fuck Yeah, yeah, um, but no worries talking about as kids just being warriors too soon. Oh, yeah, I think that's it. You just find for some reason concern comes in too soon for a kid And I don't know why sometimes why that happens. I think when you're a sensitive kid That's part of it like you're sensitive. So like, but you don't know when you're a kid that you're sensitive

Everybody else tells you you're sensitive, but you don't know what somebody else's experiences and how they're Perceiving the world so you only know like oh, that really hurt and everybody seems to not feel that But to me it hurt really bad and now I'm being dramatic and I feel it so much or like and then you worry something's wrong with you

You feel it like that too. Oh, I felt like my life was kind of a nightmare when I was a kid

I'm not getting in like I'm not in like any woe is me shit, but shit was kind of a nightmare and so I thought that That the outside is as reflection of me so I must be a nightmare. Like oh, if this because you The world just centers around you you're a kid that you know so it's like fuck if everything's so fucked up out here

“Then it must be it's a reflection of me. I must be fucked up, you know, and that like I think when you for me”

Realizing that well, I think it just like I don't know it makes it it makes a lot of things You're going uphill a lot It's up. It's a battle a lot. Yeah, and I think it's kind like you know when you get older your taste buds decline I think when you get older also like you get maybe less sensitive because you you get more data and you get more use to like Certain experiences, so then things don't feel as intense. So you're still sensitive now, but probably less than when you were like

Brand new, you know, yeah, you start to get the hang like the amount of the horse you're on You kind of get the hang of how it rides a little bit. Yeah, so I feel like a lot less stressed out now than I did as a kid to be honest I feel like as a kid. I was like peak like just everything was overwhelming and too much You know, yeah, and then I felt like how come everybody else seems to be getting along and I'm so weird

And I'm trying to be like them, but I'm not big. They're on to me, you know, that's always like I was trying to have to like

I didn't always feel that a lot of times if I like I was having to try to posture to fit in and I didn't really know where I fit in and also Sometimes I was kind of glad that I didn't fit in to just one place though like I think there was bits of all of that, you know But I do start to recently I start to like Say thank you God for these things that happened, right? Even if some of them are painful I can say thank you even if something was painful. I can say thank you God, you know, because

“That's the only way right like yeah, and if my like family stuff like I can still be very grateful to my mother for having me”

You know, I can be very grateful to my father for having me like Instead of sometimes being generally like I got some other getting this face from generally upset

But I can still find a lot of specific things that I'm I've gratitude for and that gives me like a different position to

Operate from you know, for sure. I could sit there and think like all I've said it my mom about this or this thing happening or my brother or their or my boss Whatever, but if I can find some oh Thank them for this right and then that's kind of where I can hang my hat on with them, you know And if my thoughts start to go down to some of these other spaces I can put up some boundaries and say I'm not going on those spaces any more just because it's not the best place for me to be does it make any sense?

Yeah 100% and it's it comes from self trust and open-minded And it's a fine line that's what I've been thinking about too because I've been like is it that I don't trust myself or I'm open-minded I tell myself I'm open-minded, but that didn't excuse to not trust myself. Do you know what I mean? Like like Sometimes you want to be open-minded and not think oh I know all the answers because most of the time you don't know all the answers. So you look for like

You you're open to what people have to say and feedback which is good But then it can go too much to where you don't even listen to what you think and you're you know The gut feeling because with the excuse of all I'm just being open-minded I don't want to be like I know everything, you know Does that make any sense so so then sometimes it's like oh the measure is if people are liking it

But then if that's the only measure and you're not thinking like in your gut I'm not proud of that that's when you end up feeling like because I've done things where people have liked But then I've been like but you know that doesn't really reflect my values very much And I don't feel good about it even though it went viral. I don't know if I really feel great about that. Oh, yeah It's almost like you sold out a little bit because you didn't listen to the voice that was like

But it's that something you value even if everyone else likes it. Yes There's something else to a value. There's things that I put out there like are that are out in the world that I wish sometimes I hadn't put in certain like could be a special or this or that But then some of it is I won't even be fair to myself. I will hold myself to my older myself When I take the certain space or something to a certain special only of two specials. I will hold myself to when I take the special

Or when I put a certain joke out there I'll hold my current self to those to the time at that time and I'm saying Yeah, like I'll hold the the person at that time to my current Like way of looking at the world. So that's when I search well as man You're too hard on stuff. You're holding a past self to a current belief that is like if you watch somebody do that That would be it would be insane to watch somebody do that. So that's when it's bad to romanticize something is when it holds you trapped into it

You think romanticizing is good, but then it's just making a story that's better than the current one and that's not good

“Well, sometimes romanticizing I think it's interesting because we're kind of bringing it back to that. I sometimes romanticizing is”

It's almost to save your way of like if you really

Maybe you're grateful that you're brain romanticizing, you know, you know, like maybe if you were trapped in a you know

If you were like imprisoned for like as a prison or war and but there's you the thing you remember the most is like Chats with the guards on a Sunday, you know, it's like Or being able to sit there and piece and meditators. You know, I don't know totally. Well, it's like if all the stories in your head are not Quite right. Why not make them good so that way you have like a good like story because if it's all made up anyway Why not make up something fun, you know instead of like making up something bad. It's all made up

“Like I think yeah, dude. Yeah, yeah, yeah, you're so true. Yeah, I think real”

I started I think I'm so funny. I'm like just like in the past ten days like in this place where it's like I'm realizing a little bit more that control that I have Over how to frame to my thoughts and frame some of the ways that I'm looking at things and how kind of off some of it has been, you know

Yeah, and yeah, I guess I'm grateful that I can still kind of learn and it's definitely a slow process

I feel like I don't like I don't I don't know every it's like like to be worth I don't know I like the comfort of the old Thoughts and ways, but it's just after a certain point. It doesn't it's not serving you anymore. Yeah, I feel like it's like It's like going on a diet or eating healthy, but with your brain So like when you're like reframing things expressing gratitude being present. That's you eating healthy

But every once in a while you want to dip into the junk food and that's the You know going back and thinking about things that don't even make you feel that good But for some reason you do it anyway Even though it's not helpful because because why like it must be doing something to do that right? Yeah Oh well, I think for me

Christina I really there was a time where I was like man, sometimes I don't want to lead these old feelings of being sorry for myself Or feeling bad or thinking about the sad things. Sometimes I don't want to leave those feelings sometimes I would Because they're the only for at a certain point for years They were the only friends that I felt like even had like somewhere deep inside of me

It was like those were the realest things I knew Was like how much pain I was in or how I felt or like this level like a certain level of discomfort

“They were like my closest friends. Does it make any sense like they were the things I felt the most?”

So to leave them it almost feels like you're abandoning a big part of yourself Which for in some ways sometimes you are, you know and I feel like sometimes it's comfortable to be in that mindset of like Pain because if you start feeling too good that kind of sets out for alarms It's like oh, now I have something to lose but if I can like retreat in the safe place of like Not misery, but like pain then it's like well, I was already there and I didn't expect much more. You know and it's almost like a protective mechanism because

It's scary to feel completely good, it's scary to feel like you deserve something. Yeah, that too like you but Yeah, it's not but that's a lie But that was a lie that I think was stuck in me for a long time. It's scary to feel like I deserve something Or if I feel like I deserve something what other people gonna think of that yeah, or like oh, I'm gonna jinx it if I feel I don't know That's kind of like oh, I think there's some calm in there something like that. Yeah, too. It's like all these like oh

I need to like keep putting my making myself smaller so that way. I don't lose everything almost or I don't like fuck it up Because I'm being like I'm giving myself too much. That's not good. Like I don't know why Well, I think there is a nice balance with that though because I think the world like You do want to watch your ego because your ego will also trick you right into thinking that you know You deserve like everything is like you know that there's something more special about you

You know, it's okay to think that there's something special about you, but to think that there's something more like I don't know Yeah, I don't know It would yeah, but it wouldn't be like that. It's like a fine line between ego and like loving yourself the way you love like you're Siblings or your mom or somebody you know like

Because like when I see my sister for example, I'm like she's amazing

She's great. She could do whatever she wants and that's not me being like Thinking that like some ego driven thing. It's just love, you know, so I think if you look at if you do it yourself It feels like ego when you do it to yourself You know when it's like, no, but I do that for other people Why do I feel guilty doing it for myself? It's not like from a place of superior

It should be just love and I think that's the struggle is loving yourself But like keep you in yourself and check like not It's the difference. It's the difference being like you go testicle and loving yourself But it's a hard difference to the stingy wish I guess But I think thinking about it and seeing it a little bit and having a conversation with it, you know

Like well, why don't I act this way full like what what do I get out of acting this way or what am I afraid of? If I do believe this way and like but but having there's some of that self-conversation

“I think it's like that's pretty key and some of it can be fun to have some of that conversation”

Before you go because we got a stop in a few minutes because they have to they're gonna this is a restaurant and a nightclub

Cute I've never been here. You haven't no, but I like it. It's a good area. Yeah, it's great. We're glad that you're here. Yeah, thank you

What uh when when was the first time your parents came to see you perform in what did they think because obviously you've got See me perform. They've never come to see me perform really. Yeah, they are on my end They were they were not happy with me doing comedy for a long time They're okay with it now, but they haven't seen me perform yet and um a Part of it was me too. I don't know if I really want my parents to

See me perform, you know, why do you feel like it's your own thing or something? I just I feel like um I can I really care a lot about hurting my parents feelings and like Making this appointing them or doing if I say something that they don't think is quite right I don't want to get it censored because I know it's gonna get in my head like whatever they think and I want to be like When I do comedy I want to be as honest and real with people and connect with them in the most genuine way

I can without feeling like I can't talk about this because my dad's gonna give mad at me You know what I mean because then I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing I'm thinking about what somebody else wants me to do and then I'm not being myself and then I'm not even doing a good job at that point

“Yeah, I think your way to everybody's time. Yeah, it's like that's then that defeats the purpose of a but that's something”

I'm trying to get over to that's where I don't care about not in a bad way I don't care when my parents think but more and I like I'm my own person and I'm gonna trust that they love me anyways If I you know like we no matter what here yeah, yeah, that's it. Wow. Yeah, I forget I didn't have much Relationship with like my parents coming up at that time really so there wasn't like I don't have to worry about any of that

But I forget that somebody will have to worry about like you know when your mom first sees you're doing

You're some of this stuff and like how that feels yeah Yes, yeah, it's interesting to see like to put that in front of them Yeah, yeah, and I had like you know my They were very involved in my life and very like you know not passive parenting at all they were very So and they raised me a certain way very strict parents, you know what's wrong? Yeah, yeah, so it was very like

So it was even hard for me to like move out comfortably without feeling like oh I'm doing something They don't want me to be doing that gave me a lot of anxiety and I know it's like sounds kind of dumb I guess because it's not that big of a deal, but to me it was No, it's a huge you're disappointing. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't have tattoos because I know that we're hurt that would make them feel bad if I got tattoos

“You know, and I don't I guess I don't want them that badly, but I think when your parents are really involved and we're really strict and if it's from the best”

They love me, you know, but sometimes it makes you like not feel like your own person until you leave for a while And then you're like what do I actually like what do I want to do? What do I think? Yeah, you know I don't know. I don't want I don't mean to keep going because I know you go. It's okay. Yeah, well, it's okay The time limit just happened. We didn't know and we've been having a nice time chatting and I think it's like Yeah, it's been cool and

Yeah, and that's important stuff and sometimes we talk about or like that's unique things But that's a real stuff that happens for people. It's like yeah I don't want to disappoint what am I but am I being to this and how do I grow and like how do I you know It's like we're all kind of examining the walls To see like you know with the space looks like yeah, but yeah, I just appreciate your time and yeah

We'll have to we'll just have to do it again soon. So we never

With to talk about some more this stuff. Yeah, I'd love to talk about I think about this stuff all the time Oh my god constantly and then the more I think about it I feel in Saint sometimes and like I have nothing figured out it's like they think I figured something out and then and like I didn't really though There's like there's so much more and then it's like it's and you might thought's even my own Sometimes I just go crazy. I go down rabbit holes. Yeah, and then I'm like I got a stop like because I'm just I need to be present

Then sometimes I smoke weed so I can get present that helps quiet down the The all the voices that are constantly like just getting high and watching a movie and not trying to predict what happens

“That's what I'll do. I'm just like no just go seen by scene and don't try to figure it out just”

Experience it how it's supposed to be experienced, you know Yeah, no experience it how it's supposed to be experienced. Yeah. I mean, I think it's what we'll try to do with life, you know Christina Mariani, thanks so much For hanging out thanks for touring with me some and doing some shows fun. Yeah, super fun. Thank you for having me on the road with you I did that when I was two years in that was insane experience. Oh wow. That's great. Yeah, forget about that

Yeah, then it went from like doing little rooms to fucking Read us and theater. That was crazy. Did we do somewhere really cool my brains, but yeah, no, we did for me it was really cool. It was like a 8,000 person Oh, that's awesome. Yeah, you tripped on the stool. I remember Oh, yeah, oh, yeah, he was a oh, no, uh, and

Ari Ari was there. Yeah, yeah, yeah, that was the biggest place that I've done so far. I think well Yeah, we'll have to do some shows here when I'm in town too because I'm gonna be spending more time here because I got it start practicing comedy again

Tell them I said hello over there. That's a beautiful place at the band comedy festival Rochester, New York

“I love their garbage plate central Pittsburgh comedy bar. I'm gonna Europe next in January too, later”

And you doing shows in Europe in January? Yeah, in January. Oh, yeah, and I have a podcast too. I almost forgot to

Say that I have a podcast so I on my YouTube and what is it called? I don't know, I think I was thinking um this up coming we can This up, but you think what do you think of that name?

“You think that's good. Yeah, I think it's one of the better names here. Yeah, should I call it that for real?”

I think it's not a bad idea. I have no idea what to call it. Um, how about this? I'm gonna think of some titles and if you haven't started by the next time we talk about the next time that we podcast. I'm gonna call it this upcoming week

Okay, I swear to God, I will do it. If if there's nothing else we'll look don't second guess it then

“Don't think too much about it. I think it's a great choice”

Christina Mariani. Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you Share this piece of my mouth. I can feel it in my bones. But it's gonna take.