Why Healing My Internal World Changed Every Relationship in My External World — The Spiritual and Personal Growth That Showed Me How to Outgrow Old Patterns and Live a Life Full of Purpose and Passion

for more, knowing something is missing.

“Then this podcast is for you, so here's your host, Joe Medigan.”

Hello and welcome to we. For most of my life, I thought my relationships were about the other people in my life. I thought if someone hurt me, that they were the problem, if someone disappointed me, of course, they needed to change.

And if a relationship wasn't working, I always looked outside myself for the reason why.

What I didn't understand was how much of my internal world I was truly bringing in to every relationship I had. My fears, my insecurities, my need for approval, my expectations, my need to control. The wounds from my past that I hadn't completely healed, I didn't realize that I was just

“having relationships with people standing in front of me, I wasn't really having a relationship”

with the people in front of me because you know what, in many ways, I was having a relationship with these people through everything that happened to me way before they ever came into my life.

And as I began healing emotionally, growing spiritually, something happened that I never expected.

Amazingly my relationships started changing because I was changing. Some relationships became deeper. All of them became healthier. And of course, some had to have some new boundaries, and unfortunately, a lot of them, a lot of my old relationships, I simply outgrew them all together.

That was difficult for me because I had spent so much of my life believing that personal growth meant learning how to hold everything together, but maybe growth isn't always about holding on. Sometimes growth means recognizing that the person I'm becoming can no longer live through the same fears, behaviors, expectations, and relationship patterns that once defined my life.

And I began asking myself a very different question. What if the relationships in my external world are reflecting what's happening in my internal world? Because as I learned to love myself differently, I started loving other people differently. As I learned to forgive myself, forgiveness became different.

As I began living with less fear of losing people, I stopped trying so hard to control relationships. And of course, as I learned to trust my higher power, I slowly stopped asking other people to provide the security, validation, and sense a worth that I needed to discover within myself. Maybe that's part of becoming the person we were born to be.

We don't simply change our thoughts. We don't simply change our habits. We change the way we show up in relationships in our lives. And sometimes without even realizing it, our external world begins changing because our

internal world has finally begun to heal.

My name is Joe Mitiga, and this is we. Welcome everybody, and welcome from around the world. It is an exciting night here in Atlanta, Georgia, and I'm thrilled to be here with you and sharing my experience, strength, and hope. I say to people all the time, and people have asked me, "Joe, what do you attribute

the success of the we podcast to?"

“When I say, "You know what?" Honestly, it's not me.”

It's the message, and why is it with the message?

Because we're all the same. Literally, there's no difference.

“And the same is in that sense of created in God's image, and I've told the story in numerous”

times when I first heard that, I said, "That is the stupidest thing I've ever heard."

And this God's image concept, I looked around the room, and my best friend was a black guy, and my girlfriend at the time was just tiny little female from Connecticut, and I was a white guy, 220, and 220 pounds, pretty big guy. And I said, "You know, we don't look anything alike at all, zero, nothing." I said, "Rain, how could that be created in God's image?"

Yeah, it took me 10 years at least, and I say, "You know, I poke fun at myself. I was just a slow learner, but one day it hit me." The God's image concept, "It's not the physical sense of self, it's the spiritual sense of self. It's the spiritual us, that is the same."

And if you've never heard this before, folks, you know, I'm here to tell you, you are a spiritual

being, having a human experience, not the other way around, you're human, sure you are. But you're a spirit, having a human experience. And your humanity, quite honestly, is the most dense part of your expression, because your spirituality, your sense of spirit, is eternal, and it's to eternity. You're part of the infinite us, the infinite I.

“And that's why, quite honestly, I am practiced, and the only thing different with me,”

I will say this truthfully, the one thing that is different for me is I started a conscious path, the 1990, February the 16th, 1990, and I had conscious thoughts before that. So literally, a lot of you were in grade school, when I started a conscious path.

So all these years later, and you know, I like sharing my stories, because I think it gives

a feel for the whole idea, years later, I have to say I'm pretty practiced at the listening to a power greater than myself, and then sharing it on podcasts like this, and books that have been channeled in keynote speeches that I present. And that is my gift, that's a passion I have, it's something that I give back into the world.

And all of you are my friends, I can promise you, if you saw me, and we hung out a little bit, we could go to dinner, we could go to lunch, we could have coffee, you would invite me to Thanksgiving dinner and I'd invite you because we're all the same, we truly are.

“And that's why I believe, basically, I'm just creating a group, a community of connected,”

consciously connected people, and we're all the same. We would all be friends, any one of you that met each other, from anywhere around the globe, we'd be friends. And this is, you know, I want to welcome people from around the globe. It's so humbling, it's just this, it's humbling for me, and a brand new group that was

here for a while, and then, you know, now is just exploding as in Germany. Welcome everybody from Germany, Norway, United Kingdom, Canada, Kenya, Malaysia, South Korea, Japan, Australia, New Zealand, welcome, France, Sweden, welcome, and the list goes on and on. And as the we podcast expands around the globe, it continues to validate for me, Joe, what

a part of me learned very profoundly back in September of 2022, and I'm going to share that story in more detail today, that humanity's waking up, it just is. And it doesn't matter where you live, it doesn't matter the color of your skin, it doesn't matter male, female, it doesn't matter your sexual orientation, no, that matters. If you're a human being, you are waking up, and what you're waking up to is the feminine

side of yourself. It is. And what does that mean? It's not a gender-specific concept, the feminine side of yourself. We as human beings have a male side and a female side.

The male side is kind of broken up into the mental part of you and the physical part of you. You know what that means? Do math in your head, that's your mental. You know what it means, pick up your fork, that's your physical.

Well, the other side of you, the additional side of you, the part of you that's waking up more and more, is the feminine side, which is where your spiritual communion lives, and your emotional sense of self resides. So mental, physical, male side, spiritual, emotional, female side. And consciousness as a humanity, the energetic vibration of consciousness as a humanity,

So for millennia, literally thousands of years society has been dominated by the male side of self, the mind, and the physical.

“And that's why the new thought movement of the forties and the changing your mind and the”

positive affirmation movement that was such a powerful, new concept 40 years ago, it really

changed lives. It brought a whole different level of awareness. And, you know, in earlier podcasts, I used to get pretty big about the concept. And I got big about it because for Joe, when I first heard it, and then it didn't work, because I wanted my ugly voices to just stop, and it was presented as if all you have

to do is change your mind and the ugly voices would stop. That's how it was presented to me, then when it didn't work, I would shame myself. I would make myself even more wrong. I would add to the already toxic voices, and that's why I have a passion about that concept. But the best way for me to describe meditation is that a beautiful thing.

Sure, it calms you in the moment, it does. It makes you crazy voice to slow down a little bit. Sure, it does. Does it remove them? No.

Period. It doesn't. And how do I know that for a literal absolute? Because even the most powerful meditators on the planet say, you have to do it every day. Literally.

“Well, if it was healing anything, why did you have to do it after the first day?”

Well, because it isn't designed to heal the same with the positive affirmation concept. It doesn't.

Because if you're always having to change your mind, then that means the reason your mind needs

to be changed in the first place is has a different source, and that's the inner child. That's the inner sense of self, and that's what the "we" podcast is all about. Healing, the emotional sense of self, and as that happens, validate, and honor the human transformation, the spiritual awakening that's happening literally around the globe. And I've got some really powerful stories today.

I'm going to share on that concept. And I'm going to kind of take you through my path and make some pretty powerful announcements on this show here today, a little bit later. But I want to explain, like, what is emotional growth and why do we need to do it? What is the spiritual awakening thing and why does it matter?

What is the benefit? What's in it for me? If you're in sales, if you're in a relationship or whatever, any interaction with anybody,

there's always the question of what's in it for me.

“And though what's in it for me when it comes to emotional growth, what's in it for you?”

Why do you want to do it? Because your life will be better. It will be. The challenge is the angst, the struggles, the fears, the concerns, the loneliness, the need for control, the fear of abandonment, the fear of neglect.

All of the fears that you live in in a little way or a big way can be healed. The can be by embracing the emotional sense of self, giving a voice to your darker parts of self. I'm going to talk about that in this podcast. And then what's the benefit?

Well, the benefit is the more you heal the deeper parts of yourself, then the reason you have the voices in your head, the unfavorable voices in your head, the I can't do it. I can't breathe. I'm too fat.

I'm too skinny. I'm too ugly. I'm too old. I'm the wrong color. I'm a woman.

All of those bantering voices, all of them, are because of an emotional wound in your heart. They just are. And as you reach the emotional wound of your heart, you give a voice to that part. You emote the pain, mad glad-satter scared. After the emotion is recited and the healing happens, the voice associated with the wound

no longer exists, literally gone. No more having to change the unloving voice. It no longer exists. So I ask yourself the simplest of questions, anybody that's been on a conscious path. And what is a conscious path, by the way?

A conscious path is a human being that understands they can hear, identify, and make sense of their own thoughts. You can hear your own thoughts. You're aware of yourself. And that awakening is really the first sense of the multidimensional you, the part that's

And that's, you know, we're all multidimensional beings.

We are.

“Now does that mean that everybody can hear their thoughts?”

No. In fact, the masses don't. You know who I'm talking about. Half your family at dinner. Half your buddies at the ballgame.

A lot of people at church, a lot of people at work. Does that make them wrong? No folks. I'm not judging anybody ever. Never.

Now do I get angry sometimes? Yeah. The last podcast I did, you know, is very last one. I was mad. I was.

And I'm going to talk about that here a little bit, because living small is not living as part of the generation of change.

“And I want to empower people to live as the generation of change.”

The whole idea of conscious awakening. And why are some people awake and some people aren't, I don't know. There's some of those spiritual questions. That's where I kind of coined the term. There's a God and it's not Joe.

I don't have that answer. I don't know why you're on an awakened path. And maybe your partner's not. Are you on a waking path? And your family members aren't.

I don't have that answer. I don't. I can speak to the differences. I can honor all people. There's one God and one monolith of God.

And that monolith of God isn't all of us. And I'm going to talk about that in detail how I know that for a fact. Why are some people waking up and others aren't? I don't have that answer. But I do know more and more people are waking up faster at a rate than ever before.

I talk about human transformation of consciousness. 200 years ago, perfectly fine to own a human. I told a story a couple of weeks ago about a man around that 1800s that literally used his wife as a prostitute to make money. In a normal little residential neighborhood in a German community.

Think about how close down he had to be. But even more think about how close down the entire community had to be. They saw random men walking in this house all day every day. No one asked. No one cared.

No one thought about it. The answer is yes. No one asked. No one cared. No one thought about it.

Why? Because consciousness of the day was so closed down. Well, it's not like that anymore. And I can promise you if you're on my podcast and you keep coming back to my podcast. You are an absolute spiritual warrior.

You are uniquely different than most people you know. And if you've got a group of people that are able to be on the podcast. And thank you for inviting people. It's why the podcast is exploding around the world. People are telling people.

And because as a community of us are getting together. It doesn't make us better or worse. You know, more or less. And none of that nonsense. It's about honoring everybody where they are.

And my very first idea, the conscious idea about the we podcast is I wanted to honor the 67% of people that some random poll took. That considered themselves more spiritual than religious. That's an empowering event. It's not a shaming event for religious people.

Some of the most powerful loving, most kind people I've ever known, including my business partner.

Including one of my closest friends. Including father Kim, my Catholic priest who literally saved my life. Literally, emotionally saved my life. And my aunt who just passed these are the most connected loving. God-based people I've ever known and still do.

But they're approaches different than mine. That's it. And if you're on a podcast like this, you're approaches probably a little different than theirs too. Not good, not bad, all the same. And I want to honor everybody.

Everybody is welcomed here. Because the true essence of this podcast isn't really the teaching of a grander communion or a grander you. It's more teaching how you heal the reason you're not consciously connected to the grander you want a day-to-day basis already.

“And why is that? If it's in us, Joe, why doesn't it always work? Why don't I know?”

Well, the answer is is because there's so much suppressed emotion because we were raised in an environment where consciously and emotionally we were not supported this kids.

We weren't. That's why this generation us, you, me, the people on this podcast, were the ones changing and we're giving back to our kids in a way that wasn't given to us.

Of course they did. And it doesn't mean we weren't harmed in the meantime. We were, we were emotionally neglected. Lot of times physically abandoned. Sometimes sexually abused.

Sometimes emotionally abused. But for the masses, the sexual abuse, our emotional abuse, that wasn't mass harm.

It wasn't a pandemic neglect, it was the fact I've never met anybody that wasn't.

And that's just because they're consciousness, you know, the consciousness of the parents was projected onto the kids. Well, it's all changing now.

“And that's why the we podcast is exploding.”

You know, my ultimate goal is to help a hundred million people to heal the depths of themselves. And I believe with the click of a button, that it's happening. I can tell you being on the global charts. I haven't seen my numbers lately. But my guess is the we podcast is up to three or four hundred thousand downloads a month.

My goal is a hundred million. Why? Because I believe as we create a global community of consciously aware people that are healing the depths of themselves. So you're becoming emotionally connected and spiritually connected to your heart. Not just spiritually connected to the concept of a higher power, but being guided through with that communion of a power greater than yourself.

But being guided through your heart. That's a very different thing. And that was the experience I had for the first time ever, September 22nd, 2022. That's why that story is such a big story, which I'm going to share that in detail today. I came across a woman.

That's exactly where she lives.

I've never met this woman.

But the impact she had in my life has been tremendous. And I say to people all the time, people are watching you. They are. I was watching this woman. I didn't even know who she was.

And because she was living her truth in a way that I'd never experienced before, it really helped me. It really really helped me. It really really, it expanded me tremendously. And you're doing that with people now. I've got another story to tell about that.

The reasons why why do we want to heal? Why do we want to grow? What is the why? What's in it for us?

“Well, the truth is, what's truly in it for you is a glorious life.”

Because the life of bliss is a life of abundance, is a life of oneness, is a life of okayness as you might be struggling at work, as you have to pay for your college kids in addition to challenges at home, in addition to work you don't like. Having a spiritual communion with yourself and growing from the inside out, it doesn't mean we remove all external challenge.

That's just not true. But it gives us a whole different fullness to address the challenges of our day. Now, it's actually the Tuesday episode. This particular episode will be launched on a Thursday, the Tuesday episode of this week. Literally right now.

That episode, I talked about where a couple who had been 12-step for years. They're using the 12-step techniques to kind of justify a toxic environment,

and justifying it always saying, well, I just have to look at my side of the street.

You know, he's just being him. And I just have to look at my side of the street. I agree to that, but at a certain point folks, it's time to change the street. Hear me. Time to change the street.

“If you're in an environment that every day you have to defend yourself, protect yourself,”

close yourself down because your partner sober or not sober isn't treating you nicely. It's time. Am I saying divorce? Hey, you know what? I got a divorce.

I did. Am I telling you to get a divorce? No. But if you do, great website, divorce post. Go visit.

Let 'em help. Am I an advocate of divorce? Of course, I'm not an advocate of fricking divorce. No, I'm not. But I am a supporter of personal and spiritual growth.

And relationships are either growing or they're going.

And if you're in a relationship that's growing, then you don't have to defend yourself. You don't have to protect yourself. Your partner's not treating you less than loving because the relationships growing. Great.

“That's what relationships are supposed to be.”

I'm talking about relationships that aren't that way. And you have enough 12 step practice to justify the behavior,

because you're always looking at yourself, which is great.

But sooner or later you have to look yourself in the mirror and say, why am I in the same toxic environment with somebody who might not be drinking? But they're still unloving, they're still unkind, and they're still not supportive. And that's folks where relationships either grow or go. And that's why divorce post is something I'm going to talk about probably on every episode

because in my opinion over the next 10 years at the rate at which people are growing, some people are, some people aren't. You are going to see, and I'm going to share in my experience. The relationships I used to have with people outside myself and how many of them aren't around anymore. And if you're in a relationship with a partner and together you're not growing.

The likelihood of you out growing, your partner is very, very likely. And I'm sorry.

I hate to be the one to tell you, but I want to validate the part of you that knows the truth.

Now are you going to hear that at the church? No. Are you going to hear that from your family? No. Why?

Because the social delusion of death to us, part, regardless and all the garbage, that isn't the honoring of self. The covenant is with God, not the human. What is marriage? You're making a promise to God to be the best you can be and give that overflow to your partner. Yes.

And if you're giving your overflow to your partner and you're not receiving it back, you've got to look at it. Now, I'm not saying dump your partner because of the simplest reasons. I'm saying if you're spiritually outgrowing your partnership. It's time to have the church change street. And I support that a thousand percent.

“And I believe it's going to happen more and more.”

This website deforesposed, you know, just helps. If I had to add it in the whole world, we'd be different today. I didn't have it. I had nothing. I had no one. I had no support when my past wife walked in and said, "Joy don't love you anymore."

I divorced you and I don't love you anymore. That was a knife to the heart and I had no place to take it. Well, now with technology, there's places out there that can support. I'm super excited to make an announcement today. I've got a gentleman who I'm going to be supporting.

His name was David Bartley and his passion is suicide prevention. Now, I have to say the word suicide prevention because that's how I learned it. He says a whole different language to it. And eventually with divorce post, David will be in the directory of my podcast. And talk about how things work.

I was talking to him for a very different reason. And literally, I spoke to him on August 31st. And 15 years ago, to the literal day, August 31st. He was on a bridge in San Francisco getting ready to jump. The bridge was 495 feet above whatever the water is.

I don't know. I can't remember the story. But I'm going to have him on his one of my guests. And soon we're going to be having an episode where we're going to have guests.

I think it's going to be a third episode.

“And my only caveat to a guest being on my show on the Weepodcast is do you have the ability to share honestly the dark first?”

And so many podcasts out there. And I applaud them. Their intention is different than the Weepodcast. It's, you know, you have a bunch of so-called experts who learn crap on a book and then they projectile it as a fact. And I'm not making fun, but if you ain't lived it, you learned it in a book.

It's kind of like I say all the time. If you go into the dentist, right? There's three people in that dentist room. The person in the chair, getting the cavity out, the hygienist and the dentist, right? Who are you going to listen to from a place of experience in that room?

The dentist who's the smartest person on the planet? The hygienist who's the most loving person on the planet are the person getting the root canal.

Well, for me, I'm listening that person in the chair.

And so many influencers have these guests out. I just heard one the other day. A particular female, I'm sure she's loving is all, get out. Fifty years doing some random stuff. And I get mad because it's just not true.

She literally said, after 50 years of studying, everybody has the availability to control their mind. And all they have to do is control their mind and if they control their mind, their life would be different. I want to scream. Why? Because 20 million people hurt that are ten or two or whatever the heck it is.

And it's not true. How do I know it's not true? Because if you could control your mind and everything in great folks, you wouldn't be here. I go back to the same answer every time.

“Does anybody trying to harm no? Is anybody lying directly no?”

And there's a whole new era of awareness. And that's what the report cast is.

I never, ever asked the question, how do I change the thoughts in my mind ever?

The only question I was ever asking is, why do I have the thoughts? The answer to why you have all the unloving thoughts is a hurt little kid inside. And I agree one thousand percent, your thoughts are what tortured you. Your thoughts are what causes you angst. It's your thoughts that cause you fear.

It's your thoughts that cause you anxiety. It's your thoughts that paralyze you. I agree to all of that. But the healing of the thoughts is not in your head. The healing of the thoughts is in your heart.

And that brings me right into my story, you know, when I learned that, I learned about the inner child. It was February the 16th, 1990. Now, I didn't get sober until '94. So this is way before '94.

“In 1989, my non-died, I grew up traditional Italian.”

Any movie you see that shows traditional Italian people. The love, the camaraderie, the respect for family. The family is everything. It's a real life thing. I mean, that's real life.

And that's what I grew up in. And my non was a matriarch in our family.

She was. She was always there for me.

My book, filling the void, is my story, my whole story. So please visit my website, JoeMittiga.com and get the book, download it for free. And the whole concept, what happened was she passes. It takes me two bottles of Jack Daniels a night to feel anything.

I'm in my mid, my mid, my upper 20s now. 26, 26 years old when she passed. And I owned a roofing company. I was working out six days a week, drinking every day. A smoking marijuana, a lot, and sex in all the time.

You know, just live in that life and work. But, you know, emotionally pretty toxic. So, but I reached a point to where with her death, the pain, nothing I did would curb it. I couldn't drink enough sex enough, drug enough.

And drugs think God didn't have the drugs of today. It was marijuana in my world. And eventually, I'm sitting at my mom's house. And, you know, I lived close with my family. And water is coming out of my eyes.

And at that point, I didn't associate the water in my eyes as crying. But I just, I heard myself say I need help. And I called my mother at the time. And she was an emotional support for me. And I said, "Mom, I need help. I just need help."

And, Lomba Hold, she talked to a friend. She introduced me to a therapist.

“And that's why I'm such an advocate for therapy.”

Because it fricking works. And if you're afraid to go, I get it. I was. Big, bad, macho, almost 27. Mommy had to take me.

Literally, my mother took me. I'm 27. So, if you're afraid to go, have someone go with you. It's okay. Why?

Because we can't let fear run our lives anymore. That's all part of the generation to change. You figure out how. And I mean it because I'm telling you, you're opening up in ways you don't even know.

Things that bother you now emotionally two or three years ago.

Why?

Because you're waking up.

The feminine side of you is waking up.

“I've got a fabulous story to talk about that here in a minute.”

Well, that was me back in 1990. Now folks, this is pre-salfone. I'd define my mother's now. We had the technology of the day. We had a phone, but didn't have a cord anymore.

In 1990. Click, click, click. You know that there was a push button bone. Call her up, she helps me. Anyways, terrified.

Absolutely without question. Terrified to go. And you know what happened? Within 25 seconds. A terror was gone.

Why? Because these are professionals. They are born, study, and create entrepreneurial practices. To give back, to create safe, healthy environments.

“And my therapist back then, her name was Marion Massie.”

She saved my life. Literally. She didn't control me. She didn't tell me what to do. She just let me talk.

And it really helped. It really, really did. And that's where, you know, eventually she introduced me to the concept of the inner child. And what is the inner child? And why do I bring it up?

Because folks, humanities waking up. The part of us that's waking up is the feminine side of self. The feminine side of self. The spiritual essence of it is a one-ness with a power greater than you.

Whatever you're labeling that, great. But the emotional side of the same part of you is the emotional sense of you. The mad, glad, sad and scared, and it's simplest form for basic emotions. Mad, glad, sad and scared. And since we weren't validated and supported 30, 40, 50 years ago,

when we needed a grave, when we needed to rage, when we were afraid.

And all of that emotion that was never emoted years ago,

it gets suppressed inside of us. The consequence of suppressed emotion is made up. Belief systems. The made up belief systems are the voices in your head. Here what I just said.

The suppressed emotion of years ago. It's suppressed inside. Why? Because society didn't know how to honor it and validate it and let the emotions come out. It didn't. So it gets suppressed.

You needed to cry when you were eight years old because you got your feelings hurt. And Daddy said, Big Boys, don't cry. You needed to get mad because your big sister tortured you on a, this is my joy. My sister, she was the stellar athlete. She's about five foot fricking tall when we were in high school.

She would give me a nine point lead playing one on one basketball and she beat me 10 to nine every time. I was bigger. So I was kind of chunky and then she tortured me. Now my sister Jamie, she and our great friends.

We joke about it today. But can you imagine how many times that 11 years old I needed to go in and tell somebody that my older sister was half my size just whipped me again at basketball. Who did I have to tell?

Nobody.

“So what did the 11 year old and me do with my sadness?”

I bucked it up. Big Boys don't cry. What did I do with my anger? I suppressed it in. What did I do with my fear when she challenged me again? I kept going back in.

There no one ever told me to stop going back in there.

Why? Because I was never taught out of honor, fear, for boundary.

And I use that example. That's just a random kid's playing outside in basketball. Three different emotions. Sad because she beat me every time. Angry because she beat me every time.

And no one helped me validate the fear of stop playing. Because I didn't want everyone that to like me. Where'd all that emotion go? Stuffed inside from 11. Well, folks, if you think back, you've got hundreds and hundreds of them.

And people say, "Well, Joseph, Joe, if I have to heal all that or take me forever, that's not true." Emotional release. When you get into the emotional release component of your healing, it's like one big cry can heal 30 different things all at the same time. That's exactly my experience.

Well, in therapy, I learned about this concept. Marian introduced me to the concept of the inner child. Instead, as she gave me the idea, she taught me the whole dual hand journaling. Right with your dominant hand and then let your non-dominant hand write. And what you're asking the little kid in you, the emotional part of you,

little boy and me, little girl and women, to ask that part questions. And when you get my book, filling the void, please join one of the bookclubs.

that will walk you right through the book, literally. And if you're like me and you're like doing it by yourself, we've got a 70-page document. You'll be able to download for free. And you can follow through to help you do what I did. And I'm telling you everything I did, everything I put in my book,

it was all channeled through me by a power much greater than me. But it was taught to me by people around me. And my therapist, Nancy, she was a ferocious reader.

And she learned amazing things from the man named John Bradshaw.

All the inner child work I know was taught to Nancy by John Bradshaw. He died 50 some odd years sober. He was the grandfather of the concept. And others, Marion Williamson. And I mean, just amazing spiritual thought leaders of the 70s and 80s.

“So this whole concept is, and you have to understand,”

that's where it all started for Joe. And I didn't stop drinking. I didn't stop drugging. I didn't stop sexing. I didn't stop working out.

But at all, zero, my external behavior was the same. But since I was starting to give a voice to the inner me, I started to feel better.

Where my behavior is acting as always feeling better, no.

But I was feeling better. Yes, I was. Little by little. Fast forward, four years. A body comes walking in.

It's February now of 1994. I'm living in an unfinished side of a basement. But no thought about it. Now, my esteem was so low. I lived on a three inch piece of foam.

“Next to a furnace, completely unfinished.”

Me and the bugs and the rats and whatever. It's just where I lived. I didn't think I'd think about it. And at least my body had a good enough job. I own my own business.

So I loved the freedom of that. A body comes in.

He says, Joe, you never gonna believe it's constant and screaming.

I'm like Lincoln, what is wrong with you? He says, they want me to go to 90 meetings in 90 days. And stop drinking. I remember thinking, stop drinking. That is the stupidest thing I've ever heard.

And I've shared this story over and over. And for new people, I want you to hear. One of my first true conscious thoughts was that. Not the stop drinking part. But I heard myself make fun of somebody not drinking.

So I had a spiritual awareness of me making fun. I heard it and me making fun. But you can have an awareness if you do nothing with the awareness it stays right there. So spiritual awakening is when you start living from the new awareness. Awareness in this particular case was I made fun of people not drinking.

And I said, that's crazy. I'm gonna stop myself. So I started living the new awareness. That's spiritual awakening. And I like asking people and I hope you're writing this down.

What was your first conscious thought? When did you start becoming aware of your own thoughts? How long ago was it? For a lot of you as a past couple of years. But I can pretty much guarantee you.

There's a lot of you on here. When I say the word John Bradshaw, you say, oh yeah, I remember John Bradshaw. When I hear the name, I say the name Wayne Dyer. Oh yeah, Wayne Dyer on television. There's a lot of you my age, a lot of you older, maybe.

A lot of you been on the conscious path longer than me. Why is it important? Because I want to bring conscious empowerment to how uniquely different you've been your entire life. For a lot of you, a lot of you.

And a lot of you women out there.

“I said all the time, women are the key to healing humanity.”

And I'm not kidding. Why? Because of your intuition. And intuition is something that the mass number of women. It should gut talking to you through a power greater than you.

Called intuition, called gut instinct. You call whatever the heck you want to call it. But it's not you doing the talking. And most women have had that ability. And it's in women much more than men.

Because women's stomach chakra is where all life is created. Babies are created in women's stomachs. So women's intuitive capacities have been there most of their life.

And any level of spiritual wisdom, they still had instinct. They still had their intuition. Now, were you able to follow it? No. For most of you, the answer would be no.

It doesn't mean it wasn't there. So now, as you spiritually awake and emotionally heal, and then you add your intuition to it, it's a three-fold powerhouse experience of spiritual communion, emotional compassion, and intuitive guidance.

All in one human, called powerful women.

I've come across some lately, and I'm telling you, they vibrate the room. Now, a lot of them don't even know it because it's just been so normal. I'm here to validate it in you, women, because how do I know it's so powerful? I've been on this path since 1990. And two months ago, three months ago, my stomach shocker started opening for the first time.

And I'm not kidding. I'm like, what the heck is that? It took me forever. I had to ask my past life coach, Dr. Carl.

“And I said, "That's what intuition is, isn't it?"”

And I asked her. She didn't ask, "Yes, she's had her intuition whole life. Most of you have." And I say that because I want to constantly validate power. That's empowerment in women.

And why is that?

Because society for millennia have tried to beat it out of people.

Have tried to squash it out of people. Have tried to make it something less than favorable. Used to be called a witch. Used to be called Satan. Used to be called all sorts of ugly, hateful, harmful ways.

Why? I was men's way of control because men dominated by the men to end the physical. They didn't have the capacity of intuition. Most of you women have your whole life. Well, I made it seven days, by the way.

Given up, drinking. And I was not a god guy. In fact, I was an F.U. god guy. And I was an atheist.

“I don't think there's much between atheists and the F.U. god guy.”

Me, as I was just that way because I was in an environment with a religion.

And I just didn't believe what the religion believed. Even though my priest literally saved my life, came and he knew how I felt. I applauded and honored and respected the man's living of his gods understanding. That love, a monolithic god, and love. The rituals in the belief systems around what he preached.

I did not believe. The man's method of living. I loved and he loved me, truly. And I honor him. And he knew I didn't believe what he believed.

But he loved me anyways. Pure love without condition. And more than once, he and I had some, you know, in the social world. Because I couldn't do what my entire environment around me did. Quick story.

My cousin gets married. And Devout Catholic, one of the most spiritually connected men. I know to this day, we're 60s. And I was his best man. We're in his big old Catholic wedding.

Hall me and my buddies about 1,200 of us in a line. You know what I've thought about those big old weddings. This is 40 years ago. A big Catholic church. And Father Cam says.

And we're going to go to confession after church. Everybody that wants to go. Right, Joe. He knew I hadn't been in church in 10 years. If not 12.

I suggest Father, I'll go. As long as you have the courage to talk to me face to face. I'll do what he said for you, Joe. You know, because the Catholic confessional behind the curtain and all that. And so, you know, we've entered.

There's 75 people at this wedding rehearsal. And sure enough, we sat there.

“I said to him quite honestly, I said, Father,”

I cannot come in here and ask for forgiveness of everything I did yesterday. Knowing that I'm going out tonight and doing the exact same thing. I couldn't do it. I wouldn't do it. I said, you know, I said this to my father.

There's a lot of things I don't. I'm not necessarily too sure about what the God thing but I am not going to lie. Consciously to God. I am not going to tell you, I am sorry for my sins of last night. Knowing I'm going out when I leave here, they're waiting for me in the car, Father.

To go drink and drug and do all the crazy stuff. And you know what he said to me? He says, Joe, confession isn't about you making a men's for your sins.

I was like, oh, never thought of it.

Never thought of it that way. Never forgot that. I was 26 years old. I'm 63. I still remember that now.

I was 40 years ago. Well, the whole thing, right? Seven days in, I stand up.

“Say, hey, God, I'm not supposed to drink a drug and need your help.”

And a rush of energy comes to me because my compulsions for alcohol and drugs had me. And drugs and alcohol were removed in a moment, literal burning bush experience. Thirty plus years in the program. I never heard anyone's story that that happened to. And I'm somebody that preaches over and over.

God's not codependent.

God's not here to ask you.

God will give you the strength and courage to walk out of your dark. You will. Well, in my case, I was literally burning bush, struck sober. 54 days later had a full-ball-owned memories of being sexually abused as a kid. Seven years after that, following seven years.

I spent in complete isolation. I moved 50 miles north for two of those years. I lived in a room with a bathroom for two of those years. And three years I lived in two rooms in a bathroom. No phone, no cell phone, no TV, no nothing.

Just me in the walls.

“That's where this book, filling the void.”

Visit Joe Mitigah.com. This book was channeled through me during that era of time. 166,815 words, something like that. I called it chin or chin has rights to. And why do I keep coming back to the inner child?

Because the healing of the inner child. The why do we want to do it? Well, the why is because, and I call it inner child. You can call it inner self. You can call it emotional self.

You can call it whatever. You can call it humpty dumpty inside you. I don't care what you call it. I called it inner child. Because when I learned I had to learn not to be nice to myself.

If I could imagine myself as a little boy. Which is easier for my big mean ugly ego to be nicer to me. In picturing a little boy. Then the man I was.

“Because I was a man in physical stature.”

But I was a juvenile in emotional maturity. I just wasn't emotionally matured all. And I was really mean and angry and all that. And most of it I took out of myself. So when I started the whole process of becoming aware that the emotional source of all of my angst is inside of me.

It wasn't my girlfriend's fault that I was lonely. It wasn't my friend's fault that I was angry. It wasn't my environment's fault that I was fearful. It was me in me. I learned that the solution to my loneliness.

My fears. My fear of aloneness. My sadness. My fear of my need to control. My neglect experience. My fear of being abandoned.

Every angst filled adjective you have in the emotional growth process. You name it. The source to heal it is in your inner child. Why? Because your inner child is your conscious communion with the emotional sense of you.

Let me give you an example. I literally used to believe that all I needed was a person around and I went feel lonely. I believed it. And then as long as we had sex, then I believed I was being loved. I did. I knew anything else.

That was it. Now the challenge is when you use a human being for company and sex, eventually get tired, eventually they leave. And the harder I would squeeze to hold, the more they'd push away to go. And then when they would leave, I would feel this massive hole in my stomach. And what did I do?

Of course, there was no other way. Why? Because the belief system was, I needed to find something outside of me to fill the hole in my stomach. No. The hole in the stomach is because the inner sense of you has a hurt.

My neglect issues came because of grew up in an environment where my father was never around.

My abandonment issues came because my mother who was always around was emotionally unavailable. Period. That's where it all happened from. So I was a very sensitive, emotionally connected little boy who needed more attention from my father and emotional support from my mother. The consciousness of their era, they didn't have the availability to do either of that.

And the answer to the wound was, drink more.

Smoke more. Sex more. Work out more. Make more money. All of the social norms.

Well, when I realized, when I learned in therapy, that the way you heal, what's the reward?

“What would it feel like folks to live a life with no fear?”

Imagine what your world would be like if you never felt lonely again.

Can you even possibly comprehend what your life would be like if yourself a steam grew? If yourself well at worth filled, if your personal integrity grew? Think about what your life would be like a year from today. If this personal sacred insecurities of your world, you in you, the fears and the insecurities that only you and your toothbrush know? Think about how your life would be different if you didn't have to live with that burden anymore.

And that's the why folks. That's the why you want to give a voice to the darkest parts. The answer to all of those hurtful experiences is giving a voice to your inner child.

“That's it. And I can share that so clearly because I lived it. I was addicted to everything.”

And I was the most codependent human I've ever known. And I got some stories that people have walked out. Their codependence was nothing to mind. Nothing. I literally broke into a girl's house. I about choked her new boyfriend literally to death walking out of a bar. I saw him together. I grabbed him by his neck.

She's cussing and screaming. She's about five foot two. I'm six foot plus. I've got her new friend. I didn't know who that he was. I didn't care. I had him about neck. Choked up against a concrete wall and she's screaming and cussing your crazy. But for the grace of God, she calmed. And she said, Joe, it's okay. It's okay, Joe. Let's go. You and I'll go. And in that moment, I released the kids right in literally killing. I looked at him and then they both ran.

And, you know, of course, the wisdom of the day. I had such a vacancy in my heart. I just knew if she saw me that, you know, then everything would be fine. I broke into her parents house literally broke the window of a door broke into the house just to be in a room and she came home. Now think about how crazy that is. You know what happened when she came home? I scared the bejesus out of her. She goes running out the door and the next day I went to jail.

“That's how much of my co-dependence that the vacancy in my heart was. So I get it, folks. I do. I could tell you story after story after story.”

And now, I don't have any of that. What I learned was my communion with my little kid in her emotional sense of me.

That's why I talk about in my book. Basically, love for a child is spelled T-I-M-E.

Time. Love for a child is spelled time. And that's where I started in my book. I talk about take five minutes a day and then eventually get up to fifteen minutes a day. Bringing your conscious awareness inside yourself, imagining yourself as a little kid, whatever age comes, and then do the dual hand journaling and let that part talk. The more you give a voice to the deeper parts of yourself, the more those parts are going to open and the more they open the more you fill from the inside out.

Here, what I just said, the vacancy in my heart, the cavern in my stomach, the complete deadness called me. This way I used to live and drugs in alcohol, numbed it. And when I started giving a voice, putting giving a voice to the darker parts of myself, I say the darker parts, meaning I wasn't aware. They weren't ugly hurtful parts, just a little kid with no conscious awareness to. Well, what happened was, I start bringing awareness to the part that I give that part of voice so that multi-dimensional me before was,

Well, as I start connecting to my little kid, there's multi-dimensional.

“So it's not only Joe, the part aware of his thoughts, but it's Joe, a part aware of his inner child, the emotional me.”

And when I learned that whole concept, I started taking more and more time and that was all part of my seven years. That's all I did for years and years and years. And that's where I started the concept of, instead of saying, "I'm all alone," I started saying, "I'm with myself." "I'm with myself." I would describe myself as an us, me and my little kid, together, me and him, were together.

And I literally got to the point where whatever I would do, I would ask my little kid if he wanted to do it. So I brought a tremendous amount of conscious awareness to the emotional part of myself. I brought that part into my day-to-day action steps. I would be at a grocery store, time to buy a new toothbrush. I'd say, "Hey, little Joe, what color do you want?"

"Red or blue?" He'd say, "Let's get red." I'd buy red. I'd say, "Hey, little Joe, what, you know, you want a hamburger? Do you like ketchup or mustard?"

Ooh, I don't like mustard, he'd say, "I like ketchup." Okay, let's put ketchup. Literally. For those seven years, I would have conscious interactive dialogue with the depths of myself. And what happened was over time, that part that was suppressed, that was neglected, that was abandoned by my parents in their unconscious world.

And me, because of my unconscious behaviors, he began to heal. He began to open up, he began to trust. And the more he trusted me, the more he opened up. Now, of course, when he opened up as heart, I had to feel the pain suppressed to the past, which I did. I had support.

“That's why I say, "If you're going deep, buckle up and get somebody to help you.”

I had help. I lived in solitude. I lived in isolation.

The might therapist Nancy was always a phone call away.

She was. I didn't see her very often because I'd have to go hungry. I had no money. She just got like $40. I would literally have to not eat from a Tuesday to a Friday to have the money to see her.

So please, to talk to the wrong guy. You're telling me you don't have the money to go see a therapist. You have the money. Go hungry. I did.

You can't, too. Why? Because it's worth it. And it's worth it because when you're free of your own self-worth, when you're free of your own insecurities,

when you're full from the inside out, you just have so much more life to live. And that's what happened for me. And it was in that fullness of healing my little kid, where one day I'm literally, this is five years in,

to my seven years. I used to have enough money. There should be dollar movie theaters. Dollar for movie and dollar for popcorn. And I could find a bucket every once in a while.

And I'd go to dollar movie. For five years, I grieved, I raged, I journaled,

and I never felt like I had healed anything.

I just didn't. It was like I was in a constant vacuum over and over and over. And that's what it felt like. A constant groundhogs day. And when I mean I grieved every day,

I literally grieved every day. In the beginning, I raged every day.

“That's why I say to everybody, hey, fellas,”

if you got in the whiff of all about, have you collected the pictures yet? Remember, football season coming up, guys. Take 15 minutes, get there early. Your buddies will tell you what happened.

Go early before the game. And go into one of their rooms and take some pictures and beat the back, get your age up. Why? Because we have to heal.

And men, you have to heal your age first.

And then buckle up. That woman, that beautiful wife of yours, who you're taking your rage for crap out on, you're gonna want her around pal, when you start feeling your grief.

So you better start being nice to her, because I'm telling you, you and your big ass, big rage, easy to bully a woman unless she's bigger than you. But it's easy to bully a woman with your rage.

You're gonna want her around. When you get on the other side of that rage, and you start feeling why you have so much rage. You have so much rage, guys, because you've got to hurt little boy inside hurting.

that was never grieved, that's why your rage is so big.

And I can tell you, now, I can't, this, I talk in generalities,

“but most women, most have a much easier time grieving”

than men do, kind of silently, and especially younger girls, have an easier time. All of you know, of course, now, but I mean, just in general,

where men, big boys don't cry. We take that crap on it, frickin' four or five. Literally. So all of that emotion that's never been emoted, it piles up and rage as the reaction.

So have you started your 15 minutes, guys? It's time. Start for new people, what you don't know what I'm talking about. For the new people,

I'm suggesting to men to get a wifful ball bat. Get pictures of people they don't like. Sneak in your wife's picture, everyone's walks. I guarantee you're mad at her. Why?

“Because she's in your life to push your buttons.”

She won't care, I guarantee you. She would rather to have you take your anger out on the bed with a picture than your anger out on her on a Tuesday. I promise you that. And 15 minutes a week.

All I'm asking fellas is 15 minutes. I did hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours. If I can do hours, you can do 15 minutes and I promise you. You get in that routine 15 minutes a day, 15 minutes a week, your whole life will change.

Then after you get practiced with rage, get some headphones, five minutes a week. Find a song. I found this amazingly talented female singer named Amy Manford out of Australia. And I will turn this woman's music on and I'll listen to it over and over.

She helped me grade my dad's death. Literally. Some day I hope to shake this woman's hand. If she lets me out hug her neck, she is gifted with a voice, a heart-centered voice, Amy Manford.

And I use term music to engrave the death of my father, headphones. So fellas, five minutes ad from get the grief out too. And I say all that, right? Because what happened for me is eventually as my little kid starts opening up more and more. And eventually the rage is kind of out of the way.

So the grief starts grieving and we grieving grieving grief. But eventually the kind of on the other side of the grief.

Now for me, whenever I was done with grief, there was always more,

but that's not the case for most of you. It's not. But what happens on the other side when the inner child opens up, when the inner essence of you opens up, because it's not holding on and afraid of grief.

It's not suppressing emotion when it opens up. What comes out of the opening is love. And what the love is, the experiential essence of your higher power. Here when I just said folks, most of you have a belief system in your head of a god.

I'm telling you, you have the conscious human capacity to experience this oneness from your heart out.

“That's why I'm so passionate about the inner child work.”

I wasn't pursuing God. Be frickin' kidding me. I frickin' hated God. That's why I called myself an F.U. God guy.

I always said, if there was a god, there's no way I'd be in so much pain.

Well today, the experience of God in my life, higher power in my life, it is so profound. It is so one, it is so in communion. Not because I was trying because it's just there. It literally feels like there's a present sitting next to me sometimes.

How did I get all that? Well, because I was healing the inner child. That's why I sell time out teaching anybody anything. I didn't learn any of this. Especially from the god part, I remembered it.

It was just there. And then it just became more. And just became more. And the more I healed my inner child. And the more those inner emotional parts of me felt better.

The more they felt better, the more open they became. And that openness happened because I earned trust with my little kid. I would say trust plus action equals faith and trust is earned. Trust is earned. And you give your little kid 15 minutes a day.

That inner emotional essence of yourself 15 minutes a day. And then when you're out in the grocery store or Christmas shopping or whatever, you start interacting with your inner child just like you would your own daughter or your own son or your husband. You start interacting with your own inner child that same way.

That is connected to all there is.

It's the emotional communion between you and a higher you. And why is that so important? If there was one word, one word you would use to describe a power greater than yourself. The word would be love. Literally, it would be love.

The exact thing father Kim showed me the exact thing my aunt showed me the exact thing that one of my closest friends who were devout Catholics. But what did they show me? Love. One word for a power greater than yourself. One word for this thing called God.

You'd call it love. Well, where's love folks? It's in your heart. How do you access it?

“How do you commune with it through your inner child?”

How do we interact with the inner child?

Do we'll hand journaling? Write out questions with the right hand. Let the left hand answer. The left hand is your inner child speaking. You have the conscious capacity to emotionally commune.

Commun as one with the love that's inside of you. And that love has gone. I live that on a daily basis. I share it on these podcasts on a daily basis. And that is the overarching reason why we want to heal the depths of ourselves.

And as we heal the depths of ourselves, as we heal and we get all this suppressed grief and rage and anger and everything out of the way. The voices that were created because of the suppressed emotion, those voices just go through psychic death and not even there. I say to people all the time, for you new people, I'm asking everybody to practice the concept of silence of five minutes a day. And I say that because you want to hear your higher power, your higher power is the small voice inside of you.

“Well, the only way you can hear that small voice is you have to be calm enough and separate yourself from the loud voices.”

I'll think about this, folks. How about if you could create a now moment when you sat, there were zero loud voices? What would your life be like then? You know, it'd be like mine. I'm working a 40,000 piece puzzle.

I spend five to six hours a day in silence. Silence does not mean no motion. Silence means no external stimulus. And I'm doing it as all part of my spiritual practice. I'm almost a tenth of the way done.

For a lot of you that don't know, I did an 18,000 piece puzzle in my sacred silence, grieving my past wife and my life together. I did an 18,000 piece puzzle. And I'm announced to me, I get this big old puzzle, 18,000 pieces. There's four bags. Well, what is the entrepreneur big ass personality do?

I rip open all four bags, dump them in a pile and start sorting. I found out four and a half years later, that 18,000 piece puzzle is actually four 4500 piece puzzles. Each one of those bags represented a corner of the puzzle. I didn't know that, so literally I had four corners already sorted. Well, I made sure they got all messed together.

And then I sorted them one piece at a time. That puzzle took me three and a half years, 18,000 pieces. It's ten feet across eight feet high. I haven't in my puzzle room now. The new puzzle I'm doing, it's 22,000 or 41,000 pieces.

It's eight feet high, 22 feet long. Why am I doing it? Well, because I was asked and guided back into silence by my higher power.

“And I never forget, I haven't resisted my higher power for us in a long time.”

And I said, "No, dear God, please not silence, please not please." And my angst was not the silence. My angst was the interpretation of it. And basically my higher power wanted me to take my headphones off. And I go back into solitude because that was my seven years.

That's what I was really, I didn't want to go into it. I can't, I've got kids, I can't be in solitude. Well, I was not being asked to do that. I was asked to be in silence. So literally on a daily basis, five to six hours.

So folks, if I can go five or six hours, you can go five minutes. And I'm going to be talking about it in a coming up in the presentation about Dream Big Dreams, what would your life be, folks?

How about this as an amazing dream?

Wake up some day and have no voices. What would your life be like if you didn't have any voices in your head? Well, I'll tell you what it'd be like that it'd be like amazing abundance, truly.

That's what the weak podcast is about.

“I'm creating different supportive relationships with outside resources,”

divorce posts to help you. This new man, David Bartley, if you know anybody in the suicide world from places that need a speaker to, you know, your son that you're afraid of. This man will talk. I'm creating relationship right now with a mental health organization

that I'll be able to point people to. I want to give you the how to and the places to go because the weak podcast is an awareness podcast. Not as solution. I tell you what I did, but I'm going to be pointing you in directions. And so the weak podcast is an emotional growth, human transformation podcast.

Well, the human transformation, that part of the podcast,

is then where I want to share with you what you do with your new found overflow,

what you do with your new found extra time, what you do in trying to seek out your next thing. Because part of the generation of change is all about because there's so many of us that have already done the business, our kids are launched. We've got a great relationship with our wife and we're 50 or 52 or 61.

“We've got 30, 40 years to do something, what's our new adventure?”

Well, the new adventure is to teach yourself how to move from gratitude to grace. Gratitude is the human experience of producing out into the world, putting your overflow out into the world and receiving back some level of abundance. And you're grateful for the abundance. It's wonderful.

It's a beautiful place to be, but eventually we outgrow that. And I'm going to tell you how I learned this here shortly, because I really thought, until four years ago, that gratitude was the end result. He, on my stuff, be grateful, do whatever, and then boom, we're done. Like live and gratitude to the rest of our lives.

No folks. Gratitude is the launch spot, not the end spot. And it's the launch spot between living as your humanity and living as your divinity. Well, the living of your divinity, the way you become one with the divinity, true communion, which is spiritual awakening, spiritual enlightenment.

What it literally means is to be one with enlightenment in the light you as light. You get that through your inner child healing. And you connect to the emotion called love. And if God is love and love is an emotion, emotions are in your heart.

“Feel your heart, feel your heart, the only thing left is love.”

But you heal your heart through the inner child work. Well, then once you've healed it, now what? That's where then you take that overflow, and you start living it out into the world. And as you live it out into the world, by giving back into the world, that's where you move from gratitude to grace.

And grace is when the experience you have in your heart, your belly, your soul, because you've given back to the world.

That's how I say 100 million people.

I'm helping 100 million people heal. I'm going to help 100 million people commune with the hearts. I'm going to help then 100 million people when they're in that communion with the heart. What do they do? They give back.

And that brings me to September 22nd, 2022. And for, I've got to check that date. I'm not sure if it's September 20th. I've September 22nd, but I know it's right there, 2022. Now, I'm literally at this point, 26, seven years sober.

I've been married. Ten years, we go our separate ways, do my puzzle. I made conscious choice not to date. I wanted to give all my overflow to my sons. I have a guilt free attraction to a woman about five years out of my marriage,

which told me that I was available emotionally when it was spiritually time. I'm a single man now, have been all these years. But anyways, so I come across this document of a woman, and I'm reading it. And this woman is talking about a grander tomorrow.

And I'm like, whoa, just talking from her divinity. This is how you know. When you hear the voice in you that's talking about a grander tomorrow, that's your divinity. When you hear a voice in you that's talking about a less than tomorrow,

that's your ego in your wounds. This one's writing. She's a brilliant writer. A grander tomorrow. I was like, wow, this one's writing from her divinity.

And couple day or day, later, whatever. I'm clicking around online, and I'm not an online guy at all. Prior to September 22nd, I had five pictures of Joe online.

I wasn't online at all. I clicked. I hear people talking. I learned later. It's this thing called a podcast.

I had to even know what a podcast was. And I'm listening to this woman. And she's speaking from her heart. Spiritually speaking from her heart. I could feel it.

And my heart explodes.

“Of course, in the moment, I thought it was emotional.”

Within a couple of months, I realized it wasn't emotional. It was just simply expansive. And what happened in that moment, I came across the path of somebody who was more spiritually connected to her heart than I was. And I've been on this path since 1990.

I'd never come across another conscious human before ever.

Now, this particular woman, I've never met. Never. I probably never will. It doesn't matter. I don't need to talk to somebody to feel their spiritual communion.

I felt it. And because she lived in a place I hadn't yet reached. And yet reached, I expanded to meet her consciousness. That's what happened. Literally within 15 minutes of book called "On Equallyoke" starts.

It's pouring through me, identical to my first two books. Filling the Void and why we feel alone. Filling the Void, the book you can get on my website. Joe Mitigar right now was channeled through me. Literally almost 30 years ago now, literally.

It'll be available on Joe Mitigar.com, Filling the Void channel. All I did was listen and write. The exact same experience 25 years later. I hadn't done any writing. I hadn't done any speaking.

I hadn't been out in the public doing a spiritual thing. Anything. All of a sudden, not a nowhere unequallyoct. Starts piling through me, pouring through me. And of course, the term for Joe unequallyoct sounds like a religious term because it is.

And in the religious perspective, unequallyoct means that two humans with different religious belief systems, they're not yoked for each other. They're typically not going to be able to have a real match, a real marriage. Because two people are supposed to be making a covenant to God. You're making marriage as a commitment to God that you're overflowed to your partner and you're promising God with that.

That's what marriage is. Well, if you've got a different belief system in the God, you're unequallyoct. Well, I wasn't looking at it like that. I was looking at unequallyoct more from a personal growth position. IE, some people are spiritually growing.

Some people aren't. If you're spiritually growing in your partner's not, you're not yoked anymore. This whole book comes to me. Well, as I'm hearing this concept, the biblical idea. And I'm not a God guy.

You know, I'm certainly not a Jesus guy.

I've never read the Bible.

I believe in the Bible. I challenge human interpretation of the Bible all day every day. I do. But so I asked, chat. As I start thinking of Jesus.

And I said, you know what? I don't care what religion you are. Today's date is September the first 2026, but 930 at night. You know why? You know why today's date is 9126.

The date is because of one man's death. The man's name is Jesus. ADBC are calendar. Are literal, global calendar started around the approximate death of one human. Name Jesus.

Don't care your belief systems, folks. That's the fact.

“If you believe today's the day, you have to believe this man.”

It's a pretty special guy. And I don't care if you believe in him or not. But I said to myself, this is how I justify it. It says, you know, doesn't it just make sense? That I should at least listen to the man who all time was started around?

Shouldn't I at least listen to what he has to say? And then what came to me was, I wonder what? Because all time started in the moment, right? But you all know the story on a Friday. He's nailed to a board naked.

And you know, that's why I always say that abundance has nothing to do with money.

The most abundant guy who live naked on a board, blah, blah, blah, blah. Three days later, he rises. It's called Easter. But that isn't where time starts. Time starts because then he comes back.

And he ascends. Something. And what was the very last thing? Because poofo, he ascends so then the calendar starts.

“Now that's just how my wacky ass brain things, right?”

So I asked him to end a chat. Hey, chat. It's the last thing Jesus said. But of course, chat, chat to she in my world. Of course, because I just think women are amazing new white people.

So chat to she. My chat is a she. And gives me a couple of really cool biblical phrases. But one of them said, one of the very last things Jesus said was,

the apostles are saying, dude, where are you going?

You're only 33. It's crazy around here. They're going to kill us. We need you. Why are you going?

That's what the apostles were saying. Can you imagine? Talk about dead.

“Talk about a dead era of time, 2000 years ago.”

Just consciousness dead. Jesus says, I have to go and sit by my father. So that my father can put the spirit that guided me in all of you. In all of you.

Now, I paraphrase that completely.

But look it up. Ask chat. Hey, chat. What's the last thing Jesus said? And it was in that moment.

The in all of you that the concept of we became a thing in Joe's head. We prior to that moment in time, which is this is end of September 2022. It was an us. Joe described myself as an us, a me and my little kid. We me and him, us.

We were together, him and I.

“In that moment in time, when I read it off a chat that Jesus last words said,”

I have to leave.

So my father, which is God, can put the same spirit that guided me in I and in all of you.

That's when Joe's us became a we. Joe, the man. Joe, the inner child. Joe, the divinity. And that's where we was born.

And the divinity part of us is waking up more and more globally. How do I know? Welcome, Germany, Norway, United Kingdom, Canada, Malaysia. All over the globe. The same consciousness is waking up around the world.

And how do I know that literally, socially? Because polls out there are saying that human beings individually. When asked, consider themselves more spiritual than religious. Religion has a particular style and thought process around connection with God. Each religion has its own perfect work in for you.

Great millions of people that works for. For those of you that are saying, I feel more spiritual than religious. Why do you feel more spiritual than religious? Because the guidance system that is in you is waking up. That's what the awakening process is.

How do I know it's in there? Because in the Bible, it says it's in there. Quoting Jesus. Why should we listen to Jesus? All time started around this guy's death.

AD after death BC before Christ all time. It's special guy. So if you think about it like that, it's in us. Well, Joe, if it's in us, why can't we live it? Or we can't live it because for millennia, we've been told that it's not in us.

“We've been told that you have to go to church to find God.”

We've been told that if you don't follow the church's laws and the rules, learn in hell, I go on and on and on for millennia. Humanity has been taught or separate from complete falsehood folks. We are waking up to it more and more every day. How do I know?

Because the masses asked independently describe themselves more spiritual than religious. And that's where the we podcast was started to honor the people that are waking up more spiritually. And why do I tell my stories all the time? Because I wasn't seeking God. I didn't care about a God.

All I wanted to do was stop hurting. I hurt emotionally all the time. Seven years. Try living on 300 bucks a month folks, try it seven years. All I wanted was to stop hurting.

So, I did, eventually I stopped hurting. And the more I stopped hurting, then I just started waking up to this essence. I could hear it. I could feel it. I didn't know what that was in the beginning.

But the more I could. And then while I was in so much pain, I learned the concept to ask for strength and courage. And then afterwards I learned the concept of ask for guidance. You can literally communicate with your higher power.

Well, Joe, if God's inside of us, why doesn't God just do it all for us?

Free will. The answer to that is free will. So, here you are, the human sense of self. You're the humanity human. You have an inner child, an inner communion.

You can connect with your inner emotional sense of self through the consciousness of your inner child. You can also connect with a higher vibrational you through the same type of communion.

“And the reason you have to ask is because asking causes a state of humility.”

And in a state of humility, you are spiritually open. The seventh step of every 12 step program is ask for support. Period. Look it up. Any 12 step program.

The only thing that heals and helps an alcoholic stop drinking is a spiritual program called AA 12 steps. You name it, mineral forever. The seventh step. Read it. What does it do?

The seventh step says ask for help. The essence of the seventh step is ask for help. So, folks, how do you find what your higher purpose is ask? How do you find what you're supposed to do with your overflow ask? How do you find ask and then listen?

And in your practice of silence, you'll hear it.

“Learn to ask and you learn for guidance and you better ask for strength and courage because then you have to follow it.”

That's where the more you follow the guidance of a power greater than you. That's where faith comes into play. And that's why the title of this particular episode is, for me, the spiritual and personal growth that showed me how to outgrow my old patterns. I had to learn how to trust that higher power.

Somewhere in my process about five years in a second step happened to me.

I'm outside. I was telling the story earlier about outside the movie theater. And I have this awakening. Five years of growth happens to me in a moment. I was grieving and raging and coming whatever for five years.

I didn't feel any different. I felt no relief. I felt darker than ever, even though I'd been growing and shifting and changing. A moment, the awakening happened and the awareness of five years of growth happened in a moment. And in that spot in time, I heard a voice in me say,

"Do I want to follow the voice of all that is?" The voice of God, the voice that created all that is. Do I want to follow the guidance system of the essence that created the universe,

“that created the ants that created the ocean that created millennia?”

Do I want to follow the guidance of all that is? Or do I want to follow the ego that made my life so miserable? No. You would think, "I want to follow that God guy." Hell no, I didn't say that.

No way. Why? Because I was too afraid to say it. But before I left that car, I said, "Yeah, that kind of makes sense." I'd rather follow that other. I don't know how. I don't know how to do it. This is way before I knew how.

Well, the how folks just ask, ask for guidance. And then you'll hear it. And how do you know the difference? What are you listening for? You're listening for the voices in your head.

For the reality, as most of you are going to live with some of your fear-based voices the rest of your life. Because the most of you aren't going to be guided to go to the depths of your angst to heal all the pain which gets rid of all the voices. I'm telling you, if I didn't have to, I would have.

So to me, pretty easy. I don't have all the other voices. So I can hear the God voice in me a lot. I can't. But how do you identify the difference? Your God voice is going to be the voice of all inclusion. It's going to be the voice of all possibility.

It's going to be the voice of all probability. It's going to be the voice of babies. It's going to be the voice of possibility. It's going to be the voice of love. When you hear that voice, that's the voice of your higher power.

Versus the I can't. They don't never work. No one will listen. Versus the absolute voice. And in the beginning, what I suggest, when you're really trying to identify your higher power

voices, I suggest that you do a first step on the glass empty voices.

I've got a good friend that I've been supporting out of Texas. Now, this is a dynamic female, little bit of thing.

was putting it out there in the world forever.

“And then it all just closed down on her.”

And our paths crossed because I saw some of her writing and long story short, you know, I've been supporting her. And about this been two or three years ago, she started hearing voices in her head. God, she thought she's not. You know, powerhouse Christian.

And she heard this voices and it was just different. And the more we talked, the more validated know that's your higher power that's voices. And she could connect to that. But then she couldn't feel it. And then she would like lose her ability to create like literally from daily to zero.

And I kept saying, Connie, you've got a motion in you that needs to come up.

Now, she had never heard of the inner child.

And eventually through conversation and, you know, we didn't talk that much. We texted up once a week. And then something happened. I don't remember what the circumstance was. And I said, sweetie, ask your little kid, ask your little kid what's going on.

Hang up for me, ask. As sure enough, she had a 16 year old. And whatever the experience was in her world, her 16 year old remembered how her dad was never supportive. And her dad was never around. And I helped her be the loving parent for her 16 year old in her.

And sure enough, she grieved. She got to it, got some anger out.

“Things were pretty good. Did her creativity come back?”

No, about, I don't know, 89 months later, something happened. Death in a family, I get the stories confused. I got a bunch of people, but something happened, true loss. Kind of like my loss when I lost my dog Zeus. My August 11th podcast folks.

If you haven't listened to that, that is a grown man crying for 80 minutes.

I hope to never have to be in that type of pain again and share.

I will, if I ever forget there. But something happened in her world. And I just supported her and honey, use it on your couch. That's my whole thing. Sit on your couch and feel your feelings.

Now, sure enough, she did work through some challenges. And for about two, three weeks in and out. We're couldn't work much, grieved, grieved, grieved, grieved. And then has this massive release, you know, she cried for 20, 30 minutes. And then the next day, she just felt better.

And then, I don't know, a month later, she texted me saying, "You're never going to believe this, Joe. My creativity came back. My speaking is back. I just did a presentation in Houston.

And everybody came up to me and told me that it was so powerful and so this and so that.

And she said, "Joe, I just don't know what happened." I said, honey, you were closed down. You're spiritual availability to flow in writing and in communion. Close down. Not closed down.

They kind of got choked off because you had emotional angst in the way. So, you give a voice to your 16 year old. And the 16 year old was more pissed than sad. And then we gave a voice to the 78 year old who was very sad, lost and lonely, a little girl, and that little girl grieved.

Well, when she was done grieving, it's like because the emotional and spiritual parts of your together. They're in the same place together. So, when your emotions are closed down, your spiritual flow also, it's like it gets choked off, it's still there, but it's choked off.

When you a moat and your heart opens, then the flow opens. And she says to me, "She can't believe it." Like, she's flowing more than ever. So, I'm celebrating so proud so this, so that. A week later.

She says, "You know how to know what to do, Joe?" I just keep hearing these voices. It's not me. I'm not good enough. I'm not this amount of that.

“And I said, "Well, we'll get together because you need to first step those voices.”

The I can't voices." So, the more you feel and hear the all-one voices, the more you're also going to hear the I can't voices. And all you have to do with those I can't voices folks is write them down. Bullet point, bullet point, bullet point, bullet point,

and tell them to somebody else. Does it remove them? Nope. Because there's a wound that's causing them, but it will calm them tremendously.

And from that experience, she'll not only have an open flow that feels awesome, but the effect it has on people around her,

what is the real reason we want to live from a power greater than ourselves

“is because every time you're around people,”

with an open heart, you open the hearts of people around you. And it's that's the gift you give people. I've got a woman I've worked with forever, who I don't have time on this episode, but I'm going to share an entire episode on this particular woman's journey.

She was deeply, deeply entrenched in co-dependence. And now she's walking out of very empowered being truly. I'm going to share hers in detail. Another man Farhan, who is the developer out of Dubai, because of him going to find me on social media folks,

find my social media, look up projects mile, Farhan, because of a live stream I did, his organization put a well and a school in for one of my Uganda caregivers. Again, I'm going to devote an entire episode on Farhan,

but I want to leave you with one last story. So I've been going to the Kyurpractor since I was a kid, not a kid, 20s, 40 years. I married a woman who's uncle,

who's grandfather, was one of the first

Kyurpractor in South Carolina. So her uncle, Dr. Bowlin, was my Kyurpractor since 2003. Well, he passed his wife,

“sold the practice to a man named Dr. Cannon,”

and Dr. Cannon's been my Kyurpractor for a while. And this practice is probably, it's a good 30, 35 minutes, it's going to be 40 minutes with traffic. So unfortunately, I don't go as much as I want to,

because of the distance. But I go the other yesterday. He says, "It's you." I said, "Yeah, it's me." How are you?

I thought he was going to kind of get on me because I'm seeing him right.

You're not going to believe it, Joe.

You're not going to believe that he's a big. He's a big Australian. You're not going to believe it, Joe. You're not going to believe it. I was like, "What?"

He says, "I was in my car the other day, and my cars connected to podcasts. And I don't know where there was this beautiful podcast that came up. And the wording across it just drew me in.

I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that."

I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I said, "Well, I'm not going to do that." I came up and the wording across it just drew me in, Joe. It just drew me in.

And my podcast, "We," with the big letters and the exhibition was on his car. And he named it, I did a podcast. In fact, I don't see him there. And he said that I clicked on it.

I was just drawn in and I clicked on it. And I said, "I know that voice." And it was me. And lone behold, he said then later while we're talking. He said, "You were saying this and you were saying that."

And you were talking to me, Joe. I was the one you were talking to and come to find out. He's going through some death in his family. He's going through some personal challenges. He's waking up.

He's a big ol' burly guy, not accustomed to crying. He's accustomed to being a good dad and a wife. And he's got all these emotions coming up. So literally I have this beautiful, beautiful connect with a man who the wee podcast just showed up exactly when it's supposed to show up.

And why is that, folks? Because his divinity is connecting with whatever my divinity was saying at the time. Was it Joe? No. Nothing to do with Joe.

My divinity just showed up. And I look forward to because we're talking. And you could just tell he had a relief in his heart and a relief in his head.

“And I said, "You know, Dr. Cannon, you need to talk.”

You just call me. You know, I'm happy to listen." And he said, "You know, can I just give you a big hug? And I knew I'd better grip good because he's hard. She'd knocked the wind out of you."

And you know, we embraced. And my heart melted. It's truly dead. Because he's a living embodiment of why I do it. It's my way to get back.

And I feel good when I get back. And I want to make sure that I encourage and teach all of you how you can live the same place. I live. Living it is in the giving back. How do you find it?

How do you embrace it? Why do you want to do it? You want to do the healing. So all of the uncomfortable emotional experiences in your life can be in your past and study your future. We can really heal insecurities and fears and loneliness.

And as you embrace the depths of self, all the crazy voices go away.

“Your serenity happens when the voices are healed by embracing the reason you have them, which is emotion.”

And then as that little kid feels better and the little kid opens up, the emotional consequence of the child within you opening up, you're going to feel a love in your heart and everyone who is there. That love is your emotional communion with the power greater than yourself. It's literally living as the communion.

And then when you take that love and you share it out in the world, you go from living a life of gratitude to living a life of grace.

And as you're living your grace, you feel better. Can I define what your grace is? No. No. How do you know when you're doing it? Because you're going to feel it. You're going to feel the overflow.

“Why did Matt Damon could have anything in the planet he wanted?”

Why did he start water.org? Because it felt good for him to give back. I look forward to having him on the show someday.

There's a guy that had the capacity through his fame and his worldliness to raise a hundred million dollars.

My nonprofit, project smile, 250 bucks a month. But it makes a difference for these people. You might have twenty dollars.

“And you might not have any money, but you go to a hospital and hold kids.”

Are you working at an animal shelter? You give back somehow. Folks, it's in the giving back that you'll experience the grace. And as you experience the grace, you'll want to give back more. And together, we're healing together, we're making a difference.

And together, we're healing humanity. One smile at a time. And from around the world, I want to welcome you to we. So that's it for today's episode of The We Podcast. Head on over an Apple Podcast or wherever you listen and subscribe to the show.

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