Dr. Jill Biden: The Hardest Moments No One Saw (The Untold Story of the White House Years)

I said to Joe, you know, we've given him everything, Joe, everything, why would he turn to drugs? His daughters kept, "Where's Daddy? Where's Daddy? He'd be hurt from Daddy." We didn't know where he was or how to find him. Now, on one side, you have the grief of Beau and then dealing with the public scrutiny, especially around Hunter. I didn't believe Beau was going to die.

“I think once we went through that, no matter how mean it got her full,”

it was like, "Buddy, you can't touch us." Hey, everyone. Welcome back to "On Purpose."

My guest today is Dr. Jill Biden, an educator, author, former first lady of the United States.

And someone who is dedicated her life to teaching. Today, we talk about family, resilience and a lesson she's learned through some of the life's biggest transitions. Joe Biden, welcome to "On Purpose." Thank you. It's such a joy to see you again. We saw each other about a month ago, right?

About a month ago, a history talk. Absolutely. And I had the honor of interviewing you and President Biden. I've been fortunate enough to have so many interactions with your family who've been so extremely generous and kind to me in so many ways. And some really, really appreciate it.

I feel the same way that you. It's rare that you get to interview someone and then get to interview their wife. And then get to ask them questions about each other. And then all the grandkids, everybody. Yeah, but I keep bumping into everyone.

Yeah, all the Biden. It's pretty special. And I have to wish you a happy belated birthday. Thank you. And you obviously celebrating with your book launch.

Actually, the second day of my book launch, yep.

So you didn't get to re-sell it. I had five cakes. I mean, now I'm on my salary diet. Five cakes. Yeah, five cakes.

Every time I went, everybody gave me a birthday cake. Oh, that's really nice.

“And so if somebody makes you a birthday cake special, you have to eat it.”

You just can't say, oh, no, I'm watching my calories. You have to eat the cake. So five cakes. Five cakes. That's impressive.

I was thinking about this. You've lived an extraordinary life. I have. When we read this book, you can't help but think. How does one person experience all of this?

And how does one person even have the capacity to navigate all of this? And I was thinking that if you had to look at your life looking forward from age 20, and you would have a reflect on what's happened. What would that version of you think? What would that version of you anticipate or be able to see?

I never could have foreseen any of it.

Not any of it. Because if you think of where I was at age 20, I was at the University of Delaware. I was studying English. I was actually married.

I got married. I went to college. I met someone freshman year, fell in love, and got married. It was a great romantic vision.

And you know, oh, we'll go to college together. We'll take classes together. Which we did start out doing. And the marriage went on for about five years. And we really grew apart.

“And it was the best thing because it sent me on this new trajectory.”

And I met Joe when I was a senior at the University of Delaware. He called me. It's kind of a funny story. I was at home in my apartment. And it was Saturday. And I get this phone call.

And he said, Jill, this is Joe Biden. Well, I knew who he was. But, you know, we hadn't really spent any time together. I think I shook his hand at one event one time. And he said, are you free tonight?

And I said, well, no, I have a date. And he said, do you think you could break the date? And I said, I don't know. I'll call me back in an hour. So I broke the date.

And we went out. And so like I said, I was a senior at the University of Delaware. All the guys I dated had long hair. You know, bell bottoms, clogs, tied eye shirts. So he comes to the door.

And I opened the door. And I took one look at his perfect suit. And his leather loafers. And I thought, thank God, this is only one date. Because he was just so different from anyone I had gone out with.

He was 10 years older. I knew he had two children that, because he lost his first wife and daughter in a car accident. So we went out on the date to Philadelphia. We went out to the movies and for dinner afterwards. I really had no intention of going out with him again.

I was just curious. But we came home. And I remember I lived in this townhouse. And we went to the door. And you know, it was this time where it was like this revolution where men were kind of more

forward. They felt like you owed them something at the end of the day.

And he said, I'd like to see you again. No kiss, no groping, nothing.

“And I remember it was one o'clock in the morning.”

I went upstairs in my townhouse. I called my mother at one o'clock in the morning.

And I said, Mom, I finally met a gentleman.

Wow. Yeah. So I dated him the next night actually. He called, you know, can we go out again? And he's trying to maintain this cool.

I remember he came over and he had a book in this pocket. His calendar. And he said, you know, I'd really like to go out with you again. And I said, fine. And so he's looking through the pages.

And he's like, well, no, not next Thursday. Well, no, I'm busy. Well, not Wednesday, no. And he goes, well, how about tomorrow night? And I thought, buddy, you just blew your cool.

And so we went out. I swear almost every night for probably two years. Wow.

“And the beautiful thing was about our relationship, I think,”

is that because he had the bow and honk, our two boys. You know, the first maybe night or two, we went out to dinner together.

But then it was always me and Joe and Beau and Hunter.

I mean, that's what it was. It was like so natural. I go to his house and have dinner there. We go out to the movies. We went to the beach.

I mean, we go everywhere together. And it was just so natural. I think people probably find that hard to believe, but it was just easy. After dating two years, the boys were in Joe was shaving on his way to work to the Senate.

And apparently, this is a story that Joe tells. The boys came in and they said, Daddy, we have something we want to ask you. And Joe said, what? And Beau said, you tell him, Hunter and Hunter said, no, you tell him, you tell him, Belle, anyway, they finally came down to it.

And they said, we think we should marry Joe. And so that's when Joe started, you know, asking me to marry him. Well. But it did take five times because-- Well, you rejected him five times.

I did. I rejected him five times. Talk to us about how those five rejections went. Did he get down on his knee every time? No, he didn't.

He just kept saying, I want to marry you. I want to marry you. And I kept saying, no, not yet. Not yet. I'm not ready.

What was that hesitation? I'm telling you, Jay. I mean, I loved the boys so much. And I knew that they had lost their mother, of course. And I had to be 100% sure that this marriage was going to work.

Because they had already lost one mother through a car accident, through death. And they couldn't lose another one through divorce. So I thought this marriage has the last till death do us part. And here we are, like 49 years later. So I think that it has--

What was it that finally convinced you on that fifth time? Well, he gave me an ultimatum. So he went to Africa and he came back on a trip for the Senate. And he came back and I was in my apartment. And he knocked on the door and I said, Joe, come on in.

No, I'm not coming in. I want to know right now what is your answer? And I thought, OK, and I said, OK, I'll marry you. Did you have fears at that time after your divorce? Oh, my God, yes.

What was that like at that time getting married so early being at college? My parents had such a beautiful marriage, a wonderful marriage. And I was talking to my sisters about it yesterday. I said, you know, we live such an idyllic life going up. It really was this azine, harrier or leave it to be for kind of existence.

So when I went to college and I met this guy and I totally trusted him. And I thought, oh, now I'm going to have a marriage like my parents have.

“And so that's why I got married so young.”

My parents had gotten married young.

They had a lot to get married, like one of their parents never knew that they had a lot.

So that's what I based it, you know, all the reason that I would get married so young. But I was still a college student. I didn't have any money. I was on my own. I wasn't financially independent.

And I think that was the thing that made me want to be independent my whole life. And what I say to my daughter and my granddaughters, you have to have financial independence. So going through a divorce at that young age, you left such a big impact on me. And it took me a long time to get over.

I swear, I think I called her like every night for a year.

I just could not get myself together. I took off semester off at college. And it was like this sudden realization like, "Hey girl, you got to make it on your own." So I graduated. I got a job. I bought a car, of course my father had to co-sign in those days.

It was like 1974. And got on my way. When you read the book and even as I'm hearing you now, it feels like you were such an intentional young person. Even the thoughtfulness you had around the responsibility would take to take care of these two young boys,

the gravitas of that and what that would look like, moving forward and understanding the weight on both of them of losing their mother through a car accident. Like it feels like there was so much intentionality. What was the intentionality that you and joked in early into your marriage to last 49 years? If there were three principles, three lessons that you said,

“we learned this early. We put this in early and that's what helped us last the test of time. What would they be?”

We built the family on love. And I quit my teaching job for two years because I wanted to be to establish myself as their mother. That they were my sole purpose in life. I would go and I would work in the library at their school. And jade, they were so cute. They were so proud of me. They would say,

"My mom's here today and she's working in the library and they bring all their little friends in to see me and to say hello." My kids were really involved in all kinds of sports. I mean, you know, soccer, baseball, everything. And I went to all their games. I love to cook. I believe food is love. And I made sure that I made great dinners every single night.

And I made, I baked like crazy. So they always brought their friends home and they were always chocolate chip cookies or cake.

You know, I wanted it to be like, I grew up. We would have dinner every night together. Now, Joe's train got home about 730. So I would have dinner with the boys. And then we would wait for dessert.

And when Joe came in, then I'd have his plate and give him his, I mean, I'm telling it was Aussie and Harriet. So I learned so many good lessons from my own parents about love and laughter. And my parents made our lives so much fun. I can remember one dinner. I don't know. My mother was teasing my father.

And we had just gotten back from my grandparents and South Jersey. And there was a big bushel of tomatoes. And my mother got up.

And she took one of the, it was right in the middle of dinner.

And she took one of those tomatoes. And she threw it right at my father. Not in anger, but in like a tomato fight. Well, we all got up the five of us. And we're throwing tomatoes and we're, you know, I mean, I know it's just a little bit of crazy. But that's just fun.

My parents were, I mean, they did crazy stuff like Halloween night. My mom would have our homemade costumes and everything. And they'd go out in the neighborhood with their martini glasses. And they'd go trick or treating. I mean, I have just wonderful memories.

And I wanted my children to think back on their childhood and be able to say, I really had a really great childhood. So we were very intentional. This is a cute story. So I thought I was pregnant.

So I didn't tell Joe the boys came home from school. And I said, I think I'm going to have a baby. But there's a way that you find out. And I said, you go to the drugstore and you get this test. And I said, let's go find out.

And then we'll tell Daddy if I am. They were all in. So I put the sunglasses on because remember I was a Senate spouse and People in Delaware would recognize me. So we go to the drugstore and we get the test.

“And then you have to do it in the morning.”

We waited. And then we found out that I was pregnant. And they were the ones to tell Joe that we were having a baby. And I wanted them not to feel threatened by that. So I said to them, you can name the baby anything you want.

So they picked a boy's name and they picked a girl's name. And they named the baby. Oh, wow. Yeah. And they came with us to the hospital when I was in labor.

We drove to the hospital. And of course, I was like trying like, I didn't want them to have this memory of what labor pains are like. So I'm trying to be really sewing during it all. And then I had a C-section.

So a friend of ours came and took them to McDonald's while they performed genius. Yeah. My parents had a neat trick for that.

“I remember that you're reminding me of now is when on the”

Odessa, a younger sister, when she was coming.

Little friend. And so that's all I would do. I'd like pray for this little friend to appear. And then when my sister was born, I was like, oh my God, it worked. My parents worked and I was so excited.

I was like four and a half. And it was so exciting to have that experience.

And it's so amazing how parents find really smart ways of preparing

their kids for a sibling coming into the world. And what that looks like. When I hear these stories, they're just so full of like richness and joy and abundance and love as you're saying. And of course, life's challenging.

It's hard. It's difficult. It's, you know, it's. And so you're trying to bring in all these beautiful moments. Make all these beautiful memories.

“What was it like when Joseph has said to you that he wanted to run for president?”

The first time he ran, it was 1987. So we were out on the campaign trail. I remember in Iowa, I was there all the time. And it was exhausting because I was traveling a lot. And then I would come home and I would have actually with six.

I think the boys were a little older.

And they all wanted my attention.

You know, so I come home just so tired. But that campaign didn't work out. Joe was, they said that he plagiarized a passage from this funny coming back. Kinnick was the guy's name. And so Joe dropped out of the race.

That saved his life because in February of 1988, I remember I was teaching and I got a knock on my door. It was a principle. And he said, you got in the call from home. You have to go home right away.

So I rushed home. I saw Joe on the bed. I mean, his face was gray. So we rushed him to the hospital. And they said, we think he has, he has an aneurysm.

I can remember I ran home because I had actually getting off the bus.

Nobody was there. I ran home. God, her, said, I'll call the babysitter. You know, try to get a hold of the boys. I went back to the hospital.

I'm walking down the hallway. And there's a nurse sitting there with a table in front of her looking at the charts.

“And I said, what are you doing? And she said, don't go in there. I said, why not?”

She said the priest is in there and he's giving last rights. I opened that door. I ran in and I said to the priest, get out. Get out. My husband is not dying. Get out. And the priest just looked at me. Gathered his stuff and walked out.

There was no way God was going to take Joe away from those children when they had lost their mother. What gave you that conviction and faith in that moment to be able to do that? I mean, I don't know. I couldn't hear it. I could not bear that Joe would die. I couldn't bear it and leave the children after they had lost their mother.

I mean, that would be so horrible. Anyway, we went to Walter Reed. He was there for, like, I think seven months. I was teaching. I was commuting after school. Like almost two hours sometimes friends would drive me down.

I had, you know, babysitters come in with the kids. Bo was at University of Pennsylvania. It was one of the toughest times of our lives. But he lived. You know, I went to that hospital. I went to Walter Reed.

I can remember the surgeon, Dr. George coming in and I had the boys with me. Dr. George said, he may not make it. And so Joe said to the boys, if I don't make it through this, I want you to take care of your mother. But he did. He lived through it.

And it was a long, hard recovery. Anyway, I wanted to run for president again. There were a couple more times he wanted to run.

“And remember, I think, was 72, one of a bunch of political supporters came in and said,”

I could hear them. I was down at the pool. You know, I was young. I had on a bikini. Because I was young. And I could hear them upstairs. You know, you have to run. You have to run.

And I thought, no way, not now. I don't know what made me do this. But I took a black magic marker. And I wrote, no, on my stomach. And I walked in through the library and they got the message.

And because your conviction in these really important moments surprises me on both ends. It does. Yeah, that's, I mean, it's brilliant. It's brilliant. It's so, it's so bold.

And it's so, like, you're so sure. I guess that's true. I don't know. You have to be.

Where does that come from for you? Where does that strength?

That conviction, that clarity come from for you? My mother was really strong. She's definitely my role model. I turned to her in so many times in life. And the sound of my mother's voice could calm me down in an instant.

“And one of my biggest regrets in life is that I don't have a recording of her voice.”

And so I tell people who are with parents or losing parents, record their voices. Because someday you're going to need that to hear it. Luckily, for me, I have a recording of both voice because he gave so many speeches. He was a attorney general. And so sometimes when the challenges are really tough,

I go to the computer when I listen to his voice. And it just sort of comes me down. If you had a recording of your mom's voice, what would you hope that she would say? Just her, hello, Jill.

That instantly, I can't even tell you, it's like such a trigger. That's a really beautiful piece of advice. And you're so right in this world now where we're inundated and overexposed to face times and zooms. And called with our family, we don't necessarily have recordings as much anymore. We have videos, but tower of audio recording of a conversation.

That's a really beautiful takeaway that I'm going to do that. I'm going to do that. Yeah, I'm going to do that. I'm going to talk to my mom and make sure that I record a piece. I think that I've been working on.

Because you always want to hear that, right?

Yeah, absolutely. You put on the bikini. You write down Black Know on your stomach walkthrough. Everyone listens. Oh, they saw that.

Yeah, I didn't have to say a word. Yeah, that's it. As a matter of fact, I didn't say a word. Just walk through and walk down. When Joe finally runs and wins like that time, what was different?

What allowed you to say, yeah, this time go for it. This time it's okay. I guess because Joe had been vice president. And I saw what the life was like. I knew it would be challenging.

I don't believe in war. I felt that Joe would end the forever wars. And, you know, he embarked with the Iraq.

“But I don't know, there were so many people telling him, you have to run.”

You have to run. And, of course, his age was a question. It should be should be. But then he had to make that decision himself. I didn't push him one way or the other.

And I write in my book, how we were at George, the older George Bush's funeral. And we went to lunch afterwards at Black Salt Restaurant in Washington. And I just said, are you going to run for president? What's your decision? I need to know.

Then he said, yes, I decided to run. That's how I found out. That time you didn't have a clear yes or no in you. No, it had to be him. One of the beauties I think of our marriage.

And maybe you saw this in Philadelphia. I mean, I support Joe and what he wants to do. And all my life he has supported me. He supported my career, my teaching, my volunteer work. Anything that I wanted to do he was supportive of.

Whether he liked me doing it or not. And I felt the same way about his career. That that's really what a true partnership is in a marriage. We respected one another's choices.

“What do you think people underestimate about being first lady?”

I feel like everyone has a sense of the pressure that it takes to be president.

All first ladies have chosen to do the job a different way.

I think like Laura Bush didn't do it the same way her mother law did. Michelle Obama didn't do it the same way that maybe Hillary Clinton did. We've all done it in different ways. And I respect that even if they've decided not to do anything or whether they've decided to, like, like, roseland Carter.

You know, she would sit in on cabinet meetings. She was very involved in Jimmy's career and our president Carter. And I respect that. I respect other women's choices. It's a hard job, but it's, I mean, it's, it is an honor of of a lifetime.

I think for most of us. What was your most difficult day in the White House? I mean, trying to live through COVID. I've got to stand with draw definitely one of the hardest days. There were a lot of times, you know, if you remember, like how about the UVOLTI shootings.

I mean, that was terrible. All those children and going to visit the school and being a teacher myself. You know, when we went out to Hawaii to the fires and saw that, you know, there were so many joyous days too.

Like, to have the capacity to hold all of that because there's personal loss. There's bow, there's personal loss in wider family, family parents. And then you have this global loss and global pain that you're also connected to and managing and visiting. And as you said, there's a teacher going to school.

Yeah. What did you do? What do you turn to in those moments? I can compartmentalize. If I'm in the classroom, my I am totally 100% in the classroom at that point.

Or if I'm doing something at the White House, whatever that is, I'm totally there. And with my kids, they get my total attention.

“So I think that's really helpful that if I can keep doing that, it's not always easy every day.”

Sometimes it bleeds into the, you know, whatever you're doing because you have something in the back of your mind that you're trying to deal with. I think that skill has helped me most of all. Presence. Yeah, actually being there. Yeah, being present.

I think most people feel this way. If you looked at your schedule for the next week or month or year, it'd be so overwhelmed by it. Yeah. And so I was saying to someone I can only live in 24 hour cycles because then I can deal with what today.

I could deal with what's happening right now. I can make decisions for the future that are better that feel right today. And then I can deal with tomorrow. But if you ask me, what's happening in three months? No, I agree with that.

Right. It gets really overwhelming to start living in these long-term cycles of like, Oh, what do you got going in six months? It's like, I don't know. I don't want to know.

Yeah, I don't want to know. Let me get through today.

“Yeah, and that presence to hear that that's what you need it into compartmentalizing”

to just be present as a teacher, to just be present as a mother, to just be present as a, as a first lady. What did it feel like when President Biden finally won? Like, what did that moment feel like? Oh, my God. It was so exciting.

And if you remember, there was like a week before we were declared the winner. Jay, the TVs were on Steve Kornaki was up there with all his statistics.

And I thought, you know, does that man never sleep?

I mean, he was getting on my nerves so badly. And so one morning, Joe and I just, like, we're like, Oh, my God, we gotta get out of the house. So we live on a man-made lake and it has a dock. So we went down to the dock.

We had our coffee cups. And we had just really sat down for a couple minutes. And then, like all of a sudden, our grandkids came running out of the house screaming. We won, we won. And then we, quick, came back into the house.

And I mean, it was just amazing. It was just so amazing and exciting. And it was, it was surreal. Did it feel like a long time coming, having had all those runs before. And how people said that?

Yeah, it did. And I didn't expect Joe to become, you know, after VP, I thought we were finished.

“So we had those years in between, I think, four years.”

I was commuting to Nova, my college where I worked. From Delaware, because I love Nova so much. And, you know, becoming involved in other things. So to think about getting back into this lifestyle and what it would mean. And it was challenging, but it was good.

I have really good memories of that. What's the greatest thing you've learned by being a teacher? I think the greatest gift that I can give my students is confidence. They don't need to know how to write the paragraph or the topic sentence or whatever it is. If I can give them the confidence to think that they can write it.

That makes all the difference.

And the first day of school, I say to my students, or I would this was the first day assignment.

I said, we're going to write a poem today. And they're like, oh my god, what do you mean? We're not writing a poem. And I said, you sure, we're writing a poem today and you're going to like it. So it's called Where I'm from.

We would read George L. Alliance poem. And then, and they liked that. And then I would start using my own examples where I'm from. So my grandparents, on my father's side, were Italian. And I would talk about the, you know, the sauce bubbling on the stove and the noodles

that's drying in the kitchen and food is such a good place to start. So they would start to think about it. And I'd read poems from other classes that students wrote. And then they would kind of get excited. And so the next class they would come in and they would write their own poems.

And then they were a little bit shy, but then I'd say, okay, who wants to read a poem?

Well, maybe I'd have to call on the first person.

So then they'd start to read and they'd say, I'm from Peru too. Listen to my poem. My grandma made that too. The class would instantly bond. They would form community.

And, you know, they were community college students. So that meant they were any age from like 18 to 83 was my old student I ever had. But they said, Dr. B, can we put our poems on the wall? And I said, yeah, that's a great idea. I loved that they were so proud of themselves that they could write a poem.

And even the kids who had never written a poem before, they felt such pride.

“So if you can give them confidence, I think that's the most important thing a teacher can do.”

Can I agree with you more? You're making me think of so many of my teachers who... You have a favorite teacher? Yeah, definitely. Who doesn't?

I feel like you remembered it. I have two, one from primary school, elementary school and one from high school. And so my one from primary school was called Mr. Foxwell, who just had that energy. He made every class fun. He gave you so much confidence. You walked in feeling like a million bucks.

Yeah. And then I had a high school teacher named Mr. Buckridge who made me question, I was older then. So he had the ability to challenge me a bit more. But he was my art teacher and I loved him. Yeah.

It was one of my favorite subjects.

All the kids up are English, not so much.

English is one of my favorite subjects too. That's great. But art was right up there. And I remember I'd make this thing look beautiful. I can paint or draw, but I did a lot of collage.

I did a lot of graphic art. Yeah. And I'd make everything look perfect.

“And then he'd look at it and he'd say to me, why did you do that?”

And I wouldn't have an answer of just because it looked good. Yeah. And I didn't want to say that to him because I knew he wanted a deeper answer, but I didn't have a deeper answer. So I'd say I did it because it looked good. And he said, well, figure out why you did it better than aesthetics.

And it was such a great thing. Made you think, right? Made you think. He always asked me, why? Why is that color next to that color?

Yeah. Why is that image next to that image? Why did you put that word there? And it was such a beautiful practice and intentionality going back to that line. And when it led you, right?

I mean, it's right. What you're doing now. Questioning. You know, boy, you put one color next to the other. Yeah, for sure.

Simple question that just planted that seed of nothing should be just random. And just for aesthetic reasons or just because it looks or sounds good. Things have to have depth and they have to have a quality. Yeah. And I owe those teachers so much.

Wouldn't be nearly where I am in life or mentally at those times if I didn't have them. And sounds like your students do you still keep in touch with any students? Oh, my gosh. Yeah, do you still hear a lot of my students? What are the kinds of things that you hear from them?

What are the experiences you hear? They're doing well.

It's amazing how many students I run into.

And even less night in Philadelphia, my book talk, you know, students came. And in my Washington, one, a lot of my no, no, a students came. And yeah, they text with me and they tell me what's going on. And I mentor a lot of young women. And I love being able to be a part of their lives.

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I love being able to be a part of their lives. I love being able to be a part of their lives. I joined the milk and women's health network because I found out that before 1993, all the research was done on males. Even the mice were males, which is unbelievable.

So consequently, everything that all the diagnosis we got, all the prescriptions are based on males' bodies. So, you know, I think that women really need to fight for themselves and fight for answers on osteoporosis, endometriosis, menopause, wherever we're going.

I mean, heart disease, there's so many things autoimmune diseases. You know, some disease hits women more than men and why. What are the differences? So I think that young women are trying to find their way, where they fit in, but I think they can't be complacent.

They have to keep fighting for themselves. I'm trying to remember the exact statistic, and I'll get it wrong right now.

“But I remember that there was research done on how only 1% of investment”

went into women's medical research and health research. I actually understand. Yeah, exactly right. It was happening in women's health. And that bog was my mind.

I know.

And he said, we're going to change it.

“And that's why we had the White House initiative on women's health.”

And put one billion dollars in in one year.

And I'm so proud of that because I felt that that was the catalyst. People have been working on women's health for years. But I think that spurred this movement forward to investors to get, you know, venture capitalist to invest and people scientists to do research. It just, it feels good.

It feels good for women's health right now. Yeah, heading in the right direction. Lots, lots more to do. But at least, at least on the right path. I think we have clarity.

And there's our eyes are pointing in the right direction. Now we have to get off. Oh, I'm glad you recognize that. Yeah, yeah. I think we've been talking a lot about it.

Our audience is primarily women. And we've been talking about everything that you just mentioned. Women's health topics consistently on the show. Because we think people aren't getting access to this information. Yeah, we eat so much more preventative care.

Yes. I was reading recently. Young women now are getting back into taming beds. And I'm like, what are they thinking? I mean, they're so bad for you.

And I know myself since I, I mean, I set out in the sun. We all did back back then. They need to learn about prevention and how to take care of themselves. And use sunscreen and not to smoke. And we have to eat healthy, not process foods.

I mean, there's so many parts of prevention. And I've had skin cancer myself. I had it in the White House actually removed from my eyelid and my chest. And I know how traumatic it was for me. So for the young women to have the chance to really take control of their own health.

And move forward in a really positive, healthy way is so important. And so that's, that's kind of what I'm out there pushing. I feel like this book is so raw and vulnerable. It's so real. And you're reading it.

Like it's, it's like a look into your heart. It really invites you in. It really lets you enter these really difficult moments. And the one that stood out to me was reading about your experience of the 2024 debate. And you talk about this raw fear that you experienced.

“What was going through your mind as you're watching the debate in 2024?”

I was in the green room and just watching the TV like everybody else. And when I saw that moment when Joe kind of froze. I thought, oh my God. And I write this in my book. It was like, is he having a stroke?

And I was scared to death. I was sitting. I got up. I started pacing. Like what's happening?

What's happening? So then after the debate, I went out on the stage right away because I wanted to see him face-to-face. And he said, as we're walking off, and I won't repeat the exact words. I said, I really f-dupped in night. And I said, yeah, Joe, you did.

And then we went, got off the stage. I went to the green room to get my stuff.

We had a group of doctors always traveled with Joe.

And he went with his staff and the doctors and the doctors said to me, he's okay. He's okay because we had three more events to do that night. So we went to the hotel ballroom with supporters. We went to a waffle house. Do you know what that is?

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm from the north of the south. Like waffle house.

Anyway, we go to the waffle house at whatever time it was 11. And then we went to North Carolina. Three o'clock in the morning. We get off the plane. There's a band.

There's big lights. There's hundreds of supporters. You know, they're chanting. And I thought, well, okay, you know, we're going to keep going. And we did until we didn't.

Was it then? What did you? Had you seen him that way before? Had you had that? Never.

Never.

When President Biden finally stepped down and you said, you were in your book.

He said, Julie, I had no choice. Yeah.

“What was your reaction then from that debate to that moment?”

I was really heartbroken for Joe because he had been a public servant for over 50 years. And for his career to end on such a negative note, I was heartbroken for him when he got out. I mean, people were saying he was a hero for stepping down, for giving up everything. And sort of passing the torch. But I felt really sad for him.

You know, when you love somebody and they go through something like that, it's, you feel they're pain. I mean, you just, you know, you can't help but be heartbroken. Did he wish he'd done it earlier or did he feel that was the right time? I don't know that he wished he had done it earlier. It was just sort of unfolded.

You know, he lost the support of the Democratic Party and he knew he couldn't go.

He stepped down.

I can't imagine how hard it is to dedicate your life to your country and your people.

And then, yeah, that'd be the way to go out. You know, we see it in places where there are no stakes. When a coach of sports team leaves and they were losing and they didn't win the championship. And it's like, okay, whatever. That's people make that out to be really, really sad and difficult.

Yeah, yeah. And so to compare it to these stakes and this scale and this responsibility and dedication feels like such a hard thing to do. And I can imagine he really needed you then because like you said, you were sad for him. But I kind of imagine how sad he was for himself and what he'd done. And say, probably relied on you a lot.

You know, after 49 years of marriage, yeah, he does. Yeah, we rely on each other.

“And I believe in the book, you were talking about how you were slightly upset about Kamala Harris looking for an endorsement and support almost immediately.”

Well, I was just upset. I was just playing upset. It just became sort of overwhelming.

You know, but I got right out there for Kamala and I was on the campaign trail a lot.

And I saw the excitement and the excitement at the convention and on the trail. And I was out there working for her campaigning for her. And I honestly believe she was going to win. And I was actually shocked. I write in my book, it was like the next morning.

I was, you know, went into the kitchen at the White House. I was making coffee feeding Willow and my phone rang. And I just thought she had won. And someone called me and said, "Did you see the news?" And at that, they didn't even have to tell me the news.

I knew. And I ran into the bedroom and I said, "Yo, wake up." You know, it was like five in the wake up. Why didn't you tell me? He said, "Yeah, she lost. Did you feel she was going to win?" I'll give you my honest answer. I spent a lot of time on TikTok.

And for anyone who spent a lot of time on TikTok, it was pretty clear she wouldn't win.

Oh, really? That was my take. Yeah. So that's where I should go the next time. Yeah, that's where the date and what the hell they're doing. Literally.

I was going on TikTok. Yeah, I was living the campaign through on TikTok. And it's more of a sense you've got from seeing the level of support that the opposition had in... But her crowds were so big in the energy. I mean, you're someone talking to people who...

I don't know. The people are going to go and vote. It's almost like the people online who vote in the scale at which the support was there for President Trump was pretty crazy. It was insane to look actually in the build-up even.

Yeah. And I was like, wow, this is big. Like you just see posts that just had an insane amount of likes and comments and engagement that was all pro-Trump. Yeah.

I wasn't monitoring that. I was monitoring the crowds and their response. And I guess that was my barometer. Yeah, of course, of course.

“No, and that's what's so interesting is that I think politics has been completely transformed”

by social media and the impact of all of these apps and how followings are galvanized, how messaging is coming across from in with most of millennia and Gen Z generations getting their news through social media. Yeah. It's starting to become such a pivotal place and such a scary place for all of this as well.

I was going to say, like, how are these young people supposed to tell what's true and not true? Like, that's what worries me. You can't, especially now, I mean, you add AI into the mix and social media. You have no idea what's real. And it's really hard because there's no controls on what's real and what's not real.

It's not marked. You don't know. So do you think there should be government regulation? I think there needs to be some news for sure. But I don't know how you control that because everyone's a newscorp at this point.

And so how do you actually even control something like that when anyone anywhere in the world can upload something and it looks real and it looks like it makes sense. It's, I can't imagine it to be easy. And you don't want to sense a free speech. Yeah.

It's a very, very fine balance. I don't know how you do it. Yeah. I looked up something on the January 6th insurrection. It was all positive.

And I was like, what? Yeah. And I said, can you give me the truth about this? Because they painted such a rosy picture of what happened. And we saw what happened.

I mean, we watched it on the TV. We saw them smashing the windows of the Capitol. But they put such a positive spin.

“And I thought, where were they getting, drawing the information?”

Or who was controlling? Was that an AI search or a goose? They was on a chat. So look it up and see. I was going to say, obviously, I got the, I had the fortune of interviewing yourself

from President Biden just just a month ago at history talked.

I mean, he was, we spent time backstage. Yeah. He was wonderful.

As always, we had a great conversation together.

We went on stage. He felt so well. How is he? How is he doing? He's doing okay.

He does have stage four cancer. It has metastasized to his bones. He will forever have cancer. He will forever be on medicine. And he's 83.

So you put that mix in. So yes, he's still working. He's writing his book. He's traveling, he's speaking. But he's a little more tired.

I've seen him slow down.

I mean, cancer really takes a toll.

“And I think every family in America has someone in their family with cancer.”

Whatever form it takes. And I think it's really been like kind of a cruel blow. It's the worst. It's the worst if anyone's lost anyone that they love through cancer, which I have. It's the worst.

It's terrible to watch. And as you said, it's long time. It's not going anywhere. Uh-huh. Yeah, I was shocked at how amazingly present he was.

Knowing knowing those truths. Yeah. He was strong. He's resilient. And it's just so unfortunate.

I'm so sorry. You and your family are going through that. Uh-huh. Yeah. I kind of kind of imagine on top of everything else.

How painful that is.

“Everybody's trying to do their part in helping.”

And, you know, like my Naomi is. Our oldest grandchild said, "Nan, I want to come and, you know, bring my son. We'll stay with you for a month, then, uh, you know, help you out. And, I mean, just, it's just been a really nice thing." I wanted to go back to the opening line of the book.

Where you say, "Once you lose a child, nothing can hurt you." And I thought, "Wow, that's a really empathic way to begin a book. Why was it important to start there?" After we lost Bo, I felt there could be nothing worse in life than to lose a child. I didn't believe Bo was going to die.

I just kept praying and praying and praying.

And I just felt like God would never take him.

With glioblastoma, which is what Bo had. We tried everything. I mean, every trial, every medicine, operations, and the doctors kept saying, "This could turn around. Any moment, this could turn around.

This could turn around." And I remember how sick he was getting. And all the things he was going through. And it was so horrible to watch. And I can remember the day he died.

That morning, the doctors called us into the room in Walter Reed. And they said things are getting pretty bad. But this could turn around. I breathed this sigh of relief. Like, "Okay, he could live.

He really could live." And we walked out. There were about eight docks. And we took a couple steps outside the room. And one of the doctors turned around and said, "Stop."

And looked at the doctors and said, "Tell the Biden's the truth. Go back in that room and tell the Biden's the truth." And we went back in. And they said, "We think Bo's going to die today."

“Honestly, I don't think there's anything worse.”

After going through that, my family's really spiraled. I mean, it was just so hard on everybody. And so I think once we went through that, like, anything anybody said against Joe or did, or no matter how mean it got or cruel,

it was like, "Buddy, you can't touch us." I mean, we're just, we're resilient. There can't be anything worse than losing Bo. And I still feel that way. I've had the president say that.

You never met Bo, right? I never did. No, no, no, no. I thought you may have. No, I wish I did.

I wish I did. Do you love the way you both speak? Yeah, the way you both speak about him. I've had President Biden say that, you know, he should have been president.

Yes. I mean, that's kind of what we thought, you know, that it wasn't going to be Joe was going to be Bo. Bo was just, I mean, he's all the best parts of Joe. How do you even begin to live with that level of grief?

But there were days when, you know, I just couldn't, kind of, I felt like I couldn't get through the day. But I'm telling you, the amount of kindness that people showed toward us, that people didn't give up.

It wasn't like they said, "I'm sorry you lost your son." It was like every day sending me a text, dropping something by the front door every day, every week. And not just like for that moment that week at the funeral, my true friends kept it up for months and months and months.

Because you never get over it ever.

I mean, to this day when I wake up, I mean, the first thing I do is say a prayer for Bo. And I always say you never know it's behind someone's smile. Even during Bo's illness, I was teaching full-time at Nova.

“And I think maybe one teacher knew what I was going through.”

One of my friends, but no one else. Because I would sometimes go to the hospital early in the morning, and then teach and then go to the hospital. Joe was working every day as Vice President. Very few people knew.

And, you know, people said, "Oh, you kept it secret. You kept it secret." Well, they forget, I mean, he and how he had two children.

We couldn't let this out and have my grandchildren here this.

I mean, they were already dealing with his illness. They saw him in the hospital every day. They saw him when he was home. We just couldn't have them hurt in that way. We just, it was too much.

Too much for them as little children. I mean, on one side, you have the grief of Bo and then you have, you know, dealing with the public scrutiny, especially around Hunter. And I wonder, how do you navigate,

“supporting a family member who's struggling with addiction?”

It was tough, Jay. Because half the time we didn't know where he was. He would be going from rehab to rehab. Then we wouldn't hear from him for like a couple weeks, and the kids, his daughters kept,

"Where's Daddy? Where's Daddy?" He'd be hurt from Daddy.

You know, we didn't know where he was or how to find him. He wasn't communicating with us. So I flew someone in to do an intervention with him. And it took a long time for me to even get him to come to the house. And as soon as he walked in, he saw what was going on.

He ran out of the house and Joe ran after him and just held him. And we just had to, I don't know, love him through it. It's a disease, and I think I had to learn that myself. Because I said to Joe, you know, we've given him everything, Joe, everything. Why would he turn to drugs?

But it is a disease. Now he's sober. Thank you, God.

“He's been sober for, I think, seven or eight years now.”

He's remarried. He has a beautiful little boy bow. And he's doing his art. He's helping people with recovery for those who are listening, who are going through addiction. You know, I don't have the answer,

but you just have to keep at it. And it is one of the hardest things I think I've ever had to do. And Joe, to see your child deal with addiction. I heard you say recently that you wish you had spoken more openly. I do.

About is addiction during your time in the White House? Why was it hard then and why is it important now? Well, I think so many families are dealing with it. I mean, people have to know that they're not alone. And there are answers and there is help.

And there is community support. I mean, I saw it all the time in my classroom as well. The kids who would come in that were high all the time. Every single day. And I'd say, I want you to go talk to a counselor.

No, Dr. B, I got this under control. And I said, no, you don't. You know, but just to try to get to them. Because they think they're invincible. They think they don't have a problem.

They don't see what the world sees. And it was hard. It was really hard. I really appreciate you having those reflections and it's so interesting. How at something at the time can feel really difficult to talk about.

And then when you look at it from a different angle and perspective, you realize actually, yeah, there are so many families going through the same thing. People need to hear about other people's stories. They do. They need to hear about how you can change your mind about something and what it really requires.

I regret that we didn't talk about it more. And I think there's a need.

“I think there's a need with all of this, as you said, it's a disease.”

And there are so many other addictions, mental health conditions that I think were just starting to understand. And I love that Hunter now is helping other people in recovery. Yeah, that's been really a gift to read your book, to sit with you today. Oh, thank you. Don't take this on or for granted at all.

Like it's so meaningful to sit with someone who's lived such a real, yet incredible.

And phenomenal and phenomenally difficult life in so many ways, and joy, of course. Uh-huh. We end every episode of on purpose with the final five of these questions have to be answered in one word. In one word. I'll give you one sentence. One sentence. One sentence.

These questions have been answered in one sentence. Okay. However, I will usually ignore my own rule and ask you for more. Okay. Uh-huh.

But, uh, Dr. Joe Biden, these are your final five. Okay, here are my final five. Yeah.

“Question number one, what is the best advice you ever had received?”

My best advice was probably from my mother, no, thyself. Question number two, what is the worst advice you've ever had received? The worst advice, God, I don't know. Um, can I pass on that one? Yeah, you can.

Yes, I don't know. What's something that gives you hope for the future? You know, I love in the women's health space. All these young researchers that I'm meeting and seeing what they're doing. Because I'm the other half of the brain, you know, language arts and literature.

But they're science and to sort of step into their world and see what they're able to do. And discover and how they can help other people and how they're trying to cure these rare diseases. That really gives me hope. Because I feel like we're moving in the right direction in women's health. And I love the direction of women's sports.

I mean, we've waited, you know, I'm a girl from the sixties. So we've waited so long with, you know, title nine. And to see women's sports getting their due, that gives me hope. And the midterms, I feel like, you know, I feel like the Democrats are going to maybe turn the corner and do well in them. There's so much that gives me hope.

And it's so great that, I don't know, my grandchildren are all in their 20s and early 30s. And to see their interests and what their interests, I mean, I just see what young people are interested in these days. And they seem to be moving forward in a really positive way and not focusing on the negativity or the vitriol like they're rejecting that. And they're saying, we're going to take this in a different direction and look at our passions and find joy. And that's what gives me hope.

“Question number four, what something you used to value when you were younger, but you don't value anymore?”

I don't know. I look for the positive anymore. I look for the joy. I'm, like you said, I just had a birthday. I'm 75. As I like to tell my daughter that she haste here. I'm like, girl, I'm in my final quarter. And I'm going, you know, I wanted to be joyous. I don't want to focus on the negative. Fifth and final question. We asked this to every guest has ever been on the show.

If you could create one law that everyone in the world had to follow, what would it be? Be kind. Because you don't know anyone's going through.

Yeah. As you said earlier, no, you don't know what's behind someone's smile. You never know.

Talk to your wife and thank you so much for your time, your presence, your energy. If there's anything I didn't ask you that you'd want to share, that you're more than happy to hear, but thank you for your time, your presence, your energy. Oh, thank you. Thank you for sharing your heart to open in this book.

Can I look forward to many, many things? Oh, thank you. Yes, and community reading. Yes, thank you. Thank you.

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